Hi, I'm Evren :3 I'm the owner of the blogs lordevren and evrenchan
This blog is about my love for Omori, my thoughts and headcanons (if I'm brave enough) and also a little about my personal recovery journey from being a shut in myself, hence the url. Weird combo I know, but it feels right. I have always found channeling stuff through fiction helps me a lot!
Omori has been my special interest now since 2021 & also functions as a coping mechanism for me, so I have a lot of Thoughts™ that I want to ramble about.
Anyone is welcome to follow and interact with me, so long as you aren't being rude, and there's no obligation to care for my personal life stuff if you do.
Any posts made by me will be tagged as #my posts
PS. I'm an avid sunflower enjoyer (especially the fucked up kind) so this is absolutely not gonna be ship free xD
Evren lore under cut for anyone that is interested ->
Omori is important to me for a variety of reasons, but the biggest by far is that it has helped me to understand and explain to others something that happened to me between roughly 2015-2020.
During this period of time, I dropped out of college, stopped leaving the house almost entirely and shut myself off from my loved ones. I became obsessed with a particular cartoon I liked when I was a kid (Invader Zim lol) and built fantasies in my head based on it that I chose over real life. I also strugged with anorexia which took over my life very quickly in isolation and I became quite sick, which made the isolation worse, creating a cycle of self destruction.
In 2019 I posted a thinly veiled suicide note to my old Facebook account, thinking nobody would see it or care. I was wrong, a friend reached out to me. She got me to come and hang out for the first time in years. Things started looking up for a while after that, however I was then pushed back into the dark by a certain pandemic that came with the worst timing ever. Never the less, I decided to begin my push for full recovery on July 20th 2020. It was the best thing I ever did, ever ever ever ever ever.
I first played Omori about a year after that and it absolutely tore me to shreds for obvious reasons. I practically played the whole thing back to back in a trance without sleeping. It was like if someone wrote me a 400 page google doc call out post but in the format of a game & also this person can read minds. I convinced all my friends to play the game and it was very therapeutic for me to be able to show them this instead of trying to explain what happened. I felt that it brought us all so much closer.
Since then, this game has helped me more than words can possibly describe. Every time I feel lost, when I want to give up, to relapse, to lay down and die, it keeps me going. It digs me back out. It gets me to open my door again. It gets me to sit down and eat. It's been one of the only things that can reach me during the darkest of times. It's been a way for me to interact with fiction that is actually positive and non-maladaptive because the literal source material constantly tells me off for my behaviours. It means so, so, so much to me. I could talk about it for probably weeks if my voice didn't die first. I'm hoping to finally do some of that talking here.
Two types of Sunny in fanon: Easily flustered vs Not.
I love both of them.
He's cute in both cases. I'm not too sure which one's more accurate, since Sunny is hinted to feel emotions at extremes (those damn flies...), but he also tends to be less expressive. I think it's up to what people enjoy more and the situation he's in I suppose.
