it's ironic isn't it? using pain to forget pain.

through the feelings and pain etched into my very cells, let me feel what you feel. Let me understand you.

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DO NOT SPAM LIKE THIS BLOG IF YOU ARE A STRANGER

hello ♡ we are the heartbeat system, pleased to meet you ! this is our system blog, please feel free to stick around!

we are a traumawillo plural system. we are also autistic ( plurality is our special interest ! ) and have other problems you get to discover on your own. our main other interests are alien stage ( current hyperfix + other stuff ) and mollusks ( other special interest ). we also like project sekai, dead poets society, milgram ( barely ), other things i am probably forgetting about.

our system theme comes from the project sekai event " reaching out towards an untieable tomorrow " if that interests anyone.

we run a bunch of gimmick blogs, however we did just move main blogs so i only log into them once a week to make sure they didnt explode. so im not listing them here.

pronouns.cc will be put here soon.

tag directory here

stamps by weblily, pearliprincess, koisuru-beam, futurefishy, transmascgarfield, kanadeautism, saltysstamps

dividers by strangergraphics and omi-resources

userboxes by genicpunk

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what do you mean i missed plural pride day.

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pluralspace block editor has my entire heart

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text centering <3 image alignment <3 captions for images <3 coloured text that isnt a link <3 im not even gonna use coloured text and im stil happy about it

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TABLES!! COLUMNS!!!

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and does this button say.....

GALLERY???

oh i must tell sua about this...

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pluralspace block editor has my entire heart

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text centering <3 image alignment <3 captions for images <3 coloured text that isnt a link <3 im not even gonna use coloured text and im stil happy about it

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TABLES!! COLUMNS!!!

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pluralspace block editor has my entire heart

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text centering <3 image alignment <3 captions for images <3 coloured text that isnt a link <3 im not even gonna use coloured text and im stil happy about it

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sad it will kill mazarines tradition of using the fact that sp turned links into text in your highlight colour to hide links to random stuff in their profile

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pluralspace block editor has my entire heart

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text centering <3 image alignment <3 captions for images <3 coloured text that isnt a link <3 im not even gonna use coloured text and im stil happy about it

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pluralspace block editor has my entire heart

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the fact that we can theoretically "control" our switches to an extent, like when we're calm and nothing is wrong we can just ask someone to show up and they do, but when we're actually upset and need the current fronter to get out and it doesnt wanna be there, then nooooo youre stuck there sorry

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i love my system i love this song mazarine downloaded because they love it that makes me happy too i love that everyone goes out of their way to save things for each other i love that we still have a shirt none of us wear because chloe might come back and wear it i love reading the notes mia left in her favourite book and i love everything that reminds me of them

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idk do you ever think about it. it sounds silly when i say it out-loud i think. you werent real before and now that you are you get to puppet around a corpse and watch a synopsis of your life on tv isnt that fun? isnt it worth it? and you just have to keep going. there are other people stuck in this thing with you and you cant kill them no matter how much you want to die. cover up your mirrors. try to do what you can to feel like yourself (itll never be enough). everyone says the only solution to this is to become someone else but you already tried that and it just made it worse. but its fine i can buy figures of my friends and put them on my shelf which basically makes up for it. bites down on my fingers so hard i break them in half.

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hey i was just expressing a bad feeling i was having. i tend to speak in second person because its the easiest way to word things for me but please dont let my worst thoughts into your head too

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hey um. sorry for saying all that. i didnt mean to upset so many people i was just talking about something i was feeling but i think i made a lot of people freaked out and upset and im sorry if i did that to you.

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anyway i feel like i should. idk lighten the mood. do you ever wonder why your favourite colour is your favourite

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love being a fictive but i also kind of hate it. like hey you werent real before. you are now though. and you have to deal with so much bullshit. you can never go back. you may never fully feel like yourself ever again. maybe you wont ever get over it. maybe you dont want to go back. maybe it would be worse but you still want to. maybe anything would be better than this. maybe you deserved it all, just because you said that. everybody knows you. nobody knows you at all. close your eyes. open them and look at photos of the place you were ripped away from. be thankful for the people who are stuck here with you. try not to think about the ones you left behind. and most importantly, do not ever talk about your identity with any degree of seriousness and never refer to yourself as yourself, or else.

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i hope i dont come off as condescending when i post here because i know i do so often 😭 i swear im not trying to

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sidenote btw a lot happens in agents and ive only seen the anime which i dont think covers everything. id recommend looking for a list of content warnings from someone who's read everything

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ok wait have any of you read/watched agents of the four seasons

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looking at the notes of some of our posts makes me so mad why is everyone so mean to fictives