Iâm just making this post to let you know that Iâm doing well enough and hope you have a good 2021! I need a break at the moment, but hope I can come back next year to all the fandoms I love!
Just thought I probably should inform followers of my writing blog as well (sorry for being late). I havenât written any story since maybe October, but hopefully I can return soon-ish.
Is there anything youâd like to see from me in 2021? A certain ship or fandom you miss and/or want to read about? There are a few things Iâve gotten into I have considered writing for, but I donât want to raise any hopes, so I think Iâll talk about this next year.
October went well enough, in case anyone had been wondering!
Decided that I wonât participate in NaNoWriMo, but I hope those of you who did are doing well!
As it is, Iâm not sure Iâll manage a proper story this year? Iâll aim for something on Christmas and New Year, but I donât want to make promises.
Trying to get back into writing, but Iâm not sure if Iâll finish anything in September.
I will do a daily writing challenge in October (fictober, unless I decide to go for a different event, maybe whumpTober??), however I will do it traditionally and for myself without posting. Though if any of you are interested, I might post scans of the stuff Iâve written (bonus points: you can see my mediocre handwritingâŠ)
Something like OCtober would be fun as well, but Iâm not in the mood Iâm afraid :âD
Found an old notebook and Iâm going to combine @/fictober-event and @/whumptober2020 prompts however I want to write about some Ocs. That might be fun, Iâll keep you updated... maybe :âD
As a part of the @ina11writingexchangeâ , I feel lucky (and a bit honoured) to get to write for you, @segataryuuichirouâ! Your Ichinose/Domon prompt spoke to me, so I tried my hand on something bittersweet. I hope you like this, I had fun writing it :D
Ship: Domon/Ichinose (unrequited?)
Tags: musing about love, friends to lovers discussion, can be read as unrequited love, (messy) thoughts; set during high school
Summary: Domon is an observer of love. And so he reflects on his feelings for Ichinose.
There is something fascinating about watching your friends fall in and out of love, Domon muses. Itâs not just Endou who has people falling for him left and right, though it is amusing to see different people competitively wooing him without said guy realising it.
(To be fair, he is not as oblivious to all of those as some people assume. Which is even funnier because seeing Endou pretend to be unaware of the flirting of an acquaintance because he feels bad about rejecting them is on brand for him.)
Itâs also the quiet love heâd seen in Teikoku, not the one which is hidden because of shame but shyness. The difference between the first crush and the first love, how to navigate the line of teammates and âIs-it-weird-to-hold-hands-right-after-practice?â.
Itâs the difference between the shared affection he sees in Japan and the US which occupies his mind once in a while.
This is lovely and it leaves me feeling so conflicted, I donât know if I should be happy or sad for Domon. Itâs so open ended, just thoughts and feelings that meander and tangle with each other and leave this delicious ache in your chest.
As a part of the @ina11writingexchangeâ , I feel lucky (and a bit honoured) to get to write for you, @segataryuuichirouâ! Your Ichinose/Domon prompt spoke to me, so I tried my hand on something bittersweet. I hope you like this, I had fun writing it :D
Ship: Domon/Ichinose (unrequited?)
Tags: musing about love, friends to lovers discussion, can be read as unrequited love, (messy) thoughts; set during high school
Summary: Domon is an observer of love. And so he reflects on his feelings for Ichinose.
There is something fascinating about watching your friends fall in and out of love, Domon muses. It's not just Endou who has people falling for him left and right, though it is amusing to see different people competitively wooing him without said guy realising it.
(To be fair, he is not as oblivious to all of those as some people assume. Which is even funnier because seeing Endou pretend to be unaware of the flirting of an acquaintance because he feels bad about rejecting them is on brand for him.)
It's also the quiet love he'd seen in Teikoku, not the one which is hidden because of shame but shyness. The difference between the first crush and the first love, how to navigate the line of teammates and 'Is-it-weird-to-hold-hands-right-after-practice?'.
It's the difference between the shared affection he sees in Japan and the US which occupies his mind once in a while.
Maybe it's the idea of love itself Domon is charmed by. Being an outsider, witnessing other people's love, seems second nature at this point. As a result, Domon often spends time thinking how his love has to be seen by an outsider. Is it something they saw coming, his feelings following an unavoidable path? Possible.
His friends are vocal about their appreciation â not once has Domon considered himself unwanted or unattractive. But there is a difference between this and actually being someone who is desired by the person they want. And he really very much would like to be desired by Ichinose Kazuya.
