Kikwangs cute speech in hospital or idk ;~~;
*keeps walking, looking for the room*
*finally finds the room after a while and hesitantly places my hand on the door*
*pushes the door open and steps into the room, slowly closing the door behind me*
*sees Yoseob and walks towards the hospital bed shakily* Y-Yoseob-ah…
*clenches my jaw, stopping beside the bed*
*kneels down, taking Yoseob’s hand in mine, and holds back tears*
…Why? /whispers, frowning
*grips Yoseob’s hand more tightly as a tear rolls down my cheek*
*bites my tongue as I find myself shaking, holding back a sob*
Why are you like this? /whispers, eyes sliding shut
Why aren’t you ever careful, Seobie?
Why…? Why aren’t you coming back to me?
*presses lips against Yoseob’s palm firmly, crying silently*
*rests my head against his hand, shoulder shaking with quiet sobs*
*looks up at Yoseob, eyes red and lips parted*
I…You know… *swallows dryly, moving a bit closer and lacing our hands together shakily*
I didn’t mean it when I said I didn’t need you…
I…I need you; now more than ever. *blinks as fresh tears rolls down*
*grits my teeth together, refusing to look at him*
God damn it, Yoseob. Wake up! *sobs, standing up*
Stop being so fucking selfish. *leans over the bed, body shaking violently* Do you know how I felt when I realised that you were actually mine?
I had never been happier in my entire fucking life… *fists my hands in the sheet, tears wetting the sheets*
I thought, “Oh, now we can be happy together,” and now… *bites lip, a low gurgle escaping my throat* *shakes head*
Now what? What’s become of us…?
You know…when you told me you loved Junhyung hyung… *stops talking as my breath hitches and my vision blurs*
*buries my face in your hand, a loud sob escaping my lips*
*looks at him desparately, lips quivering and breaths shallow*
Wake up…please. /voice cracks
I swear, I’ll never get angry again. I’ll never ask you why you do what you do. I’ll never tease you or laugh at you… *takes in a shuddering breath*
I won’t say anything if you don’t love me the way I love you.
I don’t care anymore, Seobie. *shakes head, tears falling continuously* I don’t…
I don’t care if you don’t want to be with me or if you’d choose someone else over me. As long as you’re happy…
As long as I know someone is taking care of you…that someone loves you as much as you love them…that someone will always be there for you…I’ll be content. *pulls his hand up and presses his cold fingers against my closed eyes*
And…and if you ever feel alone; if you ever need someone…I’ll be here. I’ll always be here.
*takes in a shaky breath*
I know I don’t deserve you.
Hell, I don’t know anyone who does… *lets out a strangled sob*
But I swear to you…
I will do everything in my power….to try— try so hard— to give you all of me. To make it up to you and treat you the way you deserve to be treated.
I’d fucking cross an ocean for you and I need you to know that. *gasps, feeling suffocated as more tears fall*
I’d get you the fucking moon if I could and I don’t care how God damn cliche or stupid or corny I sound, but I mean it. *trembles, burying my face in his chest*
I need you. I’ve always needed you. And I will continue needing you for the rest of my life.
I don’t know what we have in store for us. I don’t know how our story’s going to end… *swallows* But I do know…that no matter what we are; no matter where we are; no matter what the situation…I’ll always love you.
I love you. No, I’m in love with you.
And I don’t care how long it take sfor you to snap out of this… *bites down on the inside of my cheeks, eyes clenched shut*
But I’m going to be here; by your side.
And I’m going to look after you and I’m going to protect you and I am going to keep on loving you if you let me…
Just know that my happiest moments in the last few years have been with you… Don’t ever forget that.
*shakily leans over and presses my lips against his forehead softly*
I really do love you… *tightly squeezes his hands, feeling fresh tears prick at my eyelids*
*hesitantly moves up and lays down beside him*
*wraps arms around him and curls up at the side, not caring if anyone walks in*
*buries my face in his neck, tears wetting the pillow and his shoulder*
You have no idea how much I’ve prayed for you…for your happiness.
*sniffs, pressing my face deeper into his neck, body shaking* I don’t want us to ever break apart….
*presses lips against his neck and breathes out shakily, arms winding around his shoulders*
I’ll be here when you wake up, Seobie. I promise…
*slowly drifts off, pressed up against him, hands laced together*
I wish we could stay like this forever in a better time and place.
#ITALICISED IS WHISPERING#JSYK#ORZ
by my wifey ♥ http://kikoala.tumblr.com/
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