certified enha yapper questionable taste. here to read something. anything, tbh. occasionally losing my mind over a certain lee. proceed with caution. â ď¸
IN WHICH... you're having the worst day of your life trying to get to work, when a blonde guy who seems to be invisible drags you into his sentient car. What's the worst that can happen?
WC: 5.4k
Content/Warnings: Comedy (I tried), Transformers-inspired (the car is basically Bumblebee), Action/Adventure, Fluff, Angst, Flirting, Kissing, Twist Ending
Playlist: Limbo - Keshi, The Sound of Music - Julie Andrews, U Can't Touch This - M.C. Hammer, Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars, Lonely Eyes - Lauv, Shake it Off - Taylor Swift, I Feel Good - James Brown, hate that i made you love me - Ariana Grande, Hooked on a Feeling - Blue Swede, I Think I Love You - David Cassidy
Ari's Note: I loved the storytelling of the "Ride Or Die" MV and just HAD to build a narrative around it, so here we are. I wanted it to be light and funny, but then I got in my feels and watched the Evan documentary, which gave me a lot of confidence for this story. I'm so incredibly proud of everything he's accomplished and have complete respect for his decision. This is for him <3
âShit!â
You cursed as your hand slammed against someoneâs chest, knocking your fresh cup of coffee (handed to you not 20 seconds earlier) onto your shirt. Thankfully, youâd opted for iced coffee, so it was only the massive brown stain dripping down your red blouse that you had to worry about.Â
âSorry!â The man whoâd slammed into you hurried past, barely sparing you a glance as he ran straight towards the hallway leading to the bathroom.Â
You stared after him, speechless, the liquid dripping from your shirt and onto the floor. You were already running late for work because youâd been up late the night before trying to beat a deadline, and now this? If your boss wasnât on the verge of firing you before, he would be after today.Â
A few people stared at you as you hobbled to the napkin dispenser, watching as you clutched your purse to the side of the stain, their eyes darting and pitiful. No one moved to help, no one seemed to care. God, you hated people sometimes. You wished you lived in the wilderness where the only sounds were the birds and the wind. Or better yet, you wished you were invisible, free to walk around without the feeling of judging eyes tingling the hairs on the back of your neck.
A woman came up behind you and grabbed some napkins for herself, glaring at you when a bit of coffee dripped from your shirt and onto her shoe.Â
Yup, being invisible sounded much better.
When you were relatively dry, a bundle of dirty napkins gripped between your fingers, you glumly turned towards the front of the cafe, seriously considering just calling in sick for the day. The time it would take you to drive home and change would put you at least another hour behind anyway.
You pulled your blazer closed over the stain as you walked down the street, eyeing the shops for a clothing store or even a laundromat.Â
You were slowing to peer into the window of some small vintage store, trying to see if they had clothes, when a man burst onto the sidewalk a few doors down, his shoulders tense and his hands shoved into his pockets as he walked toward you.Â
His hair was bright blonde, contrasting starkly with his white-and-black jacket and washed-blue jeans. He had a dark red gash on his cheek against smooth tan skin, creating a harsh effect with his soft features.Â
But what made you stop and stare was his eyes. They were impossibly wide and completely terrified. He looked like a deer in headlights, dazed and unsteady as his feet hit the concrete. He mostly kept his head down, only looking up to watch where he was going, but when his eyes flicked up to yours, he froze.Â
Like, actually froze. He stopped dead in his tracks, staring at you and blinking like he thought he was hallucinating. He tilted his head, his blonde hair falling over his eyes.Â
You frowned. First, people barely looked at you, and now they stared at you like you were an alien?
You awkwardly lifted your hand and waved.
Impossibly, his eyes widened even more. He approached you slowly, like you were a skittish animal that would run if he moved too fast.Â
âCan you see me?âÂ
His voice was hesitant, so quiet you could barely hear him.
âUm, yeah? Hi?â
He let out a relieved laugh, the disbelief on his face turning into unbridled joy. âYou can hear me?â
You nodded slowly, starting to wonder if you should call the police. âYes, I can hear youâŚâ
He laughed again, running his hands through his hair. âOh my god, Iâm not alone.â
Now you were really starting to get concerned. âAre you ok, sir? Do you need me to call someone?â
He shook his head, walking up to you and taking your hands. âNo, no, thereâs no one else, only you.â
You stared at him, realizing with horror that your bad luck had just brought you a literal insane person to deal with. There was no way you were going to work today.Â
âWhatâs your name?â He asked, hands still holding yours. âHave we met before?â
You were seconds away from screaming for help when the worker in the vintage store you were still standing in front of walked outside. She stared at you with a guarded expression. âAre you ok, maâam?â She glanced at your outstretched hands, looking blankly at the space where the man was standing.
âDo you not see him?â
Her eyes narrowed. âSee who?â
You looked at the blonde man who was staring at you sheepishly, eyes darting between you and the worker.
Oh my god, you had completely lost it. The caffeine had finally caught up with you, and you were experiencing some sort of mental break that somehow resulted in the hallucination of a hot stranger.Â
You looked at the employee, putting on your most convincing smile. âIâm ok, thank you!â And with that, you slipped your hands out of the man's grasp and walked the other way.Â
âWait!â He fell into step beside you, trying to catch your eye. âPlease talk to me, youâre the only one whoâs been able to see me.â
âNope, youâre not real.â You said, keeping your eyes forward. âYou are a figment of my imagination brought on by my stress and frustration with the world.â
âCan a figment of your imagination touch you?â He grabbed your hand again, his skin very warm, and very real against your palm.Â
You jumped, pulling your hand away. You met his eyes, taking in the firm set of determination on his face. If he were a product of your mind, it was sure doing a hell of a job. You could make out subtle flecks of gold in his eyes, the darkness in his roots, a slight cut on his pink lips.Â
You wished your brain could put this much energy into organizing spreadsheets.Â
âIf youâre real, why canât anyone see you?â You hissed.
He looked down, his expression suddenly sad. âI donât know, I woke up in the middle of the street covered in broken glass. I donât remember how I got there or anything really.â
You stared at him for a second, debating how much you were going to entertain this. You thought about your brand new couch at home, cozy and inviting. It would be so easy to walk awayâŚbut he looked so sadâso desperate. Finally, you sighed. âDo you have a name?â
A small smile curved on his lips. âEvan.â
âOk, Evan, you asked if we met earlier, but I donât think Iâve ever seen you before.â
He tilted his head, studying your face.
You resisted the urge to look away. His eyes ran over you with nothing but curiosity and eagernessâlike you were the key to a puzzle heâd been trying to solve for hoursâthe complete opposite of the pity of the people in the cafe that morning. You felt a rush of heat in your face as his eyes dipped down to the stain on your shirt.
âWhat happened?â He asked.
You pulled your blazer tighter. âNothing, just an accident.â You finally noticed a few people giving you odd looks as they passed, eyes glazing over the spot where Evan stood in front of you.
Maybe this was all a bad dream, and tomorrow, you would wake up on time, with a clean red shirt folded neatly at the foot of your bed. Maybe a rude asshole wouldnât crash into your coffee, and you would walk to work without an invisible stranger stumbling into your path.
But you were still standing on a busy street, and people were still giving you dirty looks, and Evan was still looking at you like he was trying to remember your name.
Finally, he sighed, scratching the back of his head. âI donât think Iâve met you before either. I guess that rules out the long-lost friend explanation.â
You raised your eyebrows. âThat was the theory you were going with?â
He shrugged, âThere are worse ones.â
âLike what?â
âWell, I really hope Iâm notâin factâa figment of your imagination.â
âSo it is a possibility!â
He laughed. âNo, Iâm just messing with you; Iâm definitely real.â
You crossed your arms. âI donât believe you.â
Evan was opening his mouth to speak when the squealing of brakes sounded from the road.
He whipped around, and you watched with wide eyes as a car stopped across from you on the curb. It was orange and white, and the paint was faded and old. It looked like a car straight out of the 80s. The door opened, and inside wasâŚno one. There was no driver. It just sat there, beckoning like a street vendor.
Evan grabbed your hand and started walking, pulling you with him.
âWhat are you-â
âIgnore it; it keeps following me.â
You stumbled after him. âBut it has no driver.â
And then, right before your eyes, the car moved. It drove forward like it was tied to Evanâs feet, keeping his pace as he moved briskly down the sidewalk.
Then, you noticed that other people were noticing too.
They stared at the car, bewildered, squinting through the windows to find the source of its movement. People on the street got out of the way, their attention turning to you, since without Evan visible, it looked like it was following your every step.
âOh my god, they see the car, and the car sees you!â
Evan grimaced, his grip on your hand tightening.Â
People began to shout, pointing at you and the car.
âHowâd you make it do that?â
âYou put a demon in the car, lady?â
âWhere can I get one?â
âEvan.â You said, a flicker of panic moving through your gut. âI think we should get in.â
âWhat?â He said, not slowing down.
People began to walk towards you; a few pulled out their phones.
âWe need to get out of here.âÂ
âIâm walking, arenât I?â
âItâs not enough!â You lowered your voice, a hint of desperation finding its way into your voice. âIâm not invisible like you.â
At that, he slowed, as if he finally realized that he was putting you in danger. He looked around, letting out a breath when he saw the crowd of people gathering around the car.
âOk, fine, letâs go.â He put his hand on the small of your back and pushed you in front of him towards the open car door.Â
You quickly climbed inside and shifted over to the passenger seat, yelping as a man tried to grab your arm. Evan pushed the guy's arm away, and you only briefly caught the confused look that clouded his features at the invisible force before Evan slid into the driverâs seat and slammed the door behind him.
You didnât even have a second to breathe before the car moved, surging backwards and forcing the crowd out of the way.Â
âOh, God.â You braced yourself against the dashboard, looking out the window at the passing faces.
Evan pushed at the car door, trying to force it open. But the lock wouldnât budge. The radio started playing a song youâd never heard, the sound blending with the angry shouts outside.Â
When it got to the end of the road, the car shifted into drive and suddenly swerved.
You werenât wearing a seatbelt, so you were practically flung into Evanâs side. You gripped his arm, holding on for dear life as the car finished its turn and landed facing forward.Â
Both of you breathed heavily, Evan holding the wheel and you still clutching his arm, staring out the windshield with wide eyes.Â
âAre you ok?â He asked.Â
He looked down at you, your faces only inches apart.
You nodded, eyes flicking to the gash on his cheek, suddenly hating seeing his annoyingly pretty face tarnished. You cleared your throat and forced your fingers to let go of his arm, slowly leaning back in your seat.
âWell, that was fun.â You said.
He snorted. âReally?â
âNot at all.â
The car started moving, this time at a normal speed, and in a straight line.
âI guess weâre stuck.â He said, studying the old-school orange display screen that showed nothing except the time and the name of the song playing: Ride or Die
You tried to open your door, frowning when the lock stayed in place. âI guess so.â
âWhere do you think itâs taking us?â He said.
You crossed your arms, staring out the window. âAt this point, Iâm up for anything. Iâm in a magic car with an invisible man, so I donât think anything can surprise me anymore.â
Evan chuckled, âSo you believe me now?â
You bit your bottom lip, glancing over the black leather seats and booming speakers in the door. The car was as real as anything, and the confused mob of people proved that. Plus, besides you, the car was the only thing that seemed to acknowledge Evan. To some extent, he was real; you just didnât know where you fit into it all.
âI believeâŚthat Iâm not making you up, but I still donât see an explanation for what happened to you.â
He leaned his head against the headrest. âMe neither.â
Silence settled between you, oddly comfortable, with the carâs music beating softly through the speakers. The road wound in front of you, stretching towards an unknown destination.
âWhatâs it like being invisible?â You asked, thinking back to that morning.
âTerrible.â He said, âItâs lonely.â
âBut isnât it nice not to have to deal with people?â You glanced down at your stained shirt.
âMaybe sometimes, butâŚI like people,â he smiled softly, âpeople need each other to feel things.â
âThese days they mostly just make me feel shitty.â You muttered.
Suddenly, the radio burst into song, this time one you knew: Limbo
âIâve just been goinâ through motions, back and forth like a ocean
I am a fraud, I am the shit, hoping that nobody notice.â
You smiled. âSee, the car gets it.â
âThat sounds more like a you problem than a people problem,â Evan smirked.
You lightly hit his arm, âHey! Itâs people who created this soul-draining system. Everyoneâs lives revolve around work this, work that, itâs exhausting.â
âBut people made a lot of other great things,â he glanced at the radio, âlike music.â
âThe hills are alive with the sound of music
With songs they have sung
For a thousand years.â
Evan smiled. âThank you, car.â
You giggled. âI think your car can hear us.â
âItâs not mine.â He said.
âThen whose is it?â
He shrugged. âMaybe no one; I told you I donât remember anything.â
âYou really know nothing but your name?â
He shook his head.
More silence.
You felt his eyes on you, but you didnât turn away from the window, weirdly enjoying the feel of his attention.
âYou know I never got your name,â Evan said.
âItâs y/n.â
He smiled, ây/n.â He said it like it was his new favorite word, slow and steady. You decided you liked the way it sounded on his lips.
âDo you want my jacket? It will cover the stain better.â
You looked down at your blazer that barely reached over your chest, doing little to hide the top of the brown mark. You hated looking at it; it made you feel dirty, pathetic.
Before you could respond, Evan was already shedding his jacket, slipping it off his shoulders, and pressing the heavy material into your lap. âHere.â
You shot him a tight smile, âThanks.âÂ
You tossed your blazer into the backseat and pulled Evanâs on, laughing softly when it swallowed you completely.
He laughed too. âItâs perfect.â
âItâs huge.â
âItâs cute.â
You looked down at your lap, feeling a blush on your cheeks that you prayed wasnât too visible. You glanced at him, focusing back on his cheek gash.
âYou should get that looked at.â
ây/n, no one can see me, remember?â
You bit your lip. âOh yeah.â You turned the words over in your mouth before you said them. âI could at least clean it up.â
You could tell he was fighting back a smile as he looked at your nervous expression. âIs someone worried about me?â
You rolled your eyes. âYes, I happen to have the ability to show concern for others. Now, can I look at it or not?â
âWhat are your credentials?â
âEvan.â
âWhat? How do you think I stay pretty? I canât have just anyone touching this face.â
You were both grinning at each other, a comfortable energy humming in the carâs interior as the chaos of the day faded until there was just you and him. Two people driving down the road as music colored the passing scenery.
The radio boomed to life, blaring another familiar song:
âYou canât touch this
You canât touch this.â
Evan laughed. âOk, ok, fine, you can look.â He leaned on the center console, offering up his right cheek, the red mark bright against his tan skin.
You shifted in your seat so you were facing him, and slowly brought your hand to his cheek, leaning over to study the cut. It looked like two main gashes, long but not too deep. It needed to be cleaned, but you decidedâin your not-so-professional opinionâthat he probably didnât need stitches.Â
You opened the glove box, trying to find a tissue or a bottle of water, or anything. And just like the car had read your mind, you spotted a small package of disinfectant wipes shoved into the back like an afterthought.
You grabbed it and smiled. âI think Iâm starting to like this car.â
In response, you felt the engine rev, boosting the car forward a little faster.
âI think it likes you too,â Evan said, still leaning towards you.
You took out a wipe and turned back towards him, softly brushing it over the cut.
He grimaced slightly.
âSorry, almost done.â
He smiled softly, staring at your focused expression. âItâs ok, take your time.â
You cleaned away every spot of blood and dirt around the cut until only the pale pink of the wound remained. Your fingers brushed his cheek as you went, and you marveled at how soft it was.
Every time you glanced at his eyes, you found him looking back at you, studying the way you pursed your lips and furrowed your eyebrows. You felt your cheeks getting red, the tension in the air shifting just slightly.Â
âOh, her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like theyâre not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying
Sheâs so beautiful
And I tell her every dayâ
You snorted, a laugh stumbling from your lips as Bruno Mars rang out through the car. You pulled the wipe away, deciding it was clean enough.
Evan chuckled, looking down at his arm resting on the console, but not moving away.
You put the wipes back in the glovebox. âI think the car wants to be your wingman.â
âMaybe. Is it working?â
You bit your lip. âDo you want it to?â
He still hadnât moved away from the center console, his upper body leaning into your space. You watched his eyes flick to your lips. âI wouldnât object.â
âI guess Iâm kind of your only option.â
âThatâs not why.â
You tilted your head, playing with the ends of his jacket's sleeves. âThen why?â
Finally, he moved back into his seat, and you realized with a pang that you liked it when he was close. But he kept his body facing towards you, and leaned his head against the headrest, a soft smile on his lips. âBecause you care, in a stubborn way.â
âIâm sure a lot of people would have helped you.â
âMaybe, but you did it even though you didnât want to.â
âI never said I didnât want to.â
âYou tried walking away from me.â He said. âYou said I was a hallucination or something.â
Despite yourself, you laughed. âI feel like it was a reasonable reaction.â
He smiled. âI donât blame you; Iâm just glad you changed your mind. You made me feel seen, and thatâs quite the feat for someone invisible.â
You stared at him for a second. Outside, the sun was bright, and it shone on his blonde hair, making it glow. He looked like an angel, and you wondered for a second if thatâs what he was. An angel meant just for you.
âI feel invisible too sometimes; maybe thatâs why I can see you. Maybe itâs not a problem with you, but a problem with the world.â
He raised his eyebrows. âSo, only sad, lonely people can see me? That seems depressing.â
âHey!â You shoved him for the second time that day, and this time, when your hand touched his bare arm, it felt familiar, like youâd done it hundreds of times and would do it hundreds more. âIâm not lonely.â
He smirked. âDo you live alone?â
âYesâŚâ
âDo you have a boyfriend?â
âNoâŚâ
He laughed, ducking his head and holding his hand over his face.
You groaned. âJust because Iâm not in a relationship doesnât mean Iâm lonely. I bet youâre single.â
He gasped with fake offense. âMe? Never, all the ladies love me.â
âI bet thatâs why youâre invisible. Got so much attention, the universe decided you needed a break for a while.â
âFrom everyone except you, apparently,â Evan said, his voice soft.
âYeah, I wonder why.â
The radio blared again.
âI donât mean to be rude
Thereâs things in myself that I see in you
Lonely eyes
She had those lonely eyes
I only know âcause I have them tooâ
âOk, car, I think we get it.â You said.
A loud squealing noise sounded from the road as the car accelerated.
Evan cursed, and he gripped the wheel as his body was pushed back against the seat. The car swerved down a side street, the walls almost scraping against the faded paint; it was so narrow. âI think you made it angry!â
You grabbed the handle above your window. âI didnât think it was so sensitive!â
The engine revved again, jerking forward and making you yelp as you almost fell out of your seat.Â
âApologize!â Evan said.
âYou want me to apologize to a car?â
âItâs either that or we die!â
âI think thatâs a little dramati-â
The car instantly picked up speed, blurring down the street and rapidly approaching what you realized with horrorâwas a waterfront.
ây/n!â Evan shouted.
You groaned. âOk fine! Iâm sorry, car!â
The machine made a sound like a purr and immediately slowed down, the blur of the concrete fading into the details of cracked pavement and trampled mud.
The two of you slumped back in your seats, panting heavily as the wave of panic receded into muted shock. A new song started playing on the radio:
âBaby, Iâm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off (whoo-hoo-hoo).â
âWell thatâs easy for you to say, youâre a car.â You said, still gripping the handle, your heart rate finally slowing. âBut Iâm sorry, you can keep playing yourâŚmusic.â
âWow! I feel good
I knew that I would now
I feel good
I knew that I would now.â
You giggled. âIâll assume that means my apology is accepted.â You looked over at Evan and found him staring at you, a distant look in his eyes.Â
âWhat?â You said.
He shook his head, smiling slightly. âNothing.â
For a while, you sat in silenceâbut not the strained kindâit was comfortable. Just two people enjoying each otherâs company as the car pulled onto the main road alongside the water, the sun twinkling over the sparkling blue as quiet music played in the background. The engine was a comforting hum under your seat, and you felt the stress in your body melting away with every mile.Â
Across from you, Evan gently tapped his finger on the steering wheel, occasionally singing softly to the lyrics in the background. His voice was beautiful and slightly haunting, and you found yourself smiling at the way it lilted and harmonized, the sound creating a bloom of warmth in your chest.Â
At one point, you glanced at him, watching the way his brows furrowed as he sang and the way his lips curled up in a subtle smirk.Â
He was beautiful.
You leaned your head against your window, and a few minutes later you were dozing off, fighting to keep your eyes open as Evanâs soft voice lulled you into sleep.
But then the car stopped.
Evan went silent.
You looked up, cocking your head when you saw that you were parked on the side of the road, pulled up so the front wheels of the car were perched on the edge of a beach, looking out into the sky, which showed the beginning of a colorful sunsetâswirls of pink and orange dotting the sky.Â
âWhere are we?â You asked.
âNot sure,â Evan said. âCar?â
This time, the radio was silent.
You tried the door and let out a small gasp when it actually opened. You got out and stretched, groaning as your sore muscles ached in pleasure.
Evan followed you, getting out and leaning against the hood of the car as he looked up at the sky.
âNot a bad spot.â You said.
He nodded. âNot at all.â
âSo is there like buried treasure here orâŚâ
Evan laughed. âGo ahead, you dig, Iâll watch.â
âAbsolutely not, getting on my hands and knees like a dog? Iâm a lady, you know.â
He smirked. âThe view wouldnât be too bad.â
You gasped, putting your hand over your mouth as a wave of heat crept up your neck. âEvan!â
âWhat? Iâm being honest.â
You glared at him, wrapping his large jacket even tighter over your chest. âNow is not the time for flirting.â
âItâs always the time for flirting.â
You bit back a smile. âI hate you.â
Evan propped his chin on the top of the car, staring at you with his big doe eyes. âNo, you donâtâ
âI canât tell you why
But something inside is dancing with fire
Eyes lit like the sky, turned tears into diamonds
Got good at goodbyesâŚâ
The radio spurred to life, the melody dancing on the breeze as you stared at each other. You held your breath, and he searched your face, tracing every curve and line as if he was trying to memorize it.
âYou knowâŚI think I remembered something.â He whispered, barely audible above the music.
âWhat?â
âItâs a name. Heeseung.â
You leaned against the other side of the car, mimicking the way he rested his chin on his arms. âWhose is it?â
âI think mine; it feelsâŚfamiliar.â
âDo you like it?â
He was silent for a moment. He stared at his hands, then at the sky, then at you. âDo you?â
You shrugged. âItâs not up to me, butâŚI like both. Evan feels gentle and kind, while Heeseung feelsâŚwarm, like home.â
He tapped his fingers against the car, nodding thoughtfully. âYou know, Iâm really happy I ran into you.â
You bit back another smile. âYeah, Itâs been fun.â
âI canât stop this feeling
Deep inside of me
Girl, you just donât realize
What you do to me.â
Evan laughed. âIâm also starting to really like this car.â
You groaned, burying your head in your hands. âThis car is gonna be the death of me.â
âHey, ride or die, baby.â Evan climbed onto the hood of the car, leaning back and propping his head against the windshield. He patted the spot beside him, his figure outlined by the burning orange tint of the sky. âCome on, maybe weâre just supposed to enjoy the view.â
You hoisted yourself onto the car, shifting until your back rested in the space next to him. The sky stretched out in an endless haze of color, and you sighed softly, the events from that morning almost completely forgotten.
âHooked On A Feelingâ continued playing in the background, a soundtrack to the moment defined by lapping waves and Evanâs breaths beside you. You pulled his jacket over you as a cold breeze raced past you, making your skin prickle. You glanced over at him in his white T-shirt. âAre you cold?â
He shook his head. âNo, ever since I met you Iâve felt warm.â
You looked down at your feet stretched out across the hood, a twinge of guilt flaring in your chest. âEvanâŚâ
âDonât.â He whispered. âI know this canât last forever, butâŚwould you stay with me? Just for a little while.â He slowly reached for your hand.
You held your breath, but didnât pull away.
Just like he said, his skin was warm against your hand, and his fingers wrapped around yours with incredible tenderness. He was closer, his hip almost pressed against yours, his face hovering only inches away. Your heart was beating out of your chest, and you had to force yourself to meet his eyes.
âWith you, I donât feel like a stranger in my own body. I feel real, like anything but a memory.â
You squeezed his hand. âOf course youâre real. Youâre Evan.â
He smiled sadly. âIf a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?â
âBut I can hear you.â You cupped his cheek, your voice breaking. âI can feel you.â
He leaned into your touch, his face softening. âAnd what happens when you leave?â He whispered. âOnly you can see me. Your eyes only.â
âThen I wonât leave. You can come home with me. Iâll give you a place to stay, Iâll-â
Evan chuckled. âI canât have you dropping everything for a ghost. You have such a bright future ahead of you.â
You felt a tear slip down your cheek, overwhelmed with the sudden realization that this dayâthis perfect dayâthat healed something inside you you didnât know was broken, needed to end. The sky had shifted into a bright pink, making his skin glisten underneath your hand. âBut youâre the brightest thing Iâve ever seen.â
He stared at you in wonder, and his hand rested over yours on his cheek, rubbing soothing circles on your knuckles. He gulped, his Adamâs apple bobbing, and you realized he was trying not to cry. âItâs gonna be alright.â
In one heartstopping moment, he leaned forward, and time seemed to slow when his lips touched yours.Â
He hooked his fingers around your neck and pulled you closer, kissing you with the hesitancy of the first and the passion of the last, his lips moving against yours with tragic urgency.Â
You made a sound against his mouth, your hand on his cheek moving to tangle in his blonde hair, holding him like you were scared he would disappear.Â
His other hand found your waist under his large jacket, pulling you towards him so one of your legs was thrown over his lap.Â
You smiled against his lips, and he smiled back, pulling back to trail kisses down your jaw and to your neck, his tongue swirling in maddening circles over your nape.
The heat between your legs was growing, and you were halfway through ripping off the heavy leather jacket when the car hummed to life under you.
âIâm sleeping
And right in the middle of a good dream
Like all at once I wake up
From something that keeps knocking on my brain
Before I go insane, I hold my pillow to my head
And spring up in my bed
Screaming out the words I dread
âI think I love you.â
You paused, staring at Evan, a smile creeping onto your face before you burst out laughing. He laughed too, grabbing your waist and pulling you on top of him, tucking you into his chest until his chin rested on your head.Â
âRemember me, ok?â He whispered, kissing the top of your head.
You opened your mouth. âI-â
Heeseung bolted up in his bed, taking deep, gulping breaths. He grabbed the glass of water on his bedside table and downed the whole thing, mind racing with bright colors and soft lips.Â
He sat there until his breathing slowed, trying to hold on to the images floating in his head, so real he felt vaguely lost sitting in his dorm room.Â
He grabbed his notebook and furiously started writing things downâeverything he could remember: a car that can drive itself, crowds of people swarming him, the panic of being invisibleâŚ
Then he hit a wall.
Heeseung remembered lipsâheat, skin, hairâbut no face. There was a person; he was missing something, someone.Â
He groaned, searching his brain for a name, something that carried the same warmth of the body under his hands and the voice he couldnât quite remember anymore.
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Synopsis: Riki is the kind of boy who can make anyone blush - confident, charming and effortlessly teasing. You swear youâre immune to your partner, but he seems determined to prove you wrong. Every training session, every shared joke, every lingering touch feels like a challenge heâs winning. But beneath the playful flirting, Riki is hiding real feelings heâs too scared to admit. When someone else starts showing interest in you, Rikiâs facade cracks. Suddenly the smooth flirt becomes the boy whoâs terrified of losing you. And when he finally confesses, itâs not with a smirk - itâs with a trembling voice and eyes full of hope.
Warnings: inappropriate language (cursing), explicit mature content - smut (MDNI), fingering (f receiving), oral sex (f receiving), slight angst and mentions of jealousy and possessiveness
Mishiâs Thoughts: My final fic for the Starboy series is here! And Iâve hit 100 followers, this is truly an amazing moment to commemorate! I want to thank each and every one of you for supporting my work in whatever small but vital way it may have been. From the moment I opened this account to now, I am immensely grateful! Thank you all so so much!! I hope you will enjoy this one as well for Riki, I canât deny that I didnât have lots of fun writing this series. Each and every one of your likes, comments and reblogs mean the world to me seriously! I canât thank you all enough!! Gentle reminder that nothing in this fic, good or bad, is to be associated with any person in real life as this is a work of complete fiction. Taglist is still open for future work that anyone is interested in seeing upon posting! And once more your feedback and interactions mean the world to me! Enjoy!
AISAâs lounge has been unusually quiet since your latest mission with Riki, the low hum of the ventilation system filling the space as you reviewed the post-operation notes on your tablet.
Riki was already sprawled across the couch beside you - his long legs taking up more than enough space, looking far too relaxed for someone who had nearly face-planted during the assignments, his arms tucked behind his head.
He nudged your knee lightly with his foot, bothering you.
âSo,â he started, deep voice carrying that familiar teasing warmth, âon a scale of one to ten, how impressed were you by my heroic performance today?â
You didnât look up, âIf you mean when you slipped on the gravel and accidentally tackled the target, Iâd give it a solid⌠two.â
Riki gasped dramatically, leaning closer until his shoulder brushed yours, âTwo? That was a strategic fall. I trained for years to perfect that move.â
You finally glanced at him, lips tugging into a small smirk, âRight. And you trained for like what a year?â
He huffed, crossing his arms, muttering under his breath begrudgingly, âYeah.â
You laughed, continuing sarcastically, âWhat were you expecting? Gravity-assisted combat? Very advanced.â
He pointed at you triumphantly, âYouâre teasing me. Which means you were impressed.â
âNo. I was entertained,â you corrected, âThereâs a difference.â
Riki laughed, delighted that you were playing along. He reached over and flicked the corner of your tablet - just enough to annoy you, but not enough to disrupt your work.
âYou pretend youâre immune to me, but youâre laughing on the inside. I know it.â
âIâm laughing at you,â you replied teasingly.
âSame thing,â he shrugged nonchalantly.
You rolled your eyes, but the smile you tried to hide was obvious enough that he caught it instantly.
He poked your knee again, gentler this time, âSee? You like me.â
âI like that you didnât die,â you replied, scoffing lightly, âIt keeps my paperwork simple.â
Riki leaned back, stretching his arms behind the couch again, grinning like heâd won something, âWe made. A good team though. Admit it.â
You shrugged, deliberately casual, âWe did well.â
He bumped your shoulder again - playful, familiar and warm.
âAnd you like working with me,â he added teasingly.
âI like that youâre occasionally useful,â you remarked.
âWow,â he said, laughing, âHigh praise.â
He tapped your tablet once more, just because he could.
âNext mission, Iâm thinking we try not to fall.â
You smirked, shaking your head, âYou try not to fall. Iâll be perfectly fine.â
Rikiâs smile softened, his teasing settling into something quieter - still playful, still bright, but threaded with that sincerity he never fully hid.
âWeâll see.â
Your next mission site had been an abandoned research facility on the outskirts of AISAâs jurisdiction - dusty, dimly lit and full of equipment that looked like it hadnât been touched since the last century.
You moved through the hallway with your scanner, boots clicking as it echoed around your surroundings, while Riki trailed behind you, spinning a discarded screwdriver between his fingers like it was a toy.
âYou know,â he said, stepping over a broken cable, âIf this place collapses, I want it on record that I died heroically.â
You didnât look back as you spoke, âYouâd trip over your own feet before the building even tried to collapse.â
Riki scoffed under his breath, speeding up until he walked beside you, âIâll have you know Iâm rather graceful.â
âMhm,â you said, unconvinced, âLike when you fell during our last mission?â
âI told you, that was a tactical fall,â he insisted, a scowl on his face.
You let a smirk tug at your lips, âRight. Gravity-assisted combat. I remember.â
He bumped your shoulder lightly, making you laugh as he pretended to be offended, âYouâre mean.â
âAnd youâre loud,â you shot back, nonchalantly.
âBut you like me loud,â he retorted, his signature smirk playing on that smug face of his.
âRiki. I simply tolerate you loud,â you said, stopping for a moment to shoot him a pointed look.
He grinned, somehow satisfied with that answer.
You reached a locked metal door and crouched to examine the panel. Riki crouched beside you, far too close, his knee brushing yours.
âWant help?â He asked, already reaching for the wires.
âNo,â you said immediately, smacking his hand away, âLast time you helped, the door exploded in our faces.â
Riki stared at you with mock offense, rubbing his wrist where you hit him.
âThat was one time,â he whined dramatically.
âAnd it was like what? Last month?â You remarked, with a soft scoff.
He laughed, leaning his shoulder into yours, âFine. I guess Iâll just supervise then.â
âYouâre terrible at supervising,â you teased.
âIâm excellent at supervising. Look-â he pointed at the panel dramatically, âYouâre doing great!â
You shook your head, but the smile pulling at your lips betrayed you, âYouâre impossible.â
âAnd yet you keep me around,â he winked at you.
âUnfortunately,â you said dryly, âI donât have much of a choice.â
He nudged you again, though softer this time, âYou like having me close.â
âI just like having backup. And youâre my partner.â
âSame thing,â he rolled his eyes.
Before you could respond, the panel beeped and the door slid open.
Riki jumped to his feet triumphantly, punching the air, âSee? Look! My supervision worked.â
You rose to your feet, dusting off your hands, âMy skill worked.â
âYou mean our teamwork worked,â he corrected, patting your shoulder as he walked past you into the room.
You followed, rolling your eyes but unable to hide the small laugh that slipped out.
Riki heard it - of course he did - and turned around with a smug smile.
âKnew you found me funny.â
âI find you ridiculous.â
âRidiculously charming.â
âRidiculously annoying.â
The two of you went back and forth until he finally winked and said at your last words, âHey, Iâll take it.â
Despite the banter, the two of you moved with practiced precision - checking corners, scanning equipment and documenting findings. The atmosphere stayed sensible and professional⌠except for the occasional moment of course where Riki poked your arm, or you flicked his ear, or he whispered something stupid just to make you laugh.
And every time you did, he looked like heâd won the mission single-handedly.
The lounge was dimly lit that night, the kind of warm lighting that AISA used to trick agents into thinking they were relaxed. Riki and Jake sat at their usual high-top corner table, two glasses of soemthing strong between them after a long week of missions and paperwork.
Sim Jaeyun - nicknamed Jake, Rikiâs long-time friend from since training with AISA - swirled his drink as he eyed the younger boy over the rim.
âSo,â he started casually, âyou and Y/N, huh? Whatâs the deal?â
Riki nearly choked, spluttering out indignantly, âDeal? What deal? Thereâs no deal.â
âWeâre just partners,â he added hastily and Jake couldâve sworn he saw the boyâs ears turn red.
He snorted in response, âRight. Partners who sit wayy too close. Partners who bicker like a married couple. Partners who-â
âHyung,â Riki cut in, pointing at him with a lazy grin, âyouâre delusional. She barely tolerates me.â
Jake raised an eyebrow, âShe teases you back.â
âShe teases everyone.â
âNo,â Jake said, leaning in, âshe teases you differently. Everyone can see it.â
Riki scoffed, waving him off as he ignored the way his heart began to pick up speed at Jakeâs words, âYouâre reading into things unnecessarily. Sheâs just- fun to annoy, I guess?â
Jake smirked, adding slyly, âAnd you like her, Nishimura. Admit it.â
Riki froze for half a second - just long enough for Jake to catch it - before he recovered with a dramatic sigh.
âI like breathing. I like music. And I like not dying on missions. Doesnât mean Iâm in love with oxygen.â
Jake laughed, shaking his head, âYouâre unbelievable.â
âNo, Iâm charming,â Riki corrected, clinking his glass against Jakeâs, âAnd sheâs immune to me anyway. I donât know how yâall donât see that.â
Jake shot him an unamused look, âYou sure about that?â
Riki shrugged, leaning back in his chair, âPositive.â
Jake opened his mouth to retort and argue again - but stopped abruptly when he noticed you walking into the lounge, eyes falling on both of them as you headed straight towards their direction.
Riki followed his gaze and immediately straightened, nearly knocking over his drink in the process.
Jake cleared his throat rather loudly, âSo uh- weatherâs been⌠something?â
Riki nodded way too fast, âYeah. Weather. Totally wild.â
You slowed you steps as you drew near to the guys, eyebrows lifting, âWhat are you two up to?â
Jake and Riki exchanged a panicked glance.
âUh- clouds,â Riki said quickly.
âBig ones,â Jake nodded eagerly at you.
You stared at them, confused and even bewildered, âRight⌠okay.â
They both sat up a little too straight, grew a little too quiet and were a little too suspicious.
Or maybe too much of everything?
You narrowed your eyes, glancing between them, âYou both are so weird.â
Riki flashed a grin that was definitely hiding something, âWeâre always weird.â
You sighed, sliding into an empty seat at their table, massaging your temples.
âUnfortunately so, yes.â
Jake smirked into his drink as he sipped it.
And stifling a laugh himself, Riki kicked him under the table.
Riki had been in one of his moods again - smirking every time your eyes met, brushing your wrist when he passed you training gear and throwing in little comments meant to fluster you even though you always pretended they didnât.
The two of you were running through close-quarters drills, circling each other on the mat. Riki lunged, you dodged and he laughed under his breath.
âYouâre getting slow,â he teased, voice low and playful.
âYouâre getting predictable,â you shot back, tapping his shoulder as you slipped past him.
He grinned like youâd just made his entire day.
But then, his gaze suddenly flicked past you - toward the far side of the training room.
Choi Soobin stood there, arms crossed, watching the two of you with an amused expression. He was also one of your closest friends in the agency apart from Riki, someone who always checked in on you after missions.
You paused the drill when you noticed him and walked over to him, wiping sweat from your forehead.
âSoobin hey! What are you doing here?â You asked, smiling lightly.
âJust making sure you havenât let Riki corrupt your technique,â he joked softly, nudging your shoulder.
You laughed, leaning in a little as you spoke with him. Soobinâs tone was warm, friendly and familiar - comfortable in a way that made Rikiâs chest tighten.
From behind you, Riki pretended to adjust his gloves, but his eyes stayed locked on the two of you.
His jaw flexed.
His playful confidence slipped, replacing by something sharp and unsettling.
Soobin noticed Riki staring and smirked, âHeâs glaring holes into my head.â
âDonât bother with him. Heâs just being dramatic,â you muttered, voice lower.
âOr jealous,â Soobin whispered, a teasing smile on his lips.
You elbowed him lightly, but your cheeks warmed at his words.
Riki finally walked over, trying to appear casual even though his voice betrayed him.
âWhatâs going on?â He asked, a little too quickly.
Soobin raised his eyebrows, âRelax, man. Iâm just talking to her.â
Rikiâs eyes flickered over to meet yours, âWe were in the middle of training.â
You tilted your head, âI can take a break, canât I?â
Riki swallowed thickly, trying to hide the way that bothered him, âRight. Sure.â
Soobin chuckled, âWell arenât you two just funny to watch?â
Riki shot him a look that was almost a warning.
You sighed softly, âRiki weâll continue in a minute, donât worry.â
He nodded, but his voice softened in a way he didnât intend for it to, âOkay⌠just donât disappear on me- or whatever.â
Soobin smirked again, âSee? Jealous.â
Rikiâs ears went pink, âWhat? No Iâm not.â
You gave Riki a teasing smile, deciding to add to the fun, âYou kind of are, you know.â
He looked away, growing flustered, muttering under his breath, âWeâre partners. I just- like training with you, I guess?â
Soobin leaned closer to you, âHe really means that he doesnât want to share.â
You laughed heartily and Riki snapped his eyes back to Soobin.
âI never said that.â
But he had to admit that deep down, he did feel it.
And you saw it yourself but chose not to comment - as clear as day.
Soobin was warming up more and more with you by the day - too quickly for Rikiâs liking.
Again, Soobin was watching you both train at another session before walking over to you after finishing your hand-to-hand drills.
He leaned against the wall, arms crossed and watching with a soft smile, eyes focused on you and only you.
âYouâre getting sharper,â he said to you, nodding approvingly.
You laughed, shrugging lightly, âIâve been practicing.â
Riki didnât say anything, but his movements grew noticeably tighter, sharper and even almost competitive as he focused on working alone, just as a way to distract himself from the sight before him.
When Soobin suddenly added, âYou should train with me sometime too you know - I can help with your footwork,â that was when Rikiâs jaw clenched tightly.
âShe already has a partner,â he muttered, not looking up.
Soobin raised an eyebrow, gaze landing on Riki, âDidnât realize you were territorial.â
Riki pretended not to hear him, but you saw the way his ears turned pink.
Another time, during a briefing, Soobin slid into the empty seat beside you after running late, nudging your shoulder lightly to get your attention.
âYou always take the neatest notes,â he said, leaning a bit too closely to peek at your page.
Riki, sitting across one of the tables in the room near you, stared at the interaction with a blank expression that fooled no one.
Everyone would occasionally glance over at him with amused smiles or quiet shakes of their heads when they noticed he wasnât even trying to avoid staring at you two.
His foot tapped under the table, a steady beat.
His eyes flicked between you and Soobin every few seconds, the boy hardly blinking.
When Soobin leaned closer again to whisper a joke into your ear, you laughed - and pencil Riki was fiddling with snapped clean in half.
Jake - who was sitting next to him and watching the entire scene silently noticed, he whispered urgently, âDude what the fuck? You good?â
âFine,â Riki gritted out through clenched teeth.
Rikiâs final straw unfolded in AISAâs trusty lounge - that was supposed to be yours and Rikiâs spot together.
You and Soobin were sitting on the couch, with him helping you to review intel.
The guy suddenly reached over to tuck a stray piece of your hair behind your ear as you leaned over the table - a gesture heâd apparently done a thousand times before with the way you appeared to be so comfortable and nonchalant about it.
Riki froze mid-step past the sliding doors.
Jake murmured under his breath, musing to himself, âOh shit, heâs gonna combust.â
Riki then walked over, his footsteps quickening, before plopping himself directly between you and Soobin.
âY/N needs to help me with something. Urgently,â he spoke hurriedly before either of you could say anything.
You blinked, still trying to process what happened, âWhat urgent thing?â
âUh-â Riki looked around, trying to search for a quick excuse.
âMy laptop- yeah my laptop! Itâs broken.â
âYou donât even own a laptop,â Jake tried to whisper to him, but Riki just kicked his shin under the table, earning a howled mumble of pain from Jake as he held his leg.
Soobin, way too observant for his own good, smirked knowingly, âJealously doesnât suit you, bro. What happened to being nonchalant?â
Rikiâs ears turned pink, âWhat? Iâm not jealous.â
You shot him an unamused and knowing look.
But Riki refused to meet your eyes.
Later that same day, as the evening progressed, you and Riki had planned a casual sleepover long before - snacks, blankets and a stack of movies listed on your notes app all ready at your apartment.
He sprawled beside you on the couch, pretending to be relaxed and pretending nothing had bothered him all day.
But he kept glancing at you every so often.
And then looking away.
And then glancing again.
You nudged him, diverting your attention from the movie playing, âYouâre awfully quiet.â
âIâm always quiet,â he said, voice too quick and response something you knew heâd never say if he was thinking straight.
âNo,â you responded, âyouâre annoying. Donât even come to me with that quiet shit, youâre anything but. This is different.â
He huffed, grabbing a pillow to hide half as he face as he snuggled close to it, âIâm not upset if thatâs what youâre trying to say.â
You raised your eyebrows, unconvinced, âYou sure?â
Riki hesitated. His typical teasing facade wavered even more, just another crack - enough for you to see the truth underneath.
âI just-â he swallowed thickly, his voice trailing off, âI didnât like how Soobin was acting today.â
You blinked, though you internally knew it all along, âWhy?â
Rikiâs voice softened, barely above a whisper, âBecause I donât like sharing you.â
You turned to stare at him fully now, stunned.â
He immediately buried his face deeper into his pillow.
âWait nevermind. Forget I said that.â
You allowed a quiet smile to tug at your lips, leaning your shoulder against his, âI wonât. Just letting you know.â
Riki didnât tease after that. He didnât joke. He just stayed close - closer than usual - watching the movie with a quiet intensity, pretending he wasnât melting away every time you shifted nearer.
His facade wasnât just cracking.