People glorify falling for your best friend, he thinks.
It's easy, of course, when those feelings are mutual. He just has to look at Dylan and Mark. Of course he had thought about it, once, asking Mark this particular question.
'What would you have done if Dylan hadn't returned your feelings?'
But that's a stupid question. It's very obvious to anyone watching that this wouldn't have been a possibility. Also it sounds cruel, wondering about a scenario which brought pain to one person. Talking about these sort of 'what-ifs' is self-destructive.
And so he wonders if he's the one being unfair to Ichinose. After all he doesn't even know about his feelings. Domon isn't dissatisfied by their current relationship. Their friendship is something he cherishes, the mutual understanding and how they find comfort in each other's closeness. They accomplished so much together and Domon feels like he's demanding things he doesn't have any right to.
The thing is: when did this happen?
There is no exact point at which he realised that heâd fallen in love. Maybe because heâd always admired Ichinose and the lines between romantic and platonic love seemed to blur instead of merge. What even was the difference between these two? There are really not many things he doesn't understand, but this is definitely one of it.
Because he looks at Kidou or his other teammates and the love he feels seems so blatant. Even if it's not something he can put into words, it doesn't make it less real. Then he looks at Ichinose and the love feels different. Not in capital letters like some songs suggest nor in cursive like romance novels tell him.
Sometimes, he wonders if Ichinose ever thinks more of the little gestures Domon isn't conscious of until he's done them. How he's realising small things, like the nail biting whenever Ichinose is anxious. Once Domon had taken his hand in his own, without a second thought, to keep Ichinose from doing it. He'd received  a short bemused expression, but Ichinose hadn't commented on it and it had kept Domon from overthinking.
Now the sole idea of reaching out for him, intertwining their fingers without thinking, even loosely wrapping them around his wrist, makes him nervous.
However, Ichinose never allows him to dwell on these feelings, even if he's not aware of it. Because every now and then, he is the one reaching for his hand when he feels like it and while Domon has no idea what to think of that, he doesn't try to feel guilty. He doesnât want to see Ichinose's hurt and confused expression if he withdraws his hand.
After all he can't explain why heâs the only one he doesn't want to hold hands with without confessing his feelings.
(Curse him for getting used to hugs and casual intimacy between friends due to Dylan. Except not really because it's really nice, being able to be this close without worrying. He'd probably be sad if he had to deny himself Kabeyama's hugs.)
For all that it's worth, Domon doesn't want to be the cause for any negative emotions. When Ichinose had ignored his health during the football frontier international, for once, it had felt like he couldnât keep up with him. It had been frustrating, unable to help. Now in high school. he doesnât want to ever feel this way again. Helpless, like a bystander watching and waiting for a catastrophe.
Ichinose might be the field magician, but Domon never felt like he couldnât be by his side. But what happens if his friend starts dating someone else? Here is the thing: If there is one truth he knows, then thatâs there is always a place for him by Ichinoseâs side. Even if he decides on confessing and gets rejected.
Not being someone who puts his friends on a pedestal makes it difficult to find a reason not to confess. There seems an easy solution to this, but in the end, Domon is just Domon. As much as he values his own skills, there is a fear of taking up too much space. Being his best friend and boyfriend seems like he's aiming to do that.
However, he has no idea how to feel if there is a romantic (or two) partner involved. It's probably easier if it was someone like Aki. She's a good friend. He likes her. She deserves the world. That's why he wouldn't be able to hate her or feel envious which would be a small mercy.
But he also can't fault a stranger to fall for Ichinose. Domon had never considered himself to be a jealous person and yet he wants to have the right to feel this emotion. In some way, it's a way to uphold the illusion of being undeserving of taking up this space.
(In the end, Domon is afraid of a rejection, even if he can't admit it to himself.)
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.
.
âAre you okay?â
Ichinose's voice drags him out of his thoughts. He looks confused by his absent-mindedness, but also curious when Domon doesnât share his thoughts. While they do respect each otherâs privacy, they donât tend to keep secret.
âJust thinking.â
âOkay. If you need someone to talk to, Iâm here.â
Well, that's as reassuring as it's frustrating. Isnât this the problem? But again, itâs not his fault, so Domon just smiles â nods -, assures him that he already knows that.
And eventually, when Domon feels ready - knows what he wants - then heâll go to him and talk.
(He's never been selfish, but for once, he's longing for Ichinose to wait for him.)
