beast monster thing

she/her in space

[heythisanimalcantalk]

you can trust me with another dirnk i promise i won't try to kill myself this itme

[heythisanimalcantalk]

i'm never going to be able to go to a concert again. oh what is even the point. taken away all i have. #UGH! dear every band and musician i like please come to my city within the next like 5 months please i need this

[heythisanimalcantalk]

i've been kinda living with the idea that i'd turn 18 and then start hrt and shit but i guess it's just kinda sunk in that it's not really some magic thing and literally nothing will change i'll have just wasted a few months. years even fuck me the whole idea was like once i'm 18 who are my parents to stop me i'm a whole ass adult but like that all depends on me actually fucking doing anything and i mean like as much as this is something that i know would drastically change my life for the better chances are i'm just not going to do a single thing and i will instead choose to continue wallowing until i end it hoping i magically wake up as a girl there's absolutely no hope . stupid

[heythisanimalcantalk]

i'm a single cell !!! on a serpent's tongue !!!!! there's a muddy fieeldd!!! where a garden was !!! ughh

[heythisanimalcantalk]

there's really not even any point to anything anymore. i have like 6 months left of being able to actually live normally and then i'm fucked up for life fuckk just kill me instead to be honest

[heythisanimalcantalk]

i feel so maternal towards the baby from eraserhead

[heythisanimalcantalk]

in heaven everything is fine in heaven everything is fine you got your good things and i've got mine oh yeah shoutout david lynch 🫶

[heythisanimalcantalk]

sorry i'm just really pissed off because you can't read my mind and you're not understanding my vagueposting that doesn't make any sense

[nervousyoungtheythem]

sweet socialist, the socialist daughter

[heythisanimalcantalk]

fuck all this they'll never forget that i'm a boy . literally what is the point

[heythisanimalcantalk]

coming out message officially in the notes app. i cannot wait to forget about it in a week

[heythisanimalcantalk]

my friend drew me today and it was so good i'm going to cry it's actually the best thing that could have happened for my self esteem i love my friends <333

[heythisanimalcantalk]

honetsly shaving has given me like crazy confidence. i thought it couldn't be done . fuckin #happy frick yeah gang

[heythisanimalcantalk]

maybe iwill perhaps potentially come out. maybe i could . the worst that could happen is everyone hating me and leaving me alone forever which in the grand scheme of things isn't thaattt bad

[heythisanimalcantalk]

everything is so fucking orange freak out

[heythisanimalcantalk]

there's nothing we can do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! there's nothing we can do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[heythisanimalcantalk]

my stupid fucking body ruined everything and there was never anything i could do about it fuck everything