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                           ●•Harry•●
It’s not like I should’ve fallen for her. I’ll guess it’s pretty obvious that I shouldn’t. But still. It was quite inevitable not to after all the time we spent together; or should I probably say the time I had to make such an effort to get her to stay with me completely against her will. Though I still think she liked it; she even laughed a few times, her eyes sparkled, I think. It’s just not my fault, I didn’t actually know how it happened, and I definitely wasn’t ready for such a girl like her. She wasn’t easy, and probably she’ll never be, but there’re a lot of reasons why she is who she is.
 I don’t even think someday I’ll get to change her mind. If I haven’t done that until now I wasn’t going to do it anymore; not anytime soon, at least. I’ve already made the mistake of trying to change her once, and it didn’t end up well after all. None of the attempts did, to be quite honest. Probably I just believed I could make that bad personality go away and bring that sweet side to the fore.
 I mean, yes, she had those moments, but it was so rare I’m starting to wonder if they even happened. Sometimes I just get to think it was nothing but a dream; all the few good things, you know? It doesn’t really feel good when you realize you can’t do anything for the person you want the most. It’s devastating. I was so naive to believe there was something I could actually do for her. Well, all I did was fall (and fall really hard) for that annoying and stubborn girl; I lost my time, my sleep, my mind, my rationality and for what? Nothing but a few drinks and laughs along the night, followed by a quick apology and footsteps running out the door.
 Still, I couldn’t stop thinking about that broken smile that never reached her eyes; those stunning blue eyes. Couldn’t stop thinking about how soft her skin was, every sporadic moment she allowed me to touch her. I’ll guess those tingling I had were nothing but some stupid feeling I actually got to think were some kind of sign we should be together; we shouldn’t, it’s crystal clear now.
 From the very beginning she warned me; she told me I shouldn’t get close to her, I shouldn’t grow fond of her. But I did, and I definitely wanted to punch me right now. It probably would hurt way less than the feeling of not having her, knowing that she was living her life like if I wasn’t even part of it; not a single part of it. The truth is: she doesn’t care. She never did, she never would. And deep in my soul, I knew that. But I just thought I could make something to change it. I needed her so much I thought I could make her feel something for me. Truth be told, maybe if I had met her before, something could’ve happened. But I didn’t, and still I insisted in something that was leading to nowhere….
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