It was falling apart beautifully.
As the night stretched on, the living room softened into dim lamplight and the low hum of the movie.
You had expected Riki to tease you, poke your side or even steal your snacks - the usual chaos he brought into any room.
But he didnât.
He sat beside you, legs pulled close and eyes fixated on the tv screen yet still unfocused. His usual spark - the playful glint, the smug grin - had faded into something quieter.
Something heavier.
Every time you shifted closer, trying to get some teasing remark out of him, he stiffened inside of leaning in. Every time you laughed at the movie, he smiled only halfway. And every time you glanced at him, he looked away way too quickly.
It wasnât like the Riki you knew.
Not at all.
You paused the movie, turning to look at him with eyebrows furrowed in concern, âRiki- whatâs going on?â
He didnât answer at first. His fingers tightened around the blanket, knuckles pale. His shoulders rose with a shaky breath.
âIâm fine,â he said - but his voice trembled, betraying him instantly.
You shifted closer, growing more and more worried by the minute, âYouâre not. Talk to me. Come on.â
Riki swallowed hard. His eyes flickered over to yours, wide and uncertain, filled with something raw - something hopeful and terrified all at once. He looked like he was fighting himself, fighting the words heâd been holding back all day.
âI just-â his voice broke again, âI didnât like how today went.â
Your expression softened with understanding, âBecause of Soobin?â
Rikiâs breath hitched, surprised you figured it out so quickly.
He nodded once, barely.
âI know itâs stupid,â he whispered, eyes dropping to his lap.
âI know I shouldnât feel like this. But when I saw him with you- when he touched you, when you laughed with him-â
His voice shook harder, âIt felt like something inside me was twisting. And I- I hate it.â
âI hate it so goddamn bad, Y/N.â
You reached out, gently touching his hand.
He froze - then looked up, eyes shining with a fragile kind of hope as he fought tears.
âI- I donât want to lose you,â he admitted shakily, voice trembling so badly it almost wasnât a whisper anymore.
âNot to him. Not to anyone.â
His facade - the teasing, the bravado and the playful confidence - had fallen away completely.
What remained was just Nishimura Riki: vulnerable, scared and wanting you more deeply than he knew how to say.
You squeezed his hand tightly, reassuringly.
He exhaled shakily, relief and longing flickering across his face.
And for the first time all night, he leaned into you - not with jokes, nor with bravado, but with quiet, trembling honesty.
Since Rikiâs interestingly enough heartfelt confession to you that night at your sleepover, you finally began to acknowledge the truth hidden deep within your own emotions and feelings.
You were letting him in, slowly but surely and he was glad to seize the opportunity every single time.
And it felt like things were back to normal between you both, as if your entire life and connection with your partner wasnât just uprooted and transfigured into something completely different when Riki confessed that night.
From lingering touches and quiet words of affection which you had to practically force out of him - things eventually got heated between you two.
You were in the library, tasked with obtaining some old records on a case you worked on months back, looking through the archives in a separate room off the main floor of the spacious area with its multitude of books on shelves.
As you were climbing up the rolling library ladder situated in the room, you heard a deep voice behind you, startling you at first as you let out a soft yelp, immediately holding on to the edge of a shelf so you donât fall back.
âWoah, woah, woah- what the hell do you think youâre doing?!â Riki exclaimed, his voice strangely panicked.
You groaned, craning your head back slightly to look at him.
âRiki!â
He frowned, already moving closer to hold on to the sides of the ladder and keep you supported.
âYeah?â He answered nonchalantly.
âI couldâve tumbled right back on my ass if you didnât come in here and air your big mouth!â You complained dramatically, stepping down a few of the rungs on the ladder until you felt a firm hand on your hip, stopping you.
âWhat now?â You frowned, exasperated, but Riki didnât respond, growing unusually quiet.
You tried to turn your head back again to look at him, speaking but he cut you off, âRiki-?â
âTurn around,â he commanded softly.
You blinked, hesitating for a moment, âWhat for?â
âYouâll see,â he remarked, dryly, âJust do as I say? Please?â
You let out a heavy exhale, but obliged, gripping the edges of the ladder tightly as you carefully turned around to face him fully now, his arms outstretched and hovering near your body protectively in case you slipped.
You gazed at him with narrowed eyes, noticing how his eyes were glued to the lower half of your body, expecting an explanation now, âWhat is it?â
âYouâre wearing a skirt,â he said, his voice a bit- strained?
You blinked, âSo?â
âSo,â he raised his eyebrows, eyes flicking up to meet your confused ones, âYou hardly wear skirts.â
You frowned for a moment, eyebrows knitting together until you realized where he was going with this.
âOh.â
âYeah,â he smiled, a bit of a wry one, âOh.â
He cleared his throat, looking anywhere but at you in the archives room, âYou look good though.â
You let a small smile pull at your lips, growing flustered by the comment, âThank you.â
You stiffened when you watched him suddenly step closer, eyes snapping back to yours.
âI want to do something,â he said simply.
âYouâll let me right?â He added, voice dropping to a whisper.
You felt as if your voice was stuck in your throat from the way Riki was staring at you so intently and you could only nod in a daze.
In a flash, Riki had pushed you to sit back on one of the rungs, your breath knocking out of you at the force for a moment.
Your hands scrambled for his shirt, just as a way to hold on before you fell but he caught you when your body shifted forward, firm hands keeping you grounded to the edge of the rung before one of them slid down to your thigh.
You gazed into his wild eyes with your dark ones wide and bewildered, a shiver running down your spine as his hand rubbed up and down your thigh, grazing the hem of your skirt.
Your voice was breathless, barely able to speak, âRiki-â
âDonât-â he rasped out, gritting his teeth, âDonât say my name like that, Y/N- please-â
You didnât know what to say, his voice bordering on pure desperation, a tone youâd never heard from him as you felt your throat grow dry.
Once he was certain you were steadied properly while sitting on the ladder, he pushed your legs apart, head immediately dipping there to move up under your skirt.
You let out a loud gasp at his action, squirming for a moment until he had to forcefully hold you still with his hand.
âRiki- wait!â You tried to cry out, fearful of being caught but he had no intentions of stopping now.
There was no going back from this.
And Nishimura Riki was in way too deep now.
You felt his hot breath on your shamefully soaked panties, your head falling back against the books and files neatly arranged on the shelves behind you as his tongue licked a long stripe along the drenched fabric.
He shifted his position slightly, using his free hand to hook your legs over his shoulders as your body trembled, whimpering when he used his other hand to push your panties aside.
Your cheeks flushed a crimson red when you heard the sharp inhale Riki let in, eyes fluttering shut as his mouth tended to the ache of your pussy.
His surprisingly expert tongue knew just where to work you to make you moan and gasp out, tongue lapping at your arousal or teeth nipping gently at your swollen clit.
You tried to speak, resulting in Riki only intensifying his assault on your pussy, the wet and obscene sounds of his attention making your head spin.
âRiki- s-someone could see us h-â your voice broke off into a breathy sigh, two of his fingers pushing into you without warning as your eyes rolled back.
He didnât seem to have a care in the world about if someone walked in and saw you both.
Yet, the thought of that despite how embarrassing it was, sent a strong thrill through you.
Rikiâs tongue was a menace as he went down on you, licking hot and wet stripes through your glistening folds with his tongue while slowly pushing his fingers up into you at a steady pace, trying to open you up to sink them deeper.
All thoughts of being seen or caught had left your mind by now, your sweet whimpers and desperate cries of his name fueling the man on as he kept going.
You could feel the tip of his nose bumping against your clit lightly, half-lidded eyes barely making out the movement of his head against the fabric of your skirt as he ate you out.
The sight alone drove you wild, a strangled moan leaving your lips as his fingers sunk deeper, thrusting into and out of you with a pace that made your eyes roll back as he hit that sweet spot deep into you.
When the muscle of his tongue finally pushed into your hole, you couldnât take it any longer, your body tensed up.
His satisfied grunts and groans, muffled from being under your skirt and against your pussy, was the only thing keeping you grounded to reality as you let your release crash through you.
Your body trembled immensely, a sharp cry of his name leaving your lips as you came, walls clenching around his fingers and tongue as you reached the breaking point.
Hot, clear liquid shot out, spilling along the bare skin of your thighs where your skirt was hiked up over and on to Rikiâs face, surprising him as he pulled away.
He used his tongue, chin dripping with a mixture of your arousal and your release as he licked his mouth clean.
An amused smirk pulled at his lips, staring down at you and the mess he made between your legs.
You were panting heavily, barely comprehending anything he was saying as his deep voice rasped out.
âDid you just- squirt on me?â
You blinked blankly up at him, voice hoarse, âW-what?â
He laughed, sucking his fingers clean as he watched you, clearly thinking for a long moment.
âIâm not done with you, by the way,â he teased, voice a tad bit deeper, amused as he watched your eyes go wide when you finally caught your senses.
âH-huh? Riki?!â You exclaimed, holding on to his broad shoulders for support as he scooped your body off the ladder effortlessly.
His eyes scanned the archives room, trying to search for a place to keep his fun going.
You let out an exaggerated whine, smacking the back of his head.
âOw! Hey!â He groaned, to which you laughed with delight, your eyes twinkling as he looked down at you with pure love in his gaze.
âI feel it cominâ, babeâ - I Feel It Coming, The Weeknd
|ROUTE 1: Heeseung|A Story That Starts With a Text
đsummary: when you installed a dating app to just mess around with random people, not knowing that you were turning your peaceful life into a bloody one the moment you sent that text.
đĽgenre: yandere, angst, fluff, college au!
đĽwarning: cursing, kleptomaniac! reader, manipulation, betrayals, suggestive content, future non-con w a minor involved! (only in one ep, 18+ only mdni! this is only for entertainment, I don't condone this behaviour)
đĽpairing: heeseung x fem!reader
đď¸a/n: this is my first series T^T , and my first time writing in this blog. So expect alot of grammar errors, awkward storytelling and dialogues! I'm always trying to improve, and so any feedbacks and criticisms are welcome. Comments and reblogs are highly appreciated! pls do not be a silent reader, if there's anything u want to say bout my story! Pls do! It really makes my day.
what happens when you sneak into jay's bedroom to let him finish what he started? maybe you'll finally get to see the man who has been hiding his desires longer than you realized....
pairing â˰ parkjongseong x fem!reader
warning â˰ 18+, smut, mdni, pinv!, unprotected!sex(don't do this!), explicit content, dom!jay, sneaky!sex, cheating, sub!reader, sexual tension, roommate'sbestfriend!jay, obsessed!jay, voyeurism, stuffing panties in mouth, pussy!eating, doggystyle!, clothedsex!
playlist â˰ click here!
word count â˰ 10.7k
lolli's notes â˰ holy shit this is actually fucking terrible but ur wishes have been granted! I present pt 2! I am sorry I took so long, times are rough out here....love you all mwah! not really proofread.
"jay? dude are you in here?" he hears his roommates soft voice phasing through his door. they knock a few times, still not earning an answer from jay.Â
jay leans against his door, feeling the knocks on the back of his head. he feels his heart pounding in his chest, from the adrenaline but also from the panic. he recounts the events before his roommate ruined the moment. the way you were squirming, your thighs locking onto his head to the point where he couldn't escape (not like he wanted to), your soft sweet moans that curl into his ears that made him more riled up by the second â he was getting hard just thinking about you again.
"shitâŚ" jay looks down at his pants, a visible bulge forming. "fuckfuckfuck" he quietly curses to himself, not knowing that his roommate was calling him. "jay?!" his roommate bangs on the door, putting full force. jay snaps out of his thoughts when he was forced to snap back to reality. jay opens the door slightly, only revealing his head as his roommate was mid knock. "what's up?" he casually says. "omg dude are you deaf or something?" he scoffs, just as jay was about to open his mouth, he was interrupted by them showing whatever they bought from the grocery store. "i know you said you didn't want anything but i got you some candy." you hear the crackle of plastic crumbling as they swung it over his face.Â
jay immediately grabs it and lets out a small thank you, but just as he was about to close the door, a hard smack banged against the hard surface, causing him to flinch. "did you go in my room?" they furrow their eyebrows. jay's heart immediately drops but he holds himself up. "no why?" his eyes turning innocent.Â
" the door is slightly open and i swear i left the door closed before i left. are you sure you didn't go in?"Â
"nah man, i was in my room the entire time you were gone. maybe you didn't close it properly." his roommate stares at him, noticing the way he nods his head as it peeks out from the door, seemingly pre-occupied.
"huh. maybe I did." the silence becomes awkward for a few seconds before the conservation becomes something. "well â thanks for the candy man, appreciate you." jay's hand peeks out from the door, dabbing them up before he closed the door behind him, letting out a sigh of a relief.Â
fuck that was close.
after that encounter, he stayed in his room every time you came over. the only time he showed his face is whenever he needed to grab something from the kitchen. he always avoided your presence like you were the plague. looking to see if the coast was clear before stepping out of his room, avoiding any sort of interaction, keeping a safe distance from you. whenever he was alone with you, he would make an excuse that sounded half assed because he was too embarrassed to face you even if his excuses sounded believable. he needed to get away as soon as possible.Â
every time he saw you, all he could envision was how your body was plated on the bed like a hot meal ready to be served, your thighs trembling as the vibrations rumbled deep inside you like it was massaging the deepest parts of your core, squirming with every buzz like time was infinite. he wasn't avoiding you cause he felt ashamed. no â it was because you knew what happened that night. how you knew it wasn't your boyfriend but it was him.Â
he didn't like confrontation, it was like facing his biggest fears and it was something that he wasn't ready to face. but his roommate was always inviting you over which made the situation even more impossible to avoid. he was too scared to even look at you. but if you asked him if he regretted that moment â he would say no, despite the fact he was hiding out like it was hibernation season.
he didn't even ponder on the thought of what if you liked it or you hated him for what he did. no, just the thought of you hating him was the last thing he wanted to see.Â
he assumed that you saw him differently for what he did, ruining a relationship that was stable but little did he know that you couldn't stop thinking about that moment.Â
the way he was so gentle, so comforting like he was truly relishing your body, so pure, soft like a cloud. so when he started avoiding you â you couldn't help but be amused. how cute it was whenever jay would speed pass you or stutter whenever you tried talking to him. the way he tried to keep himself composed and tried talking to you like nothing was wrong, it made you craved him more.Â
you felt shameful for thinking about another man but at the same time, you couldn't care less. you wanted more. you wanted him to finish what he started even if it meant jeopardizing your relationship.Â
so you started wearing clothes that exposed your soft skin: skin tight that clung onto you, molded onto your frame, skirts that were so short that they could pass up as belts, and shirts that always showed cleavage.Â
and as expected he would stare, eyes dilating, mouth agape. he would scan your body from head to toe, taken aback with how gorgeous you looked, completely head over heels and truly starstruck. sometimes, he doesn't even realize how long he's been staring until his roommate starts speaking. and you always catch him being entranced at the sight of you, seeing his chest stutter as he takes a deep breath, jaw clenched, eyes fluttering until he realizes that he has been staring for too long, slightly shaking his head to get out of this trance. a cute habit makes you smile.Â
your boyfriend didn't find it weird or out of place. he always saw you naked which was always something that jay envied. jay never wanted to be presented as a perverted person, but when it came to you, he was betraying every word, every thought that was restraining him to look away, cover his eyes like looking was a sin.Â
and one way to fix it is by hiding in his room.Â
but he knew that tactic wasn't always going to work, especially when you stay until the clock hits midnight or end up sleeping over.Â
and he could hear you.Â
the bed creaking, the soft slaps of skin on skin, the way the walls couldn't drown out the sound â it was infuriating. he would turn to the side, covering his ears with his pillow and closing his eyes. but that never worked. trying to force himself to ignore the noise but the soft foam against his ears somehow made the noise even more vulgar. forcing himself to listen even if he told his mind not to but deep down, he wanted to hear you, in ways that he envisions himself beneath you, pumping you full, feeling his bulge swell underneath your skin as he places his hand on your stomach, stuffing his cream inside of you like you were made to bury his seed. but that was nothing more than a mere fantasy.Â
as he hated to admit, it was always made him rock hard. he tried ignoring the aching pain but it was throbbing so much. he kept tossing and turning so much to the point where the sheets felt uncomfortable on his skin. his clothes became nothing but a distraction, a barrier that held him down and made him irritated. his body was building up an insufferable heat that felt like an itch he couldn't scratch off, a warmth that pounds through his exterior, curated on his skin like it was branding him. the fever that will always come back even if he cools it off. it was tucked into the walls of his skin, where he couldn't grasp.
impossible to avoid. and it only spreads into places he doesn't want it to reach. it tickles through his veins, sending a wave of pleasure that made him whine in ache.Â
he had to relieve the pain.Â
he pulls down his sweatpants until his cock was fully exposed. his aching tip was dripping with pre-cum, slightly twitching as your moans were phasing through the walls. every sound makes his body shiver like he was chasing for your touch. he softly grips the base, shuddering as the sensitivity felt like he was being electrocuted, nerves thumping through his skin. he starts stroking, a hot rush of blood surges through, pulsing against his hand. he shudders with every sheer contact, his breath hitches like he felt something cold. he closes his eyes, focusing on your moans that pound through his ears. he lets his imagination run wild, thinking about the possible ways he could have you: eating you out until you had nothing left in you, lying on your back as he ruthlessly pounds into you or he lies down on the bed while he watches you ride him. he groans shamelessly at the thought of it.Â
your soft silken skin with your slick coating his tongue, dripping like honey. with your legs closing around his head, trapping his source of oxygen as he laps his tongue on your sweet folds, alternating between slow, hypnotizing strokes to kitten licks that creates a cold shiver to flow through your body. he feels his dick twitch at the mere thought, the unhinged thought of thinking about his roommate's girlfriend in the most perverted ways â it felt invading but, at the same time, it felt like the only way to cure this aching need. he practically whimpers at the thought of you, showing up as desperate but he doesn't care, not when he was inching closer to having you to himself â until his roommate decided to come home when everything was starting to heat up.Â
he fucking hates them for coming home but he realizes what he was doing was betrayal.Â
but a part of him doesn't feel guilty or gives a fuck.Â
not when he had a choice. imagine the one thing you desired the most that kept you awake almost every night and was the cause of the insufferable ache that needed to be cured was right in front of you.Â
would you rather suffer or get cured?Â
he knew it was wrong but something he always kept in the back of his mind was: always trust your gut â it always tells you the truth.Â
and his gut knew what he truly desired.Â
"oh fuckâŚ." the thought made him shudder, desperately whining just to feel touched by you. he wishes that you were the one bringing him to his limit, he doesn't care if you edged or teased him until he fully broke. he was desperately begging at this point for you to notice him, to see the signs of how much he wanted you.Â
he would give you everything you need, craved, wanted. like an act of service. he would do anything just to get a crumb of your attention.Â
the obscene sounds of his moans were filling up the room, the air thickening as he beated his dick until it became lump . the stickiness of his warmth was coating his hand, showing how his arousal was overturning every thought he had in his mind. he was so desperate, aching for his release to reach the finish line. it was so wrong, to be thinking in ways that his brain shouldn't be able to envision. he wanted your hands on his sensitive skin, a brush of your fingers against his â just the thought was already making his skin prickle with goosebumps and shudder against his soft bed sheets.Â
"mmfâŚ.fuckâŚh-holy shitâ" he throws his head back against his soft pillow, eyes shut and teeth caught on his bottom lip. his muscles were tensing up as his breath became more ragged with every continuous push of his cock in between his hand. he could feel his stomach clenching and the unbearable ache rising up his body. his fingers begin to feel weak and ticklish like his nerves couldn't handle the overstimulation.Â
and then a strong wave of pleasure washes over him and his pent up frustration releases, dripping down the structure of his dick as his hand drowns in his own pleasure. he slowly opens his eyes, hot flashes of sparkles spread his vision. the blurriness begins to pulse with every blink he forces himself to recover. the deep inhales couldn't stop his fluttering heart and his own ache was still spilling out of him. his clothes were damped with his sweat, clinging onto him like it was merging with his skin. his eyes stare up at the ceiling like it was staring back at him, looking with shame.Â
he looks at the state of his body, it reeks with guilt, experiencing the aftershocks like they were branded on his skin. the warm fluid begins to feel sickening like they weren't meant to be paint his body. all it brought was shame, pleasure, and a hunger for more. he looks at his messy hand with drunk-filled eyes, he sighs out of frustration when he realizes that he needed to clean up.Â
jay waits for few seconds, focusing on the background noise as his heart was pounding loudly in his ears. he waits for a few beats or a rhythm that indicated a signal to make his move. he curses at himself for running out of his tissues this one time he really needed them.Â
he lifts himself, using his elbows to push himself off the bed, using all the core strength he had left. his vision becomes hazy as his head begins to pulse at the sudden movement. he wishes that the walls weren't so thin that he can absolutely hear every squeak, rumble and squeals that was phasing through the walls. he can still hear you but he needed to clean up before raising any suspicion.Â
he lets his clothes mold onto his frame without laying his hands on them. his hair was a slight mess but nothing that seemed out of place. he pulls up his boxers along with his sweatpants. he walks to the door with hushed footsteps, grasping the door handle with a grip so tight to get a better precision. he slowly turns the knob, focusing on every shift as the door slowly unlatched. he takes a peak at his roommate's door, there was a small crack but it covered the view of jay's position from the outside, he slowly peaked out of his room, heading towards the door but the erotic sounds of your voice mixed with the bed creaking only made his body jumped in curiosity. he stares at the door across from him for mere seconds until his mind spirals deep into thought. your voice only surges louder in his brain, it echoes endlessly causing his body fluster with heat, the same one that he couldn't shake off his body.Â
he swallows a lump down his throat as his legs had a mind of their own, answering a question in his mind he refused to accept. as he roams closer and closer, the small crack became visible of the scene. the noises only got louder and endless.Â
"o-oh shit!" your voice curled into a squeal as jay takes light footsteps, his feet sticking onto the hardwood floors like they were trying to stop him from seeing what could possibly make him even more flustered. from the angle he was in, all he could see was the bed pulsing against the rhythm of skin contact he could hear, his eyes wander until he leaned his body against the door frame, fully getting a show that made his eyes widened and mouth slightly ajar.Â
he sees your body placed on top of his roommate, his body positioned where his head was laying on the foot of the bed, facing directly away from the door. jay watches how his roommate's hands were swarming all over your perfect body, hands dragging along the side of your torso, inching their way towards your breasts while jay's eyes only stared at your body like it was something he wished he could hold and cherish like time had stopped.Â
the beating in his chest slowly began to panic, his skin turns into a hot, flushed mess, the heat begins to bloom through his body as the scene became something more than he could handle. the ache began to stir in his stomach while the blood rushes down to his now throbbing dick. he stares at you to the point where his mind became a blur he couldn't hear and a conscious his body couldn't lift.Â
he was stuck in a trance by watching you move so swiftly, making it more like a love-making session rather than losing your minds. you moved so fluidly like the air was commanding to your rhythm. you tilt your head back as you were getting lost in the moment and jay watches with a careful gaze.Â
his body started heat up again, all flustered and dazed. his pants start to feel tight and an ache starts to build up. he swallows the lump in his throat, trying the push the feeling down. his hand began to drift down to his clothed crotch, palming himself as he stared at you with nothing but lust in his eyes.Â
jay could only imagine what you must feel like, soft, warm and sweet as honey. yet, imagination was the only thing he could conquer even if he found it upsetting . jealousy couldn't describe what he was feeling in the pit of his stomach. the feeling of pleasure couldn't even coincide with the envy he felt.Â
he couldn't even be bothered to be angry, he was too dazed to even fathom the overwhelming emotions. more importantly, he couldn't stay a moment longer watching another man in your embrace.Â
as he finished cleaning up, he plops down on his bed again, staring at the ceiling. he began to ponder for a moment, feeling a whiff of sadness wash over him.Â
he didn't know if the guilt was from betraying his roommate or from the fact that you probably saw him differently, ruining a relationship that he shouldn't have ever touched in the first place.Â
đ
you stare up at the ceiling, the pull of drowsiness hasn't forced your eyes shut and you lay on your boyfriend's bed like you shouldn't even be here. your eyes were wide open, blinking slowly, forcing the pull of fatigue but as your eyelids close for a few seconds, you became even more frustrated.Â
you couldn't sleep, you couldn't tell how many hours has passed, you look towards your boyfriend, sleeping soundly. a few quiet snores escaping as his cheat softly heaved up and down. the room was silent and the air was a bit cold as you shifted on the bed, feeling the warmth of your body as you turned away, facing the opposite direction of your boyfriend.Â
your cheek graze on the cold cloth of your pillow, sending a soft shiver down your spine. the room was so quiet; you could hear the silent pulse of your heart and the rhythmic breaths of your boyfriend.Â
but your body wasn't tired and your eyes weren't drooping.Â
every shift of your body, shutting your eyes out of force â sleep never came.Â
your mind wasn't letting you.Â
every time you closed your eyes, your mind wasn't letting you. it was making you frustrated and telling you to get up. although, the soft cozy warmth was making it hard for you to stand, instead, your mind wanders. you wondered if jay was awake at this time especially with how loud you were late at this time, you forgot that jay wasn't too far from you.Â
just as the thought of him hearing you made your thighs clench together.Â
did he hear you?Â
you wondered if he did. did he touch himself? did he hear how desperate you were?Â
you could only imagine, and you wanted to know more.Â
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he tosses and turns, his arousal still lingering and sensitive. he sighs out of frustration, still feeling shivers from his orgasm. he closes his eyes, trying to let sleep consume over his body but all he could think about was you and you were riding and moaning-Â
knock knockÂ
his eyes cracked open, darting towards the door. he stares for a few seconds, wondering if he was hearing things. then, a soft pair of knocks pressed against the door once again "what the-" he gets up, walking towards where the source of sound was coming from.Â
"yes dude what do youâI- woah, what are you doing here????"Â
"I couldn't sleep. he's snoring so loud. sorry, was i bothering you, I can justâ"Â
"no! uhh I mean no no, you weren't bothering me. I wasn't really doing much anyway, so what's up?Â
"is it okay if I sleep with you tonight?"Â
"likeâ with me in my bed?"Â
"of course you silly, who else? if that's not weird?"Â
"uhh no no not at all. i would let you but i don't know if he'll be okay with that." he pauses. "well i can just sleep in the living room while you sleep on my bedâ"Â
"oh no no please, I don't wanna kick you out of your own room. if it's too much trouble I can just sleep in the living room."Â
"no! uhh sorry I meanâ I'll feel guilty if you sleep in the living room but what will he think? I mean he'll kill me."Â
"I won't say anything and besides, it'll only be for tonight." the word "tonight" only made jay's mind drift into something more lewd even though they were far from it.Â
"I-"Â
"please.."Â
"i don't know y/nâ"Â
"please jayâŚ." you give him a pouty face as you jutted your lower lip and just as you expected, he stuttered.Â
"I- umm Iâ alright come in." you smiled as you walked into his room. your approach was silent, it was seductive but effortless like you controlled the room. he silently starts praying to himself as he gently closes the door behind him, his back colliding against the hard wooden surface. out of instinct, his eyes immediately dart to your night attire, his lips part and then lets out a shuddered breath. he shamelessly stared at your legs, admiring the way they looked so plump and fluffy that made him shiver with arousal.Â
he silently curses to himself as you looked around his room, inspecting it like you've entered something you shouldn't have. jay starts to panic like he couldn't believe the girl he yearned for was two steps away from him. he convinced himself that this was probably a dream and by the time he blinks, you would disappear â but you didn't.Â
your voice sounded too real, your presence was too distracting for him to convince himself that you weren't real.Â
much to his horror, this was more than just a dream. it was a universe that he always fantasized of, one where you and him existed into something more than just strangers but glanced at one another like love mended into something that neither you and jay could explain.Â
his heart was exploding, flooding in his ears like it was warning him that something dangerous was going to happen. the air in the room changed, it became annoyingly hot and stuffy, constantly messing with jay's brain as he began to feel suffocated by his own clothes. he felt a burning rush of heat soiling through his skin, his own arousal staining his clothes. his nerves thrumming in his skin, control slipping through his grasp the more he stared at you.Â
you analyzed his room like you were examining every part of him. he only gulps to trying to hide his anxiety, silently praying that he doesn't make a wrong move.Â
"you have a nice room, its very cozy." as soon as you entered, you were surprised by the contrast between jay's and your boyfriend's room. you don't know if you were surprised by the fact that jay's room was a lot cleaner, he doesn't step outside unless he was getting something from the kitchen or if he needed to go to the bathroom.Â
your eyes continue to inspect his room until you finally settled on him. he doesn't lock eyes with you as he looks passed you or anywhere that seemed interesting. he stood awkwardly as the burning rush of your eyes were staring into his body.Â
"thanks, i try to manageâŚyou know cleaning" his eyes dart to you for a second before breaking the silence. his heart almost stops when you made eye contact, paired with a smile that sent a soft shiver down his spine.Â
"well you can make yourself comfortable, I can just sleep on the beanbag. if you need any extra blankets or anything else, just let me know."Â
you leaned against his desk as he walked towards his closet to get more blankets and pillows like it was an automatic response. "does he know?" and just as you broke the silence in the room, you watched the way jay hesitated in his footsteps before he played it off like it never fazed him. but in reality, jay's heart stopped for a second as those words started to scramble with his brain.Â
"does who know..?" he swallows the huge lump in his throat while he silently prays to himself as his back faces towards you.Â
"about what happened." you broke the barriers once again, watching jay unravel little by little.Â
"I don't follow.."Â
"you're cute.."
"w-what..?"Â
"pretending not to know about what happened."Â
"I don't know what you're talking about.."Â
"you can say that all you want but we both know that you know exactly what I'm talking about." the air in the room only thickens as the your words reaches his ears, causing him to dissociate with his own consciousness. you watched his face falter with nervousness and it was a sign that he knew exactly what you were talking about.Â
you watched how his eyes drifted lower, specifically on your body and how he takes a deep breath in like the moment was too livid. you pushed yourself off his desk and slowly walked towards him, and just as you took a step forward, he immediately tensed up and slowly backed up against his closet doorÂ
he was taller than you and could easily handle you like a rag doll, but in the moment he felt small and weak. "c'mon jayâŚ.talk to me." your voice, sultry sweet to his ears like honey. he couldn't dare look at you, it was too much for him to bear so he looked down at the floor like it was the most interesting thing in the world.Â
he still couldn't dare look up at you. you were like a walking reminder of how his consequences were finally coming to haunt him. you smile as he was still trying to deny everything, he could deny it all he wanted but the truth would soon unveil.Â
"that was a mistake."Â
"was it?"Â
"tell me jay, was it a mistake?" the distance between you was dangerous, in his mind, nothing could convince him that any of his actions were a mistake, not when the tension only grew and the moment got heated. when he fights the courage to finally look at you, his eyes immediately locked in with yours, and the only thing he could see in those pearly wide pupils was the remnants of that day.Â
you didn't look disgusted, nor did you look at him with hatred. instead, all he was the same desire he was craving for, the answer he was begging to hear, the moment where he wanted to stare at you without having an eye creeping down his neck. you batted your eyelashes, somehow hypnotic and your eyes catches the way they shift from your eyes to your lips.Â
you could feel the way his body was taut, trying to control the urges he had in him, he could only stand there in silence as the distance between your body and his, was trying to speak the unresolved tension.Â
you waited for about a breath, about to give up. you sighed, turning your back from him, and just as you were about to take a step forward, you feel his hand on your wrist, spinning around and to your surprise, he swiftly caught you with his hands on your waist, pulling you towards him.Â
your hands were flat on his chest and you could feel the pattern of his heartbeat growing faster and faster like a ticking time bomb. you looked at him confused and by a glance, your face turned into shock when he kissed you.Â
it only took a few seconds for you to melt into the kiss, wrapping your arms around his neck as his hands were glued to your waist. you softly whimpered as his rough movements were something that you weren't used to.Â
his kisses were hungry but also careful. you feel every control, the grips getting tighter around your body, almost like a wave of possessiveness crashed onto him. you feel him tilt his head to deepen the kiss, angling his mouth to get a better taste as his tongue was exploring every crevice and shape of your mouth like he was devouring to taste more of you, to leave the taste of him on your mouth.Â
"jay-" your lips part from his for a quick second but he doesn't let you speak. his tongue was tangling with yours as careful hands stick onto the fabric of your nightgown, riding up your thighs, slowly revealing your panties. you feel one of his hands slowly gliding lower and lower, reaching closer to your sensitive parts.Â
you shiver at the cold sensation of his fingers grazing onto the thin fabric and jay smirks into the kiss as he feels your body twitch and you gasp lightly.Â
the soft pads of his fingers continue to graze against your soft pussy lips, jay practically groans at how wet you are, already soaking through, creating a wet patch of your arousal.Â
he can feel your slick leaking onto his fingers, gently rubbing circles which made you gasp even more intensely.Â
"you're so wet babyâŚ" he mutters in between kisses and the only thing he could think about was sinking his fingers inside of you, imaging the way your walls instinctively clench at the lightest graze like you were trying to remember his touch and only his. "you're practically drippingâŚ..all this from kissing?" his soft lips detach from yours, the soft flesh peeling off yours like a soft retreat, his breath grazing your swollen lips. a dark gleam of lust shines over his eyes like the shy facade you saw from before was never there.Â
"orâŚ. is the thought of kissing your boyfriend's roommate turning you on." you feel your heart palpitate faster, and the words only make your knees buckle, giving him an answer you could never admit. he chuckles at the reaction of your body and the subtle hitch of your breath was giving him all that he needed to know. the bold act you painted on your face was replaced with shyness like you and him switched moods â returning the desire of your own arousal that you wanted to break. the room is quieter, the air has thicken, and the sounds of your soft, ragged breathing was the aftermath of the desires that were still meant to be explored. his lustful gaze turned into something softer, looking at you like you were the most precious thing he's ever held. but the moment he blinks, it becomes something more darker, more raw of emotions that he couldn't contain, looking at you that makes your throat run dry and the words you want to voice out suddenly couldn't escape your lips.Â
"oh? acting all shy on me? what happened to wanting to find out the truthâŚ..cat got your tongue?" you noticed how he was able to hold his gaze, his features softening with patience as the weight of his stare never made you uncomfortable but conflicted and apprehensive of your choice of words.Â
"n-no.." you softy gasp as the friction pooling on your lower body was making you feel dizzy.Â
"c'mon babyâŚ.talk to me." you feel your strength slipping away from your grasp, the pulse in between your legs was growing intense and unbearable.Â
jay watches as your composure was dozing off, your hands were clutching onto his shirt, using it as a support mechanism as you were fighting back against the intoxicating pleasure.
"tell me what you want. use your words." the hand that was gripped around your waist, slowly grabbed a fistful of your hair, yanking your head back, exposing your soft, delicious neck.Â
his lips graze along your jaw-line, leaving feather-light kisses as he begins to anchor lower, kissing every surface of your neck. his warm breath was kissing your skin, adding more onto your pleasure that made it hard to brush off. your panties were practically carrying a pool of your slick as his fingers kept up the slow agonizing pace. your pussy was desperately aching to be pleasured, heat binding with your dripping arousal and your sweat coated skin. his lips were marking your skin with kisses that were bringing you closer to a state of bliss, lips warm and dangerously smooth.Â
"i-i want youâŚmmph.." a soft, stuttering gasp escapes your mouth, jay could feel the vibrations on his lips which only made him writhe with a crave for more.Â
"you're gonna have to be more specific babydoll.." he mutters against your skin, dripping with hunger.Â
"need you so bad jayâŚ.need you inside of me." your voice, soft and cursed. your nerves thrumming for desperation, your body only responding to his subtle touches. the friction was building up as he rubbed soft circles against your core, building a sweltering yet dizzying heat. you looked at him and all you could see was a man who was holding back for so long, not because of avoidance but because of build up tension.Â
never in a long time he would ever think his roommate's girlfriend would confront him in his own room. urgently trying to break this facade that you know is fake and a way to understand what he's really feeling. but you don't realize how bad he's been holding his urges like he knew that the smallest crack could potentially ruin his chances of a friendship he has built with you and he never wants to lose that.Â
so the only way he found to suppress any tension was by avoiding it all, not realizing how much worse that the choice was worse than confrontation.Â
jay felt surreal in the moment, like the impossible became the possible. the way you squirmed under his touch was a moment he waited for a long time, to feel even closer to you, instead of those slight grazes against your arm or accidentally bumping each other and his hands would find themselves on your waist to scoot past you like his subtle touches wouldn't send a rising heat on your skin.Â
in reality, he didn't really know exactly what you felt. the truth was never written in your face or it never pointed the obvious. but you grew quite fond of him, the way his voice was so gentle, his touch was so delicate like holding you was the most fragile thing, and it was. though, he wouldn't never touch something so fragile, worried that he would break or crack your shell.Â
but his touches were expressing the exact opposite, if you cracked, he would pick up the pieces that were neglected and glue them back together. but you were starting to falter like your control was wilting and submitting to every flick, graze that his skin against yours was igniting fire.Â
"say it again baby. i wanna hear you say it." his hot breath ghosts over your lips, stained from his excitement, his low voice spiked shivers down your spine.Â
"i want you inside of me pleaseâŚ.I need you inside me so fucking bad." you whine and clutch against his shirt, biting your lip to hide your own noises. jay notices immediately and only smirked at the remark. the voice of your desperate aching voice was music to his ears and asking to be filled, satisfied â ruined.Â
his other hands find themselves on your neck again, bringing you closer as his soft plump lips connects with yours yet again, smirking as you could feel mutter a soft curse like he was trying to hold himself back.Â
"fuckâŚ. i can't take it anymore, i need you right now." he picks you up and you let out a yelp as your lips were still connected, you wrap your legs around his waist as your arms were locked around his neck while your tongues were battling with desire.Â
he walks towards his bed, walking ever so gently as he stopped at the edge, carefully laying you down against the cold, perfect laid out sheets that was now wrinkled by the radiance of your warmth. your legs and his arms loosen around him, feeling his lips detach as they kiss through your fabricated figure, feeling the tenderness of his kisses burning through your barrier. you softly gasp as he aimed lower and lower, settling on the spot that he waited ages to be against.Â
you feel his nails brushing over your skin, your thighs slightly sensitive to the lightest touches that you shiver in response. it was subtle but tortuous, his warmth against yours only added to the overwhelming heat, your soft pussy lips begging to be touched, dripping along your fully soaked underwear which left a huge wet patch, almost like it was overflowing in your arousal.Â
his hands soon disappeared from under your nightgown dress, his knuckles pulsing through the fabric, hooking his fingers on the thin strips of the waistband of your underwear. you feel it lightly peel off your skin, exposing your core to the cold draft, making you softly gasp. you can feel a string of fluid stretching from your soaked core to your panties, softly separating. you feel the fabric gliding from your shins, to your ankles, to your feet before the feeling soon disappeared.Â
"open your mouth for me." and you followed the way he stuffs your soaked panties on your mouth. "don't want him hearing how much of a begging mess you'll be when I ruin you." he lowly growls and his tone was dangerous, almost foreshadowing of what's yet to come.
you watch how he almost salivates at the sight of your body like a plate of his favourite dessert was served. you swear his eyes dilated as he slowly lifted the bottom of your dress up your body, the fabric settling on your stomach as he licked his bottom lip, watching the way his adam's apple bobbed from how intensely he swallowed, you could feel his hunger from beneath you and how his muscles were so tensed just by being close to you. you don't know what's going through his mind but just as you met his eyes, the only thing you could see was pure desire.Â
he tugs you a bit to bring you closer to his face, you could feel his hot breath against your core and the patterns were soft but exaggerated like he was trying to calm himself down from doing something he cannot reverse. he was chasing onto something he couldn't wait to have, and your soft moans were enticing him further and further.Â
the last thing you see was his tongue darting out before you whipped your head back onto the mattress, feeling the warm, wet sensation licking a stripe of your slick, a good portion of your taste splurged on his tongue and he groans as your sweet taste.Â
he buries himself deeper into your exposed core, fully making out just as he did with you. you gasp at how his tongue was reaching in places that made you arch so intensely, you were almost choking on your moans.Â
the tip of his tongue was tickling your hole, feeling every flick as it lightly grazes the hollow entrance. his hands were glued onto your plump thighs, holding onto them like if he loosen his grip, you would disappear. he wanted to mark you, claim you as his own, imprint his hands in places that he wants you to remember.Â
he wanted the feeling of his touches to linger on your skin whenever you thought about him, whenever you would say his name, he wanted his name to be a constant reminder of how time turned the tension, biting at every second every-time your mind drifted to him, he was obsessed with you â more than he could ever express.Â
your legs feel a ping of pressure as his nails were pushing deeper, feeling your muscles protecting your exterior. your hands were clutching onto the sheets, the fabric was loosening from the tight restraint of the mattress. you didn't notice how loud you were getting, not when he was making you feel so good, almost like you were in a dream.Â
"shhh not too loud. don't wanna wake him up now." he stops, his warm breath brushing against you, your body twitches as you already missed the feeling of his lips pleasuring you, whining in response. "quiet down baby..you'll get what you want.." he softly pampers you, his silken tone making you crave even more.Â
he presses gentle kisses along your swollen folds, sending vibrations as you felt every groan, every lick. his tongue was working expertly, making you lose your mind every second, not realizing that your thighs were trapping his head in. he paid no attention to the fact that you were suffocating him, he groans, loving the way you've trapped him like you never wanted to let go.Â
and you whimper as the pleasure became unbearable to control. your toes curl as you can feel him inserting his tongue inside you, making you gasp, almost to the point you were choking on your own breath.Â
"mmm fuck!" moans muffled from your panties softening your voice. from the sounds you're making, it seemed like you were holding back. you wanted to scream â yell. you didn't care if your voice got hoarse, your body's control was getting consumed by jay's, piping every inch of you.Â
every plunge of his tongue made you tighten around him like a vacuum, wanting the sensation to linger, wanting to taste more of his touch. "you taste so good.." he mutters, alternating between sucking and fucking your aching hole like he was waiting for the trigger. he was so envious of his roommate, a sense of jealousy coiling in his stomach as your moans were fluttering in his ears; how could you taste so addicting.Â
a question that he couldn't decipher in his mind. he wondered a moment where he met you first, maybe his first time with you would be traditional, just like any other person who wanted to get to know someone for the first time. though, he couldn't complain because for the first time ever, you reciprocated his feelings or could it be called feelings?Â
it didn't matter to him, he could be your little secret or anything you want him to be. although, he wanted to build an connection, maybe getting to know you outside of short talk, subtle interactions â anything to get to close with you.Â
"mmmmfâŚi can'tâ" a soft whimper escapes, your body shivers out of sensitivity, his movements were deliberate, slow, in a way that he has been practicing for this exact moment, almost like he was following a playbook.Â
"sorry babyâŚyou just taste so good, i can't help myself." your soft thighs were still squishing his head, they were so warm, so silky â he can literally fall asleep in between your legs. the way they tug against his head with every shift of his tongue, he could feel the intensity of pleasure rocking against your body, flinching like his touch was sparking flames through your skin. you gasp â deep and sharp, your mouth agape as the motions hit deeper in your core, not too intense but enough to earn another sharp gasp.Â
your panties were practically useless at this point, it couldn't shield the moans that were coming out but instead it was acting like decoration, with no sense of purpose. your hands fling their way onto his hair, grabbing a fistful of his silken strands, bundling in between your fingers.Â
you tug as a jolt of pleasure throws onto your body, causing him to hiss. his hair was messier, a few strands sticking up, purely a mess of your bliss. the pain was bearable but not enough to distract him, his soft patterns of hisses and breaths sent vibrations through you and his eyes look up at you with a dark, possessive feel to them.Â
his orbs were staring you with hunger but with admiration. in a way that makes him want more even though he knew he had to be careful. he couldn't let any evidence of him on you, not even the faintest mark or the slightest tint of flush on your skin. as much as he wanted to mark you as his own, he couldn't let himself reveal his truth on your body.Â
it was too risky.Â
though it was his second time where he was placed in between your legs. the moment seemed more livid, more intense. his heart flutters in his chest, he couldn't begin to fathom the feeling that was stirring up inside of him â was it adrenaline, anxiety or was it the anticipation?Â
he can feel his body heating up and the bulge in his pants growing tighter and tighter, with every breath he makes, it felt like his clothes were getting tighter like they were suffocating his arousal, trying to keep him grounded. it was getting too much, to the point where he could feel his urges slipping from his grasp like they were leading him to take what he truly wants, to listen to his own desire, to claim the thing he treasured most â even if he shielded himself.Â
the more he tastes you, the higher his arousal started to churn in the pit of his stomach, he knew he couldn't contain himself any longer, no matter how many times he tried to push it aside.Â
you tugged a bit harder on his hair when you finally feel a deep push of his tongue entering your aching hole. you gasp, sharp and deep â every breath choked by your pleasure and the pressure of arousal grasped your body like he wanted you to savour this feeling, to forget the sensation you felt before, wipe the lust that stuck onto you like glue.Â
"f-fuckâŚ..mmmmph." you closed your eyes, trying to hold your breath and relax your body but your hands kept a tight iron grip on the sheets, muscles tightening under your skin. you feel the way his tongue moves inside you, slithering around your hollow core, feeling every pulse of your walls tightening around him. he was buried deep into your scent, he could taste how desperate you became, how your body was submitting to every touch like it was made to command every demand, every push and pull he makes like he found your trigger.Â
"i love the way your body squirms for meâŚi can feel you're getting close babydoll~" he smirks, feeling amused by your subtle flinches. you could only whine in response with your body giving all the answers he needed to hear.Â
he needed you to crumble, to break, to fill this sense of pride he was hiding. he wanted to prove he was better, way fucking better than what you already had, give you ten times the pleasure.Â
he wanted your eyes rolled back, voice hoarse to the point where your vocal cords completely lose all their power, your thighs shaking uncontrollably and your delicious moans that he wanted to salvage in.Â
he wanted his name to be chanted out like a prayer, listen to you begging him to slow down, weakly reaching out to ease off his rough control, touching his skin that would make him easily melt into your grasp. he wanted to feel it all â your desperation. your command to be pleased.Â
you could feel his tongue springing up and down slowly making your back arch, almost forming a "u" shaped curve. both of your hands were tugged on his hair, grabbing two fistfuls of his silken strands tangled in between your delicate fingers. your noises were getting louder and louder, almost to the point where the walls couldn't shield you.Â
you slowly began becoming careless, forgetting that you had to be quiet, only to be reminded by jay. "shhh quiet down princess." you whimper but you were irritated. you began to feel annoyed because you knew that jay was purposefully trying to make you yell, just to spite the tension. the room thickens with hunger as you begin to feel your climax, your thighs instinctively trapped his head as you feel his nose bumping against your clit as he sucks your swollen folds, alternating between kisses and flicking motions that tickled your gummy walls.Â
jay swore that he was going to cum in his pants just by hearing you squeal as he ravaged your overstimulated pussy. "j-jay p-pleaseâŚ" your words were muffled but he immediately understood that you were reaching your limit.Â
he continued to bury deep into your scent like he had a mission to complete. your core tightens, your stomach coils as you begin to shake. your grip on his hair became painful but he found it to be a pleasurable type of pain. much to your horror, his motions never slowed down, it only became faster and faster, flinching hard as he tickled your sensitive spots.Â
"mmph!" you spill all over his tongue, painting his mouth white. you feel your slick spill down your folds, streaming endlessly. you could feel him swallow every drop, licking every crevice.Â
your body begins to relax, the tension beginning to calm down. the muscles started to loosen up, your grip unwinding on his hair. your chest heaves up and down while your heartbeat was still rapidly pulsing, almost vibrating out of your skin.Â
you opened your legs a bit wider, releasing jay's head from your grasp. you feel a cold chill down your spine as the cool wind brushes against the warmth of his presence. a string of your juice disconnects from his lips, you looked down to see his mouth glisten as some of it also dripped down his chin.Â
judging by his face, he looked dazed like he couldn't form a single thought. he couldn't comprehend a single word to describe the moment, he was so infatuated like a kid who discovered the heavenly taste of ice cream. you saw how his hair was slightly messy but a bit more calmed down.Â
his eyes immediately locked onto yours and they were dark. heavy with possessiveness and you didn't know if you should feel scared or excited. he plants light kisses on the inside of your thighs, dangerously gentle as the warm wet feeling began to rise higher and higher. he bites the soft flesh, making you whimper. the indent leaving its mark, branding you.Â
he stands up, towering over your overstimulated body. in a flick of a switch, you found yourself flipped onto your stomach, causing you let out a small yelp. you felt his hands grip your waist, pulling your lower body towards him, positioning on all fours, aligning your ass with his crotch. you were faced towards a mirror, the sight was erotic â too sinful.Â
you were bent over by your boyfriend's roommate. and you didn't feel sort of remorse or any guilt. you were just as sick as jay. a fantasy that you could never turn back from.Â
your mouth was still stuffed with your panties, soaked in your saliva. through the mirror, you see him extending one of his arms and through your peripherals, his hand was flat like he was asking. "open your mouth." you obey, watching the soaked fabric fall onto his hand. he discards it on the floor, letting it rot. he watches you through the mirror, lowering his sweatpants just enough to reveal the aching tent hidden under his boxers. a graze of his hard on made you shiver, your pussy clenching around nothing out of pure excitement. you lowers his boxers, his dick slapping against his abdomen. it leaks with pre-cum, desperately aching to be relieved. he holds the base, tapping against your wet core. it glides in between your folds, the friction making your thighs wobble. "you're so wetâŚ.all this for me?" he chuckles as he coats himself with your juices.Â
"just put it inside of me." you answer with an annoyed tone.
