Literally no one asked but I havenât been able to post because Iâve been so caught up with uni, i somehow ended up doing partial work on an animatic even though I have incredibly limited knowledge on animation and can only really draw, regardless Iâll be done by the end of the week so maybe I can start on a new fic then
You should be used to this by now, but being in such close proximity to the man who had taken you from everything would always prove to be a stressful experience
This is a one shot based off of an idea from my headcannon post before (I only have like three posts including this one up so you should be able to find it, I believe in you) I guess I just find the concept of a yandere who canât stand his darling being so afraid of him interesting?
Anyways for context reader is also a country but a very small one, maybe being acquired by the us in both a political sense and literally although the details arenât fully fleshed out yet (mostly because this is an x reader and I donât want things to get too specific and kill immersion) honestly this fic is kind of me venting my frustrations a little because my sleep schedule has been abhorrent for the last few weeks. Thatâs enough yapping though
TW: mention of domestic violence (doesnât actually occur), toxic relationship, reader has anxiety, weight loss mentioned (stress, not ed related)
You adjust your position on the couch, trying to keep from picking at your own skin in anxiousness. Heâd told you not to before, and just the mere thought of him catching it happening again only intensified the dread that sat in your stomach on nights like this
âBaby? Iâm done with the popcorn, you just sit tightâ his voice carrying out from the kitchen stirs a distinct discomfort as expected. Heâd never hurt you, infact he hadnât come close to even yelling but the implications of your situation almost suggested it would happen eventually. For him to get frustrated and for yourself to take the backlash.
The maelstrom of anxieties leaves your own throat dry. You hated this, hated the idea of doing something wrong, hated being so aware it even more, but eventually a few moments pass and after ten seconds of in and out breaths, a quiet âthank you..â would manage to make its way out. If yesterday had been a good day, then maybe today could be as well.
âSomeone feeling all shy again? â he chuckles, walking in from the kitchen and wasting no time in flopping right next to you on the couch âsâokayâ he says, his town slightly lower- betraying a hint of a deeper, more yearning affection âyouâll get used to it here soon enoughâ
As he wraps his arm around you, Alfred lets out a relaxed sigh âthis time⊠how about watching the original superman? â itâs not really a question, his mind seems to be already made up and you would have given a resigned nod no matter what, but heâs always been good at idle chit chat so this is just par for the course, you figure.
Soon enough your posture is forced to relax, those hours spent awake at night did little to provide any of the energy needed to hold a such frightened straight posture for long. Itâs just for a little, the thought echoes in your brain at an attempt to comfort- and as much as it hurts to admit, the couch does provide an overwhelming relief to your back.
you arenât really watching the movie, not with so many pervasive thoughts like this, but it does reprieve the pressure of having to talk at the very least. Heâd grown to be surprisingly tactful recently, something youâve been forced to admit to yourself after days spent on edge. You canât help but wonder if heâs doing this, the whole movie âdateâ thing, to take the pressure off of talking. At least for your sake, probablyâwhile you can tell your fear seems to leave him downcast, it pales in comparison to the visible panic evident on your face and in your entire body when the fear of saying something wrong eventually sinks in.
Currently though, you felt far from the former panicked state, the movie was still little more than a faint buzzing sound, but it was close to pleasant, bearable even, so much so that the sound of his occasional comments doesnât seem to bother you, youâre only half listening anyway. Eventually though, his voice peaks through, you can hear a quiet, sympathetic âyou tired, baby?â The only thing you can think to do is nod quietly, in all honesty you likely were, the haze of sleep deprivation made it difficult to tell anymore.
What you werenât expecting, however, was for him to hoist you up in his arms, kissing you gently on the cheek as an attempt at comfort âmâsorry.. um, if that scared youâ he mumbles, making an intentional effort not to be too loudâheâd learned that lesson a few too many times âjust gotta get you to bed⊠in the morning what do you say to going out, getting some real food in ya?â Once again, you nod numbly, too tired to even think of an excuse âgood!â His voice raises a little in a weary show of excitement, though he seems to regret his volume seconds after âSorry..itâs just..youâve been loosing lots of weight lately andâŠyâknow, it canât be good for youâ a vague sense of confusion washes over you. You hadnât noticed anything out of the ordinary. That being said, eating was starting to feel more and more like a chore while you were stuck here, and maybe the tremors and fatigue werenât just the result of sleep deprivation.
As he lays you down in bed though, you arenât able to think further into it as all the sleepless nights catch up to you, the last you hear is a gentle ânight, babeâ that you donât have the energy to return.
Authors note: sorry this oneâs a little short, that being said I do like this dynamic so I might write more oneshots with America at some point, that being said I guess I had an easier time with this one because i know what itâs like to be constantly exhausted and lose your appetite I guess, I have yet to be kidnapped though.
