the ice queen

Haven Joella Caldwell. Twenty three; old enough to know better but too young to care. I used to call Greenwich, Connecticut my home until I moved here. Before you ask, yes the hair is natural, and yes, the carpet matches the drapes, not that there's been much carpet there since I discovered waxing, but I figure it's best to let you know. I'm a sales associate at a sex shop, which wasn't what I planned on when I applied to Yale in hopes of majoring in business. If you want to be a stalker and know more about me, my ask box is right over there. Leave me something in it, I'll feel special. {Snowball} {The First Friend} {Shortstack} Wanker || Little Dick Brother || Ferriswheel aim: caldwellhaven

[havencaldwell]

This is the hardest thing I've ever had to say.

There was honestly a time when I never thought this letter would come from me. I guess you could say that this is goodbye. I came here hoping that I would get a clean slate and a fresh start, and I did. I came here not knowing who I was or who I wanted to be. I can say that I’m leaving with a sense of who I am, and I know exactly who I want to be when I’m out of here.  If I stay here any longer, I’m never going to have the proper chance to grow beyond this town. I’ll keep making excuses to stay, and I’ll never rip the band-aid off. So I’m going to do this now. I’m going to miss all of you guys. I won’t miss the drama or the fighting, but I’m going to miss the people. I guess this leads me to the special messages I need to give people.

Josh: I’m sorry. For what happened that night when I kicked you out. For not seeing what you told me the night of the truth serum before you actually said it. For leaving you like this and never giving you a proper goodbye. I have to do this, and I really hope you understand. Despite everything, I can say that you’re one of my best friends. It sucks to leave you, especially after how much fun we had on our date. It’s just better for me if I go.

Nathan: It’s been a rollercoaster ride. It’s been a huge rollercoaster ride and it’s finally come full circle. Thank you for the good times, and thanks for the bad. I learned from it, I grew from it. I only want the best for you, and I hope that everything goes exactly how you want it to. Who knows? Maybe we’ll see each other again someday.

Peeta: You just got here, and now I’m leaving you. I want you to know that it’s been really great talking to you and just getting to have a really good time. I haven’t done a lot of smiling in the past, but you certainly helped with making me smile more. I really hate leaving because you’ve been a great guy so far and I’m going to miss you.

Lady: I’m sorry for leaving you like this. I don’t want to, I don’t want to be another person that just walked out on you. But I hope you understand. I wish you all the best.

Drake: I don’t want to leave you either. I don’t want you to remember me as someone that just walked out when times got tough. I’m sorry. You’ve been such a big help to me, and an amazing friend. Take care of yourself,

I think I’ve covered everyone that I had special things to say to. Obviously I’m going to miss everyone. You guys have been my friends since I've gotten here and it's been a lot of fun. It's been one wild and crazy ride. Who knows? Maybe one day I'll see everyone again and we'll all catch up and laugh about the things that happened here. As for right now, I'm off to see if I can make something of myself outside of here. It hasn't been easy, but it's been a good experience. I'll catch you guys on the flipside. Don't get yourselves into too much trouble. 

Love,

Haven J. Caldwell

[havencaldwell]

Text: If we're talking about losing people, especially recently, trust me, I know.

[text] I know. I'm sorry, Drake. About everything that happened.

[havencaldwell]

Text: Hey, Haven?

[text] Hi Peeta!

[havencaldwell]

Text: You missed the Pokeparty... You okay?

[text] No.

[text] It's hard to lose your friends, Drake. It's tough.

[havencaldwell]

ferris-jameson replied to your post: It's cold in here and that doesn't make me happy.

I SAY BRR IT’S COLD IN HERE THERE MUST BE SOME TOROS IN THE ATMOSPHERE!

I -

[havencaldwell]

It's cold in here and that doesn't make me happy.

It's too cold for it to be considered normal.

[havencaldwell]

[Text] You're right, but still. Doesn't mean we were official. [Text] I never stopped considering you one of my friends, Haven. But friends shouldn't tell me how to feel about someone, and lately that's what I've been getting from some people and I don't need it.

[text] It might as well have been. 

[text] I'm upset because you're deferring to what I met when I first met you. It's like you don't feel anything and it's kind of freaking me out. I'm not telling you what to feel, I'm asking you to not shut me out. Because that's kind of what it feels like. 

[havencaldwell]

[Text] Who said anything about him being my boyfriend? [Text] And fine. Don't bring it up to me again, okay? You can talk about it to whoever the hell you want, but not to me.

[text] I'm not fucking stupid, Nathan. It was obvious to anyone that had a set of eyes that it wasn't just a friendship.

[text] I'm not sure when we stopped being friends, or when you decided to be colder than a freezer to me, but it is what it is, isn't it? 

[havencaldwell]

[Text] You were so interested before. What changed your mind, huh?

[text] The fact that I don't want to talk about it anymore. Okay? You lost your boyfriend, I lost one of my best friends. It sucks all the way around but you're right, we can't change it.

[havencaldwell]

[Text] Do you honestly want to know how I feel about James leaving?

[text] At this point, Nathan, I think it's best if we leave that topic alone.

[jasemedown-blog]

I WILL. I REALLY WILL.

Oh wait…wait…that worked?? Cool!

[havencaldwell]

You're going to be the best mockingjay ever.

Let's bake something and make out. Emphasis on the making out because you're cute. And that was a shameless statement.

[jasemedown-blog]

I’m so touched…nobody’s done anything like this for me before.

But yeah…wanna bake things and make out?

[havencaldwell]

You be that mockingjay, Jason. You can do it. Make me proud.

Let me think about this. Yes.

[havencaldwell]

Empty house = I get to walk around naked?

[jasemedown-blog]

Hot damn, thank you ma’am. I’m taking that as an offer.

[havencaldwell]

As you should.

[jasemedown-blog]

I can dig it.

In which case would you like to be Peeta now?

[havencaldwell]

I can't bake that good though. I'll try for you. I'll try so you can live your dreams of being Katniss.

[jasemedown-blog]

[havencaldwell]

That would have been a beautiful casting. I would have paid thousands to see you as Katniss.

[havencaldwell]

Empty house = I get to walk around naked?

[jasemedown-blog]

[havencaldwell]

You know, I wouldn't be opposed to either.

[havencaldwell]

emil-taylor replied to your post: Empty house = I get to walk around naked?

Is that a request or demand?