SMACK!Â
a huge slap reverberates around the room, your ass flushed with a pink mark. you yelp in response, his playful smirk replaced with a terrifying expression. "say it nicely." a low growl, eyes snapped with desire.Â
the shy act he portrayed was no longer there, almost like someone possessed his body. or maybe you never knew this side of him. his gazes were gentle, his control was soft and reverent, almost too harmful. his heart never screamed rough or aggressive, he always came off as delicate, composed and sweet. his tone was always reassuring and soothing like a lullaby.Â
your boyfriend always described him as a placid soul. he was a quiet, reserved and kind of hard to figure it out. he preferred the quiet compared to distractions, solving things by himself rather than asking for help. he chose isolation but when it came to you, he wanted to break that.Â
he knew how to talk but his brain short circuits whenever he tries to. full rehearse sentences became stutters he couldn't control, his voice became softer and quieter like a whisper because he was scared of saying something that he know he'll regret. he wanted to start a connection but something was always holding him back, your boyfriend.Â
you wanted to figure him out, to learn â to taste.Â
"please put it inside of meâŚ" you slowly backed your ass against his crotch, wiggling your hips just a bit. you feel his fingers tighten around your waist, feeling a seethe of frustration. he drags his tip along your folds, roaming closer to your entrance. your cum soaked entrance was painting his tip milky white, he pushes slowly, earning a soft whimper from your lips.Â
through the mirror, you watch how he bit on his lower lip and the way his eyebrows furrowed the more he inserted himself. you can feel every pressure of his hands as they grip tighter around your waist like the feeling was too much to bear. you moan softly, your legs shaking as he push his cock deeper.Â
your walls clenching hard around him like an iron grip, he groans at the warm sensation, throwing his head back. the feeling felt so euphoric, almost like he believed this was all a dream. he didn't know if this was reality or a dream he's been yearning for. his heart stutters in his chest, the room felt too hot, too suffocating, the more the pleasure became intense, the heat engulfs on his skin. what makes it worse is when the little noises you make whenever his hips make slight adjustments â his hunger becomes something he became scared about.Â
he was so touch deprived, he craved for your touch that seemed impossible to desire. the distance he felt with you was so close but yet so far. he didn't believe in that 1%, it seemed too unrealistic.Â
but maybe that 1% seemed achievable after all.Â
"shit you're so tightâŚ.tighter than i imagined." he seethes, groaning against you as he reached the end. his entire length was inside of you, your walls were so warm, toasty â comforting. he wanted to move so bad but he was worried if you weren't ready yet. "mmphâŚy-you're so big.." you whimpered, your face flushed and body trembling. your voice came out like a soft pamper, and jay swore he almost came just at the sound. "are you okay? if it's too much, i can just-" his voice immediately turned into panic.Â
"n-no noâŚi'm okay. i want this."Â
"are you sure?"Â
"yes." you whisper."Â
"if it gets too much, just tell me to stop and i will." the softness of his tone made you feel relieved, like the words just settled in places that felt tight on your skin, like the moment was something he wanted you to treasure and remember him by. your breath hitches when you started to feel movement, the slow glide of his hips as he pulls your body towards him in rhythmic patterns. each thrust was smooth and gentle, the type that makes you relish in the feeling more than ripping you out.Â
the slow intense pace was more intoxicating than the rough, rapid feeling you were used to. it felt more real and raw. it didn't feel like two people fucking to feel the pleasure but instead it felt like the pleasure was more than just feeling good. it was steady, careful and a connection that seemed to spark that just made your thighs and your body feel so tight. you arched your back, letting your chest lay against the mattress and your head faced down.Â
"o-oh fuck jayâŚ" the sounds of skin against skin became more lewd as the room fell into silence. he watches how your body reacts to every move he made, your slick coated every inch of him as your walls made him more dizzy and interrupt his thoughts. jay groans as he leans lower, kissing your shoulders, leaving sweet inducing pecks all over you that make you shiver.Â
you feel his hot breath graze against his shoulders, murmuring sweet pampers that makes your stomach flutter. "you're so beautiful, so pretty, so addictive." you rose your head up, seeing the lewd scene of jay pounding into you sweetly, it almost felt invasive.Â
"you're so pretty for me babyâŚ" you made eye contact through the mirror and his gaze looked so dangerous like sin was staring straight at you. you wanted to hide your flushed face but you hear his voice curling into your ears. "don't hide from me sweet girlâŚ.watch how i fuck you." he chuckles, analyzing the way your body shivers with every push and pull he makes. he stares at the sight, watching the way you unfold under his touch, speaking words that only made him want to hear more. he gives a few more sweet kisses along the back of your shoulders, each kiss creating a heat to surge through you as he continued to pump you full.Â
he lifts himself, kepping up the pace as he tried stabilizing your body to punch deeper into your core. you shriek, slamming a hand on your mouth to quiet your noises but it couldn't cover the mess he was bringing out of you. you felt hot, dizzy and overstimulated, his hands firmly on your waist, dick pulling in and out of you in steady motions. your breaths broken, matching with every beat that his hips make and you could barely keep your eyes open. your hands roamed around trying to find a nearest object to keep you quiet but you could barely register your control, it was slipping away from your grasp as the pleasure build deeper and deeper in your core. you bit your finger, hoping it was enough to quiet down.Â
jay snakes a hand gliding towards your neck, grabbing your hair like it was a leash, causing you to pull back a bit, forcing your eyes to look at the state he was putting you in. and you feel a twinge that made your body flinch, he was hitting your cervix and you gasp â sharp and broken. your lips part, a delicious high pitch moan that made jay want to swallow your noises, be the only noise he wanted to hear so he penetrates that exact same spot, making you yell even louder.Â
"j-jayâŚ.fuckâŚ.you feel so good.." you cry out, whining as you feel your body losing its last bit of strength. you could barely register a thought, the pleasure beginning to burn and reach for your limit.Â
"tell me do i fuck you better than him." he pants, in between thrusts, trying to chase the answer from you. your lips part but no words escape, just soft moans.Â
he kisses his teeth, slightly annoyed. he tugs your hair a bit. "don't make me repeat myself." his voice, stern and cold, making you yelp at the pain. "y-yes so much better â fuck!" he releases his grip from your hair and starts pounding into you faster and more harsher than before. the lewd noises of the mixture of your juices, they become louder with every shift of his thrusts. its hard and agonizingly addicting, it was hitting spots you didn't know that would make you trigger. it was tight, deliberate and precise.Â
his hands on your hips had a mean grip, dragging you into him harder, every angle only making the room feel hotter and your bodies drive themselves into their climaxes. he groans â broken and desperate. you can feel his pace growing sloppier but he was able to still control the rhythm. he was addicted to the way you were squeezing him so tight, the way your body crumbles beneath him like he was watching his motions were truly breaking through you.Â
the thought of claiming you was so wrong, so filthy. maybe he wasn't a good person than he was painted out to be, maybe he was never good, this whole time he was probably a liar, a hypocrite â or a narcissist.Â
"you're mine, you hear me. mine." the possessiveness grips onto him, hungry and desperate. his control grew tight with tension. his hips struck hard with brutal thrusts, he grunts, stuttering with your walls growing tighter. you were squeezing every last drop within him, he could sense that your limit was approaching.Â
you feel him twitching inside. sliding his cock in and out, creating friction that makes you weaker the more he creates tension. "you're taking me so goodâŚ.mmp â fuck." his moans become louder, more broken as yours became more desperate for a release. "j-jay i'm getting c-close." you turned your head, watching how he was pumping you full and his eyes flutter as the pleasure became deep and sensitive.Â
"cum on my cock princess. cum for me." he commands, and the last minute he picked up the pace. the slaps of skin reverberated around the room, echoing with every thrust. your walls were clenching around him tight, your slick making it the pleasure grow sensitive as it spilled out of you, streaming down your thighs. "jay i'm gonnaâ" and then you spill all around him as he gives you the last remaining thrusts before you were painted with a hot milky substance filling you up to the brim. you rolled your hips a bit, pushing against him to store his fluids deeper. both of your voices die out and the vibration of your heartbeat was the only thing you could hear. your skin was hot and sweaty, face flushed, eyes fluttering.Â
"you okay?" he pushes your hair away from your neck, instantly feeling a nice breeze down your skin. "y-yeah just need to catch my breath." you were still held in the same position until you hear the door knob creak and the hard wooden panel door slowly unravel.Â
oh shit.
"hey bro have u seenâwhat the fuck."Â
you and jay freeze on the spot, looking with horror.Â
"h-hey manâŚâŚyou need something?" jay awkwardly chuckles.Â
oh he is so screwed.Â
lolli's notes â˰ pt 2 is finally out after god knows how long.....
lolli: you've completed the objective! what's your plan now? before you explore, proceed with caution. flashing lights might appear at times so be prepared in advance. have fun!!!
you keep dreaming of the same man, someone you swore you have never actually met. he appears in your dreams regularly, always covered in blood. when you're tasked to sketch the face of a serial killer who has been wrecking havoc in your town, you realise exactly why he looks so familiar.
GENRE â smut, dark content, serial killer au, supernatural au
WARNINGS â mostly dubcon but some noncon too, stalking, murder, lots of supernatural elements, character deaths, reader is kinda fucked in the head, internal crisis, hickeys, making out, fingering, slight spanking, backshots, riding, creampie, lmk if more!
WORD COUNT â 14.2k
NOTE â if you notice the writing style change in the middle, no you didn't.
âthird time in a row. our culprit can officially be declared a serial killer.â
you looked up from the body, turning your attention towards chief kang. he was already looking at you. âwouldnât you agree?â
you glanced back towards the body. same relaxed posture, one hand over his eyes, legs carelessly posedâit almost looked like he was still alive, just peacefully sleeping. but his skin was turning ashy, limbs rigid. and the rose.
god, the rose.
you had no idea what could possibly be itâs significanceâif it at all had one. the victims always seemed to âholdâ a rose with one hand on their chest. the roses always had no thorns, the petals always fresh when the body was first found. perhaps, it was just the killerâs way of showing that it was indeed his work, but you begged to differ. it had to be more than just a claim, there is always more to the story than such simple explanations.
snapping back to reality, you realized that you hadnât answered your superior yet. âyes sir, i do.â
the chief let out a hum, looking back at the body. the town was small enough for everyone to know everyone, so it wouldnât be hard to dig up every piece of information on the victims. at the end of the day, every serial killer had a pattern. this rose lover should also have one.
âdetective lee,â the chief suddenly said, turning his attention towards your co-worker and friend. âdid you investigate florist kim?â
heeseung was quick to respond. âyes sir, we completed the investigation yesterday itself. please accept my apologies for not informing you earlier.â
the chief waved his hand dismissively. ânot a big deal. now tell me what you figured out.â
heeseung pulled out a bunch of pictures from the file in his hands. he pointed to the first picture. âthis,â he said. âis a picture of the rose on the victimâs body. they always have the exact same type of rose.â he flipped the pictures to show the roses on the other victims too.
âand this,â he said, flipping the pictures to show fresh roses inside a greenhouse. âis a picture of the roses florist kim sells. he said he only sold red roses, since black ones cannot grow around our area. i asked around to confirm, and he was indeed telling the truth.â
he chief let out a dissatisfied hum. âyet another dead end. the killer could be right among us and we wouldnât know because we donât have a single clue.â
you let out a small sigh. there werenât too many people who could possibly classify as suspects in this town, yet catching the killer or even getting a lead on him seemed practically impossible. âi can deploy some people to ask around, try to find any kind of a common link for me sketch a face. detective sim can use his computer skills to dig up information on all victims and possible suspects. detective lee can stay around the crime sites to find out any fingerprints or tiny pieces of evidence the rest of us might have missed.â
the chief nodded. âsounds good.â he patted your shoulder, as he started making his way back to the car. âthis is exactly why youâre one of my favorites. you know when to lead, and exactly how to lead, along with how to correctly deploy resources.âÂ
you only lowered your head at his words. you were well aware that his favoritism was unprofessional. but you, jake, and heeseung were truly the best detectives in the entire town. everyone in town relied on the three of you whenever any major crime happened, the chief being no exception.
he looked around at all three of you. âif you three can successfully find our killer, i will personally fund a vacation for each of you.â
the three of you glanced at each other. a vacation? now that was thrilling. âof course sir. we will give our best regardless.â
the chief gave one last proud smile, before climbing into his car. being the chiefâs only direct subordinates meant most of the work load was on you three. especially since the three of you had extra talents.
you for example, had your love for art, which caused you to become the forensic artist of your town, despite there not being an official post for such a job. jake was exceptionally good with electronic devices, especially computers. heeseung had a keen eye for details, which caused him to easily find things which others may have missed. tiny details, which would turn out to actually be crucial details.
you nodded to jake and heeseung, before going into your own car. your subordinates followed quickly, getting in with you. you sighed, massaging your head. your assistant buckled his seatbelt, getting ready to drive. âwhere should we go, maâam?â
you didnât respond, lifting your head up and looking at the files in front of you. you picked them up, flipping through them. each murder was so cleverly conducted, not a single scratch on any of their bodies. the cause of death was unknown, the autopsy on the first body still being conducted. apparently the result would be known by tomorrow. but until then, there was absolutely no clue.
âtake us to the first victimâs neighborhood. maybe we will find some answers there.â
vines surrounded you everywhere, the thorns prickling you continually. black roses adorned the vines beautifully, the scene equivalent to an ancient graveyard, the calmness of the place unsettlingly serene.
you forced your feet to forge ahead, despite the prickles. it was only then that you realized a terrifying factâthere was blood everywhere, drenching everything. the smell suddenly changed, from the sweet subtle smell of roses to the metallic smell of blood and rot.
your feet trudged ahead, almost on autopilot. the smell made you nauseous and lightheaded, but it was as if someone was maneuvering you like a puppet, forcing you to walk ahead despite yourself.
eventually, a gazebo came into view. it was white as snow, the rose vines wrapping around it. the blood dripped down from the vines, the droplets flowing down the pillars of the gazebo. but the most peculiar thing about the whole ordeal was the man standing in the middle of the gazebo.
you walked faster, desperate for answers. once you reached the gazebo, you hesitated. you looked at the unfamiliar man in front of you, really looked at him. his clothes were soaked in blood too. his back was turned to you, leaning on a pillar with his shoulder. he was looking down judging by the way his head was tilted downwards.
swallowing down your nervousness, you took a step forward. immediately, you slipped. before you could fall or even scream, a hand was around your waist, steadying you. a shocked gasp left you, followed by your labored breathing.
the unknown man was looking down at you, his lips curling up into a smirk that screamed menace. he helped you stand properly, before removing his hand from your waist. the loss of contact left a strange feeling in you, as if missing his warmth.
he looked you up and down, the look in his eyes becoming more and more unsettling by the minute. when he locked his gaze with yours again, it felt like you were hypnotized, with how he was pulling you in.
he raised one hand, brushing a stray strand of hair from in front of your eyes, tucking it behind your ear. you suddenly snapped back into reality, taking a step back. âdonât touch meââ
you gasped, waking up with a start. you blinked several times, eyes slowly becoming accustomed to the darkness. what was that?
you remembered your dream vividly, not a single detail amiss. how was that even possible? moreover, who was that man?
you shook your head. it was just a dream, why were you letting it bother you? besides, it was probably the stress of the case that was causing you to lose sleep, resulting in such weird dreams. that was it.
right?
âso," the chief took a sip of his tea. âdid any of you find anything?"Â
you sighed, looking down at your files. heeseung was massaging his temples. jake was the first to speak up.
âthere isn't any common pattern as such, but all three victims had some kind of dirt on them." jake passed a bunch of files to the chief. âthe first victim, yoon victoria, daughter of the chaebol yoon haneul, has a reputation for using money to get away with anything and everything."Â
the chief raised a brow. âanything and everything, you say?" he flipped through the files jake had placed in front of him. âplease, do elaborate."Â
âmaids and servants in general were always dismissed unfairly from her estate according to many, some even claiming that she had bribed many to keep their mouths shut about what went on inside there.â
by now, heeseung had stopped massaging his temples, and you stopped glaring at your files as if they might magically provide you with a clue. both of you were intently staring at jake as he spoke.
"but some people had still anonymously placed reports of the woman's bad temperament, which had allegedly resulted in the murder of a maid servant in her service. records say that the maid servant had apparently let her kid play with victoriaâs, something the chaebolâs daughter was not too happy about. she had apparently flipped out, and when the maid defended herself, victoria had thrown a knife lying near her. safe to say, the knife hit its target, killing the maid instantly.â
he paused to take a breath. âthe maidâs child was apparently thrown out and sent somewhere unknown, while her own kid was traumatized while seeing the scene. apparently the kid was watching from the top of the stairs, and fainted upon seeing what her mother did, causing her to and fall from the top of the stairs, dying shortly after.â
a sharp pain pierced through your temples, right as heeseung spoke. âthatâs⌠darker than expected.â
jake let out a hum. âit was really hard to find this out. there were all in old files in the locker room, and very old and unpopular articles on the internet. found out through theâoh, i almost forgot. she used to live in a city where all this happened, but after this incident she had shifted here. apparently she never really got over the loss of her child, causing her to grow mad over the years.â
massaging your temple, you let out a hum in agreement. victoria was well known for being insane, people always mostly avoiding her. once you bumped into her in the market by mistake, and before you could even apologize, she had grabbed your arms tightly. the look in her eyes were wild, as she called a name you didnât remember now. it took like three people to come and make her finally part from you.
the chief leaned back on his chair. âinteresting⌠what about the other two?â
jake rubbed the back of his head sheepishly. âdidnât get to find out anything about them yet, victoria alone took up a lot of time.â
the chief nodded. âno worries, this alone was a lot of help. thank you for your service, detective sim.â
jake bowed in politeness. chief kang now turned to you and heeseung. âwhat about you two? any updates on your sides?â
you shook your head. ânot a single person in the entire neighborhood noticed anything amiss. not even a hooded figure, or someone at a place they are not supposed to be, nothing out of the ordinary.â
heeseung spoke next. âi searched up the entire site, and even more. i even had my team dig up a lot of areas, but nothing. not a single thing amiss, or anything out of place. its as if any kind of admissible evidence was taken by the killer, or we are missing something very obviously hidden.â
the chief nodded. âi believe youâre right. the autopsy on victoria must be over by now, so we will know the cause of death pretty soon.â
right on que, one of your subordinates burst into the room, files in hand. âchief!â he quickly placed the files down in front of him. âthese are the autopsy results.â
the chief nodded to him. âthank you, officer park. you may take your leave now. and in future, please make sure to knock first.â
officer park bowed, embarrassed, before quickly leaving. the chief flipped through the pages, his brows furrowing.
unable to contain your curiosity, you asked, âwhat is it chief?â
the chief looked puzzled, as he continued to read the same page over and over again. âit says the victim died of undiagnosed diabetes? there were no signs of any kind of external or internal injuries otherwise.â
the three of you looked at each other, dumbfounded. that was⌠unexpected to say the very least. âbutâthat canât be right.â heeseung spoke up. âitâs obviously a murder, the position of their bodies, and the black rose in their hands⌠it just doesnât make sense.â
the chief hummed, putting the files back on his desk. ânothing really makes sense. no forced entry, no signs of struggle, no signs that indicate actual murder. all except the weird position of their bodies and the rose.â
the chief sighed, before looking back at the three of you. âcontinue with the case. something is very amiss, and we need to get to the bottom of this. keep going with the investigation. all three of you have done a brilliant job till now, so donât stop yet.â
you and heeseung looked at each other. both of you had done absolutely nothing, jake was the one that did anything at all. but praise was praise, and who were you both to not accept it?
you got up from your seat. âiâll continue asking around in the second victimâs neighborhood then. see if i get any clues.â
heeseung got up as well. âiâll go there as well. maybe thereâs some kind of evidence we missed out in there.â
jake gave a two finger salute. âiâll go dig up stuff about the other two victims.â
the chief nodded in appreciation. âvery good. please do carry on.â
that same garden. the same prickly vines. same black roses. all of course, drenched in blood. and in the middle of it all, the gazebo. hauntingly beautiful, drenched in crimson. same man standing in the middle of it, staring at you with a look that caused goosebumps to rise all over you.
he offered you his hand. you looked at him in the eyes. should you really trust him? nevertheless, you placed your own hand in his outstretched one, letting him pull you inside the gazebo.
as you stood face to face with him, your curiosity and anxiety, both grew in equal measure. âwho are you?â
raising a brow, he smirked. he raised his hand, caressing your cheek. you flinched, but still let him do it. his touch felt strangely comforting, yet your guard remained up. after all, you still had no idea who the hell this guy was.
the look in his eyes had taken over a more melancholic edge, which left you confused. what even were you supposed to make of it? not only was this strange man covered in blood, he wasnât speaking. and he kept finding ways to touch you. normally that would have rang alarm bells in your head, but as the saying goes, curiosity killed the cat. and you were curious as hell.
âwhy wonât you speak?â your brows furrowed, as you looked at him. his smirk only widened. he tilted his head, leaning close to your ear. you thought he was going to whisper something, but you were proved wrong quickly, as he bit your ear.
you gasped, trying to move away, but he held onto your waist tightly. soothing the bite with his tongue, he kissed the area. he trailed his kisses down to the bottom of your neck, making your breath hitch. he sucked on that spot, rubbing his tongue over the spot so deliciously, that it had you tilting your head from the pleasure.
a moan accidentally slipped out of you. encouraged, he sucked harder and harder, until he was satisfied. when he pulled his head back, your neck sported a bright red spot, blooming rapidly. satisfied with his work, he finally pulled away.
you snapped back to your senses, stepping away from him. his hands were in his pockets, as he stared at you with his signature smirk. you took another step backward, your hand covering the fast forming hickey on your neck. your head hit the pillar in the process, causing you to gasp.
you gasped, your eyes snapping open. your breathing was labored, as you stared at the ceiling. another dream? of the same man? what was going on? worst of all, you still remembered the dream vividly. the events had your face burning. what the hell was wrong with you?
having a weird feeling, you shot up from the bed, quickly going to your vanity table. you switched on the small light beside it. to your utter horror, there was a hickey forming on your neck. you hadnât been with anyone recently, hell you hadnât been with anyone in quite a long time. so howâ?
surely, the dream was simply a dream? you couldnât possibly have gotten the hickey because of⌠that dream, right? after all, it wasnât real.
right?
âany news?â the chief asked, as soon as he sat down.
heeseung looked at you. you shrugged, catching his gaze. he too shook his head. once again, the two of you had nothing.
jake spoke up. âwell⌠i did find something unexpected about our second victim.â
chief kang sat up straight. âunexpected, you say?â
jake let out a hum. âyeah. kim seil, the con artist. he used to be victoriaâs secret lover back in the day.â
âholy shitâŚâ heeseungâs voice rang out, before he quickly slapped his own palm over his mouth, immediately apologizing for the profanity. but the information was almost incredulousânot that you didnât trust jake, his ability to dig up information was amazingâso his reaction was completely valid.
jake continued. âbefore victoria allegedly committed the murder, she used to have an affair with our second victim.â
âhuh,â you scoffed. âso the victims do have a pattern.â
he went on. âwhen victoria gave birth, her husband was suspicious of whether the kid was really his or not. he had been suspicious for the entire duration of her pregnancy, since apparently the timing of her getting pregnant and the two of them sleeping together, did not match up. after the kid was born, he did a paternity test, the result showing that he was in fact, not the father.â
heeseung leaned on his palms. âthe tea just keeps getting better and better.â
jake gave him a side eye, before continuing. âupon learning the news, the husband divorced victoria. the actual father, was seil. once victoria got divorced, she actively sought his company, although their affair remained an affair, never growing into something more serious.â
taking a deep breath, he continued. âhe visited their kid often, and was quite a present father. when the alleged murder happened, he helped victoria, but ultimately left her, since his kid died under her protection. even so, he shifted to the same town as her, since he felt bad about her mental state.â
you leaned back on your chair. âand then he died. right after her.â
the chief looked at the three of you. âi suppose the three of you have deduced who our main suspect is? if, of course, all the alleged information is in fact true.â
you let out a hum. âthe maidâs kid. butââ you looked at jake. âhow come all the information is alleged?â
jake shrugged. âitâs all recorded as servant gossip. and all the complaints were by servants too. nothing is proven. so yes, it is all alleged.â
the chief opened a file placed in front of him. âthe autopsy report is here. the cause of death is the exact same. undiagnosed diabetes.â
you rubbed your temples, sighing. you suddenly felt very aware of the hickey on your neck, which you spent almost twenty minutes in the morning trying to conceal. not only was there a mystery to solve out there in reality, but also in your dreams. curse your terrible living quarters for your terrible sleep which induced such mind boggling dreams. ones that left marks physically outside of the dream.
once again, you were back in the garden. the gazebo was right in front of you as well. this time, the strange man was looking straight at you.
âi was waiting for you,â he said, pushing himself off the pillar. his voice was beautiful. it had this raspy edge to it that made your knees weak.
you raised a brow. âyou finally spoke,â
he only smirked, offering you his hand. âwell⌠you kept me waiting, so i grew impatient. which is why i broke my pattern.â
you tilted your head. warily, you took his hand, letting him pull your inside the gazebo. he was yet again too close to you. but this time, before he could touch you, you stopped him. âdonât.â
his hand froze midway. he raised a brow. âwhatâs the matter?â
you shook your head. âjust⌠donât. donât touch me.â
he clenched his jaw, but stepped back. although reluctantly so. you spoke again. âwill you please tell me who you are? it is frustrating to experience these⌠weird dreams over and over again, whenever i sleep, without knowing anything at all as to what is going on. or even who i keep encountering.â
the man chuckled. âis that so?â
you frowned at his rhetorical question, while he only continued to stare at you with amusement. after a few beats of silence, he spoke, âjungwon.â
you blinked. âjungwon?â
he nodded. âthatâs my name.â
furrowing your brows, you tilted your head in confusion. âdo you live in our town?â
he shrugged. âsomething like that.â
your frown became bigger. âwhat is that supposed to mean?â
he only smirked in response. âfind that out yourself, detective.â
his words unintentionally caused your cheeks to flush. ignoring your bodily reactions, you instead focused on his clothes. âwhy are you always soaked in blood? and in this weird garden?â
his smirk grew wider. âcuriosity killed the cat, detective. we should leave some of the mystery for our next meetings.â
you were quick to respond. âbut satisfaction brought it back. please, everything is so frustrating and blurry and just out of reachâplease answer some of my questions.â
jungwon only shook his head. âiâm afraid this is the best i can do for now. till our next meeting, ___â
you woke up with a gasp, panting as you stared at the ceiling. âjungwonâŚâ you whispered into the night, the name tasting familiar. it rolled off on your tongue perfectly, which made you wonder if you knew him. was he someone from your town? how come you couldnât remember him?
but right now, you had more important matters to focus on. the rose loving killerâs case, for example.
jake dropped a bunch of files in front of him. âthird victim, chae unjeong. a.k.a victoriaâs ex husband.â
you looked at heeseung. at this point, neither of you were surprised. the murders were obviously connected, so it made sense that the ex husband was also a victim.
jake continued. âafter the divorce, victoria had pleaded her case to unjeong a lot, but with no result. but one of the things victoria told unjeong to guilt trip him into staying was âstay for the sake of the childâ. even though it ultimately didnât work, he still probably felt guilty, since the poor child had nothing to do with the whole thing, and was only the product of the affair. so it wouldnât be fair for it to suffer the consequences. thus, he often sent money in the form of child support for it. obviously, victoria didnât use the money for those purposes, but that wasnât in unjeongâs knowledge.â
the chief muttered under his breath, âwhat a kind hearted manâŚâ
jake nodded, before continuing. âthere wasnât much else in the reports, other than the fact that when the alleged murder happened, he helped victoria as well. but the death of the kid had taken a toll on him too, which is why he shifted to this town.â
the chief hummed, flipping through the file in front of him. âhis death was apparently caused by the same thing. undiagnosed diabetes. this killer has to be the most impressive killer across history, except for the fact that he deliberately made it obvious that he murdered his victims. despite the autopsy reports showing otherwise.â
heeseung let out a hum. âi think i will go to each crime site again, and search for evidence in a wider radius. it feels simply impossible that all sorts of evidence is erased from every single crime site.â
you shrugged. âsuit yourself. i spent six hours or more each time i went to question entire neighborhoods. iâm more than certain i left out no one, so there is nothing more i can do from my side.â
heeseung got up from his chair. âin that case, iâll leave alone.â he looked at chief kang. âi hope itâs okay that iâm not taking my team with me either.â
the chief shrugged. âyouâre a grown man, with years of experience as a detective. itâs your decision. do what you feel is best.â
heeseung bowed, before stepping out. in the silence that followed, a nagging question that filled your mind ever since the first time you had those weird dreams, surfaced again. usually, you always pushed the question to the back of your mind because of how ridiculous it sounded, but then again, the cause of death for each victim was also pretty ridiculous. so you allowed yourself to ask the question.
was jungwon the killer?
it was already starting to get dark when heeseung arrived at victoriaâs house. weeds had already started growing, and a certain smell had started settling down on the entire property. nevertheless, he still trudged ahead.
he had already checked her entire houseâtwice at thatâwhich wasnât too hard because of how tiny it was. it wasnât even a house, more so a cottage. surprising choice, given that she was a chaebolâs daughter. but perhaps losing her own child had driven her to this state.
he went around the property again. the cottage was almost fully empty. there wasnât much of a point to search it all over again, since even if there really was any kind of evidence left, the killer would definitely have visited again to remove it. they always do.
still, he looked around. there was a pungent smell coming from her bedroom. it had been a week since victoriaâs death, so the smell was pretty justified. covering his mouth with a handkerchief, he looked through her dresser, and closet. it was all emptied out, the police having taken everything the day they came to first find her dead in her own bedroom. it was to find any kind of clue as to the cause of her death. unfortunately, as is already known, they were unsuccessful.
but heeseung was obviously not one to give up. not this quickly. he was persistent, and persistence was key when it came to solving such cases. so he overturned the mattress, before ultimately lifting the whole thing up and throwing it on the ground. thankfully he was wearing gloves, because the mattress had holes in it, which were obviously a result of rats chewing through the fabric.
it was a box bed, a fact that he already knew of, given, you know, the fact that he already searched the entire property multiple times. he opened the cover, the inside that was previously filled with sheets and other random objects, was now empty. the police had already confiscated everything.
still, he shone the flashlight inside the box. and thank god he did, because he saw this weird discolored part at the bottom, which was obviously not something he had noticed before. frowning, he pushed down on it, causing it to immediately give away. surprised, he stared at the now square shaped hole in the box.
realizing it was a false bottom, heeseung put his hand inside. his hand immediately came in contact with some sort of paper. groping around, he pulled out a stack of papers. shining the flashlight on them, he realized with a start that they were letters. dozens of them, all stacked at the bottom of the bed.
lifting one off the stack, he quickly realized that the letters were all unsent ones, written by victoria to her child. the first letter he picked up, was just victoria expressing her longing for her child, yearning to see her baby again.
reading through the letters, they all had the same content, victoriaâs desperation to see her child again. it was quite sad, really, but she had killed some innocent childâs mother, so he couldnât bring himself to feel quite sorry for her.
stuffing the letters in his pocket, he explored the rest of the house again. but unlike the bed, nothing else in the house seemed to hide any more secrets. disappointed, he headed out to the backyard. it was already dark now, but he wanted to go home without any regrets.
shining the flashlight on the fence, he explored the entire area. until a part of the fence seemed slightly lose. curious, he held the flashlight with his teeth, before pushing on the fence. he had noticed the hinge long back, but it had seemed locked each time he came to inspect it before. but this time it was different. with a bit more effort, he finally managed to pry it apart.
the fence opened to the woods. looking at the isolated house, there was a big chance that the murderer had come in through the fence. or well, it was just a possibility. he decided to explore a bit, just in case.
he walked quite a distance, before stepping on something uncomfortable. bending down, he shone his flashlight. it was a bunch of dead leaves, but he was certain it felt like something else. digging through the leaves, he came across a used syringe.
he slowly stood up, inspecting the syringe. there seemed to be some kind of residual liquid inside it. but before he could inspect it fully, a sharp pain exploded in the back of his head, making him drop the syringe. clutching his head, he dropped to his knees, groaning from the pain, before eventually blacking out.
when you entered your house, it was completely silent. just like it usually was. except this time, the silence felt⌠wrong. you were a detective, and years of doing your job had made you more wary of approaching danger. and this time, it was no different.
you looked around cautiously. nothing seemed amiss. still, you walked around with extra caution, hand on your gun, just in case. but even after searching your entire home, there was nothing out of the ordinary. yet, the weird feeling did not go away.
the reason for it soon became apparent, when you reached your bedroom. opening the door, you froze in place. sitting on your bed like he belonged there, was none other than the man from your dreams. jungwon.
your throat dried up. all instincts screamed at you to take your gun out and aim at him, but an unknown fear was gripping you so tightly that moving at all felt impossible.
jungwon on the other hand, was having the time of his life watching you. he tilted his head back with a smirk, enjoying the way an experienced police officer like you was so terrified at the mere sight of him, despite him never having done anything to you.
he patted the space beside him. âwonât you come sit?â
forcing yourself to breathe, you managed to ask, âwhat the hell are you doing inside my house?â
jungwon chuckled, getting up. âthatâs not a very nice way to talk to your guest, is it?â
your hand instinctively reached for your gun, but jungwon was faster. within seconds your hands were pinned to the door, jungwonâs face hovering dangerously close to your own.
âi wouldnât try that if i were you.â he muttered, eyes unabashedly dropping to your lips. with how fast your heart was beating from the proximity, you almost caved in, before remembering your profession. and the fact that this was an intruder, a complete strangerâwhat he was trying to do was wrong and unlawful on so many levels.
but jungwon seemed to be able to predict your every move. he suddenly twisted your body, pushing your face towards the door. your back was flush to his chest, as he pinned both your hands over your head with one hand, taking your gun out using the other. lifting the side of your perfectly ironed shirt with the gun, he teased your bare skin with it, running the gun back and forth on your waist.
âdonât even try, sweetheart. if i wanted to kill you, i wouldnât need a gun. and trust me when i say youâre no match for me.â
you were scared, terrified even. this wasnât a predicament you ever thought you would find yourself in. i mean, come on, youâre trained for these situations. you know self defence. so why is it so hard to do anything to defend yourself against a guy you know only from your dreams? more so, why was he so goddamn strong?
jungwon put his face into the crook of you neck, taking in a deep inhale. god, you smelled just the way he remembered. he couldnât help but lick a stripe up your neck, ignoring your gasp of horror. he lightly bit and sucked all over the area, trying to leave marks.
you sighed, the pleasure starting to overwhelm your rational brain. which was pretty dumb on your part, but after being touch starved for so long, you were⌠really sensitive. so you tilted your head, giving him more access. right on que, he sucked harder, pressing himself further into you. he threw the gun to the side, instead pushing his hand inside your shirt, opting to grope you without any obstacles.
he pushed his hand up, inside your bra, squeezing the soft flesh of your boobs. pulling his hand out, he unhooked your bra, before going right back to groping your tits. this time, without resistance. he pinched your perked up nipples, drawing whines out of you. you bit down on your bottom lip, trying to muffle any further sounds.
jungwon rolled your nipples in between his fingers, before flicking them. the way he was playing with them made them even more sensitive than before, your whines growing louder, gradually more unrestrained. slick started seeping out of your pussy, dampening your panties. you rubbed your legs trying to relieve the tension.
jungwon noticed. of course he did, he noticed everything about you. he knew everything about you. every. single. goddamn. thing. what put you off, what got you going, everything. so, when your whines started turning shaky, he smirked. he stopped groping your chest, opting to fiddle with your pants instead.
he popped the button open, pulling down your zipper along with it. pushing his hand inside your soaked panties, he was immediately met with your slick coated folds. he lightly ran one finger lightly across your folds, collecting your slick. you let out a muffled whimper at the feeling, clenching around nothing.
jungwon casually rubbed light circles around your clit, stimulating you further, trying to make your whines louder. he flicked your clit upwards, pinching it. he opted to rubbing it harshly, your broken gasps and whines for him to stop not deterring him in the slightest. in fact, it only encouraged him to continue abusing your clit further.
besides, he knew you didnât actually want him to stop. he had spied on enough of your solo sessions to know what you liked, what you did not, and what actually made you cum. so he continued to rub your clit harshly with his thumb, inserting two fingers inside your drooling hole.
your whines grew louder, as you squeezed down on his fingers, hard. jungwon paid no heed, instead focusing on thrusting shallowly on your upper wall, listening to your broken moans in satisfaction. the added stimulation was making your head spin, your knees growing weaker by the minute.
you could feel jungwonâs rock hard boner pressing insistently against your ass, while he continued to abuse your pussy. it was all starting to become too much, too good, your brain growing hazy from the intense pleasure, when suddenly that nagging question came back to your mindâ
is jungwon the killer youâre looking for?
the thought successfully brought you back to reality. with all your strength, you threw a kick at jungwon, as best as you could while being pushed face first into a door with your hands held captive, and your pussy being abused incessantly. you aimed the kick towards his balls, but missedâobviouslyâhitting his shin instead.
jungwon hissed at the pain. instead of flinching and letting you go like you had hoped, he dragged you towards your bed, taking his handânow coated with your fluidsâout of your dripping cunt. he pushed you head first into the pillow, practically sneering, âsuch an ungrateful brat.â
he opened your nightstand, taking your spare handcuffs outâhow the fuck did he know they were there?âand used them to cuff your hands together. you didnât know why you werenât able to fight back at all, it was as if some unknown force was dulling your senses. it was frustrating, highly so. what was the point in being one of the best officers on the force if you couldnât stop some random guy from forcing himself onto you?
jungwon pushed your ass up, forcing you to bend your knees. he was done being nice, since you were so insistent on being uncooperative. he forced your pants down, purposely letting them fall only to your knees instead of pulling them down all the way. restricting your movements even further this way.
he pushed your shirt and bra up to pool near your neck, uncaring if it affected your already dulled senses. it was what he wanted anyways. he slapped your bare ass cheek, squeezing the flesh in his palm. you bit your lip, muffling a sob, your face burning hot from the humiliation and self loathing. how could you possibly be wet in such a scenario? why was your body such a traitor?
his eyes were dark, as he stared at your fluttering hole. your slick kept dripping out, wetting the sheets, because of how worked up you were. dipping his thumb into your soaked folds, he lightly massaged your lips, adding to your humiliation. you whined, squirming. jungwon slapped your ass in warning again, to make you lie still.
getting impatient, he fiddled with his zipper, pulling his pants down just enough to pull his throbbing cock out. feeling his bare tip rub against your sensitive folds had you flinching, a fresh batch of tears gathering in your waterline. you felt useless, so fucking useless. were you really that weak? was it really that hard to fight back?
jungwon didnât know about the self loathing thoughts he was causing you to have, nor would he have cared if he got to know about them. all he cared about was how good it felt just to rub against you, skin to skin, your slick making it too easy for him.
it wasnât even your fault that you couldnât do anything to protest, really. jungwon just knew all your weaknesses already. there wasnât anything you could do to stop him. except for enjoying what he was giving you, of course.
the way he kept grinding on your bare cunt sent shockwaves of pain and pleasure up your spine, the overstimulation getting to you. your brain was going into overdrive, somehow starting to register only the pleasure. more slick poured out of you, coating his dick in a sheen of your arousal, much to his delight.
but jungwon had waited too long for this. he couldnât wait any longer. he slowly pushed his bulbous tip inside you, his cock dragging across your walls so very deliciously. you couldnât help but moan at the intrusion, your body completely at his mercy.
when he finally bottomed out in you, it felt like heaven to him. and unfortunately for you, you felt the same way. being touch starved for so long, it felt a bit too good to be so filled up. jungwon knew just how you felt, and fortunately for you, he intended to make it feel good. so that you never ever thought of any other cock filling you up ever again.
pulling out almost all the way, he pushed right back in, making you splutter, somehow feeling more full than you were before. his grip on your hip was tight, tight enough to bruise. pulling out slightly again, he set an almost brutal pace, one that left you dizzy from how good it felt.
he was hitting all the right spots, something your previous hookups had never managed to do. it felt good, almost too good to be true. you didnât even realize you were moaning, until jungwon squeezed on your neck, lightly choking you. his other hand was gripping your waist tightly, which was the only thing holding you up. your legs were shaking from his intensity, shaking under his unrelenting thrusts.
suddenly, he stopped. he let go of your neck, pulling you up by your waist, making you sit up on your knees. the new angle allowed him to go even deeper, hitting your g-spot continuously. the feeling had you blabbering nonsense, half sobbing, half moaning. he used his other hand to rub circles on your clit, stimulating you even further.
sparks of pleasure shot up your spine, making you cry out from the intense pleasure. the knot in your stomach was growing tighter and tighter, making you wish you werenât handcuffed, desperately needing to hold on to something. jungwon continued to rub and pinch your bundle of nerves, making you feel like you were on fire.
the coil in your stomach finally snapped. your pussy clamped around his length like a vice, almost pushing him out. your orgasm hit you hard, washing over you like a tsunami, making your eyes roll from the feeling. jungwonâs own orgasm got triggered, as he snapped his hips up into yours one last time, balls slapping against your clit.
he shot ropes and ropes of warm cum inside you, holding your spasming body against his. your walls kept squeezing around him, milking him for every last drop. once he was done, he slowly pulled out his flaccid cock, watching the mixture of his and your cum drip down onto the bed.
carefully laying you down, he took out the tissues from the drawer in the nightstand,âagain, how did he know they were there?âusing them to wipe both of you clean. he unlocked the handcuffs, lightly massaging your sore wrists. your eyes were closed, as you were on the verge of unconsciousness. right as you were about to fully pass out, he said one last thing.
