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i’m bert. she/her & they/them. 25+. est timezone. extremely canon divergent & highly selective dean winchester from cw’s my version of supernatural.

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this blog will contain dark material. viewer discretion advised. 18+ required for interaction.

> very loosely season 1-10-ish (mostly kripke-era lore) based. everything after season 10 is up to my discretion to include on this blog, please see info for other changes (characters introduced in this period will be worked into their own verses, we don’t exclude you ♥). > my portrayal of dean relies heavily on his time in hell and the effects that it had on him. this means you may possibly see mentions of torture, death, gore, hell, ptsd, depression, suicidal ideations/attempts, nightmares, alcoholism, and other issues that stem from this. not all content is tagged when in written form (and a lot of this is only mentioned in headcanons), but i do my best to tag any triggering photo content. > i have not finished the last two seasons and have no plans to rush to do so, though i do know the outcome and hold the same feelings as jensen toward it. i’m not canon to that point, so it didn’t happen here.

currently i’m working my way back into the rpc after a big bout of the ~depressies~, and rebooting this blog was a means of helping. i also have multiple mental illnesses and those do affect my activity here. on top of this, my almost 13 year old dog was diagnosed with heart failure on christmas, and i spend a lot of time tending to her and taking care of her right now as well. when i am active replies and other things can be slow. i do shitpost a lot (we’re all humans, we shouldn’t be expected to be writing robots here), but everything is always tagged so you can blacklist if need be.

please be aware of all of this and check over my linked doc for more detailed info before following. sorry this is a long intro, drink some water & sit up straight. boop.

and last but not least...

don’t be a dick.

(updated: jan. 21, 2021.)

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hellcarved

IT’S TIME FOR DEAN W.INCHESTER TO HANG UP HIS COAT AND PUT AWAY HIS BOOTS FOR THE LAST TIME ♥

hi i’ve been away awhile again. i wasn’t here long to begin with for this reboot, and that’s on me. dean has been a muse of mine for about a decade now, he’s always lived in my head in some shape or form even when i wasn’t actively writing him. the last year has brought a lot of change to me, both big and small, and with those changes i think the time has come to finally let dean go. honestly writing this kind of got me teary-eyed, that’s how important dean has been to me as a muse. he’s gotten me through some tough times just by being a hard ass and enabling me to do the same. but all things end, and i think this is where this one ends. i thought with the show ending i could grab onto dean and do what i wanted, but he’s tired and i’m tired and i think collectively we’re ready to hang up this part of our lives. i know not many people started following me here for this reboot, but if you did and we had anything planned i’m absolutely sorry i never got to it. my life has been upside down for a few months and holding onto dean was my last resort at sanity, and now it’s time for him to get his own rest. i’m not super active in spn fandom, but i do still have muses who are loosely based there if you’d like to continue writing with me. and if you are truly interested in writing with me, i have my new private multi set up now so just let me know here, or pop in to messages and let me know and i’ll follow you from there. but if not, thanks for hanging out while you did, for talking to me, sending me memes, liking my posts, and just existing here. you all gave me a slice of sanity when my life needed it and i appreciate you forever. ♥♥

tl;dr: it’s been a decade and we’re tired, changes have happened, and it’s time for dean to rest. i’m retiring dean as a muse for now, it’s been a long run. some loosely based spn muses and others are available on my private multi. it’s a heavily plot-based blog, so if you want to still write with me just let me know. ily all, you’ve been amazing. make sure to drink your water, sit up straight, and get some food. be awesome. ♥♥♥

#this will be rbed a few times if you wanna blacklist #q.

hellcarved

IT’S TIME FOR DEAN W.INCHESTER TO HANG UP HIS COAT AND PUT AWAY HIS BOOTS FOR THE LAST TIME ♥

hi i’ve been away awhile again. i wasn’t here long to begin with for this reboot, and that’s on me. dean has been a muse of mine for about a decade now, he’s always lived in my head in some shape or form even when i wasn’t actively writing him. the last year has brought a lot of change to me, both big and small, and with those changes i think the time has come to finally let dean go. honestly writing this kind of got me teary-eyed, that’s how important dean has been to me as a muse. he’s gotten me through some tough times just by being a hard ass and enabling me to do the same. but all things end, and i think this is where this one ends. i thought with the show ending i could grab onto dean and do what i wanted, but he’s tired and i’m tired and i think collectively we’re ready to hang up this part of our lives. i know not many people started following me here for this reboot, but if you did and we had anything planned i’m absolutely sorry i never got to it. my life has been upside down for a few months and holding onto dean was my last resort at sanity, and now it’s time for him to get his own rest. i’m not super active in spn fandom, but i do still have muses who are loosely based there if you’d like to continue writing with me. and if you are truly interested in writing with me, i have my new private multi set up now so just let me know here, or pop in to messages and let me know and i’ll follow you from there. but if not, thanks for hanging out while you did, for talking to me, sending me memes, liking my posts, and just existing here. you all gave me a slice of sanity when my life needed it and i appreciate you forever. ♥♥

tl;dr: it’s been a decade and we’re tired, changes have happened, and it’s time for dean to rest. i’m retiring dean as a muse for now, it’s been a long run. some loosely based spn muses and others are available on my private multi. it’s a heavily plot-based blog, so if you want to still write with me just let me know. ily all, you’ve been amazing. make sure to drink your water, sit up straight, and get some food. be awesome. ♥♥♥

