My therapist called and I told her I was good . Even though I’m not really sure I truly am.
My brother is having psychotic symptoms again . I didn’t allow myself to feel all day . And I hate that I’m slave to my emotions. I hate that I lie . I hate that I feel so deeply.
I’m good , inherently good, I care . Its a good thing.
I’m supposed to ground myself right now but my head is all over the place . I’m rewriting this cuz I deleted everything by mistake .
My aura is soothing, I love deeply, I also feel deeply . Its a good thing.
I took a shower and I cooked .
I talked to my mom , I love her.
I’m better than last year, its progress.
I can cry , I can feel bad , its okay , its okay .
I’m crying right now that’s good thing.
Today was bad but I did everything within my control and managed to stay on schedule for my finals.
People love me , my friends love me , my parents love me , I love myself even when I don’t.
I deserve to be loved I’m good.
I’ll feel tomorrow and the day after but I cannot control it. Its okay . I may feel good tomorrow insanely good but if I feel insanely low its okay too .
I do not have the control . And its okay . Its normal .
I’m okay I’m okay I’m okay I’ll be okay