âdonât worry princess, iâll be back soon.â
âiâm glad you guys are here, despite it being so early.â the chief spoke, as he walked ahead of you. you glanced at jake, who looked just as confused as you were.
âhas another body been found?â you asked, already knowing the answer. what other possible reason could there be to get called upon so early, if not for the appearance of more dead bodies?
âiâm afraid so. apparently someone was taking a walk in the woods and discovered the body. he immediately called us, and upon a little questioning, it was found that the description of the body matched the rest of the victims.â
you nodded, even though the chief couldnât see you. jake spoke up. âwhere is heeseung? isnât he coming.â
chief shrugged. âi called him, but it went straight to voice mail. shot him a text but i was left on delivered. perhaps he is still asleep.â
you frowned. that was very unlikely of heeseung. he was a very light sleeper, even someoneâs slightly loud breathing could wake him up. you knew because early in your careers the two of you had hooked up a couple of times, and you woke him up quite often in the night, every time you shifted to your side. it was part of why you both didnât make it into an arrangement, along with the fact that he started dating someone.
âwe are almost there.â the chief announced, as you neared a house. you raised a brow. that was victoriaâs house.
the chief pushed through the gates, going inside the property. he walked around the house, the two of you, and your subordinates closely following. behind the house, a part of the fence was agape, the fence gate being wide open.
all of you went through it one by one, going into the woods. after walking for a good ten minutes, the chief stopped dead in his tracks. confused, you peaked from behind him. the sight that greeted you had your blood freezing.
there, lying on the ground, skin starting to turn ashy, legs straightened, hands carefully posed, while holding a black rose to his chest, lay heeseung.
you stared at him for what felt like several minutes, before realizing your hands were shaking. suddenly becoming hyper aware of your surroundings, you looked at jake. he didnât seem to be taking the news too well either, his eyes way wider than you have ever seen.
as you looked back at heeseungâs corpse, you felt bile rising to your throat. all the times you guys laughed together, called each other lame, drank togetherâevery single memory that you had of him, rushed through your mind like a movie fast forwarded.
unable to control yourself any longer, you moved to the side, running towards some random tree, before retching. you felt someone hold your hair up, but you couldnât care less. you puked pure bile, your throat stinging. once you were done, you choked on your sobs.
getting up, you turned around to see jake, his own eyes filled with tears. he offered you a bottle of water, ignoring which, you hugged him tightly, sobbing into his jacket. he hugged you back just as tightly, his own tears wetting your shirt.
the chief cleared his throat. his voice cracked, as he spoke. âplease escort him with dignity.â
the people who brought the stretcher carefully lifted heeseungâs body, taking him inside the ambulance. you watched the ambulance leave with teary eyes, before you started crying again.
outside the autopsy room, you and jake paced impatiently, waiting for news. the two of you had insisted on the autopsy to be done sooner than normal, determined more than ever to crack down the case. the killer had crossed a line by killing of a dear friend, he had to pay.
the doors to the room creaked open, both of you snapping your necks towards the source of the noise simultaneously. the guy wordlessly handled a file to you, shaking his head.
your shoulders sagged, but you werenât ready to give up. opening the file, you scanned the pages, jake peering past your shoulder. the same âundiagnosed diabetesâ stared up at the two of you, along with something that stirred hope within the two of you.
mild concussion of the back of the head.
bingo. a small clue. minuscule, really, but a clue nonetheless. but then the hope quickly diminished. âheeseung went to victoriaâs house to find any clues he missed out. the killer probably got to him there.â you spoke in a hollow voice.
jake hummed. âbut⌠isnât it odd?â
you frowned, looking at him. âwhat is?â
jake shook his head. âi mean, every murder happened while the victim was asleep. heeseung was killed out in the open, near one of the crime sites. doesnât that seem weird to you?â
you blinked, looking back at the file. âit does⌠it certainly does.â
jake continued. âwhat if⌠what if he isnât part of any pattern? what if he was killed because he found something? some sort of clue that would link the killerâs identity to the murders?â
the realization dawned on you. âsim jaeyun, youâre a fucking genius.â
he blushed. âi only meant it as a possibility. a mere speculation.â he said humbly.
you shook your head. ânope. youâre right. youâre absolutely correct. there isnât another possible explanation to this, which makes it the truth, not just a speculation.â
jake scratched the back of his head. âwell⌠what do we do then?â
you raised a brow. âisnât it obvious? we do what we do best. i sketch and you dig up information.â
âlook maâam, i need you to think harder. this person is a serial killer, it is important we catch him quickly. so please try to remember.â
the woman looked genuinely sorry. âiâm really sorry dear, but i canât remember anyone or anything out of the ordinary that i can remember from the past few days. iâm sorry i couldnât be of much help.â
you sighed in disappointment. âthatâs alright maâam, iâm sorry to have taken up so much of your time.â
you and your team left the house, going to the car. your assistant spoke. âmaâam, we have already covered all the houses. would you like to get going?â
you sighed, wanting to cry. you didnât want to give up so soon, but there really didnât seem to be much of a choice. âi suppose soâŚâ
just then, a voice shouted from somewhere in the distance. âmiss, wait!â
you looked towards the source. a boy in his teens was running towards you. almost tripping on his feet, he finally stood in front of you, panting heavily. you looked at him with concern. âare you alright?â
he nodded quickly, before taking in a deep breath. âi saw a stranger last night near⌠that lamppost. i know everyone in town, so iâm quite positive this person is not from here.â
your eyes widened, as you quickly spoke to double check. âyou sure?â
he boy nodded. âiâm positive.â
your adrenaline had spiked. âcan you describe him?â
the boy squinted his eyes. âuh⌠i can try?â
âgood.â you said, immediately signaling your assistant to grab your sketchbook and pencil. âstart describing.â
âwell⌠the light was flickering, so i only saw him for like two seconds, before he was gone, but uh⌠he had pale skin? and black hair. his face was soft, i guess. not too rugged or anything. his eyes were kind of big, almost almond shaped? and he had a straight nose, full lips, and a pretty sharp jawline. oh, and he was handsome. like, iâm not gay or anything, but damn that man was attractive.â
as he spoke, your hand moved, quickly. as you drew, you added your own details, something which made you quickly realize that you knew this person. with increasing dread, you continued drawing, a full face quickly forming.
once you were done, you showed the drawing to the teen. âis this the guy?â
you gave him a dry smile, before looking back at your sketch book. the hauntingly real face of jungwon stared right back at you.
chief was quiet, as he stared down at his cup of coffee, absent mindedly stirring it. your throat felt restricted, as you stared at heeseungâs empty seat. disgust rose to your throat in the form of bile, upon realizing that jungwon must have visited you after killing heeseung.
jake cleared his throat. âuhm⌠I looked through all of heeseung's records. it's completely clean. nothing in there outside of the information we already know. orphaned at a young age, studied hard, got a scholarshipâthen ditched it to join the police academy.â
chief sighed softly. âthank you jake."Â
jake didn't reply, sitting down. noticing how tense you were, he reached out, putting his hand on your knee. rubbing gentle circles on it.
you looked at him, giving him a half smile to thank him. you had to look away quickly, not wanting him to see your tears.
âwe must be close to figuring out who the killer is. must have been why he chose to kill off one of our best officers." the chief spoke, his voice quieter than usual.
you sniffled, muffling a small sob. wordlessly, you took out your sketch book, sliding it over to him. he looked up at you, before flipping through it, stopping at jungwonâs face. he frowned, before his eyes widened. "is thisâ?â
you didn't trust yourself to speak, so you nodded. the chief gave you a look that showed he was genuinely impressed. âgood job, officer ___, good job.â
you only bowed your head lightly. you didn't know if the picture of jungwon at all made things better, or if it only complicated things more.
the chief took one last look at the sketch book, before passing it back to you. âi assume you will send me and everyone else on the force a picture of this?"Â
you nodded.
the chief let out a hum. âin that case, you both can leave now. today's work is done. go home and take some rest. you both need it. andââ he looked at the two of you. "don't let today's loss deter you both from our goal. this killer is trying to discourage us from finding him. don't let him succeed.â
you felt a fresh batch of tears forming in your eyes at his words. so you kept silent. jake nodded. "iâll try to find more information about all of our victims."Â
the chief nodded. he looked at you. âyou needn't do anything else, officer ___. finding the face of our killer is good enough. please go home and rest.
you swallowed the lump in your throat, nodding. standing up, you bowed. "iâll take my leave now.â
the chief nodded again. "off with you two then.â
jakeâs apartment was messy, fitting in with the computer science nerd stereotype. his desk was cluttered, everything astray. yet for him, nothing was out of place. in fact, he knew exactly where everything was, despite the mess.
carefully navigating through his organized mess, jake picked up some files he had brought home. they contained all the information he had gathered about the first three victims, and some more. he began flipping through the pages, wanting to find out anything else that might be relevant. anything important that he might have missed.
thing is, there were at least a dozen files in total. he hadnât even gone through all of them yet, but still found quite a lot of useful information. although it was clearly not enough, since now they had in their hands the face of the killer, someone none of them recognized. which meant that this person didnât belong to their town.
which made the questions arise: if according to previous clues, the killer is the child of a dead maid looking to avenge his mother, how come he is a face no one recognizes? how come he is in town, but hasnât been spotted even once? other than when one eye witness accidentally spotted him?
questions, so many of them. yet their answers remained unknown. flipping through one of the files at the bottom of the stack, a hand recorded conversation caught his attention.
âiâm telling you right now officer, these new people in town are monsters, monsters i say!â
âthatâs a serious accusation, sir. are you sure youâre not simply mistaken? news of your alzheimerâs has spread throughout the entire town, you know.â
âofficer, you have to believe me! they killed a child! and hid away another! i heard them talking about it the other day! you must arrest them at onceâwho knows what else they are capable of?â
âmr. choi, iâm sure youâre mistaken. please go home and rest. make sure to take your medicine on timeâiâve heard youâre being quite stubborn while taking it?â
âfine, donât believe me. but when these monsters do something worse, donât tell me i didnât warn you!â
given the date and time in the file, it wasnât hard to estimate that the so-called âmonstersâ mentioned in the file were the first three victims. especially since the fate of the two children mentioned there matched perfectly with the information he already found out.
he sighed, putting the files away. opening up his computer, he went back to the old articles about victoria. said articles were written by very small and unknown journalists, which was why they werenât too popularâand consequently, very hard to find. scrolling through them, he quickly started becoming bored. they were all the same, nothing that he hadnât already found out.
right as he was about to give up, a link to another article was provided in one of the comments under an article he had already read three times. clicking on the link, he was taken to a different tab, a different article on display.
this one apparently contained highly classified information, based on a conversation a reporter had with a servant of victoria, one who requested anonymity. skimming through it, a particular part caught his attention.
ââaccording to our source, victoriaâs own child hadnât actually died, and was in fact alive in the hospital. as the saying goes, walls have ears, our source having eavesdropped on victoriaâs phone calls, figuring out exactly what happened to the kid. apparently her child fell into a coma, and was likely to forget everything upon waking up, as a trauma response. following which, victoria had secretly sent away her child to some other place to protect it from any future possible threats. meanwhile, the child of the maid she murdered, was sent away to an abusive foster home, presumably to die, since she didnât want to get her hands dirty a second time. our source also mentioned that victoria had indeed succeeded in doing so, since she had delightedly shared the news of the childâs passing to her lover. our source also mentioned thatââ
jake blanked out. the maidâs child was⌠dead? victoriaâs own child was alive? what. the. fuck? that just made the case a shit ton more complicated than it already was.
looking back at his screen, he was about to scroll further, when suddenly a sharp pain struck the back of his head, accompanied with the dull sound of heavy metal colliding with something hardâin this case, his head.
he clutched the back of his head, his vision swimming. with difficulty, he tried turning around, only to be hit again. this time, he successfully passed out.
you had been staring at the ceiling for at least a couple of hours now. upon reaching home, you had immediately collapsed on the couch, staring up at the ceiling numbly. to think that heeseung was just⌠gone? it was too much to process, even after the autopsy had already been conducted.
your eyes burned, but you didnât even have the energy to cry. to think that jungwon had probably killed heeseung before coming to your house and defiling youâand for you to have enjoyed it to a certain extentâit made you want to crawl out of your own skin.
speaking of which, your entire body felt itchy, dirty, disgustingâdespite you having already showered in the morning. but maybe another shower was just what you needed, to get rid of his disgusting touch from your skin.
getting up, you headed to the bathroom. your clothes were drenched in sweat from the entire dayâs activities, stripping them away and welcoming the cold air on your skin felt like heaven already.
turning up the water temperature, you let the tub fill half way, before stepping in. you instantly felt relieved, the tension leaving your muscles. picking up a bath bomb you had gotten earlier during the year on your birthday, you dropped it in the water, causing it to immediately explode, flooding the water. the smell was exceptionally relaxing, making you sigh and close your eyes, relaxing yourself further.
but you couldnât relax for too long, since the sound of the door to the bathroom opening interrupted your calm. you sat up in horror, drawing your knees up to your chest.
it was jungwon.
he strolled in like he was taking a walk at the park, looking down at you with a smirk. âwhy do you look so surprised, pretty? i told you i was gonna come back.â
your hands shook from where they were shielding your chest. you stared up at him with terrified eyes. âwhy are youâŚ?â
he raised a brow. âwhy am i here? i already told you, i was going to come back.â
you couldnât breathe. now that you knew that he had killed heeseung, you felt a lot more terrified of him than before. âare you going to kill me as well?â
jungwon looked at you like you had grown a pair of horns atop your head. âkill you? god, no. of course not. why would i kill you?â
that reassured you. a little bit. âthenâŚ?â
he smirked, starting to pop open the buttons on his dress shirt one-by-one. âisnât it obvious, beautiful?â
your eyes widened, as you quickly looked at your pants, which had your gun attached to the belt. if you were quick, you could reach it. but of course, jungwon wouldnât let you do that.
âthat wouldnât be a very smart thing to do, princess.â he said, making you snap your gaze back to him. his smirk never left, as he turned to look at the gun.
to your astonishment, and utter horror, it began floating, before flying across the bathroom, to the furthest corner. if you tried getting it now, jungwon would easily stop you. but the question remained: how the fuck did he make the gun levitate?
âwhaâhow?!â
jungwon chuckled. âthereâs so many things you donât know, ___â
he had already taken off all his clothes, going and sitting inside the bathtub with you. he leaned back casually, staring at you with a look that told you precisely all you needed to knowâhe had the upper hand over you, and there was nothing you could do about it.
he gestured to you with his hand. "come here princess."
you shook your head, not trusting yourself to speak. you drew your knees in closer, locking them in place with your hands around them.
his expression changed. "don't test my patience ___. come here while i'm still being nice."
you gulped, shaking your head again.
his expression hardened further. "i won't repeat myself again. come. here."
swallowing the lump in your throat, you shook your head again.
he sighed, giving you an almost disappointed look. "i didn't want to do this, really. but you leave me no choice."
you frowned, wondering what he was referring to. but he didn't let you wonder too much, as he flicked his wrist. with a gasp, you suddenly landed on his lap, your hands clumsily landing on his shoulders, aware of how your very bare lower halves were rubbing against each other.
you tried getting up, getting away from him, but his grip on your waist was tight. too tight. how the fuck was he so strong?
"don't bother trying princess. save your energy for later."
you let out a shuddering breath, helpless tears slipping down your face. "why are you doing this to me? what have i done to you?"
jungwon didn't answer. leaning forward, he licked a stripe up your cheek, the salty, yet invigorating taste of your defeat invading his taste buds. sometimes he felt sorry for you. truly, he did. you, as naive as you were, you had no idea about the truth. the truth which so very often threatened to rear its ugly head, threatening to ruin everything in a single slip upâthe truth that everyone worked so hard to bury beneath the surface, with layers of nothing but blankets woven with lies. so yes, he felt sorry for you at times. but then he reminded himself why he started all of this in the first place.
but deep down, a part of him questioned it all: was it still revenge, or had it bent into something completely different?
you see, he hates you. hates you for something you were never actually a part of. any of⌠what had happenedâbut he still blamed you. how come you get to escape the aftermath of everything, but he doesn't? why was he the only one that had to suffer the consequences of something he never did? whereas you, another witness of the same goddamn crime gets to escape it all? why the discrimination?
was it simply because you were not as old as he was? was it because you couldn't comprehend what had actually happened? he tried, really did, to find reasons to excuse you. to let you off the hook. but perhaps there was more to it than he allowed himself to admit. more to the faux 'hate' he claimed to have in his heart for you. afterall, the strongest emotions to exist are often confused for one another.
but this was no time to contemplate such trivial things. right now, watching you fight your own body to try (and fail) to not fall apart in his hands was a lot more important. especially by making you initiate it yourself.
he pulled you closer to him, hugging your body to his, as he sucked at the spot under your jaw. one hand remained on your waist, the other further up your back. the position was intimateâit almost felt like the two of you were simply lovers getting carried away while bathing togetherâif it wasn't for your weak attempts at trying to push him away.
jungwon wanted to scoff at you. you weren't fooling anybody, if your pathetic attempts at muffling your moans were anything to go by. god, you were so easy. perhaps this was another reason he did what he was doing.
he pushed you further into him, letting go of your neck to kiss you instead. he wasn't being aggressive like you initially thought he would be. no, he was taking his time with you, kissing you slowly, sensually. almost like it was all consensual.
but god, with the way he made you feel, you might as well lean into it.
you didn't know when the water in the tub drained, but suddenly the pressure was off your lower halves. as you broke the kiss to breathe, you noticed the bottom unplugged. which meant the slipperiness where your cunt rubbed against his cock was because you were wet.
you wanted to blame it on jungwon. on your body for betraying you. for making you feel instead of grieving for your friend that was murdered. for making you enjoy being violated by the same guy that killed heeseung. anything to feel less guilty for doing what you were.
you didn't want to grind on him, you just⌠couldn't help yourself. he was making you feel like your entire body was on fire, electric shocks running up your spine every time he touched you. it was exhilarating. even if the voice in the back of your head screamed at you for betraying every one by letting yourself go.
but that was the thing, wasn't it? why shouldn't you be selfish for once? the entire circumstances were strangeâthe way you knew him, the things you knew he was capable of doingâall of it was strange. but none of it changed how real he made you feel.
so you allowed yourself to tilt your head back. to moan, to feelâbecause it might just be the last time you ever did.
jungwon grinded up into you, both feeling and seeing your initial hesitance melt away in real time, giving space for your real feelings to shine through. he had you right where he wanted, and he couldn't be more smug about it all.
holding your hips with both hands, he guided your movements, the sounds of your slick and your moans gradually taking over the entire space. if anything, it made his cock harder, twitching against your slick folds. god he wished he could just shove himself into you right fucking nowâbut that would ruin the fun, wouldn't it? he needed you to do it yourself. given how desperate you were getting, he was pretty sure you were getting way to close to doing so yourself.
true to his prediction, you let out the most pathetic whine he had ever had the pleasure of hearing from you, as you rocked your hips even more desperately over his. "pleaseâŚ"
jesus fucking christ. you really were desperate. "please what, angel?"
you let out another whine. "pleaseâh-hahâfuck me?"
god, you knew exactly what you were doing to him, weren't you? "should i?"
you whimpered, your cunt practically throbbing from the lack of attention. you needed him to be inside you, or you were sure you would combust right there. so you lifted yourself up slightly, reaching one of your hands down to grab his twitching cock, clumsily lining him up to your folds, before sitting down, shoving him deep inside you. the 'splat' sound of your thighs slapping together echoing through the room.
the two of you let out collective moans, both of you a throbbing mess. you clenched, and unclenched around him, the wonderful feeling of finally being able to feel something so real while ignoring your conscience was⌠an experience to say the least. pressing your lips to his again, your hands found purchase on his shoulders. lifting yourself up, you dropped down again, his cock dragging across your gummy walls at the best possible angle.
jungwon gripped your waistânot hard enough to bruise, but just enough to guide your movements. he silently encouraged you to go faster, by bouncing you harder on top of him. your arousal dripped, and dripped, past his balls, wetting his thighs. the constant sound of your ass slapping against his balls filled the space, along with your your muffled moans.
you broke the kiss when your lungs started burning. jungwon focused on your neck instead, determined to fill the entire expanse with his marks. he trailed kisses across your jaw, sucking hickeys there too. his hickeys spread down to your collarbones, as his hands came up to grope your tits. sometimes his actions got a little too intense, causing you to clench down hard on him, which in turn caused him to twitch, small spurts of cum spilling into you. he wasn't embarrassed in the slightest, especially since it seemed to turn you on impossibly more.
your bouncing would slow down at times, but never coming to a full stop. sometimes you grinded onto him instead if it really became too much. but fuck, it was all too good to stop.
but all good things eventually come to an end. you were starting to feel overstimulated, your legs becoming sore as well, despite not being nearly close. fortunately for you, jungwon seemed to notice.
using one hand to support your waist, he used to other to rub light circles around your clit. when your moans started turning into whines, he pinched your engorged nub, before flicking on the sensitive bud. your nerve ending were already on fire, but he then started rubbing on it harshly, causing your moans to practically into screams.
you could feel your orgasm approaching steadily, the knot in your stomach growing tighter and tighter. when you felt it right on the tip of your tongue, jungwon started to shallowly thrust up into you. your orgasm crashed down on you like never before, your eyes rolling back till only the whites were visible. the gush of liquid pushed his cock out, but he pushed right back in, his own orgasm approaching quickly.
holding you in place, he pistoned his hips into you at an almost brutal pace, before making you sit flush on top of his cock, as he shot out ropes of warm cum straight into your cunt. your walls fluttered around him, your body slumping on his. you felt tired, so, so tired.
jungwon patted your head. it was ironic, how soft he was being with you, despite telling himself that this was all to punish you. since when had punishments felt almost like an act of love?
"sleep." he said, in this almost echoing voice. immediately, you were knocked out. he held your body close to his, staring down at the top of your head. he should kill you. it would be the right thing to do. you couldn't even defend yourself in this state. so what was stopping him?
was it his conscience? bullshit, he didn't have one. so why was he doing the opposite of what he originally planned?
he decided he didn't want to keep cuddling you like a lover while contemplating all this. so, he did what he thought was the best thing to do as of now. clean you up, put you to bed, and leave. silently. without leaving any traces of him ever being there in the first place. after all, leaving without a trace was something he excelled at.
anxiety gripped your heart like a vice, as you glared at jake's empty seat.
"officer ___, please, take a seat."
you shook your head. "where is jake? is he running late?"
chief kang didn't say anything, opting to stare at his lap.
you grew more and more frantic by the second. "he is running late, right? right?"
chief looked at you with sad eyes. "please, sit down." his voice was gentle, barely above a whisper.
you dropped to your seat with a thud, vision growing blurry. "noâŚ"
chief sighed softly. "his landlord called us upon finding his limp body on his desk. the killer didn't bother with his usual theatrics this time, leaving the rose beside his head instead of laying him down like the other victims. there are visible injuries on his head as well. the autopsy has almost been finished by now."
your hands were shaky. "why wasn't i informed earlier?"
chief kang gave you an apologetic gaze. "you are already under a lot of pressure, i didn't want to add to it."
you looked at him with indignation, despite the tears running down your face. "i'm part of the force too! jake and heeseung were more than just my coworkers, they were my friends! i should have been the first person to be informed of this!"
chief nodded. "i understand dear, but please trust me when i say i did this out of good will. you have already done a lot, and i didn't want to work you up further."
you shook your head. "you don't understand, iâ" a sudden thought struck you. you knew the killer. you have met him. despite the circumstances being strange, you should let the chief know, right? because⌠what if the next target is you? even if he said he wouldn't kill you? after all, why should you trust a killer, who also liked to play with you? both physically and psychologically?
so you did what you thought was best. "i⌠i know the killer. i have met him."
the chief's eyes widened in disbelief. "what?"
you shrank into your seat. "you don't believe meâŚ"
the chief shook his head. "no no, of course i believe you. i was just surprised."
you took in a deep breath. "wellâwhat i'm about to say now, that is something you may not believe. but i need you to understand that everything i will say is the truth and the truth only. i swear i will not lie or leave out any details whatsoever."
the chief nodded, giving you the green light to continue. swallowing the lump in your throat, you started speaking. you told him everythingâevery single dream, the full details of what happened, how the hickey manifested onto your neck outside of the dream, how he came to your house twice and forced himself onto you, how he literally levitated a gun and even youâevery single detail.
when you finally finished, the chief was⌠shocked, to say the very least. "so statistically speaking⌠there is a chance that you're next."
you nodded. chief kang massaged his temples. "there is something we can doâŚ" he looked at you with a very serious look in his eyes. "but you must be very discreet about it, understand?"
it was a lot later than usual when you finally reached your house. the silence in your house was nothing out of the ordinary, yet you felt a chill up your spine.
reaching your bedroom, you hesitated. your gut told you to run, run as far away as possible. but you ignored it, opening the door anyways.
as expected, jungwon was sitting on the bed. he was staring intently at a page in your sketchbookâpresumably his own picture. he looked up at you, signature smirk back on his face. "you're late."
you swallowed the lump in your throat. "work." was all you said, your voice hollow.
he tilted his head. "are you unhappy about something?"
you stared at him, unblinking. "you killed two of my dear friends."
his smirk widened, but he didn't answer. looking back down at your sketchbook, he commented. "you're awfully talented. it's like staring at a mirror."
you clenched your fist, but forced yourself to remain calm. "what exactly is it that you want?"
jungwon looked up at you in surprise. "what do i want? why, i thought i had made it quite obvious from the very beginning?"
you frowned. sensing your confusion, jungwon offered. "you. it is you that i want. was it not obvious?"
you scoffed in surprise. "what?"
he let out a hum, getting up. he came and stood in front of you, hands behind his back. "why is it so hard to believe, princess?"
you shook your head, finding him ridiculous. "tormenting me through weird dreams, killing my friends, forcing yourself onto me multiple timesâyou did it all because you want me? what kind of a fucked up logic is that?"
he smirked again. "believe it or not, that's your choice. you asked me a question, and i merely answered it."
you glared at him. "in that case, i suppose you won't mind answering some more questions?"
he raised a brow. "shoot and find out."
so you began. "the first three victimsâdid you kill them because of revenge?"
"mhm."
"why? are you the son of the maid who victoria killed?"
jungwon scoffed. "my mother was no maid. she and victoria were childhood friends, and she went to visit her the day she died."
you frowned. so that meant some of the information you had was inaccurate. "how exactly did she die?"
he tilted his head. "i thought you already knew that victoria killed her. stabbed her with a knife."
you slowly nodded. "and you were there to witness it."
he nodded, so you continued. "why exactly did she kill her?"
his smirk returned. "you have noticed me doing things that seem⌠unusual, yes?"
you raised a brow. "you mean appearing in my dreams and levitating objects? then yes, i have."
his smirk widened. "my mother, in simple terms, was a witch. her abilities were something i inherited. victoria fought with my mother, because she was the only person who knew of her abilities. she threatened to reveal it to the public, if my mother didn't teach her how she did what she did."
"obviously she couldn't do so, since those powers could only be inherited. victoria, being a temperamental bitch, stabbed my mother over it. because victoria was a dear friend of hers, she couldn't defend herself, and the knife had struck a vital area, so she quickly stopped breathing. the servants had an inaccurate version of the whole ordeal since my mother created an illusion for them. she couldn't risk everyone finding out about her powers. but obviously the illusion didn't work on me, since that time my mind was pure. pure souls cannot be fooled by illusions."
you frowned. "what happened to you after all of it?"
he scoffed lightly. "they put me in an abusive foster house and paid them to kill me. but i killed them first, and mimicked their voices over the phone and told them that i was the one that died. fuckin' dumbasses believed it."
you blinked slowly, trying to wrap your head around it all. "how did you kill them? was it also using your⌠powers?"
he smirked. "only to an extent. i used a syringe to pump a few doses of insulin under their tongues. that's why they seemed to die of undiagnosed diabetes."
"what about the roses? what did they signify?"
he tilted his head, leaning down slightly. staring dead into your eyes, he spoke. "why, they symbolized you of course."
you blinked several times, staring at him in shock. "me?"
he raised a brow. "of course, rosie. they symbolize you."
you shook your head. "rosie?"
he stared at you, the look in his eyes causing your heart to practically thump out of your chest. "that's your name. don't you remember?"
you shook your head, stepping back. "what the fuck are you talking about right now?"
he took a step forward, towards you. "don't you remember? you were there when my mother was killed."
your eyes widened. "what?"
he took another step towards you. "she was killed by your mother, after all."
it was as if the entire world stopped. the air was knocked out of you, a dull ringing began in your ears. long back, when you bumped into victoria in the market, she had grabbed you and called you rosie.
rosie! oh my darling rose, i missed youâŚ
an image flashed in front of your eyes. a colorful bedroom, a beautiful womanâyour momâsitting in front of you, gazing at you with the fondest smile, as she fed you neatly sliced and peeled apples. "say aaaahâŚ"
the scene changed. your motherâvictoriaâarguing with a man. "look at her, she is just a baby! she doesn't deserve this! won't you come back for her sake?"
the scene changed. a different man, your fatherâseilâteaching you how to make paper airplanes. "and then you throw it into the wind, like thatâgood job!"
the scene changed again. your mother arguing with another woman. a boy few years older than you stood beside you, watching the scene beside you from the top of the stairs. suddenly, victoria charged at the unfamiliar woman with a knife, stabbing her.
blood splattered onto the floor. the shocked faces of both your mother and the woman imprinted into your brain, as your vision swam. as you fell, the boy looked at you in panic, trying to catch you, but failed. your head hit the ground, and you rolled down the stairs.
you snapped back to reality. jungwon was looming over you with a smirk. he glanced down at your necklace. "is that enough information for your backup, or do they need more?"
the chief looked at the rest of the officers sitting in the car, listening to everything from the tiny mic they had installed in your necklace. "now!"
the entire force burst out of the cars which were parked right outside your house, bursting into your house. the chief screamed into his loud speaker. "you have been surrounded from all sides! do not try to run, or harm ms. ___, as it will only earn you a graver sentence."
there was silence from the microphone on your necklace. having a bad feeling about it, the chief hastily burst into your room, the rest of the force following him.
it was empty. not a single trace of anyone being there. no open windows either. ordering the force to search the entire house, he went towards the bed. your sketchbook lay there, pages flipping due to the wind from the fan.
picking it up, he flipped through them himself. he expected the last sketch to be of jungwon, but he was wrong. squinting, he stared at the last sketch. it was of you, a terrified expression on your face. a small rose was drawn next to your face. on the bottom, a small message was inscribed.
'the beauty of some roses never fade, even after death.'
Like seriously what was thatttt...! Nah because this fic actually had me questioning my own sanity. The mystery, the supernatural vibes, the tension... you absolutely cooked. I'm so invested it's actually concerning. I'm convinced you enjoy cooking masterpieces because WHAT WAS THAT?? Every clue makes sense only after the reveal, and the creepy atmosphere is so addictive. This is hands down one of the best fics I've read in a while. You ate so hard with this.
đ輿ć ĺ x fem readerđ đ cheating kinda, dubcon, cowgirl, creampie, twin swap, use of ni-ki and riki
đŠâĄđŞ hehe. based on this ask đ ! thank u anony and i'm sorry for taking so long t^t i was occupied with sunghoon bday's posts ^^ i hope you enjoy it nonetheless âŞâŞâ¤ď¸âŹ
you were half asleep when the mattress dipped behind you. the room was dark, except for the faint city glow slipping through the blinds and the light from the closed bathroom door.Â
ni-ki was out with his friendsâbut a familiar pair of arms slid around your waist, warm lips brushing the back of your neck.
you assumed heâs home.
âmissed you, baby,â your boyfriend murmured, voice low and a little huskyâlike he always sounded after a night out drinking⌠you smiled sleepily into the pillow, still drowsy. what time is it now?Â
âyouâre late, kiâŚâÂ
he hummed behind you, fingers already slipping under the hem of your (his) oversized shirt. ââm sorry, baby⌠got carried away,â he muttered. you arched into him on instinctâhe knew exactly where to touch, how to make you melt in seconds.Â
the way your bodies moved together was effortless.
ni-kiâs mouth found that soft spot below your ear and you sighed, reaching back just enough to thread your fingers through his hair. âhnghâki⌠whatâre you doing?â you breathed, albeit you knew better.Â
his hair was soft and freshly washed. you couldnât see it properly but the blonde highlights really shined under the dim lights.Â
âmmh? canât i just want my girlfriend?â he whispered against your skin, lips dragging slow and deliberate, voice dipped in that sleepyârough tone that always made your knees weak.
his hands slipped under your shirt, palm flat against your stomach before they travelled up your tits, cupping and fondling the soft flesh. he pulled you flush against him like he belonged there. âbeen thinking about you all day⌠couldnât wait till morninâ.â
you melted. the way he said is more cocky and needy tonight⌠with that laziness and confidence laced beneath his toneâyour boyfriend mustâve had more drinks that he intended to tonight. your fingers tightened in his hair without meaning to, tugging just enough to earn a low, satisfied hum from him.
âyouâre⌠clingy tonight,â you managed, voice shaky as his teeth grazed your earlobe.
he laughed, barely a breath. âonly for you, baby.âÂ
his hips rolled forward, slow and filthy, positioning his hard on between your ass, grinding against the curve of the flesh. the movement was so him. âmmh⌠okay⌠câmon⌠âm sleepy.â you murmured, already adjusting so ni-ki can press his bulge deeper.Â
âbut i want you to ride meâwanna see my pretty girlâs faceâŚâ
the words melted whatever was left of your sleepiness. you made a soft, needy sound in the back of your throat (half protest, half surrender) and shifted, rolling your hips lazily against the thick line of him.
âso demanding,â you whispered, but already moving, pushing up on your knees. the sheets slid down your body as you turned to face him.
moonlight painted silver across his cheekbones, parted lips, messy blackâandâblonde strands falling into his pretty shaped eyes. he looked wrecked already, pupils blown wide, chest rising fast under your palms.Â
ni-ki had a sly grin on his face.
you swung one leg over his hips and settled slowly, letting him feel every inch of you through the thin cotton separating you. his hands flew to your waist like magnets, fingers digging in hard enough to leave little crescent marks.Â
âfuckââ he hissed, head tipping against the bedrest. âthere you go⌠just like that⌠move that hips for me, pretty gal,âÂ
you leaned in, wrapping your arms around his neck and rocketed forward in slow and teasing rhythm. the friction dragged a low groan out of him that vibrated straight through you.Â
âhappy now?â you breathed against his mouth, giggling softly, lips barely brushing.Â
his answer was a sharp upward thrust that made you gasp, followed by that crooked little smirk you knew too well. ânot enough, babe,â he hissed, hands now on your hips to guide you on his clothed cock.Â
âsit on my cock, câmon, ride me.â he rasped, instructing. you rolled your eyes playfully but obligedâlifting your hips up just enough for you to push your panties to the side while your boyfriend eagerly pulled his pants and boxers downâall with a boyish grin on his face.
you positioned the head of his cock at your entrance, letting out a small hiss as you slowly sunk down on his cockâthe shaft stretching your tight cunt. ânghâ! ki, youââ you gasped, burying your face into the crook of his neck.Â
âhâhave you always been this big? mhh!â you moan aloud, his cock now fully engulfed in the warmth of your pussy. ni-ki just smirked and shrugged nonchalantly, hands finding your hips again as he pushed you down further on his cock, the head brushing your cervix.
your back arched, hands tangling around his locks. âoh, oh god,â you moaned out his name as he lifted you off his lap before letting you slam back down on his thick cock. with each pounding thrust, the head nestled against your cervix. âhâhah! ah, hnghâ? ki, so rough,âÂ
he moaned as his fingers guided your movements, cock twitching. it dragged against the sensitive tissue of your entrance, your velvety walls clamping around him. âshit, so tight, fuck, wanted this sâbad.â he rasped, balls slapping against the curve of your ass as you rode him.Â
his cock throbbed deep in your cunt with no remorse. âso good, ki, so goodâmore, moreâyouâre so big!â you threw your head back, fingers clawing at his nape. your boyfriend groaned, softened into a whimper. âfuck, let me see yours tits,â
you hooked your fingers beneath yourâhisâshirt and pulled it over your head, tossing it to the side. your pretty tits bounced each time ni-ki pounded you upâso lewd, so obscene, so lovelyâsight for his sore eyes.
âlike itâmmh? you too, ki,â you giggled, taking off his shirt for him before he could say anything. you ran your palms down along his toned chest, leaning down to attack his neck, pressing and rubbing your perky nipples against ni-kiâs ones.Â
the stimulation was crazyâyour tight pussy spasmed around him, clamping and squeezing him as he snapped his hips against youâeliciting a small, cute, short, meek moan from your lips. âeekâ! ah, hah, ki! âm close, âm close!â you whined, the wet squelching noise filling up the room.
your boyfriend nodded, groping your ass, digging his nails into fleshâhis thrusts turned erratic, rough and deep and desperate. âfuck, me too, cum with me, babyâlet me cum inside.â he grunted, slapping your ass.
you moaned aloudâback arching as you nodded. your boyfriend was rougher than usual tonight! and you loved it a lot, heâs so rough and needy, touching you and dirtyâtalking his way in. âuh huhâcreampie me, please, please, please,âÂ
you let out a whimper as you cum on his cock, climax tore through you like an arrow. your boyfriend tooâcock twitched as he spurted his cum deep inside, emptying his load and filling you up with his warm semen.Â
you whined, burying your face into the crook of his neck, chin resting upon his shoulder as your body went limpâtired from the orgasm. your arms looped loosely around his neck, fingers idly stroking the nape of his neck while the aftershocks still fluttered through you.Â
he was breathing hard, hand sliding up your damp in slow, soothing circles. the other tangled in your hair, keeping you flushed against him.
thatâs when it hits youâstronger.
your fingertips brushed raised skin⌠and then the unmistakable tiny ridge of ink.
a small black crescent.
your heart stopped. ni-ki doesnât have a tattoo. heâd always sworn he would never, and that needles are for losers like hisâ
twin brother.
he mustâve felt you stiffen, because his hands got tighter on your hips.
and then the smell hits youâcurled into your nose. fresh hair dry, the kind that lingers for days after a salon visit. not twoâweekâold highlights. dead and adrenaline mixing into something dizzying.Â
when the moonlight caught the side of his lower back as he shifted beneath youâthe crescent tattoo was still there, clearer this time.
the realisation crashed over you like ice water.
â...riki?âÂ
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contains: edging, degradation, sub!reader, finger sucking, name calling (slut), fingering, reader has two orgasms, he gets sweeter at the end (mdni)
guys this is so short so i might write a part two
your back arched impossibly off the bed as you turned your head to the side and let your mouth fall open in a silent âoâ shape. jake kept rubbing his thumb over your swollen clit relentlessly.Â
almost immediately after coming down from your high you whined "that's not fair jakey- i told you i wanted to come around your fingers"
you could already feel the tears gather at the corners of your eyes as your hand pushed into his chest.
it wasn't fair.
"so fuckin' ungrateful huh?" he grabbed your hand and pinned it above your head. you squirmed.
"maybe if you had held off your orgasm like I told you to..." he looked down at where your body was now pathetically arching.
"stay fuckin still" he slammed your hips down.
"babyyy" you whined again as your legs kicked behind him, where they were wrapped around his waist.
"'s not fair."
"y/n, baby, just quiet down. hm? d' you wanna feel good?" he tipped your chin up so you looked at him.
you nodded.
"just be good for me then. can you do that? he tapped his finger on your chin and forced two of them into your mouth
you sucked.
" there. like that "
he pulled them out and brought them down where he nudged them at your entrance.
" you're a fuckin slut. " he pushed them inside and you gasped.
"is this what you wanted?"
"fuck jakey" you moaned breathlessly.
"you gotta be quiet y/n-"
he pulls them out and continues gently massaging your clit.
you arch into his touch and moan, already feeling that knot start to form in your stomach. Itâs not your fault when he looks this good above you, his messy hair falling over his eyes.
jake already realizes this by how you're arching into him.
"gonna hold off f' me okay?" he watches you nod absentmindedly as his fingers rub against your clit.
unfortunately, it's game over when he gathers the wetness leaking out of your hole and resumes stubbornly rubbing your clit.
"fuck" the friction is too much and before you can stop yourself your hips grind back against his fingers and you're coming.
his brows furrow in disappointment but he doesn't stop touching you until you're panting and pushing him away.
you immediately whine and cover your face with your hands, half embarrassed, half disappointed.
he guides them away and presses a kiss to your forehead
"so fuckin' dumb for me. hm?" he searches your gaze and you look away, embarrassed.
you had one job.
"it's not my fault" you pout slightly
he tilts your head back towards him.
"oh is it mine?"Â
you donât reply and he can tell you're beating yourself up enough, you don't need another punishment.
he lies down and guides you onto his chest, where you settle with a pout.
"'s okay baby. you'll get better at that" his fingers scratch gently at your scalp, making you feel sleepy.
"we'll just do a ton of practice mkay?" he murmurs as he presses a kiss onto your head.
"don't get sulky on me."