being outside AND being isolated still? sounds like a pretty good deal to me! I hadn’t known what moorlands were so it was nice seeing some pretty pictures. I think I once saw them in a documentary… (10/17)
theres some advice Ive read on other issues like agoraphobia or social anxiety, guessed they were close enough to whatever the actual issue is, tho I often forget to put them in practice. 1 was to think of a outing were everything turned out very good, maybe even fun… a rainy day is like that for me,of the few times I actually enjoy going outside. A weird one Ive tried is pretending to be doing a video tour of my city so my focus can be elsewhere, it only works so much in the same route(11/17)
oh yeah, I remember reading about that. It’s a detail I really like that Basil is kinda the opposite to Sunny in that way, but its mostly because I’ve always liked parallelism, that Basil can’t stop thinking about it (and I like to headcanon that he can hardly sleep) while Sunny has repressed it and sleeps a lot. Double edge sword is a good way to describe it. I might give it a listen if I find it. Pretty evocative! How was the saying? A picture says more than 1000 words! (12/17)
thanks, you’re too kind! but it really is ironic, isnt it? To get out of isolation you have to figure it out all alone. Even searching it up I’ve only found actual relevant results on like page 20 onward and even then its been largely other’s testimonies… which was comforting, but there’s still not any advice on what to do to help yourself. Things would be definitely much easier if this wasn’t largely seen as a problem that’s not worth consideration and dismissed as “lazyness” ¬_¬ (13/17)
I once read about that! The external and internal motivation! Its my case as well, its easier to do the getting out part when Im anxious about another thing, like talking to the doctor. That’s a really funny mental image, may the best anxiety win! Maybe in the future, I still have a long road ahead so I don’t think Im the most fit at giving advice. (14/17)
Mine are simple, listing the streets in order in a small paper plus some arrows, tho I havent gone alone anywhere farther than 20 mins… its also nice to have something in my pocket to fidget with, tho Ive had to redraw them a lot, I keep disintegrating them. I also have a horrible orientation, one day someone planted 1 tree on the path Ive been using to practice and I was worried I had somehow ended somewhere completely different. In the moment it sucks but looking back its kinda funny(15/17)
maybe it wouldn’t be a bad idea to sit down someday and listen to all the fanmade phobias out there… hmm. It’s a good option for whenever I don’t have anything in mind to listen to! Ever since I went to revisit fics I also started saving them after finding that one I really liked has been deleted :( all I have left of it now are some commentary on my diary…(16/17)
I’ve never heard of serotonine syndrome either, it does sound crazy and kinda scary too, Im glad you’re alright. It’s one organ less to check! Eventually they got to find the one… surely… Maybe sometimes its better to just go with the flow! Maybe we could talk about funny anecdotes at like the waiting room or smth? I have a couple of those, tho I could mention my doc assumed I was vegan because according to him I have the vibes of one and Im still not sure what that means (17/17)
Hell yeah, the ideal kind of going outside ! It's definitely a very pretty place.. do you remember what the documentary was about? I know there's a bit of reputation for moorlands being haunted and such (which really just makes them cooler to me) so I'm curious :o
Oh I've kinda done similar things to that before ! I think it's good to utilise your imagination when you can. The tour idea sounds like a fun one. Reminds me of a thing I do where I'll imagine certain fictional characters or my ocs are actually with me and kinda talk to them in my head. I can relate to the rain thing too because it's always been my favourite weather aaaa
It's a really cool parallel isn't it :o I like how it represents two different reactions you can have in a way. There's a thing where people are kinda more-so expected to respond to trauma by avoiding it.. but some people actually do the opposite of that and fixate instead, and to me that's how Basil is, it just can never leave his mind. Also the song is called every day is exactly the same ! it's basically the shut in anthem lmao. and thank youuu !!
You're welcome ! yup :/ It's such a catch-22. The more help you need, the less you can actually access.. I've done so many searches myself over the years and it's so difficult. I think a big issue is that it's really hard to find anything structured out there you can actually.. routinely go to on your own terms, without being punished if you don't go to it. I wish there could just be a people that are bad at going outside club or something, that you could go to. You could show up as much or as little as you're able to and if you don't go for three months and then appear, everyone is just like oh hi again and it's normal.. Also I haaate the laziness thing, god. Wishing people who say stuff like that a very explode.
