Hidden Away

This is not for you. This is for me.

[justfindingme-forever]

"How do you get so empty? He wondered. Who takes it out of you?"

Montag; Fahrenheit 451 (via justfindingme-forever)

[my-depression-confessions]

[my-depression-confessions]

[sinkatsea]

[my-depression-confessions]

[helpthebroken]

My Problem

I think i figured out what is wrong with me. I feel as if i am stuck in the same daily routine and there is no escaping. Im digging a rut into a pattern of the same day to day life. I wake up. I try not to look to hard in the mirror. I go to class. I say good morning and good night to him. I drive home the same roads every friday. I sleep in the same beds every night. It is all a routine and I hate it. I think whats ruining my relationship is the facet that its the main routine I have. We don't have anything to talk about anymore. Nothing ever changes and its just not exciting. I love him to death but I need something new. I feel as if I need to fall in love again. I was so used to each season being a new person and a fresh start. I love getting to know a different person on an intimate level. I miss the unknowing of whether the person likes you or doesn't. it was the unknowingness and the thrill that kept me on the edge of my seat. I think I've also been so stuck in this hole to the point where i don't know what is happy and what is sad. I have no emotion. I think for the most part i am happy. but happiness is such a dead emotion... I feel as if when i am depressed, everything becomes more alive. I become more adventurous, searching for something to make me feel alive. I have floods of emotions that just captivate me and make me so inspired for my work and music. Everything becomes more alive to me. I need something new to really set me a float again. I need to feel something other than just feeling content because I'm really not.

[helpthebroken]

I'm sorry

I am so sorry for the way I have been acting. I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm trying to be good to you. I really am and I just don't know if it's me, you, or us both. I know you love me, hell, I love you too. But things that I can't handle are things you can't help but do. I'm sorry I yell and scream. I can't help it. I just have a very low tolerance that I can't control. You try your hardest and I see that. I'm hoping this is just a rough patch.

[findingmyrecovery]

[my-depression-confessions]

[helpthebroken]

Why don't you care about me anymore?

[shelteredwillow]

Sometimes it terrifies me how so many people are going to end up living their lives doing absolutely nothing they love and never trying to change that.

Shelby likly (via shelteredwillow)

[dylansp-deactivated20130816]

People think you’re crazy if you talk about things they don’t understand.

Elvis Presley (via god-cumplex)

[helpthebroken]

God I just want to hit you over the head. I love you so much! You're my fucking sister!! I hate we don't talk anymore and I hate that you miss him more than me. There are so many things I need to say to you but you'll never listen. You never have and you never will. You two aren't dating. I never knew any of this was ever going to happen. But how dare you do that with a friend of mine that you just met? He just used you and you walked right into his trap. You tried one upping me. It made you look weak as plastic! I have a strong healthy relationship. You have hook ups. Stop taking damn advice about love from your mother that scares her boyfriends away. It's not helping you. And how date you just up and replace me for someone that would kick you to the curb in .2 seconds. I never knew why you left. I tried communicating with you. I tried keeping our friendship going. I miss your drunk calls!! You didn't think to care that I needed my best friend! You just left me like everyone else. But then again, you've always left me. Kept me in the dark for when you were willing to EVER open up to me. I let you read me like a book. That doesn't make you strong! That shows that you are weak. I've become successful. I've grown more talented and I'm going to go far. Do you even see me? Are you even proud of how far I've come after years of you breaking me down and making me feel worthless? I want to know these answers I've had for so long! But I could never ask you. Maybe I did go wrong somewhere to cause you pain... But I certainly do not know what it is. Do you know how hard it is to hate you and miss you at the same time? I need a best friend!! I don't have one!

[helpthebroken]

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Master Of Art; Laura Stevenson and The Cans

"All I could pray for is stat you'd please wait for me until I am a Master of Art, until i have learned everything.

Then I swear we can go away for just as long as you think you could take me, You should know that I am often difficult."

[helpthebroken]

Happy 15 Months

I miss you a whole lot tonight.

[greys-anatomy-quotes]

We’re all gonna die. We don’t get much say over how or when. But we do get to decide how we’re gonna live. So do it. Decide. Is this the life you wanna live? Is this the person you wanna love? Is this the best you can be? Can you be stronger? Kinder? More compassionate? Decide. Breathe in. Breathe out, and decide.

Richard Webber - ‘Seal Our Fate’ (Season 10, Episode 1)

[lovelikewolves]

I miss how you wanted me.

six word story, #18  (via modernmethadone)