Trying to get back into writing, but Iâm not sure if Iâll finish anything in September.
I will do a daily writing challenge in October (fictober, unless I decide to go for a different event, maybe whumpTober??), however I will do it traditionally and for myself without posting. Though if any of you are interested, I might post scans of the stuff Iâve written (bonus points: you can see my mediocre handwriting...)
Something like OCtober would be fun as well, but Iâm not in the mood Iâm afraid :âD
It really has been five years, huh? I know that some people write these 40k in a year or maybe a month, but considering all the other works I posted over the years, I think itâs not too bad.
It feels weird to mark this series as complete, but I need to be a bit selfish.
Thanks to those who read the series. I hope you had fun with the little family I wrote about.
If your dialog feels flat, rewrite the scene pretending the characters cannot at any cost say exactly what they mean. No one says âIâm madâ but they can say it in 100 other ways.
Wrote a chapter but you dislike it? Rewrite it again from memory. That way youâre only remembering the main parts and can fill in extra details. My teacher who was a playwright literally writes every single script twice because of this.
Donât overuse metaphors, or they lose their potency. Limit yourself.
Before you write your novel, write a page of anything from your characters POV so you can get their voice right. Do this for every main character introduced.
here have 10 pieces of writing advice that have stuck with me over the years
every characterâs first line should be an introduction to who they are as a person
even if you only wrote one sentence on a really bad day, thatâs still one sentence more than you had yesterday
exercise restraint when using swear words and extra punctuation in order for them to pack a punch when you do use them
if your characters have to kiss to show theyâre in love, then theyâre not in love
make every scene interesting (or make every scene your favorite scene), otherwise your readers will be just as bored as you
if youâre stuck on a scene, delete the last line you wrote and go in a different direction, or leave in brackets as placeholders
donât compare your first draft to published books that could be anywhere from 3rd to 103rd drafts
i promise you the story you want to tell can fit into 100k words or less
sometimes the book isnât working because itâs not ready to be written or youâre not ready to write it yet; let it marinate for a bit so the idea can develop as you become a better writer
a story written in chronological order takes a lot more discipline and is usually easier to understand than a story written with flashbacks
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
A/N: I'm back! This story is headcanon heavy which just means that these players interact just because I think they could play in the Italian league. This includes a story about Fudou as well as Fideo and Rococo because I didn't want to post those two on their own. I tried to make it as coherent as possible and also added some stuff so there are new scenes for those who read the short stories on tumblr. I hope you like it!
Tags: Friendship, Professional football players, Social Media, team dynamic, vacation
A/N: I always write Fideo&Rococo as platonic best friends once they play together in the Italian league and sort out their differences after their first match. But I just thought 'hey, what if - ' and this happened. Honestly I wrote this on a whim because it sounded fun. Takes place in a possible next year FFI
Tags: friendships, no romance, attempt at humour,
Edgar has seen enough relationships change over the course of time, especially when it comes to football. While you can try your best to stay in contact with other players, some circumstances â a different line-up for example â made it a bit difficult.
(He himself had just recently admitted to Endou to be fond of Teres, so there is no denying that.)
Sometimes, however, he is surprised as well.
After the opening ceremony, the teams are allowed to mingle and greet each other for a moment without the audience present; the emotions are always a bit high after the excitement, but they wouldn't get a chance like this until it was over.
Teres had greeted Edgar first before he plans to drag him over to say hello to Fideo and maybe challenge him again. However, both stop on their way when they see the scene in front of them.
Orpheus' Captain is talking to Endou.
Which was to be expected. What comes as a surprise was Rococo standing behind Fideo, arms over his shoulders so that he has him in a loose hug, and chin resting on the top of his head. Endou doesn't bat an eye at this but it's Endou so they don't see why he would.
âDude, dudeâ, Edgar hears someone yell and a second later, as expected, Dylan throws an arm around his shoulder and pulls him close, âsince when are those two all buddy-buddy?â
âI have not even the slightest clue.â
It's the truth. Fideo isn't the type of person he keeps contact with after the tournament and Rococo is still almost like a stranger to him since they had no match against each other.
Though that has never stopped Dylan from making friends with the other teams â to be fair, he also always assumes that they win, so of course he plans to befriend the other block and the team they might face in the final.
âDylan, stop bothering Edgar before everything even starts.â
Dylan fake gasps, letting go of Edgar to turn to his Captain who stands next to Teres.