Yeah !! it's a mood for sure I'm glad you get it. My therapist recently was like "so you've wanted to go to the antique shop for 16 months but haven't, but you are able to come to most of our appointments?" and I was like… cause you would be inconvenienced !! if I didn't come !! lmao. Also that's very fair <3
Oh I like that :o it's nice to have something physical with you that can help. I recently tried drawing directions too when I had to get somewhere so it looks like I'm stealing your idea confirmed xD but omg that's so relatable tho dfgdgd I get lost for the tiniest reasons to the point where it's comical, like I try to create landmarks in my head to know where I'm going, so if one changes or I come from a different angle I'm screwed. There's an infamous childhood story I wish I could tell here related to this but it's waay too long xD
hmm I wonder if someone has made a playlist with them all? I know there is a playlist of general remixed omori music I listened to recently so maybe. Saving them is def the best way.. fics getting deleted and lost like that is too painful :(
Thank you ;-; it was the life threatening kind of scary but thankfully I now know I cannot take SSRIs and it wont ever happen again. I hope that they can find what is up in the future ! Waiting room stories would be fun to hear :o I'll have to think if I have any. also lmao at vegan vibes xD I've heard of people saying that before but never to me. I guess I do not have vegan vibes despite my diet being actually very close to it
In reply to your other messages I want you to know I appreciated them & it means a lot to me that you took the time to write it ;-; I'm not in an emotional place to reply directly to everything rn cause I need to not focus on those feelings for a bit, but I still wanted to acknowledge it and make sure you knew that it mattered. You're very kind and I see you too 🫂💚
Also apologies for the late reply !! hopefully you saw my post but in case you didn't, I might take a bit longer for a while because of a certain situation I'm currently in that's eating all my time ;-;
Hi, anon 2 here. I was going to say it is a fortunate thing but then I realized everytime I send new asks I’ll be with the same uncertainty so… I guess I better say something random. Lets see... Today I watched a parakeet eating seeds from a tree next to my window. It was cute. (1/17)
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I also thought about that and it does sound like a good explanation… it’s just that now I have the mental image of seeing someone being brave and complimenting them by saying “you have organs” and I probably find it more funny than it is. By the end, however, you will have enriched their vocabulary! (2/17)
That’s neat. If it’s alright, can I ask what you’ve been watching or playing lately? Just got curious. That’s also something I wonder sometimes. Maybe I’ll get to that in may, hopefully its enough time to get in the mindset for it. (it’s duet, even the title rendition still gets me) (3/17)
I actually hadn’t considered that until answering but I think I’ll go with that from now on because it really is depressing… but now I’m curious about what other overlooked details there are that could be interesting to think about. Do you have any other in mind by chance? (4/17)
Theres a good chunk of interpretations of Omori himself, but the one I like the most is seeing him as the incarnation of a bad coping mechanism, its really fun to try and get into his perspective with that in mind… tho this would also be a long subject… It being a religious ref is as far I get. That sounds reasonable. there’s also this image where Sunny is drowning in blood I remembered that appears, could be about him wanting to be saved or feeling helpless… it fits with what you’ve said (5/17)
I think its fitting that mostly that Sunny’s deal is shown without words… now that you’ve mentioned that though, in the city I think that’s one of the things he would have to deal with. (6/17)
I also tend to prefer to keep hs in Sunny’s head, there’s still a lot of routes to take with that. Yeah that one! that happened at some point in the past! (I have no idea when) I learned of it right after it was finished, so I have no idea of the guidelines but it sounded fun. In an eventuality I don’t see why not if you want to. (7/17)
it indeed is pretty wholesome! In general the whole last day must have been a whole rollercoaster foreveryone too, first they’re all riding the high of being together once again, then they wake up to the aftermath of the fight, and after many hours of uncertainty Sunny tells them something more shocking that the fight. The reactions I think kinda depend a bit on how sunny tells them, but regardless it will be a harsh time for eveyone… (8/17)
In certain way I think Basil could genuily believe everything was his fault… like after Sunny were to talk to him and explain his reasons for breaking the violin and that there was nothing behind him (tho I think it would take him a while to let go of the idea) then Basil could believe that he caused everything because it was his idea to get the violin in the first place… they just cant catch a break. Is there any scenario you’ve thinking about lately or that you find fun? (9/17)
Helloo !! aw that's neat :o I watch birds from my window sometimes too. Though the other week I witnessed a seagull fly off with a pigeon in its claws 💀
lmao xD the person will be like thanks I grew them myself ! and I will clap in celebration, and everyone will bask in the joy of knowing many words.
ooh ! well I watched tadc finale in the cinema which was cool! I also finally finished rdr2 earlier this year, watched all of she-ra & just played deltarune chapter 5. There's been a slow down on stuff tho due to current stress and busyness unfortunately x-x let me know if you ended up doing so !! :o that's fair tho.. it can be a lot.
