havent i given enough?

fuck everything i wanna be first i’m not depressed i don’t even have trauma i’m sorry i need validation because i can’t be happy i wish i was good enough

[haventigivenenoughh]

And maybe it’s my fault and I’m too impatient with him because she keeps trying and is much better ag this than I am. I have to assume she has more patience or at least more willingness to try because she lives here more and has no car or means to decide not too. I just don’t have the patience for this. I obviously love him it’s just not the same as it it ever was.

[haventigivenenoughh]

i wish i never gave a fuck about school

i’m in too deep and everyone expects so much

but no one expects more than me

[haventigivenenoughh]

i don’t wanna be me anymore

[haventigivenenoughh]

no matter how hard i try it doesn’t matter

no its for the better

know it’s for the better

[haventigivenenoughh]

no it’s for the better

[haventigivenenoughh]

it’s for the better

[haventigivenenoughh]

youre breathing in my

open mouth

youre the gun in my lips

that will blow my brains out

[haventigivenenoughh]

thank you for this blog because i genuinely feel better now

[haventigivenenoughh]

i know it’s for the better

[haventigivenenoughh]

you are sick and you’re married and you might be dying

but you’re holding me like water in your hands

when saw the dead little bird you started crying

but you know the killer doesn’t understand

[haventigivenenoughh]

this is cathartic

[haventigivenenoughh]

its not anyone’s fault but my own

[haventigivenenoughh]

im so jealous that i just hate myself

[haventigivenenoughh]

i understand everyone feels like this from time to time but i don’t understand how to deal with it

[haventigivenenoughh]

i really hate myself for how i am

[haventigivenenoughh]

im really trying

[haventigivenenoughh]

its been four years and i still feel like this