“you’re nothing without me.”
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❝ what are you on, malakai? ❞ hikaru crosses his arms, brows furrowed as he looked at the other with a disgruntled look upon his face. despite his bit of strength to stand up for himself for a moment, he was beyond gone when it came to controlling himself and how he felt. he stopped himself, looking at the ground defeatedly and his shoulders tensing up.❝ sorry. ❞ he was fearful. the feeling that he was walking on eggshells right now, knowing this wasn’t a normal thing. while he’d liked people who had hurt him before, one of the reasons he moved to bellevue in the first place was to get rid of that.
the second thing he had left for, of course, was the individuality. without his brother around, he was finally just hikaru. not the hitachiins, not the little devils – he was hikaru hitachiin. his own person for once in his life. and now he was being directly told he was nothing by malakai of all people. he shook his head, his defeated look turned into one that was like his initial reaction: shock and anger, though the beginning of tears was present this time.❝ you know what, malakai? ❞ he lifted his head slightly to look at the other through his lashes.❝ i’m tired of this. you don’t know what i’ve had to deal with, and now you’re coming here and plowing through my life like this? ❞ oh, how he wished he was better at containing his tears. it was a lot harder to take someone seriously when they had tears flowing down their rage-covered face.
❝ who the hell do you think you are? ❞ hikaru felt like his feelings for him were being taken advantage of. it was hard for him to even control his breathing at this point, so overwhelmed with all of his emotions. ❝ just because you think you’re some big shot magician and you’re friends with alaine doesn’t mean you rule the world. ❞ he shook his head again, tilting his head back up straight to look him in the eyes.❝ you’re fucked up, malakai. ❞ a few more deep breaths and another shake of his head. he couldn’t believe he was saying any of this to him. he’d always been so silent about how he felt when it came to conflict with the other, but that was it.❝ i don’t ever want to see you again. ❞
and at that, he backed away from the other. a sniffle, and he turned around and began walking away, though all he could think was regret. he knew how much malakai had been hurting him, but he didn’t want to leave him. hikaru’s feelings for him were too strong. he’d return home, lying on his sofa and crying to himself for an hour or so. he took a deep breath and slid his hand into his pocket, grabbing his phone. there was no way he could just let that be. he wanted to be with him, no matter how much it hurt. so, he brought the screen into his sight and opened his messaging app and tapped on malakai’s contact, beginning to type out a short and clear message.
to: malakai ❤↳ i’m so sorry please come over
all he could do was hope. but in his heart, the feeling that malakai was tired of him was very prominent. hikaru just wanted something in his life to work out for once, and he very well may have just ruined that. and it gave him the worst feeling of regret in the world.














