Levi’s Waifu @heatherackerman - Tumblr Blog

Also definitely love being romantic and cute with someone. It makes me feel… good 😌

Love this age for me. Such a good fucking age

My therapist once told me, “You are the guiltiest feeling person I’ve ever met” and just to prove her right, I took it to heart. An astrologer said, “You have so much water in your chart. What is it like to feel the emotions of every single person alive, everyday?” and I wept because I sensed he was displeased. A teacher told my parents “She’s very sensitive. Far more than the other kids in her class.” I took my SATs at 9 years old, but they encouraged my mother to hold me back because of how my eyes glistened when I heard the word no. She told them to go to hell. So I cried my way through my education until high school when they said “You take everything so personally, you’ll never survive in a company environment. You wouldn’t make a good employee.” So I employed myself (out of spite or…necessity) and then later, I hired 200 people. A boyfriend told me “Don’t be so dramatic, everything isn’t a movie.” Fine, so it’ll be an album then. The doctor said “This shouldn’t hurt a bit.” I tread daily on a minefield that leaves me classifying the variations in footsteps, the tonality in voice, a change in breath. “Is everything okay? You seem mad” is my pledge of allegiance to this tightly wound bundle of flesh. I am cut open, butterflied and flayed, with every single nerve exposed like live wires and, yes, they all hurt to touch. Each interaction is a litmus test of how well liked I am, and therefore how worthy to live. I wake up every morning and the moral barometer resets, T-minus 12 hours to prove to myself that I am not the bad person I believe I must be. Sleep, repeat. An amnesiac nightmare. Prometheus on a rock and the gull in my guts is myself. I once envied those with greater armor, but not anymore. “Why do you care so much?” Guard yourself from the little grievances, but the shield does not differentiate. The space where I am vulnerable to the pain that passes through is an entry point for the microscopic good that others may miss. I live in technicolor torment. If I could do it over again and choose the comfortable grey, I would seize a knife and cut the little keyholes back into my every limb. So the light can get in.

I thought I was gonna get a S.D. buuuuuutttttt maybe not bc he wants to be a cuck 🥲

How do I approach this???

#he’s so hot though I’m fucking dying #finally 25 #screaming into the void

I’m catching feelings y’all

#help #well who am I I’m almost 25

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“Maybe you’re a lot more wonderful, beautiful and special than you ever give yourself credit for.”

— Unknown

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“I don’t want you to save me. I want you to stand by my side as I save myself.”

— Unknown

#never wanted saving I just wanted to be found

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idk who needs to hear this but you deserve to love yourself,, you deserve peace of mind and every good thing. take care of yourself, you’re doing the best you can and that is enough

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June will be filled with hope.

June will be filled with love.

June will be filled with trust.

June will be filled with peace.

June will be filled with positivity.

June will be filled with healthier connections.

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“You don’t deserve to be in my thoughts anymore.”

— dickscratch

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“Whatever comes, let it come. What stays, let it stay. What goes, let it go.”

— Unknown

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“Life is a funny thing. We only get so many years to live it, so we have to do everything we can to make sure those years are as full as they can be. We shouldn’t waste time on things that might happen someday, or maybe even never.”

— Colleen Hoover, It Ends with Us