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hoping for better days soon. i'm so tired...

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maybe i'm just not meant to be loved in this lifetime. not that i have any other lifetimes to live.

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i don't want to have to beg anymore. i'm tired.

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I always tell myself to forgive but to never forget, but this one is a bit too hard to erase from my memories.

He remembers such intricate details about me, holding the memory of me in such kindness and gentleness that I never even saw in myself before.

He loved me with his all,

And I loved him with all my might.

But perhaps we are not meant to be,

Not in this timeline,

Not in this universe,

Not in this lifetime.

Maybe we will both meet people who'll be perfect for us, who'll accept us for who we are,

And let this memory be just a fond remembrance of the past.

And maybe we'll finally heal.

And one day, when we cross paths with each other again,

I'll look into your eyes with recognition, and perhaps even defeat,

"Ah, this was the love I couldn't save."

And you will give me your infamous lover's gaze again,

But this time, with such grief, thinking,

"This was the love of my life, but I had to let her go."

And we'll pass by each other,

Just two strangers with memories,

Just two individuals who grieve for each other, for what could've been.

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remember me.

remember me when you're feeling low, when life feels unbearable, or when your day sucks.

remember me in every little achievement you get because i will raise you above my head with such pride.

remember me when you are eating your comfort food, like how we used to do every single day.

remember me when you are sick, and remember how i would worry to death.

remember me when you are lying in bed, feeling unlovable, because if you remember me loving you, you'd remember how lovely, how wonderful, how beautiful you are.

remember me in your sleep.

remember me in every step you take.

remember me.

because i will never not remember you.

[yms1]

what doesn't kill you makes you stay on tumblr for 13 years and counting

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[justcatposts]

My cat got a cold and the vet recommended a warm compress for his eyes. I think he’s enjoying his spa time. 

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[hellodreamyheads]

the love i have for you now is different from the one i used to have for you. the love i had for you was soul-eating, gut-wrenching, mind-consuming kind of love. it was intense, like fully pressing on the gas of a truck. the love i have for you today, is peaceful, like still water in a fish pond of your grandparents' house. like the soft wind gently brushing your cheeks as you open the window on a sunny day.

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and after all these years, you still remember every single detail about me. i once thought that maybe you didn't love me as much as i did you, but i was wrong. you cherished me.

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it has been 4 years, and i'm still here, waiting for you to come back.

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