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@helios-mailbox

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Hello I guess. Don't really know how I got one of these but I'm Helios.

He/it pronouns

Affiliated blogs list found at @hcmbu

#hermit mailbox ask universe #hermitcraft mailbox ask universe #sun's rays #winged mail #lotus post

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

[just a tight squeeze]

[He puts his head against Skizz's chest]

Are you okay?

im okay.

[he keeps holding it in his arms]

[It doesn't know what to do]

are you okay..?

I don't know...

[he squeezes a bit tighter]

I'm really confused Dad...

its okay. sorry if- im being concerning

[he's not letting go of him just yet]

You're okay...

you just.. didnt deserve to fall. it sucks and im sorry

... If I didn't then I'd never have met you

.. thats not as good of a thing as you think, bud. there are probably hundreds of guys like me.

I don't think so...

A lot of humans and angels are amazing! probably hundreds that are even better!

But they aren't you

#helios mailbox #skizzs mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

[just a tight squeeze]

[He puts his head against Skizz's chest]

Are you okay?

im okay.

[he keeps holding it in his arms]

[It doesn't know what to do]

are you okay..?

I don't know...

[he squeezes a bit tighter]

I'm really confused Dad...

its okay. sorry if- im being concerning

[he's not letting go of him just yet]

You're okay...

you just.. didnt deserve to fall. it sucks and im sorry

... If I didn't then I'd never have met you

.. thats not as good of a thing as you think, bud. there are probably hundreds of guys like me.

I don't think so...

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

[just a tight squeeze]

[He puts his head against Skizz's chest]

Are you okay?

im okay.

[he keeps holding it in his arms]

[It doesn't know what to do]

are you okay..?

I don't know...

[he squeezes a bit tighter]

I'm really confused Dad...

its okay. sorry if- im being concerning

[he's not letting go of him just yet]

You're okay...

you just.. didnt deserve to fall. it sucks and im sorry

... If I didn't then I'd never have met you

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

[just a tight squeeze]

[He puts his head against Skizz's chest]

Are you okay?

im okay.

[he keeps holding it in his arms]

[It doesn't know what to do]

are you okay..?

I don't know...

[he squeezes a bit tighter]

I'm really confused Dad...

its okay. sorry if- im being concerning

[he's not letting go of him just yet]

You're okay...

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

[just a tight squeeze]

[He puts his head against Skizz's chest]

Are you okay?

im okay.

[he keeps holding it in his arms]

[It doesn't know what to do]

are you okay..?

I don't know...

[he squeezes a bit tighter]

I'm really confused Dad...

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

[just a tight squeeze]

[He puts his head against Skizz's chest]

Are you okay?

im okay.

[he keeps holding it in his arms]

[It doesn't know what to do]

are you okay..?

I don't know...

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

[just a tight squeeze]

[He puts his head against Skizz's chest]

Are you okay?

im okay.

[he keeps holding it in his arms]

[It doesn't know what to do]

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

[just a tight squeeze]

[He puts his head against Skizz's chest]

Are you okay?

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

no, you didnt say anything wrong. you just deserve better

[he pulls him into a tight hug]

[He hugs back, though he doesn't fully understand why]

Oh...

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

[if his wings still worked well enough to make it there, he’d definitely be going up to sock someone in the face for this]

.. oh kid. You don’t deserve being down here. I’m sorry

Dad? Did- did I say something wrong?

[He doesn't understand anymore and the idea that someone up there did something wrong is a foreign concept to him]

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

That’d be no reason to let you fall.. you had no enemies?

I don't think so, I was nice to everyone I thought...

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

[he looks like he’s about to march up to heaven and get mad at them. He takes a deep inhale, deep exhale]

… did anyone up there not like you..?

ummm I think some of them avoided me cause of my age?

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[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

.. huh

[he finds that curious but doesn’t push further]

But.. no warning before you fell? You don’t remembering doing anything that might’ve been seen as bad?

No I don't think so

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[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

I meant more like uh.. did you have a job? Were you one of the originals or just a mortal who died permanently and did good enough?

Oh sorry um I don't think I had any specific job but I don't remember being mortal either...

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox #[aka i don't know shit about angels and this seems like an interesting approach for this]

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

.. you dont know why you fell?

[his voice is quiet]

what did you do before?

I don't um- I don't think I was really doing anything before it happened? Just watching the sky.

#skizzs mailbox #helios mailbox

[redstone time!]

[which should not be as terrifying as it is. Even looking at the dust just gives him bad memories, grian’s laugh ringing in his ears as his hands twitch and screams replay in his head]

[that was on the impossible Minecraft server though! This is hermitcraft, he’s safe here]

[plus, it’s not like he’ll get any better by avoiding it. And he has to get better at it, if he wants impulse to finally be proud of it. He has to be good, perfect even. He wants him to be proud]

[he sucks in a breath, taking a few steps closer to his chests, opening the one specifically for redstone- and immediately closing it. He can’t do this. His hands are shaking like crazy, and that laugh is still playing in his head, that crazy laugh that he usually loves but not now, not with this, not at that time]

[Helios walks in and sees Skizz being weird about some chests]

Dad?

[he jumps high in the air, wings flying out. every eye is open, quickly whizzing to stare at helios]

oh! helios!

[he blinks a few times, offering a smile as he straightens up again, most eyes closing, hands still trembling as he tucks them in his pockets]

how are you doing, kid?

I'm okay!

[He's not at all startled by the eyes, why would he be? He tilts his head as he looks at Skizz's hands]

Are you okay?

im fine. just. had a minute

[he does his best to laugh but all it does is remind him of the one still ringing in his ears]

having a minute

[he corrects]

ill be okay

I feel like you have a lot of minutes...

[It feels like every time he's talked to Skizz lately something's been happening]

[he's silent for a bit, thinking over that]

guess i do. sorry kid

[he sighs and opens the chest again. yep nevermind not doing that. he closes it again]

.. ive been through some stuff in the last few servers since falling. lots of problems. but i will get better.

Oh and [He looks to see what chest he's struggling with] Redstone is one of those?

yeah

[he sighs]

in one server, it electrocuted you. i got stuck on it for a while

[he doesnt say that it was grian who did it, he doesnt say it was a prank. he makes it seem like it was his mistake]

Oh! That's not very fun... Did it hurt?

yeah. a lot. electrocution isnt fun

Have you tried...I don't know getting help? Dealing with it I mean, the electrocution stuff already happened I guess

i dont know where id go for help.. ill get over it! give me a few months, im sure everything will get better soon.

[his hand taps the chest a couple times, thinking]]

and then i can get better at redstone!

[Helios frowns, that doesn't sound healthy but he's still pretty unsure of what is and isn't okay at this point]

ive got it handled kid. dont worry

[he moves away from the chest and just gives him a smile, ruffling his hair]

how are your wings doing?

Alright I guess. I still feel weird about them being out cause they're still... Bad and wrong

[His wings press further in when he says that, he's clearly still having some issues with being fallen]

they looking better than mine did

[he says, moving to look at the other's wings. he stretches one out with gentle hands and smiles]

they wont be like they were before, but they will start looking and feeling good again if you keep taking care of them

I know and I am taking care of them... They're still wrong though.

i know

[he pats the other's shoulder]

theyll probably feel wrong for a while. im sorry kid. you dont deserve this

[this. falling]

I don't even really know what happened...

[He admits, it's the first time he's truly spoken about it. Skizz never asked, not that he would've answered though]

One minute I was up there, the next I wasn't

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