âBothering my favourite person? Well, technically second favourite, but, you know, my favourite person who isn't on our team. I would never do that.â
Jonas, the Captain of the German team, saves Mark from answering. Not on purpose though. He just meant to greet Philip and wish him good luck, and seems as confused as his fellow captains upon seeing this.
âThis is so weird.â
âWhy?â, Pierre, showing up out of nowhere like usual, wants to know, âwe wipe the floor with each other all the time, why can't they get along?â
âI mean, there is a difference in an equal match and the one in which Orpheus didn't have a chanceâ, Jonas tells Franceâ Captian, rolling his eye when Pierre suggests to just ask them about it.
Before anyone else can interrupt, Teres walks over the rest of the way. Meanwhile, Endou had pulled Rococo along to greet Roniejo and his team. Fideo seems happy to see him and shakes his hand, though Argentine's Captain doesn't wait for him to ask any questions.
âSomeone made a friend without us, hm?â
Fideo shrugs. At least he seems to be aware that it seems weird to them. Though he doesn't really seem ashamed of it.
âWe exchanged letters. He's a nice guy, you can't really stay mad at him.â
âIs that so?â
Edgar looks sceptical. Which Fideo realises, but he isn't really sure how to react to that. Thankfully, Teres comes to his aid. Unfortunately, however, he seems to enjoy this moment. He puts an arm around Edgar's shoulder and grins at Italy's Captain.
âDon't mind him, he's just jealous that he didn't get to hug you.â
Offended, Edgar glares at him.
âWhy would I be jealous of that?â
âOh, I give great hugs! But Rococo does so as well, it's because he's so tallâ, Fideo plays along, and then grins, a bit mischievously, âdo you want me to ask him to hug you?â
âI obviously do not want that.â
âA shame.â
âWhat's this, are we bullying Edgar already? I though we're going to wait after our first victoryâ, Pierre comments.
âAren't you going to save your captain?â, Jonas wants to know after he finally managed to exchange a few words with his friend.
âNoâ, Philip replies, âit does him some good.â
âYou're all so cruelâ, Mark says, but doesn't help Edgar out as well.
âEdgar!â
They all turn when they hear Endou calling for England's Captain, can't help smiling when the defending champion is this excited (and to be fair, Edgar isn't really opposed to see him either). Rococo is a few steps behind him, talking to Queraldo, though he's looking up when Fideo calls him.
âHey, Rocco, they think it's unfair that they don't get to hug you.â
While Queraldo raises an eyebrow, Rococo looks at each of them, wondering how they came to talk about that. Not that he really minds.
He moves over and â to his horror, Edgar realises â looks like he actually means to hug him. But Edgar is nothing but a gentleman and definitely not a coward, so he smoothly steps aside and pretends to speak to Spainâs Captain who came to a halt next to Philip. Rococo doesn't seem offended (not even all of his own teammates like hugs), just confused.
Dylan pats Rococo on the back.
âDon't worry, Took me a long time until I was allowed to do that.â
âStill waiting for the day he murders you in your sleepâ, Mark says.
âI can't believe that he is one of the strongestâ, Jonas mumbles to himself.
âDudeâ, Queraldo says, maybe a bit louder than he should because it gets him the attention of the others â even Roniejo who stands a few feet away â placing his hands on Jonas' shoulders âI say this with all the respect as a fellow Captain: your character is as worse as Edgar. Hey, Rococo, whatever you do, don't annoy this two and Pierre together. They act like they can't stand each other but this European trio is not one you want to mess with.â
âOh. Okay?â
Teres gives him a short pat on the shoulder (and Rococo wonders if this is going to be a conman occurrence because he can't afford an injury as a goalkeeper if they keep doing that to his shoulder).
âCongratulations. If Queraldo informs you of our terrifying trio, it means he accepts you as part of the group and just looks out for you.â
Rococo exchanges a look with Endou who just shrugs, apparently confused as well. Weird. Oh well, at least it seems to be a fun FFI this year.
And while he'll make sure to enjoy all of their matches, this time he'll means to win.
Iâm not writing but longingly starring at my wips... and found out that I still have a MikoIzuTotsu story I havenât finished yet. Iâm very tempted to prioritise that one once I get back into a writing mood...?
Too hot to focus on writing... Iâm behind on my stuff but also donât want to post an incoherent mess after forcing myself to write. I think I call it a day and just... do nothing, itâs getting late any way.
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