#this will be rbed a few times if you wanna blacklist #q.

hellcarved

IT’S TIME FOR DEAN W.INCHESTER TO HANG UP HIS COAT AND PUT AWAY HIS BOOTS FOR THE LAST TIME ♥

hi i’ve been away awhile again. i wasn’t here long to begin with for this reboot, and that’s on me. dean has been a muse of mine for about a decade now, he’s always lived in my head in some shape or form even when i wasn’t actively writing him. the last year has brought a lot of change to me, both big and small, and with those changes i think the time has come to finally let dean go. honestly writing this kind of got me teary-eyed, that’s how important dean has been to me as a muse. he’s gotten me through some tough times just by being a hard ass and enabling me to do the same. but all things end, and i think this is where this one ends. i thought with the show ending i could grab onto dean and do what i wanted, but he’s tired and i’m tired and i think collectively we’re ready to hang up this part of our lives. i know not many people started following me here for this reboot, but if you did and we had anything planned i’m absolutely sorry i never got to it. my life has been upside down for a few months and holding onto dean was my last resort at sanity, and now it’s time for him to get his own rest. i’m not super active in spn fandom, but i do still have muses who are loosely based there if you’d like to continue writing with me. and if you are truly interested in writing with me, i have my new private multi set up now so just let me know here, or pop in to messages and let me know and i’ll follow you from there. but if not, thanks for hanging out while you did, for talking to me, sending me memes, liking my posts, and just existing here. you all gave me a slice of sanity when my life needed it and i appreciate you forever. ♥♥

tl;dr: it’s been a decade and we’re tired, changes have happened, and it’s time for dean to rest. i’m retiring dean as a muse for now, it’s been a long run. some loosely based spn muses and others are available on my private multi. it’s a heavily plot-based blog, so if you want to still write with me just let me know. ily all, you’ve been amazing. make sure to drink your water, sit up straight, and get some food. be awesome. ♥♥♥

#this will be rbed a few times if you wanna blacklist #q.

hellcarved

IT’S TIME FOR DEAN W.INCHESTER TO HANG UP HIS COAT AND PUT AWAY HIS BOOTS FOR THE LAST TIME ♥

hi i’ve been away awhile again. i wasn’t here long to begin with for this reboot, and that’s on me. dean has been a muse of mine for about a decade now, he’s always lived in my head in some shape or form even when i wasn’t actively writing him. the last year has brought a lot of change to me, both big and small, and with those changes i think the time has come to finally let dean go. honestly writing this kind of got me teary-eyed, that’s how important dean has been to me as a muse. he’s gotten me through some tough times just by being a hard ass and enabling me to do the same. but all things end, and i think this is where this one ends. i thought with the show ending i could grab onto dean and do what i wanted, but he’s tired and i’m tired and i think collectively we’re ready to hang up this part of our lives. i know not many people started following me here for this reboot, but if you did and we had anything planned i’m absolutely sorry i never got to it. my life has been upside down for a few months and holding onto dean was my last resort at sanity, and now it’s time for him to get his own rest. i’m not super active in spn fandom, but i do still have muses who are loosely based there if you’d like to continue writing with me. and if you are truly interested in writing with me, i have my new private multi set up now so just let me know here, or pop in to messages and let me know and i’ll follow you from there. but if not, thanks for hanging out while you did, for talking to me, sending me memes, liking my posts, and just existing here. you all gave me a slice of sanity when my life needed it and i appreciate you forever. ♥♥

tl;dr: it’s been a decade and we’re tired, changes have happened, and it’s time for dean to rest. i’m retiring dean as a muse for now, it’s been a long run. some loosely based spn muses and others are available on my private multi. it’s a heavily plot-based blog, so if you want to still write with me just let me know. ily all, you’ve been amazing. make sure to drink your water, sit up straight, and get some food. be awesome. ♥♥♥

#this will be rbed a few times if you wanna blacklist #q.

hellcarved

IT’S TIME FOR DEAN W.INCHESTER TO HANG UP HIS COAT AND PUT AWAY HIS BOOTS FOR THE LAST TIME ♥

hi i’ve been away awhile again. i wasn’t here long to begin with for this reboot, and that’s on me. dean has been a muse of mine for about a decade now, he’s always lived in my head in some shape or form even when i wasn’t actively writing him. the last year has brought a lot of change to me, both big and small, and with those changes i think the time has come to finally let dean go. honestly writing this kind of got me teary-eyed, that’s how important dean has been to me as a muse. he’s gotten me through some tough times just by being a hard ass and enabling me to do the same. but all things end, and i think this is where this one ends. i thought with the show ending i could grab onto dean and do what i wanted, but he’s tired and i’m tired and i think collectively we’re ready to hang up this part of our lives. i know not many people started following me here for this reboot, but if you did and we had anything planned i’m absolutely sorry i never got to it. my life has been upside down for a few months and holding onto dean was my last resort at sanity, and now it’s time for him to get his own rest. i’m not super active in spn fandom, but i do still have muses who are loosely based there if you’d like to continue writing with me. and if you are truly interested in writing with me, i have my new private multi set up now so just let me know here, or pop in to messages and let me know and i’ll follow you from there. but if not, thanks for hanging out while you did, for talking to me, sending me memes, liking my posts, and just existing here. you all gave me a slice of sanity when my life needed it and i appreciate you forever. ♥♥

