「DECAY」

[hikikomori-decay]

→ RAISE THE VELVET

(nsft ahead.)

Hello, I was @/miserablemoe! I’ve decided to restart my account entirely! I found myself dissatisfied with my last one, with my layout, formatting, and how I was posting entirely. I know this is rather sudden, but bear with me!

If you’re not familiar with who I am, you can just refer to me as M-tan! I’m a radq adj paraphile. My empathy is small and selective, but I do try to be as sweet as I can! I am also 16 years, but treat me as an adult! I encourage any asks, whether platonic, romantic, or sexual. Keep in mind I struggle to differentiate my emotions from each other, and I may give off mixed signals.

I am FTM, and refer to me by he/him… I am pansexual as well! I am attracted to any and every being. ♪

If you do not approve of the content I post, please block me, as I will probably do the same. I encourage you to do the same with any other blog you find displeasing. I have no DNI 〜

I have quite a few paraphilias, and I will use this blog to post about them, as I have not many other places to post about them freely. My paraphilias include : Algolagnia, amaurophilia, amokoscisia, anthropophagolagnia, maschalagnia, asphyxiophilia, autassassinophilia, autohemofetishism, biastophilia, anthropophagy, capnolagnia, cheirophilia, chronophilia, cryophilia, dacnophilia, dacryphilia, electrophilia, emetophilia, emetolagnia, enopliophilia, erotophonophilia, hematolagnia, hierophilia, hoplophilia, humiliophilia, hybristophilia, igniphilia, masochism, necrophilia, olfactophilia, piquerism, sadism, somnophilia.

I have a plentiful amount of interests. Some, but far from all include : Ensemble Stars, Hypnosis Mic, Twisted Wonderland, Bungo Stray Dogs, Gachiakuta, Honkai Star Rail, Ouran Highschool Host Club, Litchi Hikari Club, Sonic The Hedgehog, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, and most certainly more that I’ve forgotten.

Some music that’s currently in my shuffle include : Will Wood (and the Tapeworms), MC Bushpig, MC Val, Twan Haywood, And One, IAMX, Alkaloid, Valkyrie, gulu gulu, kaneto-juusei, Nightclub, Baby Bugs, and way way more.

Taglist 〜

#𑄝 Ayase Arise — Intro post (You’re here!)

#𑄝 Tan Talks — Regular text posts!

#𑄝 Muffled Mouth — NSFT posts, block this tag if you’re uncomfortable!

#𑄝 Replies Rising — Answering asks!

#𑄝 M-tan’s Masterpiece — Reblogs!

#𑄝 Moe Is Miserable — Vents!

ANONS: N/A

[hikikomori-decay]

Is your oshi really your oshi unless you sleep beside their art at night? (This is not a joke, I unironically do this.) 𑄝

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Important things going on in priv twt rn… 𑄝

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Pour some bleach in my eyes, I don’t need them anyways. Why would I ever need them when I have you, love? 𑄝

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I was about to go to sleep, but the rise of communism is nagging at me.

I’ve been seeing arguments of “so a janitor and a doctor should be paid the same?” and that argument alone lets me know that you are severely uneducated and have not looked into any other governments besides capitalist ones. This is how it was explained to me, so please forgive me if I am misspeaking. Always do your own research and never fall into a political mindset just because you see more videos of it with people using those 2022 ‘mogging’ audios, okay?

To dumb it down in the simplest of terms, no, a janitor and a doctor would not be paid the same. They would be paid differently. But the doctor has some money removed from his paycheck, but not all of it. This money would go to the janitor, allowing him to live more comfortably. The doctor would still have more, but the janitor gets at least a chance to live comfortably. Do we get it now?

To go along with this, the aim is not to have any type of government. I am not communist simply because of this. Society as it is will always have a government, because somebody will always want control.

The biggest reason why communism is so looked down upon is because of its most popular leaders (I.E. Stalin and Hitler) and capitalism is only looking bad now because of other leaders. (I.E. … Trump.) For example, take a look at the swastika. Everyone knows exactly what comes to mind when you see it, yes? But before the more popular connotation we have today, it meant ‘something which promotes a feeling of well-being.’

