milk and roses

a collection of writing from maia

[heroin-holiday]

Fuck, Shit, Piss.

I think I love him

Fuck this

Fuck, Shit, Godamn

I think I want him

Aw man.

Chicka chicka

You’re a cunt, i’m a cunt too.

I love you, boohoo

We’re all cunts, cunts like me,

And I want you to want me.

Fuck, Shit, Piss.

I think I love him

Fuck this

[heroin-holiday]

Cruising with rueben and the jets

I’ve been left by myself again

So i’ll dance with deseri

And i’ll sing along just me,

And i’ll finally understand the words to anything

Cruisin with rueben and the jets

It’s okay being left by yourselves my friends

Now i’m crying on my own

I’m not gonna write anymore songs

If i can,

Oh perfect man

Don’t you worry

In a hurry - i’d be yours.

[heroin-holiday]

I don’t like you anymore I liked you then now you’re a bore I don’t have a boyfriend type Sensitive musicians I don’t like

You’re too sad You’re too sad You’re too sad But not quite sad enough for me

I don’t have a best friend type I don’t need you in my life I don’t like it when you yell at me I would appreciate it if you didn’t yell at me

You’re too mad You’re too mad You’re too mad

But not quite mad enough for me

[heroin-holiday]

My blankets keep me cold inside

I know the place you go for peace of mind

I’ve seen you there at night

Staying til you’re blind

Thought maybe i could sleep the pain away

Sugar sweet that’s now my tooth decay

What’s due to happen anytime or place

Ill crawl into a worse and worse state

[heroin-holiday]

admit it, you couldn’t let our eyes meet our limits - you’ve never wanted my sheets and you don’t want me, but why can’t you speak?

is there something about me? you’re still the boy that i’d adored best friends and surely nothing more why didn’t you look at me?

[heroin-holiday]

archie love will you drink me ‘til i’m sober don’t tell your dad or your dog, i’m coming over maybe if you were a little bit older we’d go for a drink at bar, over your shoulder

you see her, looking at you, she’s coming over

She likes the look of your jacket, it’s getting cold You like the look of her mouth, she’s wearing old clothes Aren’t you a little bit old to be adored - she is clearly yours

[heroin-holiday]

a little bridge no, no, fuck -

we kiss you’re so close to me really shouldn’t do this i’ve never done that

21 and I’ve still not done that some would say i have but i’d just say i’m bad

[heroin-holiday]

Marilyn, fantasy. Worldwide on the silver screen barbie, beauty queen, how many can i be Renaissance aint got shit on me money, money, fame money money fake monet monet paint baby baby stay pure whore god i am so bored Renaissance aint got shit on me she’ll never love u like i did bet you’re glad we didn’t kiss

[heroin-holiday]

don’t wanna be sober baby play cool, (cool!) buy me cherry soda Iiquor lovin after school, (cool!)ĺ

don’t wanna lift a finger unless they in my hair bubblegum pop in the backseat say you love my pinky swear

lovin’ me is, cool! cool! cool! cool!

doe-eyed saying ‘kiss me’, (kiss me!) skirt says please, (tease!) mascara runnin’ down her cheeks you told your baby that you’d never leave now you’re gonna leave her leave her for me if you really loved her in the first place you never would’ve fallen for me

lovin’ me is, cool! cool! cool! cool!

[heroin-holiday]

Don’t be scared, We haven’t been in love for years It’s true, it consumes you, The truth in your bedroom

So easily, you could leave me.

[heroin-holiday]

My heart’s a hoax, it’s in my throat, Who? For whom?

I don’t miss truth, well not from you, Youth, My youth

I wish i’d said all my regrets, You, To you.

[heroin-holiday]

Rainy days please don’t go away I need you to stay a little longer It’s harder here When the skies are clear I’m not your baby

So i’ll unplug my new television Leave all the light on in the kitchen Go back to bed in dirty linens And dream a world where you’re not in it.

I won’t return your cellphone calls Cause there’s nowhere I need to be at all The stars are big, we are small We’ll all end up where we belong

So now my knees are up against my chest And i’m straining hard now to forget But i don’t think i can do it yet Cause when i close my eyes i see you there Now i can’t get the words you said out of my head They make me write out a poem of words never said But my pens run dry and my heart is dead So i’ll call up my friends and pretend that i’ve slept

Rainy days please don’t go away I need you to stay a little longer It’s harder here When the skies are clear I’m not your baby

[heroin-holiday]

I know you aren’t ready and I know you can’t trust I also know that you used me I know there’s no us

But you kissed me first And it left me relieved ‘cause I thought maybe You’d stick around and try to understand me

[heroin-holiday]

My hair has been falling out in clumps Replaced by the flowers that grow in my lungs These days you’ll see me roaming the streets Watching sad looking anarchists swallowed by police

Keep your kisses saved just for me Without them i can’t breathe Holding my breath for you every week Falling for you just a little too deep

I’ve decided we could journey the earth And now that we’re gone they might see what we’re worth We can lay in the stars while we talk of our hearts Sharing past lived ghost stories til our insides burn

Keep your kisses saved just for me Without them i can’t breathe Holding my breath for you every week Falling for you just a little too deep

I know flowers will grow in my lungs They’re beautiful inside but I can’t breathe I know flowers will grow in my lungs They’re beautiful inside but I can’t breathe

Keep your kisses saved just for me Without them i can’t breathe Holding my breath for you every week Falling for you just a little too deep

[heroin-holiday]

Wait boy, you’ll find the girl of your dreams boy Don’t let her spoil you away I know you just can’t say to yourself that you are free boy

We all know you deserve the girl of your life Or a boy if you like I don’t mind I’m happy not to be that girl in your life But I worry sometimes, For you I worry sometimes

Don’t hurry don’t worry no worries da da da da Gummy worm, gummy worm.

[heroin-holiday]

I don’t like the painting on the wall I find my shoes uncomfortable I don’t like you in my sheets But I don’t like it when you leave

[heroin-holiday]

Taught a dog how to speak Taught myself how to sleep Couldn’t wake until I dreamed, that I kissed you But I’ll laugh walking tonight cause I should’ve known how i Would’ve fallen for whoever slightly cared You will taste like cigarettes I will think it’s peppermint You would look away I would think you’re shy In fact you’re looking for the girl Who came in and blew up your world I won’t hate her, but won’t look her in the eye

How could I not love you when you are the way you are