Me too honestly ;-; and hmm.. I'd have to wait until something comes to mind naturally I think. I know there is other stuff I've noticed, though, so if it comes to mind I'll say it ! for some reason if I try to actively think of stuff on the spot my brain decides it has never known anything ever
That's how I think of him too ! and personally I don't really think other interpretations work as well. That may be my bias tho coming merely from the fact I relate a lot to it, idk. I def like to think about Sunny's relationship with Omori in the terms of how someone would feel towards their unhealthy coping. But yeah I think that makes sense, with how it's playing on the lake incident again.. It's a really interesting scene overall. God I love deeper well
oh yeah that's true it would be much harder to get used to :( cause like.. everyone in faraway already knows him and is used to the way he is. Getting used to the new environment and all the new people that assume he's being rude is going to be difficult. I feel stressed out myself thinking about that.
yees there is still infinite routes in the realm of fiction~ I can't remember when exactly that was either now but I was around for it & watched the stream where the winners were announced. If I ever unlock the power of doing things maybe I will xD
oh yeahhh,, the whole thing happened so fast and chaotically, and like they STILL can't really talk to anyone about it but each other arghh. It's one of those "it feels like the world just ended and you have to just carry on like it didn't" moments ;-; there's a million different theories on how everyone would react but I think the main one everyone can agree on is it wont be a fun time.
I can see that ;-; I think on some level it would likely be easier for Basil to blame himself for everything since he values Sunny above himself. I think he's more distressed by the idea of it being Sunny's fault than he would be it being his own, since he thinks of himself as objectively bad anyway. So in a sense, thought processes like that are an "easy way out" for him..
As for scenarios I've been thinking about a few different things esp since I've been playing deltarune again, it gave me some ideas. It would be very spoilery tho for that game if I said those so instead something very random: I got an air fryer and all I keep thinking is god Sunny needs to keep himself alive long enough to be able to make air fryer steak... I was a microwave gremlin also and this appliance has revolutionised my life. I long for him to experience this simple joy
hey jsyk I haven't forgotten to respond to messages and I will get to them, but I may be gone for a while longer. I've been thrown into a very stressful situation these past few months which has been steadily erroding all of my time and sanity & it's gotten to a point currently where any free time I get is spent simply trying to recover and rest.
hopefully things will calm and I can come back soon..
Is the music that we hear in Faraway Town in Omori actually diegetic music that Sunny himself is imagining? Diegetic sound in film/games basically means sounds that are actually happening in that world vs non-diegetic being a backing track only the audience perceives. The reason I think music like, “Finding Shapes in the Clouds” is diegetic is that it ONLY plays each day after Sunny settles into wandering around the town. On 3 days left you don’t hear it until after you go to Hobbeez vs on 2 days left it plays immediately after you finish the initial conversation with Kel. It’s not just sound that plays anytime you’re *not* in a cutscene, it starts at pretty specific times.
Obviously there’s no way to prove this but I think it’s interesting to think that Sunny is also imagining a soundtrack to his own life as he runs around? And that in Faraway Town he specifically imagines a happy upbeat sound as he adventures with his friends in real life again. 🥺
That also makes me wonder if ALL the music we hear (that doesn’t have an obvious source in the game world) is stuff Sunny himself is imagining. Which would be why things like the real life Captain Spaceboy game music is what is used in the Otherworld fights (remixed but still). Sunny is just vaguely remembering actual music he’s heard and reimagining it into his own world, like how he has already done with many of the characters like Sweetheart and Captain Spaceboy. There’s a load of other examples of this too that makes me think it might be the case.
