PLAY ▶ [ 1988. An Ally of Justice pt 2. ]
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Amazing? The honest words ring dissonant in his mind, guilt seeping its claws into his chest. Hearing that from his formerly asocial friend jerks awareness into his thoughts, of how his heart seemed to beat loud-- he breaks his gaze away from Satoru’s, fixing his gaze at the edge where wall and staircase met. It’s almost too long a pause as he gathers his words. His hands curl in his pockets -
“There are other explanations for your change.”
Continuing on with his explanation, unfettered. Logic easily yielded itself to various explanations -- all in favor of Satoru’s innocence, of unchange.
“Satoru, you first came up with the rule of ‘not going to the secret base when there was snow.’ But you just said ‘let’s go there’. That’s because ‘you lost your gloves there’. You stopped talking with our local accent because you must’ve thought using a Tokyo accent was more mature and sounded persuasive. I do the same thing...”
Not that Hokkaido had its own charm, but when he wanted to be taken seriously -- and prove himself as an adult...
“But maybe that only works on kids.”
... Inconsistencies, and observations that clashed with each other. The familiarity that Satoru had, the ‘indifference’ and ‘shallowness’ that he’d observed-- it was all gone. In its place was intense focus and--
“When it came to the book I hadn’t lent you, you were so preoccupied with other things in your head, you couldn’t remember anything. You simply thought ‘if Kenya says so, I must have borrowed the book.’”
What was it like? To have a will that strong? To be so intensely focused on a goal, that all else faded away? Apathy lines his own posture, and he grits his teeth; it was in such stark contrast to Satoru’s will power and beliefs. The strength he sees now in Satoru-- he wonders where it had stemmed from.
“I asked other friends, too. Seems like no one else noticed it. I must be the only one in class who did notice it. It happened on that day when you started staring at Hinazuki all the time.... No.”
He was special, that way. He was more mature, more observant-- or so he liked to think. Long ago, he’d think it put him in a place of superiority, but now he realizes he wasn’t better than the rest.
And... maybe he wasn’t the only one so observant...
“Maybe she noticed, too.”
Hinazuki, the girl he’d thought he could leave alone-- that others would do something about--
“I knew ... about Hinazuki’s scars. That’s how I figured out your change...”