Did not expect anyone to care about my first post but I am currently working on a Yandere America oneshot (so something that isnât just bullet points). Other than that I do want to eventually write for other countries like China, Japan, Canada etc but that will have to wait until Iâm done with the oneshot. Iâm making surprisingly good progress on it though so the wait wonât be too long
- Alfred has a major hero complex that tends to conflict with his.. less than heroic actions
- he has always been able to circumvent this by finding ways to justify his behavior. Heâs not some monster, baby! youâre just better off with him when there are other poeple out to get you
- yeah he may have âkidnappedâ you but it was out of concern, Russia was clearly after you! You not noticing is an even bigger cause for concern. Anyone would have done it to protect the people they cared about
-he canât completely cover his ass in some instances though, I feel like heâd be less keen on keeping his darling in line with violence
- he might physically restrain them should his darling be less co operative or âaccidentallyâ leave bruises if they were to upset him but unless you where to run away repeatedly he wouldnât stray too far from plausible deniability
- his more common method of punishment is isolation coupled with a healthy dose of passive aggressiveness and the cold shoulder, really you should be more grateful that he protects you. You really wouldnât want to experience what it would be like if he stopped caring for you
- on that note, he does use his manipulative nature to slowly convince you that youâre useless without him and that resistance is futile. To a degree he isnât completely wrong, even if you did find the courage to escape he could leverage the power of the state to find you. How romantic, do you see how much effort he puts into finding you? If only you would recognize his efforts instead of just running away from his affections
- âpoor guyâ any bystander would think, he already has so much on his plate and now you just up and leave him? Even if you were so clearly in a mental crisis as your loving boyfriend had said, couldnât you notice how heartless this whole stunt is?
- honestly if you where to constantly disregard him, he would likely never let you go, heâs both stubborn and delusional to a degree. This is his hero fantasy and heâs going to have it, goddamnit, there could be a mutual sense of hatred between the two of you and he would still refuse to let you go, even if he had to reconcile with damaged goods he would still be in love with his idealized version of you
-alternatively, assuming that youâre more on the submissive side (weather that be out of fear or if youâre just a little bit of a freak) things could be somewhat normal (?) and by that I mean as normal as life with your captor could be
- if youâre the kind that would comply out of fear then I could see it working out in your favor, strangely enough
- you donât give him a reason to lash out at you, but the fear is evident on your face not even his delusional tendencies could ignore that. He can see the panicked look on your face whenever he makes too quick of a movement, the finches and the anxious exhales that come with him leaving the room and it hurts more than he can admit
- he figured that there would be an âadjustment periodâ but itâs borderline soul crushing for him when you act like this, it would probably hurt him even worse than if you where more proactive in your dislike of him as described earlier
- this would probably make him a little more soft on you, his imagination often fills the blanks on things that arenât consistent with his hero fantasy. In his mind youâre just a poor paranoid soul who was likely victimized by the other countries, that must be why you arenât receptive of his advances
- it doesnât really matter whether this is true or not, itâs safer to just go along with it as this assumption would greatly benefit you
- instead of being impatient and passive aggressive heâs more inclined to be more lenient towards you, often ramping up gifts and affection in order to appease you, taking you on dates depending on how long itâs been since he kidnapped or, in his words, ârehabilitatedâ you
- heâll present these things as a choice, but really you have no say, heâll often drag you onto his lap and press the occasional kiss to your face while you canât look him in the eye, heâll just chuckle and comment on your âshyâ nature before smothering you with affection again
-itâs like he seems to have a rebuttal for everything you say to dissuade him from taking these measures to woo you
- you donât want him to spend so much money? Heâs America, sweetheart, you donât need to worry about his pockets when he would gladly burn through thousands for you if itâs what your little heart desires, just sit back and wait for your big strong hero to take care of you
- in a way he would kind of treat you like a rescue animal, often caring for you in a patronizing manner while unintentionally talking down to you
- âno no you need a shower now baby, i canât let you stay stinky, you just got hereâ heâd coo in the most condescending tone youâve ever heard
- this treatment could still get annoying fast, though, if you let him run with this narrative heâll definitely use it to borderline infantilize you
- would insist on helping you with literally everything, no matter how ridiculous it may seem. Because who could know your needs better than him? Not you, thatâs for sure
- that being said, if you cried rather than arguing with him (and if youâre convincing enough about it) he would leave you alone for a little, although it wonât be too long before he does some kind of grand gesture for you and things go right back to status quo
- definitely operates off of the logic that youâre a little dumb in a cute way, you could be trying to deny one of his gifts and he would just ruffle your hair with an absent minded response
-Of course you wouldn't ask for help first, not when you're such a timid person. Really, what would you do without him
- he does want the illusion of an idealized relationship so he wouldnât call it a ârewardâ per say, heâd much rather present things like gifts and the occasional date as tokens of his affection. You probably arenât fooled though
-additionally, he would likely give more freedoms depending on how well behaved you are. Perhaps you would never get full access to the internet but heâll let you choose from the ridiculous amounts of subscription services he throws money away on
-he might also do this as a peace offering of sorts if you seem a little too afraid of him for his hero complex to handle
- moving on to what heâs like in bed, heâs interesting because I doubt he would be physically forceful about sex but⊠he would have a tendency to whine about blueballs should you reject his advances, he has too much of an ego to straight up beg but he wouldnât be able to look you in the eye when he talks about it
- he would have some moral hangups on physically forcing anything sexual so this is a rare occasion for you to see him get all whiny and desperate, a lot of âcâmon babyââs etc
Authors note:
So that was fun, ik It took over a year for me to upload but sixth form was hellish okay. Anyways Iâm thinking of doing an actual oneshot if I can find the time (although this time it wouldnât take a literal yearâŠ)
Uhm so I felt like starting a tumblr blog for my hetalia fanfics because Iâd already been writing them privately because I have an embarrassing obsession with some of these men so I thought âwhy not start a tumblr blog and share my shame?â
I wonât be taking requests as of right now because i probably wouldnât be able to do them justice but maybe sometime in the future if im not too busy studying for my a levels (damn you, British school system)
Also, a lot of these are probably not going to be great quality but itâs hetalia so I donât think anyone should be taking anything on this blog seriously so itâs better if you leave your expectations at the door
