chi 🎧

poetry, quotes //🕯

[heartsforchi]

“i am not a whole person and i don’t think i ever will be. parts of me died in the house i grew up in and i visit them in my dreams.”

[heartsforchi]

“i want to leave, to go somewhere i should really be in my place, where i would fit in — but my place is nowhere. i an unwanted.”

- jean-paul sartre, nausea

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“i often stood in front of the mirror alone, wondering how ugly a person could get.”

- charles bukowski

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“something in me wants more. i cant rest.”

- sylvia plath, the unabridged journals of sylvia plath

[heartsforchi]

“people empty me. i have to get away to refill.”

- charles bukowski

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“why are you sad?” “because you speak to me in words, and i look at you with feelings.”

- leo tolstoy

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“i think that the world should just be full of cats and full of rain, that’s all, just cats and rain, rain and cats. very nice, good night.”

- charles bukowski

[heartsforchi]

“… i wonder if i’ll ever find a language to speak of the things that haunt me the most.”

- bao phi, from vocabulary / thousand star hotel

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“i think too deeply about everything. i don’t know if that allows me to see more of the world, or less of it.”

- mobeen hakeem

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“but do you understand, sir, do you understand what it means when you have absolutely nowhere to turn?”

- fyodor dostoevsky, crime and punishment

[heartsforchi]

“it wasn’t my day. my week. my month. my year. my life. god damn it.”

- charles bukowski

[heartsforchi]

“such a waste of a girl, such a rumination. i am obsessive. i contain nothing but the replay.”

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“lately i’ve been drowning. hopelessly choking for air. i sob like a little child.

i will rot in this room forever. i have never been beautiful.”

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“i don’t care if it hurts i wanna have control i want a perfect body i want a perfect soul.”

- creep / radiohead

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“sometimes suffering is just suffering. it doesn’t make you stronger. it doesn’t build character. it only hurts.”

- kate jacobs / comfort food

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“you like to act like you care about nothing, and if you carry on like that then your going to drown in the abyss you’ve imagined for yourself.”

- alice oseman

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“im so unwhole. i don’t know where all the pieces of me are, how to fit them together, how to make them stick. or if i even can.”

- girl in pieces