"wanted to come around your fingers" you explain, still sporting that subtle pout that tells him you're not over it.
"i know baby but you gotta learn to hold off f' me"
he sighs as he holds you tighter.
"besides⌠you look really fucking hot when you come like that. all needy and whining like im not giving you enough. you're so cute" his hand comes to rest on your hip and only then do your eyes dart down and notice his massive boner.
*reminder that interactions, asks, reqs are highly appreciated <33
[ the stalker from the photography building loves you so much! you do too , but he didnt have to go so far to stalk you , he wanted to make you his own muse !! ]
WRITING đ PWP , MINOR DNI , sub hee , p in v , no protection (dont b silly wrap ur willy!!) , cumming inside, cumming in pants, hair pulling, degradtion kink (if u squint!), petnames: love , baby+ , dacryphilia, worshipping, stalking, killing (not explicit), item stealing, kidnapping, stockholme syndrome, religious themes mentioned (lmk if more!) đľ
wc: 9.2k
it was a mundane tuesday, a slow stretch of time marked only by the haunting tick of the lecture hall clock. golden afternoon light, thick with dust specks, streamed through the tall windows, painting a stripe across your notes and making you squint.Â
third period.Â
almost over, yet somehow years away.
your pen tapped an idle rhythm against your chin, your thoughts as loose as the messy bun on your head. a yawn threatened to crack your jaw, and you let it, the boring drone of the professorâs voice fading into a hum beneath the whispers from the row behind you.
âdid you see the game last night? heeseung scored the final point in the last three seconds. It was insane!â
âugh, Iâd sell my soul to spend one night with the lee heeseung. just one.â
âitâs not fair. the guyâs a prodigy on the court, and have you seen his photography portfolio? no wonder heâs top of the class.â
lee heeseung.
the name landed in the quiet of your mind not as a whisper, but with the weight of a settled fact. it was a constant talk across the campus. he was practically the talk of the town, heeseung this! heeseung that!
youâd seen him, of course, everyone had. his sharp jawline every time he scored a goal, the wink he sent girls as he walked in the hallway. he existed in a different universe, a person more myth than man, composed of equal parts talent and intimidation. people practically worshipped him.
as if summoned by your thoughts, the classroom door at the front of the hall clicked open. the professor paused mid-sentence with a groan and an annoyed glance. and there he was.
the one and only lee heeseung stood in the doorway, backlit by the golden hall light, a silhouette of effortless composure. he offered a slight, apologetic bow to the professor, his voice a low, smooth murmur that carried through the sudden, attentive silence of the room. âsorry for the interruption, professor."
his gaze, perceptive, swept across the class as he moved to find a seat. it didn't linger on you, not in any way that anyone else would notice.Â
but for a single second, it felt like a shutter clicking into place, a perfect screenshot taken in the area you sat at.
âtake your seat, mr lee.â the professor murmured, tapping his foot impatiently as his eyes narrow into him.
as fast as it came, the moment disappeared, and the mundane tuesday rushed back in. heeseungâs gaze slid away, cool and indifferent, as he moved to an empty seat.Â
but a strange, electric hum seemed to linger in the air where his eyes had been, a silent promise that the quiet of the afternoon was now a lie.
â
ânow, for your mid-term project. youâll be breaking into groups of four. itâs a significant portion of your grade, so choose your members wisely, or rather,â the professor said with a slight smirk, adjusted his glasses, looking at a clipboard, âiâll be choosing for you. letâs see⌠group one: ning yizhuo, choi soobin⌠lee heeseungâŚâ
a wave of anticipation swept through the room. you could feel the students around you straighten in their seats, fluffing out their hair in case they were in the same group, a silent prayer on their lips.
â... and y/n l/n.âÂ
the sound of your own name, spoken in the same breath as his, sent a jolt straight through you and a groan from the rest of your peers. the whispers behind you erupted into a frantic, hushed frenzy.Â
as Heeseung rose to gather his things, his eyes found yours across the room. there was no smile, no overt reaction.Â
just that same focused, unnerving attention, now with a new, undeniable intent. the project, the semester, the quiet life you knew, gone down the drain, all because you were paired with lee heeseung.
â
the bellâs shrill ring was a relief to say the least. shattering the silence that had followed the group announcements. a chaotic, creaking symphony of scraping chairs and zipping backpacks filled the air, but for you, it all felt muffled, distant.Â
your fate was sealed.
you fumbled with your own belongings, a frantic attempt to look busy. a shadow fell over your desk.
heeseung stood there, bag slung over one shoulder. the golden light from the window now caught the sharp line of his jaw, and his expression was one of a polite person, but you noticed the way his jaw twitched slightly.
âwe should meet to outline our approach,â he said, his voice that same low, smooth murmur that had carried across the silent lecture hall. it wasnât a question. âthe library. third-floor study rooms. can you be there in ten minutes?â
it was all soâŚcold.Â
it wasnt the usual social negotiations that usually accompanied group projects. there was no âhey, when are you guys free?â This was a directive.
âiâ yeah, i can,â you managed, your voice thankfully steady.
a nod was his only reply. â iâll secure a room.â and with that, he turned and melted into the stream of students leaving the class, his presence creating an invisible wake that others subconsciously parted around as gossip started to spread like they were in high school again.
you let out a breath you didn't realize you'd been holding, your heart a frantic drum against your ribs.Â
what you didn't see, was the hidden desire hiding behind his eyelids.
as heeseung walked down the corridor, the mask of cool indifference never slipped as he passed by the people who worshipped him.Â
but beneath the surface, his mind was a whirlwind. the way your pen had tapped against your lip. the specific way a single strand of hair had escaped your messy bun to curl against your neck. the fleeting look of startled recognition in your eyes when his name was called with yours.
he hadn't ended up in your group by chance. a quiet word with the professor, a suggestion framed as academic interest, was all it took. a semester-long project was the perfect excuse.
a slow, almost wicked smile touched his lips as he pushed open the libraryâs heavy doors. he had secured the study room, yes. but more importantly, he had secured you.Â
the third floor of the library was a tomb of silent concentration, the air thick with the smell of old paper and ambition.Â
you found the study room heâd mentioned, the door slightly ajar. pushing it open, you were met with an unexpected sight.
only heeseung sat there.
he sat at the head of the small table, his posture relaxed yet perfectly poised, a single notebook open before him. the room felt too large, too quiet.
"where are the others?" you asked, hovering at the doorway.
heeseung looked up, and a faint, apologetic smile touched his lips. It didn't quite reach his eyes. "ning ning and soobin? they messaged me. a prior commitment, apparently. they said they couldn't make it." He gestured to the empty chair directly beside him.Â
"It's just us."
a prickle of unease traced your spine. it felt too convenient. but you stepped in, letting the door swing shut behind you with a soft, definitive thud.Â
the sound sealed you in.Â
with him.
you took the seat heâd indicated, leaving one empty chair between you in a futile attempt to maintain some distance.Â
he didn't seem to notice, or if he did, he approved.
âcoffee?â he hummed, sliding the extra cup towards you with an unreadable expression.
"oh, thank you!" you said, a smile breaking through your nervousness as you accepted the warm cup.Â
you took a cautious sip, and the rich, perfectly sweetened flavor of a caramel macchiato, your exact, specific favorite, now on your tongue.
 a soft, involuntary moan of delight escaped you. "mmm, it's my favorite. how did you know?"
for a moment, the only sound was the hum of the library's conditioning. then, his lips slowly tilted into an unnerving smirk. the corner of his lips never reached his eyes.
âhm,â the sound a low vibration in the intimate space. âlucky guess.âÂ
the phrase hung in the air, a fragile, obvious lie. he watched you over the rim of his own cup, his gaze dropping to your throat as you took another sip, cataloging your every reaction.Â
the coffee that had tasted like a comforting treat now felt like a confession heâd pulled from you without saying a word. he hadnât guessed. heâd known. before you could say anything, he decided to speak up again.
"since it's just the two of us, we can be more efficient," his voice a low, intimate hum in the small space. he turned his notebook toward you. instead of a detailed gantt chart, there were just a few lines of elegant, sharp handwriting. "I was thinking we could focus on the core concept first. just you and me."
he was lying. tou didn't know how you knew, but you were certain. ning ning and soobin hadn't messaged him. he had never asked them.Â
his gaze was unwavering, and in the profound silence of the isolated room, the professional pretense began to thin, revealing the raw, unnerving focus beneath.
"your perspective in class," he started, his eyes tracing the line of your profile as you looked down at the notebook. "iâm quiet⌠fascinated by it. your insight would help."
he reached into his bag and pulled out a book, sliding it across the table until it stopped right in front of you. it was a dense theoretical text, one youâd mentioned wanting to read in an off-hand comment to a friend. weeks ago. a casual remark he shouldn't have heard.
"i thought this might be useful for your section," he said, his voice dropping even lower, his mind clouding up even more.
your fingers brushed against his as you took the book. his skin was cool, but the point of contact burned. your breath hitched. his eyes darkened, the focused attention shifting into something warmer, more possessive.Â
hhe hidden desire was no longer hiding; it was a live wire stretched between you, crackling in the silent, sterile study room. heeseung, didnt even bother hiding it, how much he wanted you.
only you.
the feeling made you crack underpressure, instantly getting up with the scratch of the chair underneath you. âiâi have to go, thanksâ we can meet again, uhâ soon. tell me in class.â
you didnât wait for a reply. you turned and almost fled from the study room, the heat of his silent, knowing smirk burning into your back.
the heavy library door swung shut behind you, but it didn't block out the feeling of his presence. you walked quickly, your heart still hammering, the sweet aftertaste of the coffee now bitter and sinister in your mouth.
your phone buzzed in your pocket. once. then twice.
you pulled it out, your steps slowing to a halt in the middle of the eerily silent hallway. all you could hear was the sounds of yourself.Â
a message from an unknown number.
as soon as you saw the first message, your spine shivered. you wanted to let out a wail.
the first was a perfectly focused, almost artistic photo of you from just moments ago. it was taken from his angle across the table, capturing your profile as you took that first, fateful sip of coffee, your eyes closed in unwitting delight.
the second message followed immediately.
unknown number: you left your pen. iâll keep it safe for you.
unknown number: see you in class.
â
back in the silent study room, heeseung remained seated. the smirk was gone, replaced by a look of deep, unsettling lust. he picked up the simple pen you had been tapping against your chin just an hour before. it was still warm.
he rolled it slowly between his fingers, his thumb brushing over the faint indentation your teeth had left on the cap. a trophy. far more meaningful than any photo. it was an object you had touched, that had been a part of your most unconscious, intimate habits.
he brought it to his nose, inhaling deeply, catching the faint, lingering scent of your hand cream and the coffee on his own skin. his eyes fell shut.Â
a perfect souvenir from the first day of the hunt. he slipped it carefully into the inner pocket of his jacket, right over his heart. the game was on, and he was already winning.
â
the walk back to your dorm was a blur. every shadow felt like his gaze, making you jump, every distant laugh sounded like his mocking hum.Â
once inside, you locked the door and leaned against it, finally allowing the full-body tremble to take over. you pulled out your phone, staring at the photo.Â
he hadn't just taken it; he had composed it. the lighting, the angle, it was a portrait of a moment of vulnerability he had engineered. just like his exhibitions.Â
you typed a frantic message to your friend, jake:Â
you: you will NOT believe the weird shit that just happened with heeseungâŚ
the reply was practically instant.
jake: heeseung? the basketball guy? and the photography department ace? whatâd he do?
before you could type a response, a new notification popped up at the top of your screen.
instagram: user l.heesung started following you.
your blood ran cold. you hadn't given him your number. or your instagram.
a direct message appeared.
l.heesung: It was nice working with you today.
a beat. then, a like on a photo from two years ago, a picture of you at a cafe, holding a caramel macchiato.
the pieces clicked into place with terrifying finality. the coffee wasn't a lucky guess. it was research.
â
heeseung sat in the study room of the library, the pen against his lips and occasionally pressed against his nose, as if he needed to smell you.Â
he watched the three dancing dots appear and disappear in your dm as you struggled to form a reply. a slow, satisfied smile graced his lips.Â
he scrolled through your profile, what heâd like to call was researching and finding about his crush, and not with the stalking them. but his fingers kept double tapping, every picture, every tag, every casual comment was a data point.
he had known the coffee would work. he had known the photo would unnerve you. he had known that the follow, from an account with no posts and a single follower, would feel like a door being kicked open.
he zoomed in on the old cafe photo, his thumb tracing the smile on your face. soon, he thought. soon, every one of those smiles would be because of him. he typed one more message.
l.heesung: don't forget your reading. I'll be waiting.
â
the next day, walking into the lecture hall felt like stepping onto a warzone. you kept your head down, aiming for a seat in the very back row, as far from his usual spot as possible.
you were almost there when a familiar, low voice cut through the pre-class murmur. "you're in the wrong seat."
heeseung was already there, leaning back in the chair next to the one you'd been heading for. His expression was neutral, but his eyes held a glint of dark amusement. on the desk in front of the empty seat was a fresh cup of coffee from the same shop. a caramel macchiato.
âthe view is better up here," he said, his tone leaving no room for argument. the entire row was empty.Â
he had clearly saved the spot, intimidating away anyone else who might have considered it.Â
trapped, you slowly slid into the chair, your body rigid. the professor began his lecture, but the words were a distant hum.
all you could focus on was the heat radiating from the coffee cup, and the heat of his presence beside you. âyouâre not going to drink it, y/n?â
the use of your name making you squirm. it was almost hypnotic in a bad way, before he started to speak again with a sarcastic pout. âoh, youâre making me so sad. i bought that just for you.â
âsâsorry.â you mutter, almost submissevely as your fingers wrap around the warm cup and placing it to your lips.Â
heeseung practically cooed at the sight with a laugh. âyeah, thats right, baby, drink it all up.â
you try your best to ignore his words with a shiver, tuning back into the professor.
halfway through the class, as the professor droned on, you reached into your bag for a pen, your fingers finding only empty space.Â
you frowned, rifling through the contents. you could have sworn you packed one.
a faint, clean scent, like cold air and shea butter, drifted from heeseungâs direction. it was new, but the smell was something you could recognize.Â
something in the atmosphere around him felt different, charged with a secret satisfaction. You glanced over. he was perfectly still, attentively facing forward, but the ghost of a smirk played on his lips.Â
your eyes flicked down to the open notebook on his desk. your pen, the one he said heâd âkeep safeâ, was nowhere to be seen.
he hadn't returned it. heâd kept it. and the unsettling realization dawned that the faint, new scent clinging to him was your own hand cream, transferred from the pen heâd been holding. He hadnât just taken a souvenir; he had marked himself with it.Â
the air shifted, heavy with a suspicion you couldn't quite grasp, as he continued to listen to the lecture, the phantom touch of your handcream lingering on his skin.
the lecture ended in a rustle of papers and scraping chairs. you practically leapt from your seat, desperate to put space between you and the unsettling shea butter-and-cream scent that felt suffocating.
âwait!âÂ
his voice, soft but firm, stopped you in your tracks, mid way down the room. you took a deep breath and turned, expecting heeseung, but found someone else entirely.Â
it was choi soobin, one of the other students from your project group. he looked hesitant, holding out a few sheets of paper.
"hey," soobin said with an apologetic smile. "you looked a little lost today. i took some extra notes for the group. figured i'd share."
it was a simple, kind gesture. a normal interaction after all those stalker like ones. the relief was so clear it felt dizzying. "oh! thank you, iâi really appreciate that," you said, your voice a little too eager as you accepted the papers.
you didn't see heeseung, still seated a few rows above, slowly placing his own notebook into his bag. his movements were deliberately slow, his head down. but his knuckles were white where he gripped the strap.
from the corner of his eye, he had seen it all: soobins approach, your relieved smile, the easy exchange.Â
a cold, silent rage settled over him. someone else was trying to provide for you. someone else was earning your gratitude.Â
that was his role.Â
his alone.
your phone buzzed in your pocket. then buzzed again. and again. the cold dread returned, ten times more worse tha before. you pulled our your soft pink phone, a contrast to your dread.
unknown number: [attachment: 1 image]
your heart practically drops at the photo, it was of you taking the notes from soobin. the time stamp being less than a minute ago. your head sprung up to look around for him, but, he wasnt there. it was like he was a figment of your imagination.
the phone vibrated in your hand again, your eyes slowly looking back at the phone.
unknown number: he's using last semester's outline. his notes are worthless, the syllabus changed.
unknown number: meet me at the library.Â
the air left your lungs. the photo was a violation. the library wasn't a request; it was a command. one that dictated the rhythm of your pulse.
you mumbled a hurried, distracted thanks to soobin, not meeting his eyes, and practically fled the lecture hall. your mind raced. heâs using last semesterâs outline. how could heeseung possibly know that?Â
you pushed open the heavy library doors, the familiar scent of old paper now smelling like a trap. he was in the same study room, the door ajar.Â
he wasn't at the table. he was standing by the window, his back to you, a shaodw of stillness.
âyouâre here.â
he didn't turn. his voice was soft, yet it filled the small space, devoid of its earlier mock-amusement.Â
it was flat.Â
cold.
"you took a picture of me," you accused, your voice trembling despite your attempt to sound firm, showing your phone towards him.
heeseung turned around, his brow furrowing in genuine-looking confusion as he looked at the screen. "a picture? of you and soobin?" he blinked, silence for 5 whole seconds. then let out a soft, dismissive laugh, shaking his head.Â
"that wasn't me. must be a glitch in the system or something. weird." he looked back out the window, then back at you, his expression shifting to one of gentle concern. "you look really shaken up. are you okay?"
the feeling of emotion through his voice throwing you off, making your jaw slack softly. it made you doubt your own sanity. but, just as soon as the emotion in his voice arrived, it went away.
"throw them away."
âwhat?â
âthe notes, throw them away.â
it wasn't a suggestion. it was a order.
when you didn't move, he took a single, fluid step toward you. he didn't touch you. he simply stood close enough for you to feel the heat of his body, to smell the faint, clean scent on his skin that you now knew was your own.
"he can't help you," heeseung murmured, his voice dropping to a whisper that was for you alone. "he doesn't see you. not the way i do. he doesn't know what you need."
you were frozen, pinned by the raw intensity in his gaze.
"i didn't appreciate that," he said, his voice low and his usual polished charm now all gone.
"appreciate what?" you managed with the fear in your voice.
his eyes were dark, his jaw tight. the perfect mask was gone, completely stripped away. "him. talking to you. touching what's mine." his hand going to move a strand of hair away from your face. "you smiled at him. you took what he offered."
your breath hitched, why? you didnt know.
"he doesn't get to have your smile," heeseung whispered, his body caging you against the wall. âhe doesn't get to help you. that's my job. iâm your partner. do you understand?"
âbâbut, were all in the sameââ
his hand moved down, not to touch you, but to gently take the notes from your limp grasp. he didn't even look at them as he let the papers flutter to the floor.
"you don't need anything from anyone else. ever again."
the words weren't a promise; they were a verdict. the air in the room was gone, replaced by the suffocating weight of his possession.Â
your legs, which had been trembling since you entered, finally gave way. the world tilted, and you fell to your knees, the impact a dull thud against the hard floor.Â
a single, choked sob escaped you, not just from fear, but from the sheer, terrifying finality of it all.
heeseung watched you crumble. and he smiled.
it wasn't a smirk of victory, but a slow, deep, profoundly satisfied smile. this was what he wanted.Â
not just your compliance, but your total surrender. he had wanted to see the exact moment the fight left your body, and he had orchestrated it perfectly.
he didn't move to help you. he didn't crouch down. he simply looked down at you, a collector gazing upon the rare butterfly he has finally pinned to his board, a panther watching the life fade from its prey's eyes, not with hunger, but with satisfaction.
"good girl," he purred, his voice terrifyingly gentle.
he stepped around you. walking to the door, his footsteps echoing in the silent room. he paused at the threshold, not looking back.
"i'll see you in class tomorrow," he said, his tone now casual, conversational, as if commenting on the weather. "don't be late."
the door clicked shut.
you were alone on your knees, the ghost of his scent in the air, the echo of his command in your ears.Â
he had walked away because he knew, with absolute certainty, that you would still be there, waiting for him, when he decided to return.
time lost all meaning. you didn't know how long you knelt on the cold floor, the ghost of his presence clinging to you like a shroud.Â
the shuddering sobs had subsided, leaving behind a hollow, numb silence. you were a toy, one he could play with, and you wouldnt mind.
god, you felt sick and twisted.
a soft chuckle escaped your lips through your dried up tears.
a soft click broke the silence.
the study room door swung open slowly. it wasn't heeseung. a library assistant poked her head in, her eyes widening slightly at the sight of you on the floor.
"ma'am? are you alright? we're closing this floor for the evening."
the real world, with its boring schedules and normal concerns, felt like a distant, foreign planet. you managed a weak nod, pushing yourself up on trembling legs. "sorryâ iâm fine. thank you."
you stumbled out of the library into the cool evening air. the walk back to your dorm was a blur. every shadow felt different now, not threatening, but watchful. acknowledged. he had won, and the world had simply adjusted to this new truth.
as you reached your door, your heart stuttered. in fear? in appreciation? taped to the wood was a simple, white paper bag. no note. With trembling fingers, you peeled it away and looked inside.
a new pen, a replica of the one he kept. and a single, perfect caramel macchiato, still warm, from the cafe across campus.
he hadn't just broken you. he was already beginning to rebuild you in the silence he left behind, providing the very tools, the pen for your studies, the coffee for your comfort, that would bind you to him.Â
the message was clearer than any text: your world is gone. i am your world now. and i will provide everything you need.
â
the numbness became a new kind of routine. you went to class. you sat where heeseung indicated. you accepted the coffee that would appear on your desk. you used the new pen. you were a perfectly compliant doll, and the fear began to morph into a strange, exhausted calm.Â
great, this was your life now.
then, the routine cracked.
it was after a sociology lecture, one you had, to take with your photography courses. soobin, who had given you the notes what felt like a lifetime ago, fell into step beside you in the hallway.
"hey," he said, his smile easy and genuine. "you've seemed a little... stressed lately. there's a new bubble tea place that just opened a block over. i was wondering if you'd want to check it out with me sometime? maybe tomorrow afternoon?"
the offer was so normal. so kind. it was a lifeline thrown to the person you used to be. a flicker of your old self sparked, hopeful, and desperately stifled.
you were flattered. and, feeling a little suffocated, you agreed.
a small, real smile touched your lips for the first time in weeks. "yeah," you said, your voice barely a whisper. "yeah, I'd like that."
"great! i'll text you," soobin said, his own smile widening before he merged back into the crowd.
for a glorious, fleeting moment, you felt free.
you didn't see heeseung, standing partially obscured by a pillar further down the hall.Â
he had seen the entire exchange: the hopeful smile, the easy agreement, the way your entire posture had lifted with a hope that he had not put there. the calm on his face didn't fracture. it solidified, like ice.
â
soobin wasnt in class.
nor was he the next day.
or the next.
a rumour, sharp and swift, cut through the lecture hall before the professor arrived: soobin was gone. a family emergency had forced him to withdraw from the university suddenly.Â
permanently.
your blood ran cold, what? this wasâ oh.
your phone buzzed in your pocket.
l.heesung: hey, i heard about soobin. so sad that he had to go, wanna talk about it? i can take you to dinner.
you blinked. once. twice.
the casual cruelty of it stole the air from your lungs. the feigned sympathy, the friendly tone, the dinner invitation in the shadow of his atrocity.Â
he was testing you. he was seeing if you would sit across from him, make polite conversation, and accept this new, horrifying reality.
your fingers trembled as you typed a single word, the only safe response you could manage, the white flag of your surrender.
you: okay.
â
dinner was surreal. heeseung was charming, intelligent, and engaging. he spoke about his photography project, the nuances of the wine, anything but the ghost at the table, asked about your classes with a facade of genuine interest, and never once mentioned soobin.Â
the horror of the last few days began to feel like a distant, feverish nightmare under the warm restaurant lighting and his undivided attention. it was the most dangerous magic trick of all: making you forget the monster infront of you at the table.
as the waiter cleared the dessert plates, a strange, hollow calm settled over you. the fight was gone. the fear was done, replaced by an awe. all that was left was a terrifying, clear-eyed understanding: he was the only reality that mattered.Â
you forced yourself to take a small bite of the steak heâd ordered for you, eyes lighting up as you stuck the meat into your mouth.
âitâs⌠good,â you murmured.
a faint, genuine-looking smile touched his lips. âi know. i remembered you mentioned once that you prefer your filet mignon medium-rare with a red wine reduction, not a peppercorn sauce.â
you froze, the piece of meat turning to lead in your mouth. you had never told him that. youâd had that conversation with jake, weeks ago, in the cafeteria line. a private, boring detail as you both talked about the food being served that day.
the realization must have shown on your face, the dawning horror that his surveillance was far more intimate, far more pervasive, than you had ever imagined.
for a single, unguarded second, heeseungâs polished mask slipped. the pleased, knowing look in his eyes shifted into something sharper, hungrier, almost frantic. he saw that he had revealed too much, that he had let you see the sheer scale of his obsession.
he leaned forward, his voice dropping, losing its ease and becoming something raw and possessive, the mask completely falling off.
a muscle twitched in his jaw. "i need to know you better than anyone else ever could. better than he ever did. don't you see, baby? it has to be me."
âdont call me that.âÂ
there it was. the slip. not just an admission of watching, but of when he was watching. of a specific, jealous memory that had festered.Â
he had been listening to your conversation with jake, anyone youâve talked to. he had been there, just behind you, noting down your preferences, your smiles, and storing them in the back of his mind.
he recovered instantly, leaning back and taking a sip of water, the smooth facade snapping back into place. but it was too late.
the image was burned into your mind, and the taste of the steak in your mouth now felt like a violation.
âiâi have to go-â you stammered out, the words tripping over your numb lips.
you shoved your chair back, standing up so abruptly that your knees knocked against the table. the silverwear rattled violently; a fork clattered onto the floor with a sharp, ringing sound that cut through the ambient noise.Â
a few nearby diners glanced over, their expressions a mix of curiosity and mild alarm.
heeseung didnât flinch. he didnât look embarrassed or angry. he simply watched you, his head tilted slightly, his expression one of faint, patronising concern, the picture of a charming date dealing with a hysterical partner.
âof course, love,â he said, the petname sounding like venom, his voice impossibly calm, a contrast to your ragged breathing. he placed his napkin neatly on the table. âlet me walk you out. itâs getting late.â
he was already standing, pulling out his wallet and leaving a stack of cash on the table without even glancing at the bill. he was in control again, seamlessly managing the crisis you had caused, making your panic look like a minor inconvenience he would gracefully handle.Â
you tried to leave early, yet he gently took your elbow to guide you toward the door, his touch was a marking, a silent promise that no matter how fast you ran, he would always be there to catch you.
â
the night air was cold, but it was nothing compared to the ice in your veins. the second you were clear of the restaurant's surroundings, you wrenched your arm from his grasp, spinning to face him on the empty sidewalk.
"don't touch me," you snarled, the fear finally boiling over into a rage so pure it made you tremble.
heeseung didnt look offended. no. he looked patient, as if he knew this would happen.
âyâknow, baby. everything i do, i do for you.â he said, his voice soft but intense, cutting through the quiet night. âsoobin would have bored you. he would have hurt you. he saw you as just another girl with big tits and a brain. but i see you. i see every part of you. you're my masterpiece.â
the audacity, the sheer, twisted conviction in his words, shattered something inside you.
"you're insane!" you whispered, the words tearing from your throat. âi didnt ask you to do thisâ!â
he smiled, a sad yet majestic smile that didn't reach his chillingly calm eyes. "i'm in love. there's a difference. and you love me too. you're just... confused. but don't worry. i'll help you remember, baby."
âi loved you when i knew you weren't a fucking psycho!â you yelled, your voice cracking as hot, mascara-streaked tears streamed down your face.
the words hung in the air, a testament to what could have been. for a single, silent moment, something fractured in his perfect composure. a flicker of pain, raw and real, crossed his face before it was hidden by a darker, more intense.
he closed the distance between you in one swift step, his hands coming up to cradle your face, his thumbs wiping away your tears with a terrifying tenderness.
"no," he corrected softly, his breath ghosting across your lips. "you loved the idea of me. the idea of the perfect basketball player who has a high gpa in the photography department. now, you get to love the reality. the man who would burn the whole world down to keep you warm. there is no 'before,' my love. there is only now. there is only ever me.â
his words were the final nail in the coffin of your old life. the fight drained out of you, leaving behind a hollow, chilling calm.Â
he was a force of nature. a beautiful, devastating hurricane. and you were done trying to stand against the wind.
so, you stopped.
you just leaned forward and kissed him.
it wasnt gentle, no. it was a collision. a desperate, final surrender sealed with the salt of your tears and the feeling of his own victory.
you practically poured all the emotion into it, the grief, the fear, the rage, the horrifying fascination. it was the white flag raised in the war of your life.
for the first time all night, you felt heeseung completely falter.
he froze for a heartbeat, stunned. the control and calculated intensity, the forced patience, it all shattered. a sharp ragged gasp was torn straight from his throat, and then his arms wrapped around you, crushing you against him as if you were the only thing in his universe (you were).Â
he kissed you back with a frantic, desperate hunger, a starving man finally eating for the first time in forever.
it was messy, raw, and more terrifyingly real than anything that had been there before/
when you finally broke apart, breathless, he just stared at you. his own composure gone in a second. his eyes were wide, his lips were parted, his breath was as ragged as your own.
he looked⌠unravelled, and a mess.
you had finally given him what he wanted, and in doing so, you had stolen his control. you had shown him that the only way to truly possess you was to be consumed by you in return.
his voice was a wreck, a quiet whisper against your cheek.
âsee?â he breathed, his forehead resting against yours. âyou do remember.â
a dull, hollow laugh escaped you. it was a sound devoid of any humor, the last gasp of your breaking point. you pulled back just enough to meet his dazed, excited eyes.
and you slapped him.
the crack echoed in the quiet night, a final, desperate act of war. "fuck you," you whispered, the words dripping with a venom that made him flinch more than the blow itself.
you turned and walked away. your legs felt like lead, but you walked, putting one foot in front of the other, leaving him standing stunned on the sidewalk.Â
you made it five steps. ten. The world began to swim, the edges of your vision blurring into a grey static. the adrenaline, the terror, the emotional whiplash, it all crashed down at once.
the last thing you were aware of was the sound of his frantic footsteps rushing toward you before everything went black.
â
you woke up in a strange, luxurious bedroom. the sheets were silk, the air smelled of âhimâ, shea butter and something clean, just like your own hand cream. the events on the sidewalk came back in a nauseating rush. you tried to sit up, a headache pounding behind your eyes.
"easy," his voice came from the doorway. heeseung stood there, holding a glass of water. His cheek bore a faint, red mark.Â
he looked calm. resolved. "you fainted. the doctor said you were severely dehydrated and exhausted."
the âdoctorâ was undoubtedly his, and he paid for their silence.
that was the beginning of the new world.
it didn't feel like a loss of independence at first. it felt like a relief. after you âfaintedâ, heeseung framed it as a necessary step for your recovery.Â
"your job was stressing you, baby. i could see it," he'd say, his voice soft with feigned concern. "you need to focus on healing and your studies. let me handle this."
the conversation wasn't a discussion. it was a notification. he made the call to your manager at the cafe while you were still groggy, his voice charming and apologetic on your behalf.Â
when you weakly protested, he presented the sleek, black credit card, placing it in your palm and closing your fingers around it.
"it's linked to my account. for anything you need. books, clothes, food... anything." his smile was tender, he finally had you, of course heâd look happier. "i want to take care of you."
the trap was in the generosity. every swipe of the card was a transaction he could monitor, a map of your movements and desires. buying a coffee became a data point. buying a novel was a subject for later inquiry.Â
the illusion of limitless freedom was, in fact, the most precise form of control.Â
he drove you to and from university every day in a car with tinted windows. "it's dangerous to walk alone after what happened." you practically never saw the inside of a bus again.
the first time he drove you to campus, he framed it as a temporary measure. "just until your strength is back," he promised, holding the car door open for you. the door locks clicked with a sound of finality.
the routine became imprinted. he would be waiting outside his, now your, building, every morning. the passenger seat became your designated spot. the tinted windows separating you and the real world. reducing every person who walked by into a silent film.
"if you need to stay late at the library, just text me. i'll pick you up," he'd say. "it's not safe for you to walk alone, especially after dark."Â
not safe, huh?
the car wasn't a convenience; it was a jail cecll, ensuring you were always on his schedule, always within his reach. he had to know your every move.
one evening, he took your phone, his fingers deftly resetting the passwords. "so I can help you manage your stress," he murmured, his thumb stroking your wrist with love. "you don't need all those distractions. They upset you."
the invasion of your phone was the most intimate violation. he took it one evening, citing a "glitch" he could fix. you watched, paralysed, as his long fingers danced across the screen, resetting your passwords with an expert's ease.
"all done," he hummed, handing it back. his expression was one of pure benevolence.Â
"i've cleared out a lot of the clutter. those group chats were so noisy. and those old followers... you don't need that kind of negativity."
your social media was wiped off the face of the earth. contacts were deleted. the digital breadcrumbs leading back to your old life were systematically erased. his reasoning was a masterclass in gaslighting: "so I can help you manage your stress. you don't need all those distractions. they were making you anxious, weren't they?"
your phone, the device that once connected you to the world, was now a a monitor just for him. your world now existed within the apps he approved of, and your primary contact was the man who had orchestrated its isolation.
your world shrank to the size of his pristine apartment and the passenger seat of his car. you were a ghost in your own life, perfectly preserved, cared for, and utterly, completely his. the slap, the "fuck you," the walk away, it had all been the last convulsion of a dying freedom. he had won.
you were like a mini figurine trapped in the plastic case. like a limited edition barbie doll to him, perfect and fragile.
â
the world had shrunk to a series of silent, beautiful rooms and the hushed interior of a moving car. your days were perfectly identical.Â
heeseung would wake you with a soft kiss, his version of winding up his favorite toy. you'd eat the breakfast he prepared, wear the clothes he laid out, always elegant, always to his taste.Â
the drive to university was silent, your hand often held in his, his thumb stroking your knuckles in a rhythmic, possessive pattern. in class, you were a model student, but your mind was elsewhere, locked in the apartment you shared.Â
you no longer participated in discussions; you simply absorbed information to later regurgitate for him, proving you were using your "protected" time wisely.Â
after class, his car was always waiting, a predator idling at the curb. there was no question of going to the library, meeting a friend, or running an errand. tour only destination was home.Â
his home.
your old social life disappeared. the world outside the tinted windows became a distant dream. your old friends' texts stopped appearing on your cleared out phone.Â
your family calls were now funnelled through him; he would hand you the phone, staying in the room, his presence a silent warning to keep the conversation light, happy, and utterly devoid of truth.Â
"they'd only worry, love," he'd remind you softly after you hung up, his arms wrapping around you from behind. "this way, they know you're safe and loved." you were a ghost, and he was the only one who could see you.
at first, his affection was a constant, suffocating force. you endured the hours he spent brushing your hair, the touch feeling clinical, like a collector maintaining a priceless artifact.Â
you tolerated the sound of his voice as he read to you, a smooth, hypnotic drone that felt more like a lullaby for the dead. the photos he took of you for his upcoming exhibition felt like evidence for a trial you never agreed to.
but the human heart, starved for connection, can warp to find it in the strangest of places. the relentless attention, which had felt like a prison, began to feel like a fortress.Â
the outside world, with its chaos and casual cruelties, started to seem like the real threat. inside these walls, you were protected, cherished, and seen with an intensity no one else had ever offered.
slowly, a shift began.
the brush moving through your hair was no longer a violation, but something that was soothing, lulling you into a state of peace.Â
the sound of his voice reading to you became the most comforting sound in your world, a familiar anchor. you stopped flinching when he took your picture, and one day, you even smiled, a small, tentative thing.Â
the flash of pure joy on his face was like a drug. you had caused that. you had that power over him.
his worship was no longer something done to you, but something you, yourself participated in. the fear didn't vanish, but it melted into a different, more complex emotion, a terrifying, all-consuming devotion.Â
he had destroyed your world to build a new one just for them, and in the terrible, beautiful silence he had created, you found herself starting to love the architect. the prison of his home had become your sanctuary, and the keeper of it, like you were god.
the realization that she was warming to him did not come as a shock, but as a quiet, undeniable tide rising within her.Â
it was in the way you began to anticipate the sound of his key in the lock, a flutter of something that was not quite dread stirring in your chest.Â
it was in the way youâd find yourself leaning into his touch rather than merely enduring it, your body betraying a mind that was slowly being rewired.
one evening, as he read to you on the sofa, you found your head resting not against the cushion, but against you shoulder. it was an unconscious movement, a seeking of warmth. he paused, the book resting in his lap.Â
the silence that followed was thick with meaning. you felt the sharp intake of his breath, the sudden stillness of his body. when his hand came up to cradle the back of your head, his fingers tangling gently in your soft hair, it didn't feel like possession. it felt like an answer.
"i love you," he whispered into your hair, the words not a declaration, but a raw, vulnerable confession.
and the most terrifying part was the truth that echoed back from your own heart. you didn't say it. you couldn't give him that final, exciting piece of yourself, yet. but you turned your face into his neck, your lips brushing his skin in a silent surrender that was stronger than any words.
the confession hung in the air, a shaky shift in the room. your silent response, the brush of your lips against his skin, wasn't rejection.Â
heeseung went perfectly still for a moment, as if afraid the slightest movement would shatter the moment.Â
then, a low, shuddering breath escaped him. the book was forgotten, sliding from his lap to the floor with a soft thud.
this time, his touch was different. it wasn't the cold, possessive caress that he used to use, nor was it the frantic, claiming grip of before. it was slow. worshipping. a question, rather than a demand.
his fingers traced the line of your jaw, tilting your face up to his. his eyes searched yours, the dark pools holding a new hunger.Â
"tell me to stop," he breathed, his voice trembling. it was the last lie between you, the final choice. if you did, he would.
you didn't.
instead, your own hands, which used to limp or push him away, came up to clutch at the fabric of his shirt. it was all the answer he needed.
his mouth found yours, and the last of your resistance crumbled. this wasn't the violent collision of your first kiss on the sidewalk. this was a deep, slow claiming that felt less like an invasion and more like a return.Â
his hands explored your body with certainty, trailing the curves of your waist, to your hips, to your neck. he knew that you were now unquestionably his. you, in turn, met his hunger with your own, a desperate, aching need rising from the ashes of your fear.
his hands grabbing your hips to drag out onto his lap. the sounds of moaning and whining floating in the air. âheeseungââ you moaned out into his lips, hands grasping the sides of his face.
âpleaseâ y/n, you dont know how long iâve waited for this.â he gasped into the kiss, hips hands dragging your hips to rut against his strained jeans.Â
he was begging for you.Â
âoh, but heeseung, think about all the things youâve done to me.â you cooed against his lips, a hand going to pull his hair, making the kiss break in an instant.
a loud moan and whimper escaping his lips at the feeling. âBâbutâ!â
âbut what?â your smirk was wicked. he tried to control you, so why couldn't you control him?
your hips move on their own as you lean down to lick against his neck. nibbling and biting till they left marks on his skin. branding him.
âhow bad do you want me, hmm?â you hummed, the sound vibrating his skin softly. he practically groaned; he felt like he was going to explode any second. and you knew that, with a smirk, the pace of your hips quicked.Â
his breath quicked and the grip against your waist tightened until they didnt. his body shook lightly underneath you until a loud groan escaped his lips. body stilling instantly, and you knew what had happened.
a low giggle escaping your lips at his action, but your hips didn't stop. they slowly kept going. âyou were doing so well, but you couldn't keep it in. could you?â
he let out a weak moan with a nodding head at your words. he didnt trust himself to speak, making you let out a laugh again. your hands sneaking down from his hair to the button of his jeans.
almost cruelly slow, you unbuttoned his jeans, hands careful not to touch his strained cock, noticing the dark spot against his boxers. âgod, you really liked that.â you mocked, using your thumb and middle finger to flick the spot, making him jump.
âstâstop teasingâ!â he whined, his grip on your waist almost bruising.Â
âand why do you have to make the shots?â you asked with a warning in your voice, peeling his boxers off, revealing his cock to the ice-cold air as a hiss escaped his mouth.
his cock was leaking, almost leaking so much it looked like he was about to cum again any moment.Â
âpathetic.â you spat with a wicked smile, saliva dripping down your lips and onto his cock, which twitched at the degrading name. âoh, you like that?â you mocked with a smile. pulling the panties under your (his) large shirt.Â
âbeg for me, show me how much you want me.â you said, hovering over his cock. eyes zeroing on his red cheeks and teary eyes. his lips agape as he started to spill out praises.
âplease, youââre so pretty, youâre like a goddess to me.â
âiâ iâve always wanted and needed youâ!âÂ
âthink about itâ imagine itâ!â
âplease, y/nâ pleaseâ sit on my cockâ!â
he cried out a moan, tears streaming down his cheeks as his tip entered you. no prep, no nothing. and shit, you were tight.
âthankyouthankyouthankyouâ!â he moaned out, as you took more of him. little by little, sitting down on his length until your bottom hits his lap. the stretch was painful yet needed, and you practically revelled in the fullness of him.
âno moving, okay?â you said more like a demand rather than a question. your hips rising before he could even respond.
a synchronised moan escaping both of your lips as soon as you thrusted back down onto him, back arching and eyes closing in pleasure. the sounds of skin slapping down dominated the room.
the sounds of him whimpering and whining at your brutal pace making you smirk even more.
âYou feel so good,â he cried out. each thrust was deep and relentless, a perfect rhythm that made his head spin.Â
you could feel the heat pooling in your belly; the addition of his whines and sobs drives you wild. your hips moved a pace you didn't even think you could reach, back arching and head tilted back as you rode him. âfuck, baby. i dont think i can hold it in any longer.â
âpâplease! iâ i want to feel you clench, can i cum in youâ iâve been a good boy,â he begged, tears streaming harder than ever against his cheeks as he squeezed your hips until his knuckles turn white.
âoh, but you were so bad, what if i didn't want you to cum?â you questioned through moans, tilting your head slightly to mock him.
a whine broke free from his throat at your threatening comment, pupils dilated, but he just couldnt hold it in anymore.
he practically lifts his hips to cum deep inside you, his tip kissing your cervix. the moan-like cry escaping his lungs as his head tilted back.Â
the way his cock hit your cervix made you snap as well, your hips instantly stilling as you came all over his cock, a high moan ripped out of your lips as well as you fell onto his chest.
heaving breaths and the smell of sex filled the room, the only other thing over the panting was the occasional sounds of cars passing by on the street. your lips curl into a smirk before you sat up, heeseungâs eyes following your own before you opened your mouth to speak.
âYouâre so pathetic, i hate that i love you too.â
the room was thick with the scent of sex and the sound of ragged breaths. outside, the distant swish of a passing car only emphasised the silence between you.Â
a slow smirk curled your lips as you sat up, your movements tracked by Heeseung's heavy-lidded gaze. he was still in you, probably hard.
you let the silence stretch, let him hang on the moment before your arrival, before your voice cut through the quiet, low and deliberate:Â
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yandere!ě´íŹěš â y/n
to everyone at decelis university, lee heeseung was the definition of perfection. to you, he was just some popular kid who was an untouchable star in the photography department you could only admire from a distance. you never imagined he even knew your name. but heeseung didn't just know your name. he knew your schedule, your favorite coffee order, the song you hummed when you thought you were alone. in his world of exhibitions, you were the one variable he couldn't solve, the one piece he couldn't master. he wanted to make you his own muse.
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frankenstein!ë°ě˘ ěą â y/n
they say you can't build a soul. you, the daughter of a visionary everyone called "mad," took that as a challenge. your degrees were the tools, your loneliness the blueprint. And the result was park jongseong. He was everything you designed him to be: your companion, your protector, your perfect, beautiful boy.
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werewolf!ěŹěŹě¤ â y/n
adrenaline screamed through your veins as you crashed through the undergrowth. behind you, the wolf was a phantom of muscle and shadow, its breath hot on your neck. like hell it's eating me, you thought, forcing your burning muscles faster. you would not be prey.
