You're not being rude and it's perfectly understandable to not wanting it to have been a suicide. I hoped for that too. But eunwoo's and mj's letter and mj's post today pretty much point to suicide, which is heart-rending. Mj said in his post that bin was worried about the team and members until the last moment, so I'm sure he left at least some kind of message to some people, but unfortunately a lot of times the idea that people leave a note is false. I've had people close to me that tried to commit suicide and there was no note or anything. What you're feeling is real and sad. Bin was an amazing person. It's ok to be sad and not okay, for as long as you need. I miss him too
And I'd encourage you to ignore the people that say those vile things. They don't know what they're talking about and they can't even begin to imagine how much he must've been suffering, all alone, to take such a drastic decision when we know he was such a loving person. If he wasn't t ihose closest to him wouldn't be suffering as they are right now.
thank you for being kind. life has had me in a chokehold so as ugly as it sounds, i havent had much time to be angry about it, but now im thinking about it again and its still baffling to me.
im so sorry to hear about your friends’ attempts and i genuinely hope theyre doing better now. youre right, not everyone leaves a note, and i think i was still trying to make sense of his passing all those weeks ago. not that its gotten any easier …… but i guess i shouldnt spend so much time wondering about the why of it even to myself. harsh as this sounds, it is what it is (i say as i still struggle to come to terms with it) and life continues onwards.
