mary

they/she, chronically scared, 18

[sovietnam]

[nervousyoungtheythem]

anyone else not feel any empathy or guilt towards other ppl and then feel sad and disgusting bc they should?

[nervousyoungtheythem]

i try to grow and i just get taller,

i cleanse my soul and it just gets smaller

[nervousyoungtheythem]

there’s always been an emptiness inside of me, i used to think it was hunger

[nervousyoungtheythem]

i can’t prove it but i know

[nervousyoungtheythem]

it felt so good to have a public crashout after having a stick up my ass for months

[nervousyoungtheythem]

y’all ever cry in your vocal teacher’s arms about not feeling good enough? that shit was beautiful

[nervousyoungtheythem]

i don’t even want space i just want to not feel so stupid

[nervousyoungtheythem]

sometimes when i watch a sad movie with someone and they cry i stop blinking and try to yawn to make my eyes water

[mcwexlher]

Living The Scholars Fantasy: How A Door of Style of Denial is Killing Monomania (Mirror to Face) (Joe's Story)

[nervousyoungtheythem]

when i was 8 and had anger issues i would beat people, now i have to drink and sleep or go for a run

[nervousyoungtheythem]

i think that i’m a piece of shit and that you’re better off without me

[nervousyoungtheythem]

i think avoiding everything will save me from becoming the person i’m meant to be

[nervousyoungtheythem]

hey they/them your sadness is so lynchian

[nervousyoungtheythem]

thinking about the time one of the grade nines that i peer tutor told me i was very tea and i didn’t know how to respond so i just said “oh okay, can you show me that you’ve done your work?”

[nervousyoungtheythem]

everything i tell my mom apparently sounds like an attack, and im starting to believe it

[nervousyoungtheythem]

no one loves this song as much as i do