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ghostface!ë°ěąí â y/n
he didn't just call to threaten you; he called to critique you. "what's the point? they're all the same. some stupid killer stalking some big-tit girl who can't act who's always running up the stairs when she should be running out the front door." that's what he said against the phone. tears down your cheeks and hiding inside your closet, you knew he was talking about you. "which begs the question, y/n... what's your favorite scary movie?"
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fallen angel!ęšě ě° â y/n
he was heaven's creation, not hell's. but god, he was wicked. every glance from him was a sermon of sin, every word from his velvet voice a sacrilege. his gaze promised paradise while inviting the gates of hell; his voice was a verse that cursed your soul. behind the radiance of his wings and the false light in his eyes was a shadow older than time.
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zombie!ěě ě â y/n
the dead walks, mindeless, brain hungry and braindead. all except one. yang jungwon. he's different, atleast that's what you said. he's intelligent, fast -- almost too fast, and retains his feline like elegance and memories. he was the perfect rotten predator, but he wasn't fixated on your brain or your flesh, he wanted something deeper, lower. maybe wetter.
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doll!輿ć ĺ â y/n
you take a live-in nanny position for the summer holidays, wealthy family in a remote, manor. the job is simple: care for their adult son, nishimura riki, while they are away for the summer. you arrive to find that riki is not a child, but a life-sized doll. the parents, with disturbing sincerity, give you a list of strict rules: read to him, play music for him, tuck him in at night, and never, ever leave him alone.
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CONTENT â fiction with smut, nsfw! mdni!, angsty toxic Heeseung, obsessive, psychosexual dark vibes step bro Heeseung, stalker heeseung, if I can't have you no one can typpa heeseung, deep voyeurism kink, needy/pervy/manipulative reader, strong depiction of fantasies, sexual tension, consensual edging, p in the v, overstimulation, light choking, public act, bad behavior's reader.
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Was literally obsessed with those two songs when writing this : https://open.spotify.com/intl-fr/album/4OFZVvqlg84Czl7td7XddK?si=rakigTTnSJyY8CnPyp8A7w
Heeseung barely glanced up the first time you met.
Not when your mom introduced you, her laugh sharp and grating over the clink of designer glassware. Not when she called you her little angel, like she hadnât spent the last decade ignoring your existenceâlike a piece of cloth begging to be brought back just because itâs trendy now. And definitely not when you smiled at him like you actually meant it.
He just slouched further into his hoodie. Hood up, sleeves covering half his hands like armor. Said something that mightâve been âhey,â but it sounded more like: I donât give a shit.
You smiled anyway. Quiet, composed. Like you didnât notice he hadnât met your eyes yet, hadnât even registered the color of his irises. He had a good face, for sure. And a nice name. Heeseung. Heeâseung.
Letâs try not to forget itâŚ
Heâs Heeseung. The one who doesn't match the luxury flooring or manicured smiles. Heeseung, who looked more interested in his phone screen than the pricey piece of steak heâd just been served.
You...
You were different. And Heeseung noticed.
Because other girlsâespecially the daughters of his fatherâs revolving door of Stepford wivesâalways played the same game: almost flirty, too fake, self-obsessed, and excited to be part of the family.
You⌠you were calmer. Almost shy. Ashamed to even call your mom âMom.â You were also interested in his presenceâlightly tapping his foot with yours, giving him those apologetic doe eyes, like: Sorry that my shameless mom got a grip on your already-married dad just to milk him dryâŚ
But itâs not like he divorced his mom for yours. And itâs not like you were the first one. Generally, the other step-siblings never asked about him. Never cared to know what lay beneath the hoodie-tortured-kid style he wore like armor.
You?
You looked at him like he was a person. Like you saw something he didnât even believe was still there.
And with monthsâand then a yearâmaybe⌠you liked what you saw.
You asked questions. Not the fake kind. Real ones.
âYou coded that game on your own?â
âYou really won a national contest?â
âThat glitch mechanic you added⌠did you write it from scratch?â
He wasnât used to that kind of attention. Not anymore.
You leaned over his laptop one afternoon, wide-eyed, genuinely impressed. Your breath was warm on his shoulder, the scent of vanilla and soft detergent clinging to your hoodieâone he was almost sure used to be his.
âYouâre kind of a genius,â youâd said, and smiled that smile. Soft. Easy. Like you werenât afraid of him.
Because why would you be? You were always so nice and caring to him. Youâd bring him a plate of food when his dad never cared to check even once. Leave Post-its with sweet pep talks before examsâones that made him smile for the first time in a decade. Sit silently beside him after he got scolded for placing second on the honor board. Your hand, always soft and peach-scented, would stroke his hair like he wasnât eight months older. And your eyesâso sweet when they met his.
You werenât supposed to make him feel things.
And he wasnât supposed to want someone like you.
But there you were. Not just primâbut infuriatingly so. You weaponized it. You made being stuck-up look like a goddamn virtue. All perfect posture and polite smiles. Still, something was off. Like how you made him open up to you, but never really talked about yourselfâyour life, your past. Always mysterious, always evasive when he got curious, always turning the tables on him.
You⌠you made him feel watched. Seen. Known.
And he didnât like not knowing you back. Because he needed to know everything. It was pathological. Every variable that could disturb his life. Every secret.
And you... Oh you, you were the unknown variable. The only one he couldnât figure out.
And the worst part?
Heeseung couldnât match you. He wasnât good with people. Never had been. Getting you to open up? Never happening. He even got tense in crowds. Even if girls liked him, he couldn't maintain relationships beyond hookups. He could throw a punch, sureâbut he'd rather let the other guy walk off with a smirk, too bored to bother.
But he was good at something: systems. Code. Surveillance.
So he broke the rules heâd promised himself he wouldnât... At least with you.
He hacked your devices.
He shouldnât have connected to them. Shouldnât have hijacked your phone. Shouldnât have hacked your webcam feed like it was just another game level to conquer.
It started innocentâish. Really. Just some harmless digital snooping. New mother, new stepsister, weird vibes, potential threat to his peace and privacyâtotally justifiable.
But your passwords were laughable. The kind of thing a middle schooler could crack.
Seriously. âBookworm123â?
Please.
After all he was Mr. Cybersecurity Prodigy. Award-winning code monkey. VPN for his VPN, two-factor-auth god.
And he peeked. Just a littleâŚ
Your instagram private account, that your mom swore you didnât have because âsocials medias was too destructive for her future doctor of a child.â
Your spotify. Pinterest boards. Youâre files.
like essays about behavioral neuroscience and a note named âjournalingâ : Plans. Rage. Angry rebellion written between textbook reviews. Your escape plan : college far away, control of your own life, zero influence from Barbie and her string of Stepdads. How you craved more. Your identity crisis, GPA fetishist, and how competitive you were to the point of mania. Basically, a mirror of Heeseung in the shape of someone who tried to play the hero of his narrative.
Then, it got worse.
Because curiosity became fixation. He was too deep for it not to be.
On sleepless nights, Heeseung discovered things he absolutely shouldn't.
That his straight Aâs and volunteering hours stepsister â was actually sneaking off to frat party with her friends, just feel alive, get waisted and let some sophomore finger her.
The music you fall asleep to, your âfuckâ playlist too â the one you wouldnât admit to owning even under threat of death.
That habit of yours to flirt with strangers like you had a death wish or just want to be ruined so badly being jailed would be for your own good.Â
That you send cropped pics, no face â just enough tits and thighs, to creeps then ghost them when they beg to meet, just to feel seen.
And he knew the kind of porn you watched on school nights, after wishing him sweet dreams. Earphones on, lips between your t-shirt collar like youâre scared someone might hear you in that big mansion. And what killed him is how fucking rough it is. Spit. Hair-pulling. Throat-fucking. Girls like you werenât supposed to want that. Girls like you were supposed to blush and look away, like when he got too close. Youâre supposed to be horrified at things like that â not get off to it at 1:38 a.m.
He discovered your texts with that secret boyfriend of yours. How badly he treated you, and how you let him, just to feel owned, loved. He knew when you snuck in those late-night FaceTimes, shirt half-off, hand between your thighs, playing the loyal girlfriend for him and his pathetic dick.
And Heeseung? He was obsessed with that version of youâthe one he didnât even dare to fantasize about, yet you handed to him on a silver plate.
Your self-care sessions got him hard under his desk. Got him jerking off to the way your fingers curled around your own throat in the dim hue of your bedroom, playing at power, pretending you didnât crave being broken open.
You were too good at pretending. Sitting across from him, blouse crisp, smiling like a poetry award was the climax of your week.
What a goddamn lie.
But at least heâd seen you now. Most of you. And he understood better. Understood your issues. But something in him snapped.
Because this wasnât just about obsession anymore.
It wasnât about lust.
Or even protection.
It was about you.
And how you made him feel real again.
How you gave him a purpose.
You didnât flinch when he glared. Didnât avoid him at dinner. You just smiled, slid him your extra fries, and asked about the AI competition like it mattered. You looked at him like he was a person.
Not a project. Not a problem.
Not a hacker. Not a delinquent.
Not some mistake his father regretted.
And that⌠made you dangerous.
Because now you were a necessity. Somethingâsomeoneâhe cared about.
He did want to protect you.
But he also wanted to own you.
To erase the line between your bedroom and his. Between your thoughts and his access. Between your gasps at night and his name.
You werenât supposed to get close.
You werenât supposed to care.
And he wasnât supposed to fall for you.
Fall for you?
...
But now what ?
You were the virus in his system.
The girl who said âgood jobâ when he didnât ask for praise. Who laughed when no one else did. Who touched his shoulder onceâjust onceâand left him with a twitch in his fingers he couldnât debug.
But you were a line of code he couldnât rewrite. A live feed he couldnât turn off.
And maybe, if he watched long enough, if he memorized every breath, every sigh, every single unguarded look, you wouldnât disappear like the others.
Maybe, if he learned your patternâŚhe could break you open before you broke him.
And maybe, just maybe, youâd want him to. Even if it meant losing something. Even if it meant pulling you into the dark with him⌠and never letting you go.
Now you were sitting across from him. You spare him a glance while structuring your salad like a freak, with those doe eyes and heâs hard. Hard at a family dinner while they talked business.
Suddenly his breath catches your feet touching under the table. Like questioning, you good ?
Yeah itâs me, Heeseung. That sweet voice of yours haunting his head.Â
His foot slides slower in between your legs mindlessly and when you almost jolt, he realizes.Â
âgotta go sleep.â he blurred, rushing off the table. âTomorrow is exam day.â
Fuck, he wants more. More of your secrets.More of you, the real you.
So he turned on your webcam, night after night, and your phoneâs, and tab. like you were his favorite streamer, his favorite radio mc, the best sound to sleep. Like you wanted him to fantasise, think of it every nightâŚÂ
You were stretched across your bed, laughing into your phone, wearing nothing but a tank and panties, circling your finger on your belly mindless. The way girls do when they forget theyâre being watched.
You laid out your clothes for the next day like some little honor-roll princessâgiggling when your friend called you a chaebol, and you shrug her off.Â
But the way you lingered on the lace you never wear⌠the silk you only sleep on alone⌠the sheer pieces he has never seenâ holding them up to your chest, slow movements like the reflection was his to tell you what to wear. It was fucking foreplay. You were a fucking siren, with your fucking hair finally down, and those dumb big scare glasses off.Â
And him ?
HeeseungâŚ
He was already crashing on the rocks. He was a black-hat addict no-full-blown cyber-pervert. rock hard, mindlessly stroking his bulge at the sheer form of you in unmatched underwears.
So innocent. So mine.
Some days later, you knocked on his door while your parents were off circling the globe, allergic to stillness and obligations. Your hair was tied up but messier than usual, cheeks sun-kissed, eyes almost redâlike youâd cried.
God, if someone made you cry⌠Iâd kill them.
You held two glasses of soda, dripping with condensation. No way you could deny youâd been pacing by his door for the last hour.
âWhat are you up to, genius? Iâm bored,â you said, voice half-curious, half-something else.
Heeseungâfool, addict, liarâlet you in. Let you get too close. Showed you things he shouldnât because you asked with that look that made him feel like a god, not a glitch. But also made him wonder who had made you sad enough to want to change your mind.
Still, you smiled at his screens like they were art. Touched his keyboard like it was sacred. No step-sister had ever looked at him like that beforeâhell, no one actually had. Fuck, he needed to focus. Focus on you, not you.
âYou really made all this?â
He nodded, trying not to smirk, trying not to shake. His fingers danced across the keys like a seduction.
âWanna see something fun?â
A window blinked open. He typed some commands, and grainy footage appeared: the neighborâs yard. Middle-aged man with hedge clippers, snipping bonsai like manicuring his soul.
He tapped more keys. Suddenly, sprinklers roared to life. The neighbor shrieked, dropped the shears, and bolted.
You burst out laughing, collapsing into him, palm against his chest. That soundâreckless, sweetâmade something snap inside him. It wasnât just pride. It was possession. You werenât weirded out. You liked it. Liked him. Not the fake polite way. The way that made him want to caress your cheek and kiss those red eyes.
But he was a cowardâor your strongest soldier, as he liked to call himself. One who wanted you close, for good, not some fling youâd regret like the others he barely tolerated. No, he wanted you for lifeâand he was in the perfect position, as long as your parents behaved.
Then your eyes met. Dangerous idea sparking. You dared him with your gaze, then dashed out of his room.
âTry it on my bedroom camera!â you shouted, disappearing down the hall, hoodie flapping like a flag.
Fuck. If only you knew he was already connected.
Moments later â Cam03: Her Bedroom Feed lit up.
You stood in front of the lensâhe used to fuck himself to thoughts of youâstarry-eyed as he purposefully reactivated the red dot, signaling it was on. Made a mental note to re-enable it later.
You waved. Smiled like sin. Mouthing: âSee me?â
He choked. Because yesâhe saw you. Always had. But now? Now you saw him.
Like you always knew.
You reached for your top, lifted the hem just enough to flash bare skin, then darted out of frame, laughing like it was a game.
His chest burned. Panic and arousal mixed in his bloodstream like a drug. Heeseungâs brain broke.
But he didnât shut it down. He couldnât. Instead, he gave in. His trembling fingers dimmed your roomâs lights, shifting godspeed to soft pink. He knew it was your favorite. Knew too much.
Then he started your playlistâthe one with soft beats, gentle melody, moonstruck, your favorite.
You paused in the doorway. Turned just enough for the camera to catch you again. Smiled with pure fascination, like a kid. You shouldâve been afraid. But you werenât.
You looked at the cam again, really looked, like he was the sweetest boy, and you didnât care much what he was capable ofâbecause it was him.
You walked back to his door, dripping sunlight and mischief.
âThat was so cool,â you said, high-fiving him like your heart wasnât thundering. Like you hadnât just exposed the darkest part of him and come back wanting more. âCan you, like⌠track people? Their phones or whatever?â
Heeseung blinked. âI-if their GPS is on. Or if they ping the network.â
You tilted your head. Bit your lip. ââŚWanna play hide and seek?â
He scoffed in disbelief, but there was a glint behind his eyesâhalf challenge, half thrill. Like heâd just been dared to play a game he already knew the rules to.
He grabbed his laptop. The mansion was too big. Too full of shadows, quiet corners. A maze of marble, high ceilings, inherited guilt.
Heeseung sat somewhere, a storm brewing behind his eyes.
You texted him: âfind me.â One signal. One flare. Then silence.
He tracked you through your phone GPSâchose not to use the hallway cams, even though he easily could have. Something intimate, invasive, about watching your little red dot move on his map. Every time he walked to you was an ode to the game only you two could play.
Library.
âCheckmate. Youâre here.â
âWow! So you really can!â
West Wing.
âIf you're facing a mirror, itâs too easy⌠not even fun.â
âFuckâŚâ
Wine Cellar.
âIf youâre trying to get drunk, pick the 2007 Bordeaux.â
You laughed.
The pool.
He stuck to the GPS. The red dot blinking. Stalling. Then disappearing.
You texted: âfind me now.â
His screen dimmed like the whole house was holding its breath.
Heeseungâs pulse quickened. GPS cut out. No new pings. He tried again. Twice. Three times. Nothing. Every nerve in his body was a wire of curiosity. The air heavy with chlorine and humidity as he stepped toward the pool deck, leaving his computer by the bar.
Then he found it. Your phone, face down on the stone near the pool.
But you, you whereâ
âGot you!â You leapt.
Laughter, bare legs, hoodie off. Heeseung didnât have time to react before you crashed into himâboth of you tumbling into the water with a splash that shattered the silence.
You surfaced first, grinning like a devil. âYou canât find me if I donât want you to, huh?â you teased, flicking water at him.
Heeseung stared at you, laughing mid-cough. Clothes heavy. Hair plastered to his forehead. The water clung to your skin in a way that made his hands twitch under the surface. You floated closer then. Then reached out and hooked your fingers in his bangs, stroking them like you always did. Then tugging gently.
âHow about I cut your hair?â you whispered, too close to him not to have his eyes linger on your lips. âWeâre starting university soon. Canât show up like some code-goblin, right?â
He snorted. But you two didnât move. Just watched each other's souls for too long. Heart hammering. Skin burning. You were in his pool. In his arms now. In his system.
âAre you okay?â
He asked, with the most considering eyes a family member ever gave you. But you just nodded to his biggest displeasure.
Something was wrong, yeah.
Actually, everything was wrong. And surely something was wrong with you. You felt trapped. In your studies, in your relationship, in these always-new families, in your boring unstable life. You wanted more. More attention, more love, more recognition, more freeness, just moreâŚ
You weren't special like Heeseung. You couldnât clap your fingers and get that video back from your so-called boyfriendâhe threatened to leak if you ever thought of leaving him again. Couldnât clap your fingers and make a scholarship appear on your forms for one of the most prestigious university, and couldnât clap your fingers to make you go to your best choice without the biggest loan you can think about.
But it was better to tell him everything was okay. Because if you didn't fake it⌠youâd be dead by now.
And maybe itâs the weather, or his concerned look, or his trembling hands on your ribsânot too low, not too high. But it felt good being with Heeseung, even better seeing the way he looked at youâ
You really had a problem...
âCan you⌠like⌠if I ever asked youâŚâ
âWhat?â He came closer, almost locking you in his hands, to force you to speal the tea. âTell meâŚâ
âIf someday I needed you, would you⌠like⌠help me if I have something very complicated to solve... like⌠you know... Math.â You laughed it off like you weren't about to ask him to get that sextape back.
He nodded so obediently it hurt. The sub text was clear enough for him. And fuck, you had him in the palm of your hand without doing anything more than just letting him watch. Deny his ever-growing desire. Playing this game you caught him in.
Yeah⌠maybe you really were what your mom made out of you⌠sadly.
After that, Heeseung was like a man on a mission. He hacked every piece of info he could find on that deep shit. Until he found it⌠your complicated math exerciseâŚ
A tap of you and him. Filmed like you werenât aware of it. Heeseung couldnât find the courage to watch itâŚ
Until he did.
And it was everything he ever fantasized doing with you.
He could frame him for anything he wanted. Crash his Tesla. His mind was spiraling as he bit on his nail, replaying that video again and again and again. Zooming on you.
Iâll protect you.
First, you needed an escape. Easyâthat guy already cheated on you with so many girls, it was easy for you to catch him. So he wrote a fantasy he hoped youâd fall for. He drafted messages from your bfâs phone. A fake date. Something sweet, just enough like your boyfriend to pass.
âMeet me tonight baby girl. Just us. Letâs talk. 9PM. My room.â
âBaby girlâŚâ you hated that name, but still couldnât refuse him. And now Heeseung understood.
You saw it, and for a second, you believed. He watched you re-read it, then start getting readyâlip gloss, that fluttery dress, even that nervous little smile like it still meant something.
Meanwhile, your boyfriend was across campus, buried in someone else. Moaning her name. Careless, as always.
Heeseung watched it all, your hope fading when you opened that door, his betrayal, his choke. Your silence. Her grasp. One earbud in, one eye on every camera feed you both could offer.
You left the place in a rush, your phone starting to buzz as Heeseung watched every message your now-ex boyfriend sent you. You found yourself drifting in a club near by. You needed air, music, and drinks, a lot of them.
The music wasnât even that good, your drink, not that strong. You didnât plan to dance. And you didnât plan for some no-brain guy with smooth hands to hit on you.
And you almost let him have his way near the bathrooms. Just to forget the sound of your phone. Forget that you had to go back to that guy until he decided heâd had enough or leaked the tape.
Almost.
Until Heeseungâs hand was on your wrist, showing up out of nowhere to pull you away.
âHeeseung?â
He got you out of the club, his hand digging into your wrist. The car ride was dead silent. Heeseung looked pissed. You were hollow, but not dumb. And you let him snap.
âWhat the fuck were you thinking?â
You didnât answer.
â... Donât you have a bf?â
Still silent. Tears welled up before you could blink them back, and Heeseung was at a loss for words. Yeah, it was that easy to shush himâcrocodile cries easy.
âStop cryingâŚâ he muttered, but he looked panicked now. Like your tears were acid on his skin. âTell me whatâs going on?â
Like he didnât know.
But you had to play it well. Make him do it tonight, and no other night.
âHe cheatedâŚâ
âThen leave himâŚâ
âI canâtâŚâ Hee looked at you with fake wonder. âHe filmed me once⌠andâŚâ
He nodded, enough to tell you you didnât need to keep going.
When you got home, Heeseung took your hand before you stormed into your room, and he watched youâreally watchedâand got in a hug. Caressing your hair, getting closer to your ear, âI'll help you.â
You almost feared he could feel your smile. You detached your head with the saddest questioning expression.
âIâll protect you,â he said, the heaviest stare he ever gave you.
You just nodded like you werenât expecting much. When you actually wanted exactly what he gave you.
Back in your room, you kept re-seeing Heeseungâs expression. Almost mad, almost dangerous.
And you. You wanted more. You wanted everythingânot just protection, but revenge. Revenge for the time you lost on that guy, for your virginity you couldnât bring back, for the stress⌠for everything.
So you opened your laptop. Placed your phone next to it like itâs part of the performance. You know heâs watching.
You know.
Heeseung, on his part, got in his room ready to execute the next part of his plan when the ping of your camera alerts him. But tonight is not the night. After seeing you like that, he doesn't want to do that.
So he started to undress. Untilâ
âHeeseung?â
His head snapped to his monitor. WTF.
âYouâre here, no? I mean, youâre watching.â
He almost fell on the ground, unable to walk straight to his computer.
The webcam light doesnât flicker on right away when you open it.
You look at your reflection. This webcam is better than the last time you used it. Wide-angle. Pretty high-def. You can see almost your entire room. Bed. Closet. Console. The mirror angled just right to show the bathroom.
God. You made it so easy for him.
You let your fingers lazily drift to your dress straps. In a slow reveal. You watch yourself in the cameraâlegs tucked just right to keep mystery intact. Eyes locked on the return. You open yourâ
âYou like it when I do that?â You looked almost innocent doing it. What the fuck were you doing, Heeseungâs mind screamed. âYou want more?â
Heeseung was stunned. Too many questions. Too many desires.
He didnât even respond, his hand mindlessly disconnecting your cameraâs red dot and reconnecting again like Morse.
âThen ruin him for me. Make him as ashamed as I was.â
You were pulling his obsession like strings. A puppet master in silk cloth. The light on the webcam flickered once again.
You smiled, slowly nodding. âGood night, Heeseung.â Shut it all down.
By morning, half the campus was infected with a juicy little virus: dozens of very compromising photos of your now-ex, including a special feature of him being pegged by none other than his momâs best friend.
Iconic.
The breakup text? Already sent. Blocked him before your brain even had a chance to process.
You didnât see him all day. No dinner, no open door when you brought snacks. Nothing.
Maybe you really fucked up. Poor Heeseung, thinking you were innocent, only to find out you were just like everyone elseâgrey, messy, complicated.
But just before bed, your phone lit up. A note. Your password written clear on the screen.
You sat frozen, eyes flickering between the note that started typing on its own, and the webcam pointed right at you.
âIâll always protect you.â
Then, an mp4 file popped up. Your lips curved into a shy smile.
You almost said something, but instead, you tapped beneath his words:
âThank you, Heeseung. I donât know what Iâd have done if you werenât there.â
The cursor blinked, pausedâlike he was thinking hard about what to say next.
âI protect whatâs mine.â
Your eyes drifted to the webcam. âAm I?â
âArenât you?â
Your gaze dropped shyly, biting your lip to keep the smile from slipping out. Fuck, it was hotâthis obsessive, protective boy whoâd kill for you.
âI amâŚâ you breathed, fingers playing with the thin straps of your dress.
âMaybe?â
Slowly, you peeled it off. No bra. No panties. Just you. Bare, glowing in the soft light of your screen.
On Heeseungâs side: He was a panting mess by just a look. Trembling. Rock hard. Watching was always intense, but this?
His brain shorted out. Every movement you made poured fuel on the fire in his chest, the way you loosened your hair, slid off your glasses, shy but teasing.
Your voice slipped through his headphones like a spell.
âTell me what you want,â you breathed. âIâll do it. As a thank you.â
He was nearly feral, watching you perched like a dream made just for him. But now you wanted him to take the lead. For once, you wanted control handed over.
And for a long, heavy moment, silence.
Then, a new line in your notes:
âAnything?â
You nodded, lips parting.
Another line.
âTouch yourself.â
âFor me.â
You rose, heading for your bed.
Then:
âNo. Here.â
You sat back down. Fully exposed. The chair never felt colder. The electricity on your skin was undeniableâthe weight of someone watching, devouring every move.
You shivered. Something folded inside, vulnerable but not scared.
Then your screen flickered.
A video opened.
Porn.
But not just any porn. A girl like youâsame frame, soft lighting. She was in a gaming chair, legs parted, cat headphones, a pink toy buzzing between her thighs. Moaning like sheâd been waiting for eyes to watch.
You blinked. The message was loud and clear.
Your breath caughtânot shocked, but challenged.
Back to the webcamâdoe eyes, tempted. Your fingers traced lower, hips shifting, copying her exact position. Mimicry never felt so twisted.
You didnât hesitate. Your fingers moved.
Heeseung watched like it was a live confession. Pupils dilated, chest heaving, gripping himself tight, trying not to explode too soon.
A message appeared:
âSlower.â
You obeyed, breath shaking, already slick with every stroke.
Another message:
âFuck, youâre shaking.â
You were. Legs twitching, spine arching against the chair.
You never thought youâd go this far, but he was puppeteering you with his commands.
Then:
âIâve never seen you like this. Fuck. I want to cum in you, pour every drop inside that godess cunt. In that chair. Just like that.â
You moaned, eyes fluttering shut, but you forced them open, locking onto the lens like it was him.
Another message:
âI want you ruined. For anyone else. Say it. Mine.â
You moaned, fingers freezing.
âIâm yours?â you whispered.
âSay it again,â he typed.
"Iâm yours, Heeseung?"
The pressure builtâright at the edgeâ
Then:
âStop.â
âDonât cum.â
Your breath hitched. You froze mid-stroke, legs trembling.
Another line:
âI said stop. If anyone makes you cum tonightâitâs me.â
Your fingers hovered, shaking. The ache burned deep in your thighs, stomach taut.
But you stopped.
Because his word mattered more than your desire now.
Your screen blinked.
âGet your toy.â
You swallowed, nodded, reached into your drawer.
The vibrator was familiarâsleek, pink, faintly scented from your date-night oil. You rubbed it, coating it with your wetness, then slid it slowly inside, breath heavy.
Then the toy buzzed. Flickered. Came alive.
You gaspedâhe was controlling it.
Before you could say a word, it pulsed hard. Your body jerked, chair creaking beneath you. Your grip tightened on the arms as pleasure rolled through you like a whip.
âThatâs it,â he typed. âDonât touch it. Just take it.â
You moanedâtoo much, too fastâyour body trembling, legs spreading without control. The sounds you made were filthy, desperate.
Heeseungâs fingers typed again.
âGrip the chair.â
You obeyed.
The toy buzzed harder, relentless and cruel.
âLook at the camera.â
Tears pricked, but you held his gazeâthrough that little glowing lens. Your thighs trembled, breath catchingâ
He knew.
He memorized every sound, every gasp, every twitch.
Your climax hit like an explosion, so fierce your back arched from the chair. Toes curled, lips parted in a silent cry.
If only you could hear itâthe gasp, the groan, the shuddering moan from his room. Rooms apart, perfectly synced.
You collapsed back against the seat, chest heaving.
The toy powered down. The room fell silent but electric. Only the Notes app stayed open. One final line appears:
âI know your body better than anyone ever will.â
You smile, eyes rolling, calming yourself. Youâre still catching your breath when your phone buzzes.
Unknown Caller.
You smirk. Answer it without hesitation.
Hee,â you whisper, lazy satisfaction dripping from your tone.
You hear him, shaky, panting, like the edge nearly broke him. âFuck,â he groans. âFuck⌠Youâre so pretty. So fucking pretty. You donât even know what you do to me.â
His voice is hoarse, frayed with restraint. You picture himâstill burning from his climax, hand resting low, skin flushed.
âYou drive me insane. Every breath you take, every moan...â He watches you lift your thighs, tucking yourself shyly behind them like a girl playing innocent. âItâs mine. Youâre mine. Donât you get it? I want you so bad IâfuckâI canât evenââ
You cut in softly.
âHeeseung,â you murmur, voice smooth like silk sliding over a blade. âI never said I was yours...â
Silence.
You lean in, sugar-sweet, doe eyes locked on the lens, like you donât quite know what youâre doing.
âYou think this makes me yours?â
He breathes hard. You swear you hear the tension in his throatâhow he swallows that growl.
âThen what?â he whispers. âWhat do I have to do?â
You hum, hiding your face in your thighs, thoughtful. âIâll know.â
Heeseung almost chokes. âYouâre playing with me.â
You tilt your head.
âOf course I am, Hee. Isnât that what you like? What we always did? Playing games.â Your voice softens, teasing, the tone that always breaks him. âYouâre obsessed, Hee. But to own me?â you shake your head slowly. âYouâll have to do more than just watch me cum on camera.â
A pause. You let it hang, let it burn. Then, low and teasing:
âIf you really want me,â you whisper. âStop being a coward. Show me.â
His breath catches. You almost feel the stillness on his end.
Click.
You hang up.
Still smiling, you toss your phone aside.
âGood night, Heeseung,â you murmur to the camera before shutting everything down.
đ§
Heeseung hadnât heard your voice in three days.
Not on the phone, not through the headphones, not even that little intake of breath when you tiptoe around your room late at night.
Three days.
Seventy-two hours of silence.
No webcam flickers. No Notes app replies. No little âgood night, Heeâ teasing him through pixels.
Nothing.
He tapped at your IP like a lunatic. Pinging dead signals. Checked your cloud for new files. Scraped your cache for cam logs, anythingâanythingâthat might prove you were still playing.
But you werenât. Youâd shut him out completely. Blocked him, in every way that mattered, except the one that destroyed him the most: in person, you were still perfect.
Because in real life, you were still her.
Still the step-sister who sat next to him at dinner, nudging his arm, sipping from his glass like it meant nothing. Still in those stupid soft modest dresses that smelled like your vanilla lotion and innocence. Still saying his name in that sweet voice that didnât match the girl who once whispered âIâm yoursâ for a night, while fingering herself in his favorite dress.
Still shy smilling in front of the parents, like he wasnât slowly going fucking insane of you ghosting him in the cruelest way possible.
Heeseung clenched his jaw until it hurt. His fists, tighter. You were torturing him. Training him with your silence. Denying him touch, sound, ownershipâmaking him feel like just another loser watching from a screen.
And worst of all? You liked it.
He could see it in the way you smiled at him when no one was looking. Like the devil behind a halo. Like the dom who knew her puppy would crawl the moment she said good boy.
You knew what you were doing. And you knew he was starving.
He watched you meet someone new through your messagesâtracked him from his first DM. The second the guy sent a heart emoji, Heeseung had full access to his cloud, laptop, phone, and location history.
So when you showed up at that guyâs place in that same dress as that night, Heeseung went feral. watching you through the guyâs hacked MacBook camera. Front-row seat. 1080p. Wide angle. Clear sound. Perfect view.
You didnât even try to hide untapping your phone camera, angling it for him. But he was already there.
He watched the way you swayed when you walked into the room. That skirt was shortâbarely legal. Hair done like you were on a mission to ruin him. Lip gloss like you were asking to be kissed. Or owned.
Heeseungâs fists dug into his thigh. You let the guy kiss you. Hands on your hips. Heeseung scoffed in fury. The guy went down on you and Heeseung leaned forwardâeyes glued to your face smiling at him. Not for the man.
Only for him.
You mouthed his name, Heeseung, made that sound againâthat sweet gasp that cracked every nerve in his bodyâand his hands were already down his pants before he even realized it. Stroking slowly. Angry.
Then the guy started fucking you. It was⌠pathetic.
You looked bored. Pretty. But not wrecked. Not how Heeseung would have done youâneeded you. Not how you looked when he edged you, whispering commands through your notes.
He texted :
Heâs not even close to making you cum.Why are you with him?Stop.Â
Now.Â
Please.
You didnât stop. You got louder. Not for performance, because knowing hee was watching, unleashed you.
Heeseungâs hand stuttered. He bit down on his bottom lip so hard it bled. You were performing. For him, not the other guy. You had to be. And yet you didnât stop when he begged you.
Heeseung didnât drink. Didnât smoke. Didnât call a friend.
He texted one of the girls whoâd been orbiting him since he entered universityâsome pretty, pouty girl with no idea what she was walking into.
She came fast. Obedient. Heeseung fucked her like punishment.
Shoved her onto his lap, dragged her skirt over her hips without a single word. Didnât ask if she was ready. Didnât even pretend to care. Just spread her thighs, lined himself up, and buried inârough, silent, merciless.
She moaned his name, kissing his neck. Heeseung kept his eyes on the screen. Because on the monitor behind her?
You were still live. Fucking someone else. His airpods were in. And he was moaning your name under his breath.
The girl was clueless to much overwhelmed by his deep, rough trust. Riding him like she thought she was doing a good job for him to be so feral.Â
Heeseung touched her the way he would have to you, controlling. forcing her in position trying to reach her deepest part, as he watched your hips roll on screen. Your nails dig into someone elseâs back.
âGrippe my back. leave marks.â he ordered her.
He hiss, mouthing along with your sounds like a prayer.
âFuckâLouder. Just like that... Just like thatâfuck.â
The girl on his lap whimpered, âdoes it feel good, Hee?â
Heeseung stared at your bodyâyour lips, your tits, your sweat-shined thighs.
âYouâre so perfect,â he muttered. âFuckâyouâŚâ
His climax came hard, violent. He choked your name on the exhale and came inside the girl like she didnât matterâbecause she didnât.
When the girl left, he stared at the screen for an hour. Watched you dress. Watched you check your phone. Smiling.
Not once did you reply to his messages.
You were killing him. Starving him. Making him beg. He slammed the laptop shut, chest heaving, hatred and love boiling into the same sick ache.
You were right. He was a coward. But not for much longer.
You found it on your bed. No card. No note. No sender. Just a black box, wrapped in a ribbon you never heard arrive. Inside: lingerie. Lace. Sheer. Decadent. Your exact size. Your exact taste. Lightly soaked in a scent you could recognize in your sleepâhis cologne.
Your fingers trembled when you held it up to the light. No message. But then again, he never needed words.
Heeseung didnât ask. He tried to command.
So, you didnât text. Didnât thank him. You just wore it.
That night, when the webcam light blinked to life, you were already sitting pretty in front of your laptop. Sheer fabric draped over your body like a sin begging to be confessed.
You leaned into the camera, eyes soft, voice sweeter.
âGoodnight, Genius. Hope uniâs not eating you alive.â
And thenâ
You logged off. Just like that.
Left him starving. You knew heâd pretend it didnât affect him. He tried, bless him.
He texted the next day, like it was nothing. Invited you to his university party. Like this wasnât war. Like he wasnât already losing.
Of course, you went. Dressed in red. Not the lingerieâsomething sharper. Something that made his friends stare a little too long.
Heeseung barely spoke to you that night. Slipped back into his old selfâlike he hadnât spent the week watching you like a man possessed. But he was in his element, charming his nerdy circle, and you were happy just watching him thrive.
Then, it changed.
He didnât introduce you as his stepsister. That alone cracked the air between you. His hand found your back, fingers tracing lazy nothings while he laughed with his friends, eyes on you like you were art.
You liked seeing him smile. Liked knowing you made it easier.
And thenâhe excused you both. His friends wished you luck with admissions. So polite. So clueless.
He walked you up a narrow hallway, like it was nothing. A quiet corridor, half-lit.
Then he locked you in a hug.
And kissed your neck.
âYouâre so pretty,â he whispered, hands already exploring.
âYou too,â you murmured, smiling. âNew haircut? You kept it long in the back. Looks good.â
âYou said I should, so...â
You smiled harder, went in for a kissâyour first. His lips were maddening. Soft, sure, and hungrier than you expected. He kissed like heâd waited for years. Like heâd decided waiting was over.
"Untie your dress," he whispered against your mouth, voice low.
You raised a brow, smirking. âThought you liked watching from afar.â
His jaw flexed. âNot tonight.â
You let the ribbon fall, letting the dress slip open. Underneathâhis gift. His breath caught.
âYou like it?â you teased.
He didnât answer. He spun you, pressed you into the wall, and his hand was already between your thighsâfinding you soaked.
His mouth brushed your ear, voice cracking with restraint.
âFuck. Youâre so wet for me. Iâve waited so long.â
âSay it,â he growled.
âWhat?â
His thrust was sharpâtwo fingers deep.
âSay you want me to ruin you. Say you like it.â
You whimpered, arching into his hand. âI like it when you ruin me.â
âSay it right.â
You licked your lips. âI want to be yours, Heeseung. Ruin me.â
His exhale was jaggedâlike something inside him broke.
Then came silence. Just heat. Breathing. Fingers moving in and out of you as he grinded against your body, shameless and reckless in a hallway anyone could walk into.
And just before you cameâhe pulled away.
âNo,â he said simply. âLetâs go.â
âHome?â
âNo. My room.â
His dorm was massive, dark except for the red glow of a snoozed monitor. His roommate was nowhere. Probably never real to begin with. You practically jumped on him. Messy kisses. Wandering hands. He kissed your neck, your shoulder, your backâand thenâ
Your hand brushed his desk. The monitors flared to life. And there you wereâyour webcam feed, glowing on the screen.
Recording. Your name as the file.
âYou always make me watch,â he whispered, stripping you down to the lingerie. âNow watch yourself.â
He pulled you onto the bed, body still facing the screen.
âYouâre mine,â he murmured, spreading your legs for the camera. âIâve owned you since the first time you stepped into this house.â
On screenâyour reflection trembled. Moaned. Melted in real-time.
He eased fingers inside you again while holding you in his lap, pinching a nipple until you gasped, breath tangled.
âI know what you fantasize about when youâre bored,â he whispered.
He started humping you, slow and heavy.
âI know what kind of porn you scroll pastâthen go back to.â
Thrust.
âI know which songs you loop when you touch yourself. I synced your playlist.â
You choked on a gasp.
âI know you changed your passwords, just to make me mad.â
His hand curled lightly around your throat.
âBut I like it. I like when you pretend.â
He never slowedâjust kept pushing you higher, mean and relentless.
And when you moaned his name?
He broke.
âIâm going to give you every twisted thing youâve ever typed,â he growled. âEvery fantasy you deleted. Every filthy draft you couldnât finish. Iâm going to make them real.â
Your climax slammed into you, shuddering through your bonesâbut he didnât stop.
âIâll tie you up in the library when no oneâs looking,â he said, voice wicked. âBend you over your best friendâs bed and leave a bruise only Iâll recognize.â
He laughed.
âIâll make you cry my name with someone else inside youâjust to remind you no one will ever ruin you like I do.â
You turned and kissed him, wild and unhinged.
He kissed back like a claim. Like he was branding your soul.
Then he grabbed you and threw you onto the bed. Reached for a condom.
You stopped him.
âItâs safe today, Hee. Do me raw.â
His pupils darkened. Something dangerous sparked.
He freed himself and dragged his cock against your wetness, teasing your entrance. You moaned each time the head kissed you. His smile was smug. Addicted.
âHeeseung. Please.â
He noddedâand slid in all at once.
You gasped, overwhelmed, stretched so good it hurt in the most perfect way.
He rocked into you deep and slow, biting your neck, lips pressed against skin he couldnât stop worshipping.
Then he pulled you uprightâstill inside you.
âYou like this position, huh?â
You nodded, dizzy, undone. He studied you like heâd been preparing for a test. He always aced those.
Thenâhis thrusts changed. Not faster. Just deeper. Harder.
âHeeââ
âLike that, yeah?â
You nodded again, mouth open, breathless at every delicious, punishing thrust.
He looked so fucking good like thisâhair sticking to his forehead, lips parted, eyes glazed with need. You went for another kiss and he gripped your neck, slid to your hair, pulling until your back arched.
âLike that?â
âYeahâyeahâfuckâdonât stopââ
He sucked your tits, relentless now, chasing both your highs. You clenched down so hard his groans turned ragged. He bit your nipple, then folded you in half, throwing your legs over his shoulders.
And thenâhe lost it.
He didnât slow.
Not even as your body bucked under him, shaking.
He buried himself deeper, fingers biting into your hips, sweat dripping from his jaw as he fucked you like he wanted to unmake you.
The monitors kept rolling. Your name flashing on screen, over your own moans.
You reached for himâsome desperate grasp for balanceâbut he pinned your wrists above your head, fucked you harder. One of your legs slipped off his shoulder, and he yanked it back up with a grunt.
âKeep it there,â he snarled, breath ragged. âDonât move unless I say.â
You didnât.
You couldnât.
You were already too far gone.
You felt yourself stretch around him again, again, again, your walls pulsing and fluttering with every brutal thrust. It was filthy, unrelenting, and it wasnât enough.
Heeseung's voice was in your ear, low and wrecked.
âThis how you like it, hm?â he panted. âGetting used like this, getting ruined on camera for me?â
You sobbed a yes high and gasping, and he growled. His hips snapped forward again, this time shoving you higher on the bed.
âFucking take it.â
He leaned in, biting your lip, grinding deeper. The rhythm turned meaner. Each thrust slamming into you with brutal precision.
âYou like knowing Iâll replay this?â he whispered. âJerk off to it when youâre not around?â
You moaned helplessly. âWant you to... I want you obsessed.â
"I am," he said. "You made me this."
His rhythm stuttered, he was close. You could feel him twitch inside, groaning against your mouth.
Thenâ
He came.
Hard. Buried deep.
His whole body went taut over yours, shuddering as he emptied himself, hips rolling slower, deeper. You felt the heat inside you, the stickiness, the way his cock throbbed even after the high.
And still, he didn't pull out. He kissed your collarbone, your throat, lazily now. Worn out. Quiet. The screen behind him kept glowing.
Your body was wrecked, your heart pounding against his chest. He pulled you close, like he wasnât finished. Like he never would be.
đ
The next morning, the sun barely broke past his blackout curtains. You were still half-naked in his sheets when you heard his fingers tapping at his laptop. A fresh hoodie hung off his shoulder, hair a messy halo.
âHey,â he said, voice rough with sleep.
You groaned into the pillow. âAlready working?â
He smirked. âCoding clears my head. Better than coffee.â
You rolled over. He looked too good like this. Soft around the edges. Eyes warm.
âI wish you could come here,â he said. âTo my university.â
You blinked, suddenly alert. He smiled, but it didnât reach all the way. âYou did apply, right?â
ââŚYeah.â
He nodded like he already knew. âBut you didnât tell meâŚpfff.â
Your stomach turned, just a little, as you smirked. âI didnât want you to be happy for something so unsure.â
âI know.â
Silence. He got back typing.Â
âYou really think I wouldnât find out?â he said. âYou think Iâd just⌠let you leave somewhere else?â
You narrowed your eyes. âWhat did you do?â
He smiled. Shrugged. âNothing youâll ever be able to prove.â
Your heartbeat slowed. Thick. Smiling unsure.
