Hi June Hi! (Oh hello!)

I love salt and vinegar chips, doodling, knitting/crocheting, and designing games for fun!

[hijunehi]

2018 is over, 2019 is here! And I like lists, so here’s another that I hope to accomplish this year:

Secure a job before graduating

Find an apartment in new location, wherever the job is

Graduate in May 2019 (if I don’t goof up!)

Take boards exam for becoming an official PA

Pack up and move to new location

Take a two-week break for myself, my bf, and our two dogs to unpack, explore, and figure out where to buy excellent food!!

Start a new chapter in my life and getting into more hobbies I’m interested in trying: scuba diving, sewing, audiobooks, learning to code basic HTML, and other stuff.

Maybe start looking for a house before 2019 ends!

Support my artist friends more than ever!!

Get my mental health in good order

[hijunehi]

I was thinking about this a lot today, and every job field is difficult in their own regards.

But lately, more and more I feel like people who work in healthcare suffer so, so much from inferiority complexes and insecurities related to sizing up their self-worth based on how much smarter they are than those they work with and using that as an excuse to treat people poorly or smugly or what-have-you.

I try really hard not to let it get to me. But sometimes it feels like you can’t turn it off. One of my program advisers said, “That should have been a slam dunk” in front of all my classmates when I got a question wrong-- it’s hard to not think about every time I make a mistake. Like I wish I knew how to turn it off. And it compounds. Anyway, I’m okay. It just kind of sucks. I’ve also been told by classmates who are rotating at sites he works at, he definitely treats coworkers like they’re “below” him, like PAs and Pathologists are in the same “top” tier and everyone else is at a lower tier of some sort somehow. It’s so stupid.

One of my smartest classmates, who works so, so hard but is still so, so kind, was also humiliated and received attitude from him when she absolutely deserves it the least. Like, there is nothing that would warrant that for her.

It tells me, at least, that he does this no matter how great of a student you are, but it also tells me it doesn’t matter how hard you study or work, you’re just incompetent and worthless. Never smart enough.

But we suffer through it because we’re students. Or maybe he feels like it’s okay to treat us this way because we’re students. I think the worst would if he thought he was doing us a favor, but I swear he relishes in making you feel horrible. It’s hard to put into words.

[hijunehi]

Alcohol and pizza and doobles

[jingles]

x

[hijunehi]

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i’m tired and sweaty

[hijunehi]

lol

[hijunehi]

Just wanted to share pics of my Long Nose Big Boy with the world before my 1hr+ drive to rotations

[chubbyunni]

Happy #petday !! I genuinely would not be able to get thru grad school without my bby buns 😍

[hijunehi]

I love making fake/stupid ambitious plans for my life, so:

After graduating (2019 / age 27) --> full time job (hopefully 2019)

--> buy a duplex near/convenient for students (preferably grad students idk and before I'm 30 / 2022)

--> rent out one unit / live in the other

--> pay off student loans + mortgage + support my family (~2032 / age 40)

--> invest in some wacky venture (animal cafe in a city / mtn home I can rent sometimes / sushi bar if my mom still wants one / this will probably double as my midlife crisis / open a store for indie art merchandise + button up shirts for various boob sizes / who knows)

--> ??? Maybe make it to age 65

[hijunehi]

As it turns out, drawing on the train on your phone is hard

[hijunehi]

This semester has been better but I feel myself burning out/slipping

We got our lab coats last week though so that's pretty cool

April:

Human fxn: one test

Pathology: one (BIG) test + a paper

Microbio: one test

Histotech: a presentation to finish

Applied anatomy: final written exam

1st week of May:

Human fxn: one test

Microbio: one test

Applied anatomy: lab final

Then onto rotations! Almost there!

[halstedom]

oh shit oh fuck

[coaltar-of-the-deepers]

this is like what happens when you end up fighting someone in your dream

[kayinnasaki]

I don’t know what this is from but it’s the gayest start to a fight I’ve ever seen

[tabbran]

Please send me more of these memes, I need to see literally every single one of them

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this meme is officially called Fantasy Painting Object Labeling, thanks for that @eddrian32!

[juliaanoia]

I love these so much

[transmechanicus]

You will pry “Impending Doom” from my cold dead hands.

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[misuzu-is-life]

BEGONE

THOT

[sunshinescribbs-deactivated2018]

FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING UMMUTE.

[hijunehi]

I wish you could do a 'read more' on mobile but omg I haven't been on tumblr in forever.... this is a long, wind-down post

This week was essentially our hell week, and tho I feel pretty bad about today's test, I felt the same way about Monday's test and ended up with an 85% so we'll see :/

I really didn't know a lot tho...

But just really glad it's over

I still have a presentation to work on but at least I feel like I can breathe.

After the test I bought some new undies, a plush hairband to keep my hair outta face while I bleach my hair again tonight, cleaning stuff, veggies, orange juice, and mtn dew so I can have some alkeehol tonight

Mostly excited about the new undies tho

I want to clean my apt, clean my bunnies' cage, change the litterbox, do some laundry, and have a little spa day for myself + a chipotle burrito haha

I hope anyone who is reading this is having a good day