I may just be babbling again, but the misunderstanding of political ideologies and stances are pissing me off so much. I could go off on how the Democratic Party is as bad as the Republican Party, but looking at who’s in power, there’s no way that’s true, right? Wrong!! All governments are bound to become corrupt. Any man who gains power will lose morality. 𑄝

[wh11skeyandlace]

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Guys stop I can’t take all this attention… 😳 𑄝

[pmamtraveller]

antique Adam and Eve pendant, “i am your half”

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Sorry, do I seem pissed? Do I seem like I hate you more than I can take? Do I seem like I despise you for ruining my fucking life? Because I’m actually so calm. 𑄝

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*licks you*

Licking you back.. hello oomfie!! 𑄝

[nekovomiit]

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Everytime I listen to Black Out See Saw by Alkaloid I begin to vibrate in pure joy. I remember when nobody really liked it at all, but even I hated it at first. It’s become my favorite song by Alkaloid, besides Mayoi’s Raise The Velvet… keke. 𑄝

[yourfavoritemas0chist]

Kikus ask game :3c

Like / dislike emojis

🇯🇵 - I like you ! (Platonic)

🎌 - I like you !! (Romantic)

⛩️ - I dislike you:(

🗾 - I think your blog is actually very nice and don't know what else to say-

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Asks (sfw)

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🌸 - if you were to have a any pet, what would it be?

🪷 - favorite color?

🌺 - favorite blog

✨ - do you have any hobbies?

💝 - do you have any pets?

💓 - what is your least favorite blog

🍓 - what is your favorite creature in the rqc?

🌈 - why are you radqueer?

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Asks (NSFW)

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💜 - what is your favorite position?

💙 - what is your most common k¡nk

💚 - what's your least common k¡nk

💛 - what blog runner would you date (@ them if you want!)

🧡 - would you mind getting tied up?

❤️ - would you mind if your partner fucked another person?

💕 - would you be submissive in a relationship?

💞 - would you be dominant?

💗 - would you be a switch?

💖 - I the elusive anon want to fuck you

[hikikomori-decay]

May the incoherent spiral babbling commence. 𑄝

I don’t know who I am, it feels as if I am multiple people but I’m always still me. Everything about me is so inconsistent. I want to be controlled, but then I’d despise that, the collar would be too tight around my neck and I’d kill myself trying to claw it out. Yet when I go out for myself I feel as if I can do nothing right, but why should that matter ?

Why should ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ matter ? Hell, maybe I’m the only right one on this miserable earth, maybe I’m deluded to hell letting that thought enter my head. I’m not sure how somebody can feel so grandiose yet act so pathetic. People tell me I’m nice all the time, but the only reason I am that way is because I am always benefited by being that way. If I was in anyway benefited by murdering another then I would happily do so.

I’m honestly convinced that any other human’s morals would drastically change based on what benefitted them. The only reason they would hesitate is because of what they were taught. It’s literally in our biology to stay within the safe zone, that being what you’ve been shown and taught your whole life. You only have bad opinions on what you currently do is because somewhere up the line said, “x, y, z is bad!!”

The thing that always confuses me most is why we specifically gained sentience. What allowed us to be the ones who discovered tools? What was stopping any other mammal or amphibian alike? Maybe I’m uneducated. I don’t know, but something always never aligns with me. Whether it be evolution, biology, religion, etc…

Or maybe I’m just autistic. Idk! Let me know in the comments below and hit that subscribe button.

[hikikomori-decay]

I don’t just want sexual degradation. I want you to genuinely hate me. Tell me how little I matter to you, slap me just because I dared to talk back to you. Tell me that you could replace me whenever you wanted. Tell me how disgusting I am for even getting off to the thought of this. 𑄝

[hikikomori-decay]

Genuinely 99 of my problems would be fixed if I got laid. Thats not all of them, but it’s most of them. 𑄝

[hikikomori-decay]

I just wanna beat up a cute doll. Hold still, won’t you? 𑄝