âHeeseung...â
He stood, walking over. Calm. Barefoot. Still smelling like last night and wanting more.
âI didnât touch your application,â he said softly. âBut I mightâve nudged the scholarship committee. Youâre exceptional, after all.â
You froze. âWhy?â
âBecause you belong here, in that prestigious place and nowhere else.â
His fingers grazed your chin. Tender. Possessive.
â...With me.â
You swallowed. He tilted your face up to his, eyes half-lidded.
âYou would've turned it down if you knew,â he murmured, getting his lips closer, smooching slowly. âYouâre too proud for that kind of help. Too proud to admit you want to be kept.â
Your voice caught in your throat. âThatâs not why I applied.â
âI know why you applied, just like me.â
His thumb ghosted over your lower lip.
âThatâs why I made sure youâd stay. to be free.â
A flicker of something dangerous passed between you. Or maybe it had always been there. He leaned in, lips brushing your ear.
âYou think youâre playing me right now, huh,â he whispered, âbutâwhat if I like being used, if it means I get to keep you?â
Your breath hitched. And he smiled. Like heâd already won. Or maybe he was wrong. Maybe youâd just let him believe he had.
MASTERLIST
Authorâs Note:
Babies~ here it is!! đ The second part of my enha stepbro AU (first one was HUNTED).
I really hope this one pleased you⌠did it??? 𼺠I worked so hard on this piece to match the exact vibe I had in mind. Likeâwhy was I waking up at 3 AM with wild ideas for scene effects that were borderline impossible to execute?! đđ
This one definitely has a different flavor! While HUNTED leaned into soft, needy sub!Jakey energy (bless him), I wanted TRAPPED to explore the more intoxicating side of obsessionâbut not so far that we start hating our sweet little Heeseung~ Just a touch of crazy, yâknow?
I really hope the mood translated well, because after rereading it 500 times, I fully lost that "first read magic" feeling Iâm not super proud of this draft yetâkinda wish I had more time to proofread and polish it up. Iâll probably update it later (perfectionist problems đ). Next up is Part 3, which is supposed to be Sunghoonâs! Let me know if you want anything special in itâIâm all ears... and pervy brain. Just know itâs gonna involve dacryphilia, so bring tissues⌠for various reasons
XO
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[ the stalker from the photography building loves you so much! you do too , but he didnt have to go so far to stalk you , he wanted to make you his own muse !! ]
WRITING đ PWP , MINOR DNI , sub hee , p in v , no protection (dont b silly wrap ur willy!!) , cumming inside, cumming in pants, hair pulling, degradtion kink (if u squint!), petnames: love , baby+ , dacryphilia, worshipping, stalking, killing (not explicit), item stealing, kidnapping, stockholme syndrome, religious themes mentioned (lmk if more!) đľ
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it was a mundane tuesday, a slow stretch of time marked only by the haunting tick of the lecture hall clock. golden afternoon light, thick with dust specks, streamed through the tall windows, painting a stripe across your notes and making you squint.Â
third period.Â
almost over, yet somehow years away.
your pen tapped an idle rhythm against your chin, your thoughts as loose as the messy bun on your head. a yawn threatened to crack your jaw, and you let it, the boring drone of the professorâs voice fading into a hum beneath the whispers from the row behind you.
âdid you see the game last night? heeseung scored the final point in the last three seconds. It was insane!â
âugh, Iâd sell my soul to spend one night with the lee heeseung. just one.â
âitâs not fair. the guyâs a prodigy on the court, and have you seen his photography portfolio? no wonder heâs top of the class.â
lee heeseung.
the name landed in the quiet of your mind not as a whisper, but with the weight of a settled fact. it was a constant talk across the campus. he was practically the talk of the town, heeseung this! heeseung that!
youâd seen him, of course, everyone had. his sharp jawline every time he scored a goal, the wink he sent girls as he walked in the hallway. he existed in a different universe, a person more myth than man, composed of equal parts talent and intimidation. people practically worshipped him.
as if summoned by your thoughts, the classroom door at the front of the hall clicked open. the professor paused mid-sentence with a groan and an annoyed glance. and there he was.
the one and only lee heeseung stood in the doorway, backlit by the golden hall light, a silhouette of effortless composure. he offered a slight, apologetic bow to the professor, his voice a low, smooth murmur that carried through the sudden, attentive silence of the room. âsorry for the interruption, professor."
his gaze, perceptive, swept across the class as he moved to find a seat. it didn't linger on you, not in any way that anyone else would notice.Â
but for a single second, it felt like a shutter clicking into place, a perfect screenshot taken in the area you sat at.
âtake your seat, mr lee.â the professor murmured, tapping his foot impatiently as his eyes narrow into him.
as fast as it came, the moment disappeared, and the mundane tuesday rushed back in. heeseungâs gaze slid away, cool and indifferent, as he moved to an empty seat.Â
but a strange, electric hum seemed to linger in the air where his eyes had been, a silent promise that the quiet of the afternoon was now a lie.
â
ânow, for your mid-term project. youâll be breaking into groups of four. itâs a significant portion of your grade, so choose your members wisely, or rather,â the professor said with a slight smirk, adjusted his glasses, looking at a clipboard, âiâll be choosing for you. letâs see⌠group one: ning yizhuo, choi soobin⌠lee heeseungâŚâ
a wave of anticipation swept through the room. you could feel the students around you straighten in their seats, fluffing out their hair in case they were in the same group, a silent prayer on their lips.
â... and y/n l/n.âÂ
the sound of your own name, spoken in the same breath as his, sent a jolt straight through you and a groan from the rest of your peers. the whispers behind you erupted into a frantic, hushed frenzy.Â
as Heeseung rose to gather his things, his eyes found yours across the room. there was no smile, no overt reaction.Â
just that same focused, unnerving attention, now with a new, undeniable intent. the project, the semester, the quiet life you knew, gone down the drain, all because you were paired with lee heeseung.
â
the bellâs shrill ring was a relief to say the least. shattering the silence that had followed the group announcements. a chaotic, creaking symphony of scraping chairs and zipping backpacks filled the air, but for you, it all felt muffled, distant.Â
your fate was sealed.
you fumbled with your own belongings, a frantic attempt to look busy. a shadow fell over your desk.
heeseung stood there, bag slung over one shoulder. the golden light from the window now caught the sharp line of his jaw, and his expression was one of a polite person, but you noticed the way his jaw twitched slightly.
âwe should meet to outline our approach,â he said, his voice that same low, smooth murmur that had carried across the silent lecture hall. it wasnât a question. âthe library. third-floor study rooms. can you be there in ten minutes?â
it was all soâŚcold.Â
it wasnt the usual social negotiations that usually accompanied group projects. there was no âhey, when are you guys free?â This was a directive.
âiâ yeah, i can,â you managed, your voice thankfully steady.
a nod was his only reply. â iâll secure a room.â and with that, he turned and melted into the stream of students leaving the class, his presence creating an invisible wake that others subconsciously parted around as gossip started to spread like they were in high school again.
you let out a breath you didn't realize you'd been holding, your heart a frantic drum against your ribs.Â
what you didn't see, was the hidden desire hiding behind his eyelids.
as heeseung walked down the corridor, the mask of cool indifference never slipped as he passed by the people who worshipped him.Â
but beneath the surface, his mind was a whirlwind. the way your pen had tapped against your lip. the specific way a single strand of hair had escaped your messy bun to curl against your neck. the fleeting look of startled recognition in your eyes when his name was called with yours.
he hadn't ended up in your group by chance. a quiet word with the professor, a suggestion framed as academic interest, was all it took. a semester-long project was the perfect excuse.
a slow, almost wicked smile touched his lips as he pushed open the libraryâs heavy doors. he had secured the study room, yes. but more importantly, he had secured you.Â
the third floor of the library was a tomb of silent concentration, the air thick with the smell of old paper and ambition.Â
you found the study room heâd mentioned, the door slightly ajar. pushing it open, you were met with an unexpected sight.
only heeseung sat there.
he sat at the head of the small table, his posture relaxed yet perfectly poised, a single notebook open before him. the room felt too large, too quiet.
"where are the others?" you asked, hovering at the doorway.
heeseung looked up, and a faint, apologetic smile touched his lips. It didn't quite reach his eyes. "ning ning and soobin? they messaged me. a prior commitment, apparently. they said they couldn't make it." He gestured to the empty chair directly beside him.Â
"It's just us."
a prickle of unease traced your spine. it felt too convenient. but you stepped in, letting the door swing shut behind you with a soft, definitive thud.Â
the sound sealed you in.Â
with him.
you took the seat heâd indicated, leaving one empty chair between you in a futile attempt to maintain some distance.Â
he didn't seem to notice, or if he did, he approved.
âcoffee?â he hummed, sliding the extra cup towards you with an unreadable expression.
"oh, thank you!" you said, a smile breaking through your nervousness as you accepted the warm cup.Â
you took a cautious sip, and the rich, perfectly sweetened flavor of a caramel macchiato, your exact, specific favorite, now on your tongue.
 a soft, involuntary moan of delight escaped you. "mmm, it's my favorite. how did you know?"
for a moment, the only sound was the hum of the library's conditioning. then, his lips slowly tilted into an unnerving smirk. the corner of his lips never reached his eyes.
âhm,â the sound a low vibration in the intimate space. âlucky guess.âÂ
the phrase hung in the air, a fragile, obvious lie. he watched you over the rim of his own cup, his gaze dropping to your throat as you took another sip, cataloging your every reaction.Â
the coffee that had tasted like a comforting treat now felt like a confession heâd pulled from you without saying a word. he hadnât guessed. heâd known. before you could say anything, he decided to speak up again.
"since it's just the two of us, we can be more efficient," his voice a low, intimate hum in the small space. he turned his notebook toward you. instead of a detailed gantt chart, there were just a few lines of elegant, sharp handwriting. "I was thinking we could focus on the core concept first. just you and me."
he was lying. tou didn't know how you knew, but you were certain. ning ning and soobin hadn't messaged him. he had never asked them.Â
his gaze was unwavering, and in the profound silence of the isolated room, the professional pretense began to thin, revealing the raw, unnerving focus beneath.
"your perspective in class," he started, his eyes tracing the line of your profile as you looked down at the notebook. "iâm quiet⌠fascinated by it. your insight would help."
he reached into his bag and pulled out a book, sliding it across the table until it stopped right in front of you. it was a dense theoretical text, one youâd mentioned wanting to read in an off-hand comment to a friend. weeks ago. a casual remark he shouldn't have heard.
"i thought this might be useful for your section," he said, his voice dropping even lower, his mind clouding up even more.
your fingers brushed against his as you took the book. his skin was cool, but the point of contact burned. your breath hitched. his eyes darkened, the focused attention shifting into something warmer, more possessive.Â
hhe hidden desire was no longer hiding; it was a live wire stretched between you, crackling in the silent, sterile study room. heeseung, didnt even bother hiding it, how much he wanted you.
only you.
the feeling made you crack underpressure, instantly getting up with the scratch of the chair underneath you. âiâi have to go, thanksâ we can meet again, uhâ soon. tell me in class.â
you didnât wait for a reply. you turned and almost fled from the study room, the heat of his silent, knowing smirk burning into your back.
the heavy library door swung shut behind you, but it didn't block out the feeling of his presence. you walked quickly, your heart still hammering, the sweet aftertaste of the coffee now bitter and sinister in your mouth.
your phone buzzed in your pocket. once. then twice.
you pulled it out, your steps slowing to a halt in the middle of the eerily silent hallway. all you could hear was the sounds of yourself.Â
a message from an unknown number.
as soon as you saw the first message, your spine shivered. you wanted to let out a wail.
the first was a perfectly focused, almost artistic photo of you from just moments ago. it was taken from his angle across the table, capturing your profile as you took that first, fateful sip of coffee, your eyes closed in unwitting delight.
the second message followed immediately.
unknown number: you left your pen. iâll keep it safe for you.
unknown number: see you in class.
â
back in the silent study room, heeseung remained seated. the smirk was gone, replaced by a look of deep, unsettling lust. he picked up the simple pen you had been tapping against your chin just an hour before. it was still warm.
he rolled it slowly between his fingers, his thumb brushing over the faint indentation your teeth had left on the cap. a trophy. far more meaningful than any photo. it was an object you had touched, that had been a part of your most unconscious, intimate habits.
he brought it to his nose, inhaling deeply, catching the faint, lingering scent of your hand cream and the coffee on his own skin. his eyes fell shut.Â
a perfect souvenir from the first day of the hunt. he slipped it carefully into the inner pocket of his jacket, right over his heart. the game was on, and he was already winning.
â
the walk back to your dorm was a blur. every shadow felt like his gaze, making you jump, every distant laugh sounded like his mocking hum.Â
once inside, you locked the door and leaned against it, finally allowing the full-body tremble to take over. you pulled out your phone, staring at the photo.Â
he hadn't just taken it; he had composed it. the lighting, the angle, it was a portrait of a moment of vulnerability he had engineered. just like his exhibitions.Â
you typed a frantic message to your friend, jake:Â
you: you will NOT believe the weird shit that just happened with heeseungâŚ
the reply was practically instant.
jake: heeseung? the basketball guy? and the photography department ace? whatâd he do?
before you could type a response, a new notification popped up at the top of your screen.
instagram: user l.heesung started following you.
your blood ran cold. you hadn't given him your number. or your instagram.
a direct message appeared.
l.heesung: It was nice working with you today.
a beat. then, a like on a photo from two years ago, a picture of you at a cafe, holding a caramel macchiato.
the pieces clicked into place with terrifying finality. the coffee wasn't a lucky guess. it was research.
â
heeseung sat in the study room of the library, the pen against his lips and occasionally pressed against his nose, as if he needed to smell you.Â
he watched the three dancing dots appear and disappear in your dm as you struggled to form a reply. a slow, satisfied smile graced his lips.Â
he scrolled through your profile, what heâd like to call was researching and finding about his crush, and not with the stalking them. but his fingers kept double tapping, every picture, every tag, every casual comment was a data point.
he had known the coffee would work. he had known the photo would unnerve you. he had known that the follow, from an account with no posts and a single follower, would feel like a door being kicked open.
he zoomed in on the old cafe photo, his thumb tracing the smile on your face. soon, he thought. soon, every one of those smiles would be because of him. he typed one more message.
l.heesung: don't forget your reading. I'll be waiting.
â
the next day, walking into the lecture hall felt like stepping onto a warzone. you kept your head down, aiming for a seat in the very back row, as far from his usual spot as possible.
you were almost there when a familiar, low voice cut through the pre-class murmur. "you're in the wrong seat."
heeseung was already there, leaning back in the chair next to the one you'd been heading for. His expression was neutral, but his eyes held a glint of dark amusement. on the desk in front of the empty seat was a fresh cup of coffee from the same shop. a caramel macchiato.
âthe view is better up here," he said, his tone leaving no room for argument. the entire row was empty.Â
he had clearly saved the spot, intimidating away anyone else who might have considered it.Â
trapped, you slowly slid into the chair, your body rigid. the professor began his lecture, but the words were a distant hum.
all you could focus on was the heat radiating from the coffee cup, and the heat of his presence beside you. âyouâre not going to drink it, y/n?â
the use of your name making you squirm. it was almost hypnotic in a bad way, before he started to speak again with a sarcastic pout. âoh, youâre making me so sad. i bought that just for you.â
âsâsorry.â you mutter, almost submissevely as your fingers wrap around the warm cup and placing it to your lips.Â
heeseung practically cooed at the sight with a laugh. âyeah, thats right, baby, drink it all up.â
you try your best to ignore his words with a shiver, tuning back into the professor.
halfway through the class, as the professor droned on, you reached into your bag for a pen, your fingers finding only empty space.Â
you frowned, rifling through the contents. you could have sworn you packed one.
a faint, clean scent, like cold air and shea butter, drifted from heeseungâs direction. it was new, but the smell was something you could recognize.Â
something in the atmosphere around him felt different, charged with a secret satisfaction. You glanced over. he was perfectly still, attentively facing forward, but the ghost of a smirk played on his lips.Â
your eyes flicked down to the open notebook on his desk. your pen, the one he said heâd âkeep safeâ, was nowhere to be seen.
he hadn't returned it. heâd kept it. and the unsettling realization dawned that the faint, new scent clinging to him was your own hand cream, transferred from the pen heâd been holding. He hadnât just taken a souvenir; he had marked himself with it.Â
the air shifted, heavy with a suspicion you couldn't quite grasp, as he continued to listen to the lecture, the phantom touch of your handcream lingering on his skin.
the lecture ended in a rustle of papers and scraping chairs. you practically leapt from your seat, desperate to put space between you and the unsettling shea butter-and-cream scent that felt suffocating.
âwait!âÂ
his voice, soft but firm, stopped you in your tracks, mid way down the room. you took a deep breath and turned, expecting heeseung, but found someone else entirely.Â
it was choi soobin, one of the other students from your project group. he looked hesitant, holding out a few sheets of paper.
"hey," soobin said with an apologetic smile. "you looked a little lost today. i took some extra notes for the group. figured i'd share."
it was a simple, kind gesture. a normal interaction after all those stalker like ones. the relief was so clear it felt dizzying. "oh! thank you, iâi really appreciate that," you said, your voice a little too eager as you accepted the papers.
you didn't see heeseung, still seated a few rows above, slowly placing his own notebook into his bag. his movements were deliberately slow, his head down. but his knuckles were white where he gripped the strap.
from the corner of his eye, he had seen it all: soobins approach, your relieved smile, the easy exchange.Â
a cold, silent rage settled over him. someone else was trying to provide for you. someone else was earning your gratitude.Â
that was his role.Â
his alone.
your phone buzzed in your pocket. then buzzed again. and again. the cold dread returned, ten times more worse tha before. you pulled our your soft pink phone, a contrast to your dread.
unknown number: [attachment: 1 image]
your heart practically drops at the photo, it was of you taking the notes from soobin. the time stamp being less than a minute ago. your head sprung up to look around for him, but, he wasnt there. it was like he was a figment of your imagination.
the phone vibrated in your hand again, your eyes slowly looking back at the phone.
unknown number: he's using last semester's outline. his notes are worthless, the syllabus changed.
unknown number: meet me at the library.Â
the air left your lungs. the photo was a violation. the library wasn't a request; it was a command. one that dictated the rhythm of your pulse.
you mumbled a hurried, distracted thanks to soobin, not meeting his eyes, and practically fled the lecture hall. your mind raced. heâs using last semesterâs outline. how could heeseung possibly know that?Â
you pushed open the heavy library doors, the familiar scent of old paper now smelling like a trap. he was in the same study room, the door ajar.Â
he wasn't at the table. he was standing by the window, his back to you, a shaodw of stillness.
âyouâre here.â
he didn't turn. his voice was soft, yet it filled the small space, devoid of its earlier mock-amusement.Â
it was flat.Â
cold.
"you took a picture of me," you accused, your voice trembling despite your attempt to sound firm, showing your phone towards him.
heeseung turned around, his brow furrowing in genuine-looking confusion as he looked at the screen. "a picture? of you and soobin?" he blinked, silence for 5 whole seconds. then let out a soft, dismissive laugh, shaking his head.Â
"that wasn't me. must be a glitch in the system or something. weird." he looked back out the window, then back at you, his expression shifting to one of gentle concern. "you look really shaken up. are you okay?"
the feeling of emotion through his voice throwing you off, making your jaw slack softly. it made you doubt your own sanity. but, just as soon as the emotion in his voice arrived, it went away.
"throw them away."
âwhat?â
âthe notes, throw them away.â
it wasn't a suggestion. it was a order.
when you didn't move, he took a single, fluid step toward you. he didn't touch you. he simply stood close enough for you to feel the heat of his body, to smell the faint, clean scent on his skin that you now knew was your own.
"he can't help you," heeseung murmured, his voice dropping to a whisper that was for you alone. "he doesn't see you. not the way i do. he doesn't know what you need."
you were frozen, pinned by the raw intensity in his gaze.
"i didn't appreciate that," he said, his voice low and his usual polished charm now all gone.
"appreciate what?" you managed with the fear in your voice.
his eyes were dark, his jaw tight. the perfect mask was gone, completely stripped away. "him. talking to you. touching what's mine." his hand going to move a strand of hair away from your face. "you smiled at him. you took what he offered."
your breath hitched, why? you didnt know.
"he doesn't get to have your smile," heeseung whispered, his body caging you against the wall. âhe doesn't get to help you. that's my job. iâm your partner. do you understand?"
âbâbut, were all in the sameââ
his hand moved down, not to touch you, but to gently take the notes from your limp grasp. he didn't even look at them as he let the papers flutter to the floor.
"you don't need anything from anyone else. ever again."
the words weren't a promise; they were a verdict. the air in the room was gone, replaced by the suffocating weight of his possession.Â
your legs, which had been trembling since you entered, finally gave way. the world tilted, and you fell to your knees, the impact a dull thud against the hard floor.Â
a single, choked sob escaped you, not just from fear, but from the sheer, terrifying finality of it all.
heeseung watched you crumble. and he smiled.
it wasn't a smirk of victory, but a slow, deep, profoundly satisfied smile. this was what he wanted.Â
not just your compliance, but your total surrender. he had wanted to see the exact moment the fight left your body, and he had orchestrated it perfectly.
he didn't move to help you. he didn't crouch down. he simply looked down at you, a collector gazing upon the rare butterfly he has finally pinned to his board, a panther watching the life fade from its prey's eyes, not with hunger, but with satisfaction.
"good girl," he purred, his voice terrifyingly gentle.
he stepped around you. walking to the door, his footsteps echoing in the silent room. he paused at the threshold, not looking back.
"i'll see you in class tomorrow," he said, his tone now casual, conversational, as if commenting on the weather. "don't be late."
the door clicked shut.
you were alone on your knees, the ghost of his scent in the air, the echo of his command in your ears.Â
he had walked away because he knew, with absolute certainty, that you would still be there, waiting for him, when he decided to return.
time lost all meaning. you didn't know how long you knelt on the cold floor, the ghost of his presence clinging to you like a shroud.Â
the shuddering sobs had subsided, leaving behind a hollow, numb silence. you were a toy, one he could play with, and you wouldnt mind.
god, you felt sick and twisted.
a soft chuckle escaped your lips through your dried up tears.
a soft click broke the silence.
the study room door swung open slowly. it wasn't heeseung. a library assistant poked her head in, her eyes widening slightly at the sight of you on the floor.
"ma'am? are you alright? we're closing this floor for the evening."
the real world, with its boring schedules and normal concerns, felt like a distant, foreign planet. you managed a weak nod, pushing yourself up on trembling legs. "sorryâ iâm fine. thank you."
you stumbled out of the library into the cool evening air. the walk back to your dorm was a blur. every shadow felt different now, not threatening, but watchful. acknowledged. he had won, and the world had simply adjusted to this new truth.
as you reached your door, your heart stuttered. in fear? in appreciation? taped to the wood was a simple, white paper bag. no note. With trembling fingers, you peeled it away and looked inside.
a new pen, a replica of the one he kept. and a single, perfect caramel macchiato, still warm, from the cafe across campus.
he hadn't just broken you. he was already beginning to rebuild you in the silence he left behind, providing the very tools, the pen for your studies, the coffee for your comfort, that would bind you to him.Â
the message was clearer than any text: your world is gone. i am your world now. and i will provide everything you need.
â
the numbness became a new kind of routine. you went to class. you sat where heeseung indicated. you accepted the coffee that would appear on your desk. you used the new pen. you were a perfectly compliant doll, and the fear began to morph into a strange, exhausted calm.Â
great, this was your life now.
then, the routine cracked.
it was after a sociology lecture, one you had, to take with your photography courses. soobin, who had given you the notes what felt like a lifetime ago, fell into step beside you in the hallway.
"hey," he said, his smile easy and genuine. "you've seemed a little... stressed lately. there's a new bubble tea place that just opened a block over. i was wondering if you'd want to check it out with me sometime? maybe tomorrow afternoon?"
the offer was so normal. so kind. it was a lifeline thrown to the person you used to be. a flicker of your old self sparked, hopeful, and desperately stifled.
you were flattered. and, feeling a little suffocated, you agreed.
a small, real smile touched your lips for the first time in weeks. "yeah," you said, your voice barely a whisper. "yeah, I'd like that."
"great! i'll text you," soobin said, his own smile widening before he merged back into the crowd.
for a glorious, fleeting moment, you felt free.
you didn't see heeseung, standing partially obscured by a pillar further down the hall.Â
he had seen the entire exchange: the hopeful smile, the easy agreement, the way your entire posture had lifted with a hope that he had not put there. the calm on his face didn't fracture. it solidified, like ice.
â
soobin wasnt in class.
nor was he the next day.
or the next.
a rumour, sharp and swift, cut through the lecture hall before the professor arrived: soobin was gone. a family emergency had forced him to withdraw from the university suddenly.Â
permanently.
your blood ran cold, what? this wasâ oh.
your phone buzzed in your pocket.
l.heesung: hey, i heard about soobin. so sad that he had to go, wanna talk about it? i can take you to dinner.
you blinked. once. twice.
the casual cruelty of it stole the air from your lungs. the feigned sympathy, the friendly tone, the dinner invitation in the shadow of his atrocity.Â
he was testing you. he was seeing if you would sit across from him, make polite conversation, and accept this new, horrifying reality.
your fingers trembled as you typed a single word, the only safe response you could manage, the white flag of your surrender.
you: okay.
â
dinner was surreal. heeseung was charming, intelligent, and engaging. he spoke about his photography project, the nuances of the wine, anything but the ghost at the table, asked about your classes with a facade of genuine interest, and never once mentioned soobin.Â
the horror of the last few days began to feel like a distant, feverish nightmare under the warm restaurant lighting and his undivided attention. it was the most dangerous magic trick of all: making you forget the monster infront of you at the table.
as the waiter cleared the dessert plates, a strange, hollow calm settled over you. the fight was gone. the fear was done, replaced by an awe. all that was left was a terrifying, clear-eyed understanding: he was the only reality that mattered.Â
you forced yourself to take a small bite of the steak heâd ordered for you, eyes lighting up as you stuck the meat into your mouth.
âitâs⌠good,â you murmured.
a faint, genuine-looking smile touched his lips. âi know. i remembered you mentioned once that you prefer your filet mignon medium-rare with a red wine reduction, not a peppercorn sauce.â
you froze, the piece of meat turning to lead in your mouth. you had never told him that. youâd had that conversation with jake, weeks ago, in the cafeteria line. a private, boring detail as you both talked about the food being served that day.
the realization must have shown on your face, the dawning horror that his surveillance was far more intimate, far more pervasive, than you had ever imagined.
for a single, unguarded second, heeseungâs polished mask slipped. the pleased, knowing look in his eyes shifted into something sharper, hungrier, almost frantic. he saw that he had revealed too much, that he had let you see the sheer scale of his obsession.
he leaned forward, his voice dropping, losing its ease and becoming something raw and possessive, the mask completely falling off.
a muscle twitched in his jaw. "i need to know you better than anyone else ever could. better than he ever did. don't you see, baby? it has to be me."
âdont call me that.âÂ
there it was. the slip. not just an admission of watching, but of when he was watching. of a specific, jealous memory that had festered.Â
he had been listening to your conversation with jake, anyone youâve talked to. he had been there, just behind you, noting down your preferences, your smiles, and storing them in the back of his mind.
he recovered instantly, leaning back and taking a sip of water, the smooth facade snapping back into place. but it was too late.
the image was burned into your mind, and the taste of the steak in your mouth now felt like a violation.
âiâi have to go-â you stammered out, the words tripping over your numb lips.
you shoved your chair back, standing up so abruptly that your knees knocked against the table. the silverwear rattled violently; a fork clattered onto the floor with a sharp, ringing sound that cut through the ambient noise.Â
a few nearby diners glanced over, their expressions a mix of curiosity and mild alarm.
heeseung didnât flinch. he didnât look embarrassed or angry. he simply watched you, his head tilted slightly, his expression one of faint, patronising concern, the picture of a charming date dealing with a hysterical partner.
âof course, love,â he said, the petname sounding like venom, his voice impossibly calm, a contrast to your ragged breathing. he placed his napkin neatly on the table. âlet me walk you out. itâs getting late.â
he was already standing, pulling out his wallet and leaving a stack of cash on the table without even glancing at the bill. he was in control again, seamlessly managing the crisis you had caused, making your panic look like a minor inconvenience he would gracefully handle.Â
you tried to leave early, yet he gently took your elbow to guide you toward the door, his touch was a marking, a silent promise that no matter how fast you ran, he would always be there to catch you.
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the night air was cold, but it was nothing compared to the ice in your veins. the second you were clear of the restaurant's surroundings, you wrenched your arm from his grasp, spinning to face him on the empty sidewalk.
"don't touch me," you snarled, the fear finally boiling over into a rage so pure it made you tremble.
heeseung didnt look offended. no. he looked patient, as if he knew this would happen.
âyâknow, baby. everything i do, i do for you.â he said, his voice soft but intense, cutting through the quiet night. âsoobin would have bored you. he would have hurt you. he saw you as just another girl with big tits and a brain. but i see you. i see every part of you. you're my masterpiece.â
the audacity, the sheer, twisted conviction in his words, shattered something inside you.
"you're insane!" you whispered, the words tearing from your throat. âi didnt ask you to do thisâ!â
he smiled, a sad yet majestic smile that didn't reach his chillingly calm eyes. "i'm in love. there's a difference. and you love me too. you're just... confused. but don't worry. i'll help you remember, baby."
âi loved you when i knew you weren't a fucking psycho!â you yelled, your voice cracking as hot, mascara-streaked tears streamed down your face.
the words hung in the air, a testament to what could have been. for a single, silent moment, something fractured in his perfect composure. a flicker of pain, raw and real, crossed his face before it was hidden by a darker, more intense.
he closed the distance between you in one swift step, his hands coming up to cradle your face, his thumbs wiping away your tears with a terrifying tenderness.
"no," he corrected softly, his breath ghosting across your lips. "you loved the idea of me. the idea of the perfect basketball player who has a high gpa in the photography department. now, you get to love the reality. the man who would burn the whole world down to keep you warm. there is no 'before,' my love. there is only now. there is only ever me.â
his words were the final nail in the coffin of your old life. the fight drained out of you, leaving behind a hollow, chilling calm.Â
he was a force of nature. a beautiful, devastating hurricane. and you were done trying to stand against the wind.
so, you stopped.
you just leaned forward and kissed him.
it wasnt gentle, no. it was a collision. a desperate, final surrender sealed with the salt of your tears and the feeling of his own victory.
you practically poured all the emotion into it, the grief, the fear, the rage, the horrifying fascination. it was the white flag raised in the war of your life.
for the first time all night, you felt heeseung completely falter.
he froze for a heartbeat, stunned. the control and calculated intensity, the forced patience, it all shattered. a sharp ragged gasp was torn straight from his throat, and then his arms wrapped around you, crushing you against him as if you were the only thing in his universe (you were).Â
he kissed you back with a frantic, desperate hunger, a starving man finally eating for the first time in forever.
it was messy, raw, and more terrifyingly real than anything that had been there before/
when you finally broke apart, breathless, he just stared at you. his own composure gone in a second. his eyes were wide, his lips were parted, his breath was as ragged as your own.
he looked⌠unravelled, and a mess.
you had finally given him what he wanted, and in doing so, you had stolen his control. you had shown him that the only way to truly possess you was to be consumed by you in return.
his voice was a wreck, a quiet whisper against your cheek.
âsee?â he breathed, his forehead resting against yours. âyou do remember.â
a dull, hollow laugh escaped you. it was a sound devoid of any humor, the last gasp of your breaking point. you pulled back just enough to meet his dazed, excited eyes.
and you slapped him.
the crack echoed in the quiet night, a final, desperate act of war. "fuck you," you whispered, the words dripping with a venom that made him flinch more than the blow itself.
you turned and walked away. your legs felt like lead, but you walked, putting one foot in front of the other, leaving him standing stunned on the sidewalk.Â
you made it five steps. ten. The world began to swim, the edges of your vision blurring into a grey static. the adrenaline, the terror, the emotional whiplash, it all crashed down at once.
the last thing you were aware of was the sound of his frantic footsteps rushing toward you before everything went black.
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you woke up in a strange, luxurious bedroom. the sheets were silk, the air smelled of âhimâ, shea butter and something clean, just like your own hand cream. the events on the sidewalk came back in a nauseating rush. you tried to sit up, a headache pounding behind your eyes.
"easy," his voice came from the doorway. heeseung stood there, holding a glass of water. His cheek bore a faint, red mark.Â
he looked calm. resolved. "you fainted. the doctor said you were severely dehydrated and exhausted."
the âdoctorâ was undoubtedly his, and he paid for their silence.
that was the beginning of the new world.
it didn't feel like a loss of independence at first. it felt like a relief. after you âfaintedâ, heeseung framed it as a necessary step for your recovery.Â
"your job was stressing you, baby. i could see it," he'd say, his voice soft with feigned concern. "you need to focus on healing and your studies. let me handle this."
the conversation wasn't a discussion. it was a notification. he made the call to your manager at the cafe while you were still groggy, his voice charming and apologetic on your behalf.Â
when you weakly protested, he presented the sleek, black credit card, placing it in your palm and closing your fingers around it.
"it's linked to my account. for anything you need. books, clothes, food... anything." his smile was tender, he finally had you, of course heâd look happier. "i want to take care of you."
the trap was in the generosity. every swipe of the card was a transaction he could monitor, a map of your movements and desires. buying a coffee became a data point. buying a novel was a subject for later inquiry.Â
the illusion of limitless freedom was, in fact, the most precise form of control.Â
he drove you to and from university every day in a car with tinted windows. "it's dangerous to walk alone after what happened." you practically never saw the inside of a bus again.
the first time he drove you to campus, he framed it as a temporary measure. "just until your strength is back," he promised, holding the car door open for you. the door locks clicked with a sound of finality.
the routine became imprinted. he would be waiting outside his, now your, building, every morning. the passenger seat became your designated spot. the tinted windows separating you and the real world. reducing every person who walked by into a silent film.
"if you need to stay late at the library, just text me. i'll pick you up," he'd say. "it's not safe for you to walk alone, especially after dark."Â
not safe, huh?
the car wasn't a convenience; it was a jail cecll, ensuring you were always on his schedule, always within his reach. he had to know your every move.
one evening, he took your phone, his fingers deftly resetting the passwords. "so I can help you manage your stress," he murmured, his thumb stroking your wrist with love. "you don't need all those distractions. They upset you."
the invasion of your phone was the most intimate violation. he took it one evening, citing a "glitch" he could fix. you watched, paralysed, as his long fingers danced across the screen, resetting your passwords with an expert's ease.
"all done," he hummed, handing it back. his expression was one of pure benevolence.Â
"i've cleared out a lot of the clutter. those group chats were so noisy. and those old followers... you don't need that kind of negativity."
your social media was wiped off the face of the earth. contacts were deleted. the digital breadcrumbs leading back to your old life were systematically erased. his reasoning was a masterclass in gaslighting: "so I can help you manage your stress. you don't need all those distractions. they were making you anxious, weren't they?"
your phone, the device that once connected you to the world, was now a a monitor just for him. your world now existed within the apps he approved of, and your primary contact was the man who had orchestrated its isolation.
your world shrank to the size of his pristine apartment and the passenger seat of his car. you were a ghost in your own life, perfectly preserved, cared for, and utterly, completely his. the slap, the "fuck you," the walk away, it had all been the last convulsion of a dying freedom. he had won.
you were like a mini figurine trapped in the plastic case. like a limited edition barbie doll to him, perfect and fragile.
â
the world had shrunk to a series of silent, beautiful rooms and the hushed interior of a moving car. your days were perfectly identical.Â
heeseung would wake you with a soft kiss, his version of winding up his favorite toy. you'd eat the breakfast he prepared, wear the clothes he laid out, always elegant, always to his taste.Â
the drive to university was silent, your hand often held in his, his thumb stroking your knuckles in a rhythmic, possessive pattern. in class, you were a model student, but your mind was elsewhere, locked in the apartment you shared.Â
you no longer participated in discussions; you simply absorbed information to later regurgitate for him, proving you were using your "protected" time wisely.Â
after class, his car was always waiting, a predator idling at the curb. there was no question of going to the library, meeting a friend, or running an errand. tour only destination was home.Â
his home.
your old social life disappeared. the world outside the tinted windows became a distant dream. your old friends' texts stopped appearing on your cleared out phone.Â
your family calls were now funnelled through him; he would hand you the phone, staying in the room, his presence a silent warning to keep the conversation light, happy, and utterly devoid of truth.Â
"they'd only worry, love," he'd remind you softly after you hung up, his arms wrapping around you from behind. "this way, they know you're safe and loved." you were a ghost, and he was the only one who could see you.
at first, his affection was a constant, suffocating force. you endured the hours he spent brushing your hair, the touch feeling clinical, like a collector maintaining a priceless artifact.Â
you tolerated the sound of his voice as he read to you, a smooth, hypnotic drone that felt more like a lullaby for the dead. the photos he took of you for his upcoming exhibition felt like evidence for a trial you never agreed to.
but the human heart, starved for connection, can warp to find it in the strangest of places. the relentless attention, which had felt like a prison, began to feel like a fortress.Â
the outside world, with its chaos and casual cruelties, started to seem like the real threat. inside these walls, you were protected, cherished, and seen with an intensity no one else had ever offered.
slowly, a shift began.
the brush moving through your hair was no longer a violation, but something that was soothing, lulling you into a state of peace.Â
the sound of his voice reading to you became the most comforting sound in your world, a familiar anchor. you stopped flinching when he took your picture, and one day, you even smiled, a small, tentative thing.Â
the flash of pure joy on his face was like a drug. you had caused that. you had that power over him.
his worship was no longer something done to you, but something you, yourself participated in. the fear didn't vanish, but it melted into a different, more complex emotion, a terrifying, all-consuming devotion.Â
he had destroyed your world to build a new one just for them, and in the terrible, beautiful silence he had created, you found herself starting to love the architect. the prison of his home had become your sanctuary, and the keeper of it, like you were god.
the realization that she was warming to him did not come as a shock, but as a quiet, undeniable tide rising within her.Â
it was in the way you began to anticipate the sound of his key in the lock, a flutter of something that was not quite dread stirring in your chest.Â
it was in the way youâd find yourself leaning into his touch rather than merely enduring it, your body betraying a mind that was slowly being rewired.
one evening, as he read to you on the sofa, you found your head resting not against the cushion, but against you shoulder. it was an unconscious movement, a seeking of warmth. he paused, the book resting in his lap.Â
the silence that followed was thick with meaning. you felt the sharp intake of his breath, the sudden stillness of his body. when his hand came up to cradle the back of your head, his fingers tangling gently in your soft hair, it didn't feel like possession. it felt like an answer.
"i love you," he whispered into your hair, the words not a declaration, but a raw, vulnerable confession.
and the most terrifying part was the truth that echoed back from your own heart. you didn't say it. you couldn't give him that final, exciting piece of yourself, yet. but you turned your face into his neck, your lips brushing his skin in a silent surrender that was stronger than any words.
the confession hung in the air, a shaky shift in the room. your silent response, the brush of your lips against his skin, wasn't rejection.Â
heeseung went perfectly still for a moment, as if afraid the slightest movement would shatter the moment.Â
then, a low, shuddering breath escaped him. the book was forgotten, sliding from his lap to the floor with a soft thud.
this time, his touch was different. it wasn't the cold, possessive caress that he used to use, nor was it the frantic, claiming grip of before. it was slow. worshipping. a question, rather than a demand.
his fingers traced the line of your jaw, tilting your face up to his. his eyes searched yours, the dark pools holding a new hunger.Â
"tell me to stop," he breathed, his voice trembling. it was the last lie between you, the final choice. if you did, he would.
you didn't.
instead, your own hands, which used to limp or push him away, came up to clutch at the fabric of his shirt. it was all the answer he needed.
his mouth found yours, and the last of your resistance crumbled. this wasn't the violent collision of your first kiss on the sidewalk. this was a deep, slow claiming that felt less like an invasion and more like a return.Â
his hands explored your body with certainty, trailing the curves of your waist, to your hips, to your neck. he knew that you were now unquestionably his. you, in turn, met his hunger with your own, a desperate, aching need rising from the ashes of your fear.
his hands grabbing your hips to drag out onto his lap. the sounds of moaning and whining floating in the air. âheeseungââ you moaned out into his lips, hands grasping the sides of his face.
âpleaseâ y/n, you dont know how long iâve waited for this.â he gasped into the kiss, hips hands dragging your hips to rut against his strained jeans.Â
he was begging for you.Â
âoh, but heeseung, think about all the things youâve done to me.â you cooed against his lips, a hand going to pull his hair, making the kiss break in an instant.
a loud moan and whimper escaping his lips at the feeling. âBâbutâ!â
âbut what?â your smirk was wicked. he tried to control you, so why couldn't you control him?
your hips move on their own as you lean down to lick against his neck. nibbling and biting till they left marks on his skin. branding him.
âhow bad do you want me, hmm?â you hummed, the sound vibrating his skin softly. he practically groaned; he felt like he was going to explode any second. and you knew that, with a smirk, the pace of your hips quicked.Â
his breath quicked and the grip against your waist tightened until they didnt. his body shook lightly underneath you until a loud groan escaped his lips. body stilling instantly, and you knew what had happened.
a low giggle escaping your lips at his action, but your hips didn't stop. they slowly kept going. âyou were doing so well, but you couldn't keep it in. could you?â
he let out a weak moan with a nodding head at your words. he didnt trust himself to speak, making you let out a laugh again. your hands sneaking down from his hair to the button of his jeans.
almost cruelly slow, you unbuttoned his jeans, hands careful not to touch his strained cock, noticing the dark spot against his boxers. âgod, you really liked that.â you mocked, using your thumb and middle finger to flick the spot, making him jump.
âstâstop teasingâ!â he whined, his grip on your waist almost bruising.Â
âand why do you have to make the shots?â you asked with a warning in your voice, peeling his boxers off, revealing his cock to the ice-cold air as a hiss escaped his mouth.
his cock was leaking, almost leaking so much it looked like he was about to cum again any moment.Â
âpathetic.â you spat with a wicked smile, saliva dripping down your lips and onto his cock, which twitched at the degrading name. âoh, you like that?â you mocked with a smile. pulling the panties under your (his) large shirt.Â
âbeg for me, show me how much you want me.â you said, hovering over his cock. eyes zeroing on his red cheeks and teary eyes. his lips agape as he started to spill out praises.
âplease, youââre so pretty, youâre like a goddess to me.â
âiâ iâve always wanted and needed youâ!âÂ
âthink about itâ imagine itâ!â
âplease, y/nâ pleaseâ sit on my cockâ!â
he cried out a moan, tears streaming down his cheeks as his tip entered you. no prep, no nothing. and shit, you were tight.
âthankyouthankyouthankyouâ!â he moaned out, as you took more of him. little by little, sitting down on his length until your bottom hits his lap. the stretch was painful yet needed, and you practically revelled in the fullness of him.
âno moving, okay?â you said more like a demand rather than a question. your hips rising before he could even respond.
a synchronised moan escaping both of your lips as soon as you thrusted back down onto him, back arching and eyes closing in pleasure. the sounds of skin slapping down dominated the room.
the sounds of him whimpering and whining at your brutal pace making you smirk even more.
âYou feel so good,â he cried out. each thrust was deep and relentless, a perfect rhythm that made his head spin.Â
you could feel the heat pooling in your belly; the addition of his whines and sobs drives you wild. your hips moved a pace you didn't even think you could reach, back arching and head tilted back as you rode him. âfuck, baby. i dont think i can hold it in any longer.â
âpâplease! iâ i want to feel you clench, can i cum in youâ iâve been a good boy,â he begged, tears streaming harder than ever against his cheeks as he squeezed your hips until his knuckles turn white.