tl;dr: it’s been a decade and we’re tired, changes have happened, and it’s time for dean to rest. i’m retiring dean as a muse for now, it’s been a long run. some loosely based spn muses and others are available on my private multi. it’s a heavily plot-based blog, so if you want to still write with me just let me know. ily all, you’ve been amazing. make sure to drink your water, sit up straight, and get some food. be awesome. ♥♥♥

#this will be rbed a few times if you wanna blacklist #q.

IT’S TIME FOR DEAN W.INCHESTER TO HANG UP HIS COAT AND PUT AWAY HIS BOOTS FOR THE LAST TIME ♥

hi i’ve been away awhile again. i wasn’t here long to begin with for this reboot, and that’s on me. dean has been a muse of mine for about a decade now, he’s always lived in my head in some shape or form even when i wasn’t actively writing him. the last year has brought a lot of change to me, both big and small, and with those changes i think the time has come to finally let dean go. honestly writing this kind of got me teary-eyed, that’s how important dean has been to me as a muse. he’s gotten me through some tough times just by being a hard ass and enabling me to do the same. but all things end, and i think this is where this one ends. i thought with the show ending i could grab onto dean and do what i wanted, but he’s tired and i’m tired and i think collectively we’re ready to hang up this part of our lives. i know not many people started following me here for this reboot, but if you did and we had anything planned i’m absolutely sorry i never got to it. my life has been upside down for a few months and holding onto dean was my last resort at sanity, and now it’s time for him to get his own rest. i’m not super active in spn fandom, but i do still have muses who are loosely based there if you’d like to continue writing with me. and if you are truly interested in writing with me, i have my new private multi set up now so just let me know here, or pop in to messages and let me know and i’ll follow you from there. but if not, thanks for hanging out while you did, for talking to me, sending me memes, liking my posts, and just existing here. you all gave me a slice of sanity when my life needed it and i appreciate you forever. ♥♥

tl;dr: it’s been a decade and we’re tired, changes have happened, and it’s time for dean to rest. i’m retiring dean as a muse for now, it’s been a long run. some loosely based spn muses and others are available on my private multi. it’s a heavily plot-based blog, so if you want to still write with me just let me know. ily all, you’ve been amazing. make sure to drink your water, sit up straight, and get some food. be awesome. ♥♥♥

#( mun shit. )#this got long #but i expected it to #this is a lot for me lol #and a big decision tbh #but i think it's time #we had his bday and then things went south #so the decision was made #it's rough lol #this one is a lot #phew okay yes this is what i'm doing i can do this #why is this a lot lol #just post it asshole #okay i'm clicking the button ily all ♥♥♥#and will be rbed a few times if you wanna blacklist

hi friends i’ve been busy having a crisis and chopping off all my hair (almost 2 feet!) how are you

#mobile #i'll be back.............eventually???#sorrya hfjkldjshlfksd

hold your pets extra tight for me tonight ♥

#♥♥

hellcarved

hellcarved:

hey friendos! i am super depressy again today yay! but i want to do dean bday things, so i’m gonna just accept things and do things until the end of the month in celebration since i probably won’t be here much today it seems. so if that’s cool i’ll be getting to those things as i can. ♥

hi, me again the next day. just wanted to note that my doggy has kind of taken a turn downhill and she’s not doing well at all. therefore, i’m not doing well either. i’m spending a lot of time with her right now, and trying to figure out what’s best for her. it’s more difficult right now because where i live i don’t have many resources for anyone to travel to me for this, so i’m having to make these decisions myself. sorry if i’m distant and sorry if i’m not here. i wanted to come here for a distraction, but all this is too much for me right now.

#hope you're all drinking water and doing well ♥#( mun shit. )#q.

hellcarved:

hey friendos! i am super depressy again today yay! but i want to do dean bday things, so i’m gonna just accept things and do things until the end of the month in celebration since i probably won’t be here much today it seems. so if that’s cool i’ll be getting to those things as i can. ♥

hi, me again the next day. just wanted to note that my doggy has kind of taken a turn downhill and she’s not doing well at all. therefore, i’m not doing well either. i’m spending a lot of time with her right now, and trying to figure out what’s best for her. it’s more difficult right now because where i live i don’t have many resources for anyone to travel to me for this, so i’m having to make these decisions myself. sorry if i’m distant and sorry if i’m not here. i wanted to come here for a distraction, but all this is too much for me right now.

#( mun shit. )#she's almost 13 and i've had her since she popped out #so i'm not good at all #q.