#notes to self

[a-postcard-from-reality]

[filenesdebasement]

Tonsil stones r (increasingly) back! If still here when AQI not crazy then infection IS back and i do know what infection subjectively feels like in myself as primarily increased brain fog!!

[a-postcard-from-reality]

I really enjoy watching this lady's channel. She is very ballsy, in the sense that she gives anything a go. She builds things, grows food, makes her own clothes and even converted an old Landrover so she could camp in it. I started following her because she was renovating an old farm previously owned by her Grandmother, but I enjoy all the posts.

This particular video gives a great concept of making sketch/scrap books, it's almost like Tumblr in physical form.

If you have any creative side, or mental block in that regards, a lot of her videos I think are quite inspiring.

[thatchungleestyle]

[anicespaceforme]

Almost passed out today, water bottle and food in my bag, don’t let this happen again

[anicespaceforme]

Eventually we’re going to have to stop caring about legality

[filenesdebasement]

making Posts abt these things aids in memory and retention so. multiple times recently my boyfriend has said to me "oh i can do that" about some minor household task, and i have activated like a sleeper agent and started doing it myself to the point of like colliding with him because neither of us can stop actions mid-plan. and he will be like WHAT'S HAPPENING. whatever i'm doing is self-evident to me but makes no sense to him. anyway it seems that my family growing up trained me to hear "i can do that" as a passive-aggressive indication to Help that you have to say as a kind of ritual, akin to how people fight over who pays for the check.

(this is insane bc if you actually want to do something yourself in this kind of environment, you basically have to wait until no one is watching and tell no one)

[filenesdebasement]

wow i’m really sad about missing plans and not in the normal way where i’m like Haha I got out of it!, i actually think i would’ve felt better if i’d dragged myself awake 1.5 hrs earlier and managed to go. instructive.