âoh, but you were so bad, what if i didn't want you to cum?â you questioned through moans, tilting your head slightly to mock him.
a whine broke free from his throat at your threatening comment, pupils dilated, but he just couldnt hold it in anymore.
he practically lifts his hips to cum deep inside you, his tip kissing your cervix. the moan-like cry escaping his lungs as his head tilted back.Â
the way his cock hit your cervix made you snap as well, your hips instantly stilling as you came all over his cock, a high moan ripped out of your lips as well as you fell onto his chest.
heaving breaths and the smell of sex filled the room, the only other thing over the panting was the occasional sounds of cars passing by on the street. your lips curl into a smirk before you sat up, heeseungâs eyes following your own before you opened your mouth to speak.
âYouâre so pathetic, i hate that i love you too.â
the room was thick with the scent of sex and the sound of ragged breaths. outside, the distant swish of a passing car only emphasised the silence between you.Â
a slow smirk curled your lips as you sat up, your movements tracked by Heeseung's heavy-lidded gaze. he was still in you, probably hard.
you let the silence stretch, let him hang on the moment before your arrival, before your voice cut through the quiet, low and deliberate:Â
ĘÉ summary - after months of unsettling phone calls from an unknown stalker, you turn to the police for help. the chief of police, lee heeseung, is kind, patient, and exactly what you need to feel safe again. one thing leads to another, and soon heâs not just your protector, heâs your boyfriendâthe man you trust, the man you love, the man you think will keep you safe. but what you donât know isâjust because calls stopped, it doesnât mean that he hasnât been watching you, controlling you, and shaping every step of the relationship from the start. and by the time you realize the monster and the man you love are the same person, youâre already exactly where he wants you.
ĘÉ tags - 18+ MDNI, f!reader, ghostface!heeseung, yandere!heeseung, chief of police!heeseung, dubcon, fear kink, fear play, f! masturbation, guided masturbation, dom!heeseung, sub!reader, pet names
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The disappointment sat in your stomach like a cold, heavy stone. Youâd been counting down the hours, the minutes, until you could see Heeseung. After the week youâd hadâa relentless barrage of deadlines, a micromanaging boss, a client from hellâhis arms around you were the only form of relief you could picture. Youâd even bought new lingerie, a delicate black lace set. Youâd imagined his eyes going dark, his usually gentle hands turning a little desperate. Youâd imagined, finally, finally, taking that step with him.
But his text had come through just as you were leaving the office. Baby, Iâm so sorry. Something came up at the station, I canât make it tonight. Raincheck? Iâll make it up to you, I promise. Heâd attached a pleading emoji, the one with the big, sorrowful eyes. It should have softened the blow. Heeseung was, after all, the sweetest man youâd ever known. Kind, attentive, a little awkward in his affection sometimes. The Chief of Police, for Godâs sake. A pillar of the community. Your rock.
But he had cancelled. Yet again.
Youâd been dating for two months. Two months of soft kisses that made your head spin, of his large, warm hand cradling yours, of lazy Sundays spent on his couch. Two months of growing, breathless tension whenever he pulled you close, of you feeling his desire press against your hip, solid and undeniable. And two months of him gently pulling back, murmuring, âI want it to be perfect for you,â or âWe have all the time in the world.â Youâd thought it was endearing, his nervousness. Now, alone in your apartment with the new lingerie collecting dust, it just felt like another rejection.
So, youâd decided to reclaim the night. A night in, just for you. You ran a bubble bath and carefully painted your fingernails and toenails a glossy, dramatic crimson. Screw it, youâd thought. The color was a secret rebellion against the grey frustration of the day. You ordered your favorite spicy Thai food, put on a scary movie youâd seen a dozen times, and tried to lose yourself in a book. But your mind kept drifting back to Heeseung, and now, the clock had ticked past eleven. The lights were low, the movie long finished, the empty takeout container discarded. You were in bed, wearing just an old, soft t-shirt and your panties. The black lace set was still in its drawer. Your bed faced the large, floor-length mirror attached to your closet door. You liked the way it made the room feel bigger, the way the lamplight reflected in it created a softer, dreamier atmosphere.
Tonight, though, the mirror felt like a taunt. It showed you a version of yourself alone in a vast bed. You saw the faint outline of your body under the thin cotton, the fall of your hair across the pillow. A restless, itchy energy hummed under your skin. The stress of the week, the sexual frustration, the lonelinessâit was all mixing together into a tight, hot coil low in your belly.
Your hand drifted down, almost of its own accord. Over the cotton of your shirt, your fingers brushed your nipple. It peaked instantly, a sharp, sweet point of sensation. A sigh escaped you. Why not? Heeseung wasnât here. The night was yours. You let your eyes flutter shut, then open again, fixing on your own reflection in the dim light. Your fingers slipped under the hem of your shirt, skating over your stomach, then up to cup your breast. Your skin was warm. You teased your nipple, rolling the hardened bud between your thumb and forefinger, a jolt of pleasure tightening deep inside you. Your other hand trailed down, fingertips slipping beneath the waistband of your panties.
You were already wet. The discovery made you gasp softly. The slick heat was for him, for the night that wasnât happening, but your body didnât seem to care about the details. It just throbbed with need. You let a single finger glide through your folds, a slow, exploratory stroke that made your hips arch off the mattress. Your eyes were locked on the mirror. You watched the subtle shift of your body, the way your head fell back, the parted lips. You dipped the tip of your finger inside, just barely, and a broken sound caught in your throat.
That was when the phone rang.
The landline, on your bedside table. A relic your landlord insisted on. You never used it, though, and no one who mattered had the number.
The shrill, jarring sound shattered the fragile, sensual bubble youâd been building. You froze, your finger still resting against your core. It rang once, twice. Ignore it. It had to be a wrong number. It rang a third time, a fourth, the noise invasive and persistent, scraping against your nerves.
With a frustrated groan, you pulled your hand free and snatched the receiver. âHello?â you snapped, your voice rough with interrupted desire.
Silence. Then, a low, distorted breath. A voice, mechanized and eerie, filtered through what sounded like a cheap voice changer, but it couldnât completely mask a certain smooth, dark timbre beneath.
âHello, sweetheart.â
Your blood turned to ice. It wasnât a wrong number.
You knew this voice. Or rather, you knew the presence behind it. The calls had started a few months before you met Heeseung, at random, unsettling intervals. Sometimes there was just heavy breathing. Sometimes heâd whisper things about your dayâpretty girls shouldnât walk home aloneâthings that made your skin crawl. Youâd gone to the police, terrified. Thatâs how youâd met Chief Lee Heeseung. Heâd been so kind, so professional, taking your statement with a focused concern that made you feel safe for the first time in weeks. Heâd tried to trace the calls, but they were always from untraceable burners, routed through impossible networks. âA sophisticated creep,â Heeseung had said, his jaw tight with anger on your behalf. Heâd given you his personal number. âCall me anytime. Day or night.â Youâd called him to thank him, and one coffee had led to dinner, which had led to here. To now.
And now he was calling again. On the night you felt most vulnerable.
âWhat do you want?â you whispered, your voice trembling. You were painfully aware of your state of undress, of the mirror reflecting it all, as if he could somehow see.
âTsk, tsk. Now, thatâs no way to speak to an old friend.â
Your blood ran cold. You sat up, pulling the sheet around you as if it were armor. âDonât call this number. Iâm reporting this.â
A soft, staticky laugh. âTo who? That pretty-boy cop youâre dating? The one whoâs too scared to fuck you?â
The crudeness, the specific knowledge, stole your breath. âThatâs none of your business. Heâs my boyfriend. Hang up, or I swearââ
âOr youâll what?â The voice was a purr now, a dark caress through the line. âYouâre in bed. I know you are. I can hear the sheets. Youâre facing the mirror. I like that mirror, sweetheart. I think about it a lot.â
A violent tremor shook you. You looked at the mirror, at your own wide, frightened eyes. Your room was on the second floor. The curtains were drawn. It was impossible. He couldnât know.
âYou painted your nails,â the voice continued, conversational, as if discussing the weather. âSuch a nice shade of red.â he drawled. âCrimson looks an awful lot like blood in this light, donât you think? Did you do it for him? Did you think heâd finally put his hands on you tonight?â
Tears of frustration and fear pricked your eyes. âStop it,â you whispered.
âHe doesnât know what to do with you,â the voice coaxed. âBut I do. Iâve watched you, doll. I know what you need. So put the phone on speaker, and put it on the pillow next to you.â
âNo.â
âDo it, princess. Or Iâll start describing what I see in the mirror right now. And we both know you donât want to hang up.â
The shameful truth of that statement gathered hotly in your stomach. The fear was real, paralyzing. But beneath it, under the layer of ice, something else was stirring, warmed by the dark, possessive attention. The idea that someone was watching, had been watching, that your loneliness and your arousal had an audience⌠it was terrifying. It was also, God help you, kind of electrifying.
With a shaking hand, you fumbled with the phone, pressing the speaker button and setting it down. The distorted breathing filled the room, merging with your own.
âGood girl. Now look in the mirror. Look at yourself. Youâre all alone in that big bed. Just a pretty little doll, all worked up with no one to play with. Touch your neck. Where your pulse is beating for me.â
Your hand rose, seemingly of its own volition. Your fingertips touched the frantic flutter in your throat. The skin was hot.
âThatâs it. Now trail them down. Over that flimsy little top. I can see the outline of your nipples through it. Theyâre hard. Are they cold? Or are they just desperate for my mouth?â
You whimpered, your other hand clutching the sheet. Your nipples were painfully tight, pressing against the silk. You could feel them, hyper-aware.
âPinch one. Through the fabric. Hard.â
You did. A sharp, bright bolt of sensation shot from your nipple straight to your core, making you gasp. Your back arched slightly.
âSee? You like it rough. Heâd be too gentle. Heâd ask permission. I donât ask. I know. Now the other one. Twist it.â
You obeyed, a low moan escaping your lips as you twisted the sensitive peak. The pain was a perfect counterpoint to the throbbing emptiness between your legs. You were wet, shamefully, undeniably wet. The slick heat was soaking through your panties.
âYouâre getting soaked, arenât you? I can smell it from here. That sweet little cunt, dripping just because Iâm telling you to hurt yourself. Slide your hand down. Under the waistband. Tell me what you feel.â
Trembling violently, you slipped your hand beneath the elastic. The curls were damp. Your folds were swollen, slick. âI⌠itâs wet,â you breathed, horrified at your own confession.
âI know it is. Itâs always wet for me. Part your lips for me. Use two fingers. Spread yourself open.â
You were panting now, your breath fogging the mirror in front of you. You watched your reflectionâflushed cheeks, glazed eyes, lips partedâas your fingers slid through your own slickness, parting your lower lips. The exposure was obscene. The cool air from the room kissed the heated, vulnerable flesh, and you cried out, two fingers now pressing at your entrance. This was so wrong. You had Heeseung. Sweet, kind Heeseung who brought you flowers and respected your boundaries.
âLook at it. In the mirror. Look at that pretty pink pussy, all puffy and needy. Touch your clit. Just the tip of your finger. Circle it. Slow.â
You found the swollen bud, tracing a slow, agonizing circle. A jolt of pure pleasure made your thighs jerk. A choked sound, half-sob, half-sigh, left your throat.
âFaster. Use the wetness.â
You sped up, your finger sliding easily over the slick, sensitive nerve-endings. Pleasure began to build in low, deep pulses. Your hips started to move, a tiny, involuntary rocking against your own hand.
âThatâs my good girl. Getting yourself off while a stranger tells you how. Youâre such a dirty little thing. He thinks youâre so innocent. But youâre not, are you? He doesnât know how many times you fuck yourself when you come home after a date with him.â
Every word was a violation. Every admission of his voyeurism was a crime. And with each one, the coil inside you wound tighter, fueled by a terrifying, exhilarating sense of exposure. Heâs always watching. The thought should have sent you screaming from the house. Instead, it made your fingers press harder, your circles grow tighter and more desperate.
âImagine itâs my cock,â the voice growled, the distortion cracking with raw hunger. âNot your pathetic boyfriendâs. Mine. Thick and hard, pushing into that tight, wet hole. Youâd fight me at first, wouldnât you? Little whimpers, pushing at my chest. But your cunt would be sucking me in, wouldnât it? Gripping me tight.â
âOh, God,â you moaned, your head falling back.
âYouâd watch in the mirror,â he continued. âIâd make you watch. Iâd bend you over, your cheek pressed to the bed, your ass in the air, and Iâd make you look. Youâd see every inch of my cock disappear into that pretty little cunt. Youâd see how deep I can go. Youâd watch your face while I fucked you senseless. See yourself cry. See yourself beg for more. See how pretty you look when youâre coming on a real manâs cock.â
A moan, unbidden, tore from your throat. You were arching your back, your free hand fisting in the sheets. The image was vile and terrifying andâadmittedly, irresistibly vivid. You could see it. The anonymous shape behind you, holding you, pounding into you, your own face contorted in pleasure in the reflection.
âYouâre thinking about it,â he crowed, sensing it in your ragged breathing. âI can hear you. Your cunt is clenching on nothing, isnât it? Begging for it. You want it. Tell me you want it.â
âI⌠I canâtâŚâ
âTell me.â The voice dropped, became a menacing growl. âOr I hang up and come in there and take it. And I wonât be nice.â
The threat sent bolt of pure, white-hot arousal straight to your core. âYes,â you gasped, the word a shameful surrender. âHnghâyes, I want it.â
âAtta girl.â The approval in that twisted voice made you throb.
Your fingers were a frantic blur now. Two of them plunged inside yourself, curling, searching. Your body was bowing off the bed, driven by the filthy, graphic images his words painted. The pleasure was a storm gathering in your pelvis, dark and inevitable.
âYou want to come, donât you, baby?â the voice cooed, a monstrous parody of tenderness. âBut youâre not allowed yet. Not until I say. Take your fingers out. Taste yourself.â
You were beyond refusal. You pulled your glistening fingers from your dripping core and brought them to your mouth. The scent of your own arousal was musky and strong. You slid your fingers between your lips, your tongue laving the salty-sweet flavor. A deep moan vibrated in your chest.
âFuck, thatâs hot,â he rasped, his own breathing ragged through the filter. âNow get back to work. Fuck yourself with three fingers. Pretend itâs my tongue first. Licking you from your clit to your ass. Then my cock. Stretching you open. Making you take it.â
You shoved three fingers back inside, a delicious, burning stretch. You fucked yourself with them, the wet, squelching sounds obscenely loud in the quiet room, punctuated by the harsh static of his breath. You were a puppet, and his voice was pulling every string, lighting up every nerve.
âYouâre close again. I can hear it.â
You whimpered, a desperate, pleading sound. You were teetering on the edge, your muscles coiled tight.
âThink about this, baby. Think about you on your knees, in front of me. My cock in your mouth. Youâd look so beautiful, tears in your eyes, trying to take it all. Iâd fuck that sweet mouth, hold your hair, make you gag on it. Make you taste yourself on me. Youâd do it, too. Youâd suck me like a good little slut just for the chance to come.â
âPlease,â you sobbed, the word shredded. âPlease, let meâŚâ
âOkay, doll,â he whispered. âCome for me. Come all over your fingers and think about it being my cock pumping my load deep inside that needy pussy.â
It was the command that broke you. The orgasm ripped through you with violent, shattering force. Your back arched off the bed, a silent scream tearing from your throat as your cunt clamped down rhythmically, brutally around your fingers. Stars exploded behind your eyes. You shook, seeing nothing, hearing nothing but the thunder of your own blood and the distorted, satisfied sigh in your ear.
âGood girl.â
Then, a click.
The line went dead.
You dropped the phone as if it had scalded you. It tumbled onto the duvet. You lay there, heart hammering against your ribs, the aftershocks of your climax still tingling through your oversensitive flesh. Shame, thick and oily, rose up to choke you. What had you done? Youâd just⌠with him⌠while thinking of Heeseung. You felt sick. You felt exhilarated. You felt utterly, profoundly confused.
You slowly pulled your hand from your shorts, staring at your glistening fingers in the lamplight before wiping them hastily on the sheets. You needed a shower. You needed to scrub your skin raw. You needed to call Heeseung and hear his normal, kind voice.
As if summoned by your thought, your phone lit up again. This time, the screen clearly read hee â¤ď¸â .
Your heart stuttered. You stared at it for three full rings, your mind screaming. Then, with a trembling hand, you answered, bringing it to your ear. âHello?â
âHey, baby.â His voice was warm honey, deep and calming, so utterly normal it made tears spring to your eyes. âDid I wake you?â
âNo,â you said, your own voice sounding raw, foreign. âNo, I was just⌠um. Lying here.â
âIâm so sorry about tonight,â he said, and you could hear the genuine remorse in his voice, and it only made you feel worse. âIt was a mess here. Paperwork from the Stone case finally got processed, and I had to sign off on it. I hated cancelling on you. I was really looking forward to seeing you.â
You have no idea, you thought, a hysterical laugh bubbling in your throat. You swallowed it down. âItâs okay. I understand. Duty calls, right?â
âIt does. But youâre more important to me.â He sighed, and you could picture him running a hand through his dark hair, his features softened by fatigue. âWhat did you end up doing? Anything fun?â
Your eyes darted to the mirror. To your reflection, which looked thoroughly debauchedâhair mussed, lips swollen, chest still flushed. âOh, you know. Painted my nails. Watched a movie. Just a quiet night.â The lie came easily, coated in guilt.
âWhat color?â he asked, his tone light, conversational.
âWhat?â
âYour nails. What color did you paint them?â He sounded genuinely interested, like he always was in the small details of your life.
âOh. Um. Red.â The words felt dangerous.
âPretty,â he said softly. âIâd like to see them. Iâll bet they look beautiful against your skin.â There was a pause, just a beat too long. Then he added, his voice dropping into a more intimate register, âI was thinking about you all night. Wishing I was there with you. In your bed.â
His words were sweet, but after the filth youâd just bathed in, they felt almost⌠tame. âI wish you were here too,â you whispered, and it was the truth. A tangled, messy truth, but a truth nonetheless.
âNext time,â he promised, and you could hear the smile in his voice. âIâll make it up to you. I promise. I just⌠I want everything to be perfect for you. You deserve that.â
That was the Heeseung you knew. Careful. Protective. Perfect.
âI should let you sleep, huh, baby,â he said after another moment of comfortable silence. âYou sound pretty tired.â
âYeah,â you agreed, desperate now to be alone with your chaos. âA little.â
âOkay. Sweet dreams, my love. Iâll call you tomorrow.â
âGoodnight, Heeseung.â
You waited for him to hang up. But just before he did, you heard it. A faint, soft sound that wasnât a digital distortion, but the clear, unmistakable tone of his normal voice, slightly muffled as if he was already pulling the phone away from his face.
It was two words. A pet name heâd never used before. One that echoed in the dark, silent room and turned your blood to ice.
âGoodnight, princess.â
The line went dead.
You sat bolt upright, the duvet pooling around your waist. Your breath caught in your throat, a solid block of ice. No, no. It was a mistake. A trick of your traumatized mind. Heâd said âmy love,â hadnât he? Or just âgoodnight?â You replayed the last second in your head. The warm âmy love.â The click. And then, âgoodnightâ, and thenâfaint, almost inaudible⌠that other word. The one he had used.
Princess.
It was a coincidence. It had to be. A common enough term of endearment. But Heeseung wasnât common. He was specific. He called you baby, and sweetheart, and my love. Never princess.
The silence in the room was absolute, a vacuum that pressed against your eardrums. You stared at the phone where it had fallen on the carpet, a dark rectangle against the pale cream pile. The word echoed in the hollows of your skull, bouncing off the memory of the distorted whisper and the soft, affectionate murmur that had followed it. They overlapped, merged, became one voice. His voice.
No. No, no, no.
It was a mistake. A paranoid leap. Heeseung was kind. He was the chief of police. Heâd held you when you told him how scared you were about the calls. Heâd made you feel safe.
But heâd also never been able to trace them.
Your heart wasnât hammering anymore; it was a frantic, trapped bird slamming itself against the cage of your ribs. Your skin felt two sizes too small, buzzing with a sick, residual heat from your orgasm and a new, freezing terror. You looked at your reflection. The woman in the mirror looked back, her eyes black with shock, her lips parted. She looked debauched. She looked like a victim who had just enthusiastically participated in her own violation.
With a gasp that was more of a sob, you scrambled for the phone. Your fingers, still faintly sticky, fumbled across the screen. You pulled up your recent calls. Your thumb hovered over his name, the heart emoji a mockery now. You tapped it before your brain could fully process the action, before the last shred of self-preservation could stop you.
It rang once. Twice.
Pick up. Donât pick up. Please let me be wrong. Please let me be crazy.
Three times.
Then, a click. The line connected. There was no greeting. Just the faint sound of ambient noiseâthe low hum of a car engine?âand quiet, even breathing.
Your own breath hitched. You were trembling so violently you had to press the phone hard against your ear to keep it steady. The words tumbled out, a raw, shattered whisper. âHeeseung?â
Silence. A profound, heavy silence that stretched for one second, two, three. It was a silence that confirmed everything. A good man, a concerned boyfriend, would have immediately responded. Baby? Whatâs wrong? This silence was a void, a calculated pause.
Then, a sound. A soft, almost imperceptible sigh. And then, a low, quiet laugh. It wasnât the warm chuckle you knew. It was darker, intimate, and tinged with a satisfaction that made your stomach drop through the floor.
âDid you finally figure it out, doll?â
The voice was Heeseungâs. But it wasnât. It was stripped of its usual gentle cadence, the careful warmth. It was lower, smoother, and laced with a cruel amusement that was utterly familiar. It was the voice from the first call, without the digital distortion. His real voice.
The world tilted. A sharp, metallic taste filled your mouth. You were going to be sick. You pressed your free hand over your mouth, swallowing back the bile. âItâsâit was you,â you choked out. âAll this time?â
âAll this time,â he confirmed, his tone conversational, as if discussing the weather. âTook you long enough, princess. I was starting to think Iâd have to be less subtle.â
âWhy?â The word was a broken thing. âWhy would youâŚ? I went to you for help.â
âAnd I helped you, didnât I?â he said, and you could hear the smile in his voice. âI took your statement. I drove you home. I comforted you. It was kinda intoxicating, you know. Watching you trust me, lean on me, while I knew every secret, filthy thought you had. I knew you touched yourself thinking of meâof both of meâweeks before you ever let me kiss you goodnight.â
Each word was a razor, meticulously slicing away the reality youâd built. The kindness, the patience, the respectâit was all a facade. A beautifully constructed cage.
âYouâre a monster,â you whispered, tears finally spilling over, hot tracks down your cold cheeks.
âAm I?â He mused. The engine hum grew slightly fainter, as if heâd pulled over. âYou didnât think I was a monster ten minutes ago when you were coming all over your own fingers because I told you to. You were dripping for the monster, baby. Donât rewrite history now.â
Shame, scalding and profound, washed over you. He was right. Your body had betrayed you utterly. It was betraying you now, a treacherous pulse beating between your legs even as your mind screamed in horror.
âWhat do you want?â you asked, your voice hollow.
âWhat Iâve always wanted,â he said, the casual tone vanishing, replaced by a possessive gravity that vibrated through the line. âYou. All of you, baby. My sweet, blushing girlfriend who holds my hand in public, and my desperate, whimpering little doll who comes on command for me over the phone.â he sighed. âI want to own every single part of you, Y/N.â
âIâll hang up,â you threatened, your thumb moving to the screen. âIâll call the real police.â
A soft, derisive laugh. âI am the real police, sweetheart. And who are they going to believe? Their chief, or the random woman with a history of creepy phone calls that were never traced? The woman who started dating the very officer assigned to her case? It looks⌠I donât know, baby, it looks pretty unstable to me. Almost looks like a fantasy.â he remarked.
He was right. The realization was a death sentence.
He had planned it all perfectly.
âNow, you listen to me carefully, doll,â he continued, his voice dropping back into that hypnotic, intimate register. âIâm coming. And you better be prepared for me.â
Once again, the line went dead.
For a moment, you just stood there in the center of your bedroom, the phone still pressed to your ear, listening to the empty dial tone. Be prepared for him. A cold, thrilling shiver, entirely separate from the fear, traced a path down your spine. It was the thrill of the game, a sick, curling excitement at the sheer audacity of it. Heâd outsmarted you at every turn. Heâd been inside your head, inside your home, inside your body without you ever knowing. And now he was telling you to get ready. For what? The next move was his, and the anticipation was a live wire under your skin.
You moved.
It was a frantic, efficient burst of energy. You dropped the phone on the bed and flew to the window beside your mirror, your fingers fumbling with the latch. You shoved it down, hard, and yanked the sash closed. The lock engaged with a solid thunk. You did the same to the other window in your room, then hurried into the living room, checking the two there. Every lock was secured. You raced to the front door, your heart a drum in your throat. You twisted the deadbolt, slid the chain into place, and pressed your back against the solid wood, breathing hard.
How? The question panted in your mind. How will he get in now? The windows were locked. The door was barricaded. Youâd watched enough movies. You knew the drill. A smug, fragile sense of control began to stitch itself over the panic. Heâd call again. Heâd be angry, frustrated that his little doll had locked him out. You imagined his voice, that crude, beautiful voice, tight with irritation. The thought made your stomach clench and a fresh, unwanted pulse of heat gather low in your belly. You stood there in the silent, dim apartment, waiting for the phone to ring, your body thrumming with a terrible anticipation.
The silence stretched.
A minute. Two.
Then, a sound.
Not from the door. Not from the windows. A soft, mechanical click. It came from somewhere above you.
Near the ceiling.
Your head snapped up, your eyes scanning the shadows of your living room. The ceiling fan was still. The light fixture was dormant. You saw nothing.
Then, a voice. Soft, amused, and so horrifically close it felt like a breath against your ear.
âHi, princess.â
You screamed. A raw, short sound that ripped from your throat before you could choke it back. Your gaze shot upward again, toward the source, and your brain simply refused to process what it was seeing.
There, in the corner where the wall met the ceiling, was a rectangular panelâthe access hatch to your buildingâs crawl space. Youâd never once looked at it, never once considered it. It was now pushed aside. And framed in the dark square of the opening, looking down at you, was a figure.
He was crouched in the opening, his form silhouetted by the faint light from the hallway seeping through the hatch behind him. He was wearing his full police uniformâthe crisp dark blue shirt, the badge glinting dully, the utility belt. And over his face, perched at a slight, mocking angle, was the stark white, elongated Ghostface mask.
The world narrowed to that image. The uniform of your protector. The mask of your tormentor. Combined. The paradox made your vision swim.
He didnât move. He just watched you, the black eyes of the mask boring into you. Then, with a slow, deliberate gesture, he raised a hand. His fingersâlong, elegant, the same fingers that had traced your cheek so tenderlyâhooked under the edge of the mask. He pulled it off.
And there he was.
Heeseung.
Your Heeseung. His features were calm, his dark eyes holding a warmth that was now the most terrifying thing youâd ever seen. A small, charming smile played on his lips. He looked like heâd just come home from a long shift, ready to collapse into your arms.
âMiss me?â he asked, his voice the one you knew, the one you loved. It was gentle. It was a lie.
Your heart almost leapt out of your chest, a frantic, bruising beat against your sternum. Logic, reason, survivalâthey all screamed one command.
Run.
You spun on your heel and you ran. You didnât think, you couldnât. You just propelled yourself toward the short hallway that led to your bathroom and the small linen closet. Your apartment was tiny, a studio with a separated bath, but you knew every inch. You heard a soft, heavy thud behind you as he dropped from the crawl space onto your floor. You didnât look back.
Your bare feet slapped against the cool hardwood as you darted into the hallway. The bathroom door was open. Too obvious. The linen closet was just a shallow alcove with a bi-fold door. You yanked it open, the slats rattling, and squeezed inside, amidst the spare towels and the smell of fabric softener. You pulled the door closed, leaving it open just a crack, and pressed yourself against the back wall, your lungs burning as you tried to silence your ragged breaths.
You listened.
You heard his footsteps. They werenât running. They were a slow, steady, lazy cadence on the floorboards. A casual stroll. He was taking his time. The sound of it, the absolute confidence in it, made your stomach flip. A treacherous, hot throb echoed between your legs, so stark and shameful you bit your lip hard enough to taste copper.
âPrincess,â he called out, his voice singing through the apartment. It was light, teasing. âCome on now. You know how this ends. Why make it difficult?â
You squeezed your eyes shut, as if that could make him disappear. The footsteps paused outside the bathroom. You heard the click of the light switch. âNot in here,â he murmured, almost to himself.
The footsteps moved again. Closer. They stopped right outside the linen closet.
Your blood turned to ice. You stopped breathing.
You saw a shadow block the thin line of light through the crack in the door. You waited for the door to fly open.
It didnât.
The shadow moved away. The footsteps retreated, back toward the living room.
A shaky, disbelieving breath escaped you. He passed you. He didnât know. For the first time, youâd outmaneuvered him. A wild, hysterical hope bubbled up. Youâd wait. Youâd wait until you heard the front door open and close, and then youâdâ
âFound you.â
The whisper was right against the door. You hadnât heard him come backâor maybe heâd never left.
The bi-fold door was wrenched open with such force one of the plastic slats snapped. Light flooded in, and there he stood, filling the doorway, his head tilted, that same gentle smile on his face. He looked⌠delighted.
A low, warm laugh bubbled out of him. âOh, baby. Really? The linen closet?â He shook his head, his dark eyes sparkling with cruel affection. âI spent so long watching you. I know this apartment better than you do. I know you keep the spare toilet paper on the top shelf because youâre too short to reach it easily. I even know which baskets you use for your different kinds of laundry. You think I wouldnât have every hiding spot memorized?â
Scalding humiliation washed over you. Had you ever had a single private moment?
The shock held you frozen for a second too long. His hand shot out, not to grab you, but to gently brush a strand of hair from your face. The touch was so intimate, so boyfriend-like, that it shattered the paralysis.
With a small shriek, you ducked under his arm and burst out of the closet, shoving past him. You ran again, back down the short hall toward the living room. This time, there was no plan, no destination. It was pure, adrenaline-fueled flight. And beneath the terror, a thread of that same thrilling excitement pulsed. You were running. He was letting you run. It was part of it.
You heard his sigh behind you, a sound of long-suffering patience. âNow youâre just pissing me off,â he said, his voice losing its playful edge, gaining a layer of steel.
You reached the living room, your eyes darting to the front door. It was still chained, still deadbolted. An impossible goal. You spun, looking for another route, another closet, under the bedâ
He wasnât running, but his stride was long and purposeful. He crossed the distance between you in three swift steps. As you turned to dodge again, his arm snaked around your waist from behind, yanking you hard against his body.
The impact knocked the air from your lungs. His chest was solid against your back, his police belt digging into your spine. He was so much bigger, so much stronger. You struggled, uselessly, your elbows flying back, your feet kicking at his shins.
He grunted, his hold tightening like a steel band. âFuckinâ behave, would you?â he growled into your ear, his breath hot. His voice was the one from the phone nowâcrude, dominant, stripped of all pretense. âOrââ
He stopped himself. You felt him go still. Then, you felt the curve of his smile against your temple. A fresh, deeper shiver ran down your back, pooling like ice in the base of your spine.
âOrâŚâ he continued, his voice dropping to a hypnotic murmur. âMaybe you need to be told how to behave.â You whimpered in response. âIsnât that right, doll? You like it when someone gives you instructions. When someone takes all those confusing little choices away.â
He shifted his grip, securing both of your wrists in one of his large hands with terrifying ease. With his other hand, you heard the metallic clink of his belt, the rustle of leather. Then, a colder, harder click-clack.
You looked down.
Shining in the dim light, locked around both of your wrists, were a pair of standard-issue police handcuffs.
The cold, heavy metal biting into your skin rooted you to the spot, and your struggles ceased. You were panting, trembling head to toe, held flush against him. You could feel every hard plane of his body. And you could feel something else, pressed against the curve of your lower back through his uniform trousers: the thick, rigid length of his erection.
A moan caught in your throat, fear mixed with a dark, shameful surge of arousal so potent it made your knees weak. The handcuffs. The uniform. The chase. The primal, terrifying rightness of being caught and restrained by him.
âThere,â he whispered, nuzzling the side of your neck. He inhaled deeply, as if savoring your scent. âThatâs better. No more running. Youâre done running, sweetheart.â
He began to walk you backward, his body steering yours. You had no choice but to move with him, your cuffed hands trapped between your body and his. He walked you across the living room, back into your bedroom. He positioned you directly in front of the large, ornate mirror that faced your bed.
He stopped, his hands settling on your shoulders. You stared at your reflection again, just like you had half-an-hour ago. You looked completely wrecked. Your hair was wild, your eyes wide and dark. Your cheeks were flushed. The crimson polish on your nails stood out like blood against your cuffed hands held awkwardly at your waist. And behind you, Heeseung loomed. His face was a mask of serene possession over your shoulder, a god and a jailor all at once.
âLook at you,â he murmured, his eyes meeting yours in the glass. âLook at what you did to yourself. All that fight. For what?â One of his hands left your shoulder and came to rest lightly on the side of your throat, his thumb stroking your hammering pulse. âYou were always going to end up right here. In front of this mirror. With me.â
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YOU TRY TO ESCAPE đš ěíě´í ( reaction ) !
genre yandere đš warning mentions of murder and tying up , jake is crazy , sunghoon needs help and heeseung and jay are maniacs â parings enhypen hyungline x fem reader | back to library .
request. hii girlie could you do yandere enhypen when you try to escape it can be hyung line or ot7!
â enhypens reaction when you try and escape.
ă authors note đš ă i hope you like it.
ďš đ : heeseungďš .á
normally heeseung ties you up before he goes to bed , but this night he was too tired and he crashed right on the bed , leaving you both awake and unbound â so you took your chances , slowly moving his hand from your waist , climbing off the bed; tip toeing towards the door. "stupid stupid girl." you heard your boyfriend say. "you think just because i didn't tie you up i didn't set precautions for this?" he slowly climbed out of bed. "open the door , try it." he smiled. "fucking open it." you opened the door, only for an alarm to go off. "close it." he said , you tearfully closed it. "now get back into bed." he said and you listened , climbing back into bed. "I tried to give you the benefit of the doubt." he pulled out the handcuffs.
"but you clearly can't be trusted."
ďš đ : jay ďš .á
jay would let you leave , it's not like you can get far with the tracker he put those pretty little earrings you were to stupid and high on adrenaline to take off , he knows where you areâ so when you come to a sudden stop at a bus station , he smirks before telling his guys to get the car ready. you sat waiting for the next bus out of town and away from jay , you were finally free. "oh princess." you felt someone sitting next to you , your body freezing in fear as you felt his hand on your knee. "h-how did you find me?" he smiled , but you could see the anger in his eyes. "those really expensive earrings that you're wearing, pretty baby those are trackers." you tried to get up , but squeezed your thighs. "i have two men at the ready in case you run , so you don't have a choice." he said as a car pulled up.
"you really don't have a choice , get in the fucking car."
ďš đ : jakeďš .á
the thing with jake is , he's crazy in love with a big emphasis on crazy; once he met you , his life had no meaning, he didn't live for himself , he lived for you â but jake also wasn't willing to let you leave , no he loved you too much , he'd kill you before he'd ever let you walk away from him , and if you weren't there then he'd had nothing to live for. "where are you going?" your heart dropped hearing your boyfriends voice , you turned around to where he stood , teary eyed , holding a knife in his hand. "you're leaving me aren't , you were gonna leave me." he was sobbing now. "jaeyunâ no!" he shouted. "i won't let you go." he walked closer with the knife. "jake calm down." you said. "i can't let you go , but i can't live without you." he said. "let's calm down jake."
"i'll kill us both , let's die together huh? i can't let you go."
ďš đ : sunghoon ďš .á
he knew you were bluffing; he knows you'll be right back where you started , you have no money , no friends , no family; he's all you have and you know it. "you want to leave?" he smiled , but it wasn't a humorous laugh. "go." he said pointing to the door. "the doors right there." he shrugged. "answer me this one question , where are you going?" he asked. "how are you gonna get there?" you stammered over your words. "that's right , you have no one , you cut them off because of me." he said. "dumb move." he said. "so walk out that door , do it." he said.
Summary: What starts as admiration from Enhypenâs Heeseung quickly spirals into dangerous obsession. Escape feels impossible when the strings of fate tighten around them.
Word Count: ~1,050
Trigger Warnings:
Obsessive behavior
Emotional manipulation
Implied stalking
Fear and tension
Unhealthy relationships
The late-night glow of the practice room was intoxicating. The rhythmic hum of the music vibrated in your chest as you watched the Enhypen members dance with precision. The sweat glistening on their foreheads spoke of hours of practice, and the energy in the room was electric. You sat cross-legged in the corner, pretending to be absorbed in your phone, but your eyes constantly drifted toward himâHeeseung.
There was something magnetic about him, something that always drew your attention no matter how much you tried to stay neutral. His sharp movements on the floor mirrored his presenceâdominating and unforgettable. Yet, there was something about the way he carried himself tonight that felt... different.
As the music ended, the group dispersed, panting and laughing. Sunghoon shot you a warm smile, and you waved back. Jake gave you a thumbs-up as he grabbed his water bottle. But your attention snapped back to Heeseung when he caught your gaze. His eyes bore into you with an intensity that made your stomach twist.
âY/N,â his voice cut through the chatter, sharp yet calm. âCan I talk to you for a second?â
The others paused, exchanging brief glances, but you nodded, standing to follow him. There was a weight in the air, a tension that seemed to follow you both as he led you out of the practice room and into the dimly lit hallway.
The coolness of the hallway was a stark contrast to the heat and energy of the practice room. Heeseung leaned against the wall, crossing his arms as he stared at you.
âYouâve been coming here a lot lately,â he began, his tone neutral but with an edge you couldnât quite place.
âWell, I enjoy watching you all practice,â you replied, trying to sound casual. âItâs inspiring to see how hard you all work.â
Heeseung tilted his head slightly, his eyes narrowing. âBut you watch me the most.â
You froze, caught off guard. âIâI donât know what you mean.â
A faint smirk tugged at his lips, but it didnât reach his eyes. He stepped closer, his tall frame looming over you. âItâs okay. I watch you too. More than you know.â
The weight of his words settled in your chest, making it harder to breathe. âHeeseung, I think youâre reading too much into this. I care about all of you as friends.â
âFriends?â He repeated the word bitterly, his jaw clenching. âDo you think I donât notice the way you laugh with Sunghoon? The way Jake makes you smile? You think I havenât seen the way you look at them?â
You stepped back instinctively, your back pressing against the cold wall. âTheyâre just my friends. Thatâs all.â
His expression darkened, and he took another step forward, trapping you in place. âFriends donât look at each other the way you look at them. Friends donât make my blood boil every time they get too close to you.â
Your heart was racing now, your palms clammy as you tried to reason with him. âHeeseung, youâre overthinking this. Iâve never given you a reason to feel this way.â
His hand shot out, pinning itself against the wall beside your head. You flinched, but he didnât touch youâyet. His voice dropped to a whisper, low and dangerous. âYou donât have to give me a reason, Y/N. You donât understand how I feel. How long Iâve been watching, waiting for you to see that weâre meant to be.â
Tears pricked at your eyes, fear bubbling in your chest. âHeeseung, this isnât love. This is obsession. Youâre scaring me.â
For a moment, his expression softened, his free hand reaching out to gently brush a strand of hair from your face. His touch was tender, almost comforting, but the intensity in his gaze never wavered.
âI donât want to scare you,â he murmured. âI just want you to understand. No one will ever love you the way I do. No one will ever protect you the way I will.â
You shook your head, your voice trembling. âThis isnât right. You need help, Heeseung.â
His lips curled into a hollow smile, his hand dropping from the wall but still keeping you trapped in his presence. âHelp? I donât need help. I need you. Youâre all Iâve ever wanted, all Iâve ever needed. Donât you see that?â
Summoning every ounce of courage you had, you pushed past him, stumbling slightly as you put distance between you. âI canât do this. Iâm leaving.â
But as you turned to go, his voice stopped you in your tracks.
âYou canât run from me, Y/N.â
The coldness in his tone sent a shiver down your spine. You didnât dare look back, your feet carrying you as fast as they could toward the exit. The cool night air hit you like a wave as you burst outside, your heart pounding in your ears.
Fumbling with your phone, you climbed into your car and locked the doors, your hands shaking as you started the engine. As you pulled away from the building, your phone buzzed in the passenger seat.
You didnât need to look to know who it was, but curiosity got the better of you. Picking it up, your breath hitched as you read the message.
i have this idea for a fic but i cant write, lol so im dropping it in your ask box cause youre like the best yandere writer i know on here so here it is:
you running away from yandere!heeseung when you had the chance, then you encountered a nice guy (i imagine to probably be sunghoon) and then you tell him all bout you running away, heeseung, all that stuff. butttt here's the twist.. hoon has been stalking you for a looong time so yeah kind of like reader got away from a yandere just to end up with another yandere đĽ
Omggg thank you for writing in! I'm so glad to hear that from you đ here it is sorry for the long wait! Hope you like it!
Youâd been running for days, constantly looking over your shoulder, heart pounding. Heeseung, with his unsettling gaze and obsessive demeanor, was always one step behind. It was terrifying, knowing that someone so fixated was out to find you.
His words and actions are no doubt trauma for you.
It started all nice and romantic, Heeseung was the sweetest guy you've ever met and no doubt, you have fallen in love with this beautiful man. But things started to get handy.
Ever since you guys officially got together, he has been possessive. Like to an extreme amount.
To the point where you felt suffocated and scared. You tried to talk to him about it but he always turned to the same behaviour.
You couldn't take it anymore and decided to break up with him... Which obviously didn't turn out well.
You said not looking at him. You didn't want to see any of that madness in his eyes.
"Baby... Was that a joke? Or..."
His tone wasn't warm.... It was cold. As if, if you said "no" the next second, he would tear you into pieces.
But you can't let fear over take you.
"No. I'm serious Heeseung. I want to break up with you."
And there... Boom!
You ended up in his basement for 3 weeks.
For 3 weeks, you have been trying to run. Of course failing almost every time.
But that day... You finally got out of his grip.
Then, amidst your frantic escape, you stumbled upon someone who seemed like a beacon of calm.
Sunghoon, with his warm smile and kind eyes, offered you a moment of respite.
You poured your heart out, telling him everything: how youâd been fleeing from Heeseung, how his intense obsession made your life a nightmare.
Sunghoon listened patiently, offering comforting words and seeming genuinely concerned. You felt a glimmer of hope. Maybe youâd finally found safety.
"I'm sorry to hear that Y/n... I'm here now... I will take care of you..."
But as the days went on, you began to notice little things. Sunghoon was always there, just when you needed him. It seemed like he had an uncanny ability to show up at the right place and time.
"Oh? Sunghoon? What are you doing in my house?"
"Here! I bought you some chocolate. I thought you might need this right now."
"Oh my god that's so sweet of you... How did you know that I am in desperate need of this right now?"
You smiled and took the chocolate from his hand.
"Every time you fail a test, you always get chocolates to cheer yourself up, don't you?"
He said with a proud smile.
But... You have never told him that... And you never told him that you failed your most recent test...
So... How does he know?
But at that time, you were too innocent to even notice this was odd.
Eventually, a year later, you and Sunghoon got into a relationship.
One evening, as you were looking through Sunghoon's phone, as your phone ran out of battery and you desperately needed a phone to do some research.
Curiousity got into you and somehow, you decided to open up Sunghoon's gallery.
you came across something unsettling. A series of photos you didnât remember taking.
They showed you in various locations, from moments of vulnerability to everyday scenes.
Your heart sank as you realized these were taken by Sunghoon.
Confronting him, you saw a shift in his demeanor. His warm smile faded, replaced by a more intense, calculating gaze.
You sensed danger. Your body is telling you to run, and of course, you followed what your body told you to do.
You ran for your life.
Why have you never noticed anything?
âYou didnât think youâd escape that easily, did you?â he whispered next to your ears and he caught up to you.
"I didn't plan all this just to let you escape..."
He said and smirked.
"What... What do you mean?"
"You know... I could have just given you a backup phone... I'm not that stupid Y/n.."
"I want you to know how much I love you... And you should love me as much too..."
The realization hit hard. You had run from one yandere, only to fall into the grasp of another.
Sunghoonâs obsession, hidden behind a facade of kindness, was just as consuming.
The cycle of escape and obsession seemed never-ending, leaving you to confront the stark reality of your situation.