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[spaceshipsandpurpledrank]

[ladystoneshart]

the winds of winter tomorrow

[bey-life]

[valwiggin-deactivated20160331]

tosses "ender's game femslash" in your inbox for that mini-drabble meme

YEAH OK

Virlomi had always known she wasn’t a goddess. Of course she had. But after a while, surrounded by, drowning in the belief and adoration of her people, she could almost believe that she was one, or at least burdened with holy purpose. At those times she felt she could jump into the air and soar or breathe underwater, because her people believed she could. Years later, lying on a small bed and watching Petra sleeping quietly next to her, she felt once again that she could fly.

[vaporize-employers]

really tired of seeing the idea that women & girls are less likely to be diagnosed with autism because it "presents differently" so widely accepted even in progressive spaces

it is also widely accepted that women get raises less often because they don't ask as much as men. this is objectively not true.

it is also widely accepted that women are more talkative than men. this is objectively not true.

it is also widely accepted that women are taken less seriously when speaking because their speech patterns are associated with a "lack of confidence". this is objectively not true. [1][2][3]

every time we talk about gender discrimination, people look for an explanation that starts with women's behavior.

and every fucking time, actual research shows that across the board, women actually don't behave that differently from men.

women aren't diagnosed less often with autism due to "presenting differently". it's gendered medical neglect, and weaponized diagnoses disproportionately applied to women (e.g. BPD, HPD, bipolar, etc.)

[peachmart]

“ur a fucken wimp beanie weenie" 

[justanotherendernator]

“How many rules are they gonna break to bring Ender down?”

[once-a-traya]

thing with ender is, even as a kid, he adapts to the patterns of speech of whoever’s around him— his snark with the kids in battle school is all butts and fart jokes, with val it’s childhood references, and later with his class and whatnot it’s a more intellectual kind of wordplay.

ender’s got to be kind of off-putting in that way, that he can joke with you and make you feel comfortable on your own level and yet on some level seem so distant.

alai’s kind of the opposite; his snark is built into him, it’s part of his warmth, it’s never really malicious, it’s meant to include you into his world. not like ender, for whom it’s camouflage and deference to someone else’s culture, a culture he’s not a part of.

[once-a-traya]

petrabrokanian:

#that’s such a bizarre an interesting flip side of ender as a deeply empathetic figure

 honestly, this is one of the most interesting things about ender for me, that he’s so deeply empathetic but he’s still, at heart, a soldier, and so the empathy is a weapon; he doesn’t go around hugging everyone and ~feeling their pain~, but rather he picks up everything he can and then uses that to devise a strategy, a pattern of action that might not be all that kind but might be necessary.

 that’s why he functions so well as a speaker, too, that way of feeling people and their needs and what they will respond to so intimately that he can push all of their buttons. it doesn’t really start to break down until lusitania, which is part of why speaker for the dead is such a fascinating book for me, but he never quite loses it. if anything, his end seems to stem from him losing himself in it, in the end.

basically everyone in the later ender stories should be really happy he was a benevolent guy willing to step back and quit it because man the damage he could cause if he realigned his goals.

[endersgame]

An Ender’s Game spread from a German tv program!

[badluckkitty]

[once-a-traya]

ender’s game week day 2: favorite scene

i have a lot of favorite scenes in this series. but since i fully expect most of my ender’s game favorites to pop up on other people’s lists today, i thought i’d pay attention to one of my favorite parts of speaker for the dead. i pieced together a reading of it on soundcloud; click the little square below to get there.

ender’s game ends on a climax, then a denouement. ender’s unthinking murder of the alien, then how he copes with it. in some ways, speaker for the dead is a mirror. climax, then coping. an alien dies, ender goes to pieces.

it’s the climax of speaker i love: novinha finding out who ender is, her acceptance of him, and most importantly, ender going forth and complying with human’s request - to kill him, so he may go into the third life - because it’s the only way to settle peace between the humans of lusitania and the pequeninos.

the alien of ender’s game faces a willing death, putting their faith in ender for their rebirth. the alien of speakeralso faces a willing death, putting his faith in ender for his rebirth. but the consequences for ender are vastly different. ender’s gamefills him with an unending guilt. speaker brings him full circle, lifting the burden off his shoulders even as he keenly feels the first death in the second. at the end of ender’s game, he began to bleed. here, he begins to heal. both are vicious. both hurt.

the scene also mirrors bonzo and stilson, and ender’s very real physical contact with their deaths. it is everything he’s always been afraid of and everything he’s always been good at - asked of him one last time by a friend.

i’ll always see ender’s game and speaker for the death as necessary mirror images of each other. not the same, but required to give each other meaning. 

“I’m not one to despise other people for their sins,” said Ender. “I haven’t found one yet, that I didn’t say inside myself, I’ve done worse than this.”

[thebeanestbad]

*twirls hair* so did you know one of the only eusocial species outside of the class insecta is the naked mole rat?

[v-tach]

they need to do a study on what "heated rivalry" did to me ... i thought it was boring and i didnt think the sex was hot and i didnt think the guys were attractive and yet ... i cant stop thinking about it

[v-tach]

okay i just saw that picture of shane and ilya reimagined as women and now i get it. i get what you all see in it. my eyes have been opened.

[once-a-traya]

now i kind of want a horrible mean story where alai visits ender on eros trying to do the same thing that petra does but also being kind of confused because he figured, when all this battle school stuff was over… they’d… you know…

but ender knows how to press his buttons even better than he knows how to press petra’s, purposefully infuriates him in the same way by being dismissive of them and the future and tapping into his inner peter some more

and alai storms off and won’t say a word to anyone until the shuttle finally comes to take him to earth

and that’s how he slid down into the right frame of mind for the wars of the shadow series.

(and every time he says ‘what would ender do?’ it has this bitterness to it— like yeah, in this situation. this non-personal, non-intimate situation.)

[outofcontextdiscord]

[redravenblogs]

Idk I think it's pretty accurate

[v-tach]

if i dont post it publically then it wont happen ... my petra fic will release precisely 2 weeks from now

[thebeanestbad]

the real reason they didn’t let Peter and Valentine go to battle school was bc they had to wait until the Wiggins had a kid with a battle school ass name like Ender