Hellomissbee

A blog dedicated towards the Slice Of Life Challenge, writing everyday for the month of March.

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“I cannot believe that the purpose of life is to be happy. I think the purpose of life is to be useful, to be responsible, to be compassionate. It is, above all, to matter and to count, to stand for something, to have made some difference that you lived at all.”

— Leo Rosten (via quotemadness)

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“You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice.”

— Bob Marley (via quotemadness)

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Tomorrow is Easter, not a particularly important holiday on my radar if I’m being honest. Growing up Easter meant church and grandparents and itchy pastel dresses. Then in changed to we just have a nice dinner together as a family. And this Easter my parents are divorced, but having a drama filled fling currently, so we’re having dinner at my dads house.

My dads house use to be our house, me, my mom, my dad and the 2 dogs. Then my dads house was just me him and my cat MJ. Now it’s him all by himself. And my moms house, which is half the size of my dads, currently contains me, my two cats MJ and Piper, my boyfriend, my mom and her two dogs. 7 living things in one place is kinda a lot.

Anyways we’re all going to my dads, including the dogs, for dinner and cards. I literally feel like I’m in another fucking world. It sounds so homey and weird and normal. I mean no doubt it’ll have our family twist on it, which means my parents will be drunk, i’ll be stoned and my boyfriend will probably want to escape.

Wish me well on this journey ✌🏻

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Let it flow.

Frustration

Anger

Sadness

Excitement

Let it flow through you,

Allow yourself to feel.

Allow the frustration to eat at you,

Allow the anger to warm your skin,

Allow the sadness to break you,

Allow the excitement to take over.

And then move on.

Don’t let the frustration consume your day,

Don’t let the anger boil over,

Don’t let the sadness shatter you,

Don’t chase after the excitement.

Let everything flow through you, and then let it move on.

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I stood by their sides

Supporting and loving,

Helping them grow,

But I wasn’t growing with them.

So why didn’t I move to the sunshine?

Because I am too scared to stand alone.

But what if I could stand alone in the sunshine?

Could I grow then?

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“You were better to the ones that were worse for you. And worse to the one that was better for you.”

— Iain Thomas (via quotemadness)

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A Run

I went on a run, the first time of intentional exercise in months I think. It was hard, and not just cause I was wheezing but because I had to face the fact that I’m not where I use to be. I’ve never been a runner but in my CrossFit and lifting days I could run a mile without much problem. So after pushing myself to half-run-half-die for 2 miles I led myself to the mirror in thought. Which I think anybody knows, if you go to a mirror looking for flaws you’ll find em. And I sure did, I’ve lost all that muscle I worked years to get, spent hours a day working for, gone in months. And that was fucking hard to see. But after looking a little more, I didn’t hate it. And that was a shock for me. It’s weird I don’t know how to explain it, I think it was acceptance, a step towards love.

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“I would advise any beginning writer to write the first drafts as if no one else will ever read them — without a thought about publication — and only in the last draft to consider how the work will look from the outside.”

— Anne Tyler

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Wrote up a little guide for those of you who, like me, have online exams but don’t have a clue how to prepare for them. Here’s my plan of action, currently. Hope it helps a little- I wish we’d been given more guidance than we have. Good luck and stay safe! :)

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You can't be everything you want before your time

Billy Joel, Vienna

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Against the Wind

It seems like yesterday, but it was long ago. 

We were sitting in your car, late at night

Oh, the secrets that we shared.

And I remember what he said to me,

That he swore he would never leave.

I wish I would’ve known then what I know now. 

We were young,

The years have rolled slowly past,

Surround by people,

But I think I've lost my way down the many roads.

Because I’m still driving

And he said

Eventually, it wouldn’t feel like we were driving against the wind. 

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Glory Days

They pass you by

In the wink of a young eye

Glory Days

We’ll sit around having a few drinks

We’ll sit around talking about

Glory Days

I hope when I get old

I don't sit around thinking about

Glory Days

Sit back trying to hold onto

Glory Days

They’ll pass you by. 

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I have been a shit

I said I was going to keep writing after the challenge ended, but damn I even let myself down with that. It just seemed like every time I had the urge to write I was at work or too lazy to actually do it, goodbye to a hundred thoughts that could have been decent but are now forgotten with sleep. I am writing now, but its basically just because I’m looking for things to do other than homework, which I am not feeling right now, although there is a bunch to do. 

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I did not direct my life. I didn’t design it. I never made decisions. Things always came up and made them for me. That’s what life is.

B. F. Skinner (via quotemadness)

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The craving to be loved creates our worst behaviors.

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Ok slight damper on my excitement for work tomorrow, just got the call not to come in tomorrow... 😭😭😭

There’s still a chance for Friday and Saturday though 🙂

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