At My Wits End

STILES STILINSKI | 16 | MEDIUM - DOPPELGäNGER | TAKEN I attend Beacon Hills High, my Dad's the town's Sheriff. I'm a lot more clever than you'll give me credit for. "I'm 147 pounds of pale skin and fragile bones, okay? Sarcasm is my only defense"

[deliriousderekdreams-blog]

So damn quiet.

Since when is this place a ghost town?

[hintofstiles]

Since we started having ghosts, duh.

[hintofstiles]

Fading Out - Self Para

Dear Journal,

This past month, I've been sort of M.I.A, I guess you could say? Well no, guess I could say cause you're just a book here, duh. Anyways, yeah I've been M.I.A. Not present. Mentally gone. I really don't know what's going on with me, I've never acted like this before and let me tell you, I absolutely hate it. Never have I felt so alone like I have been this past month. Let's go down the list shall we? Ryan left. He left me, after the like a million fucking times he said he never would, he left. What did I get? A note on my fucking pillow saying, "I'm sorry. I will always love you". You can imagine how upset I was when I saw that. I broke down. And guess who else left? Scott. My best fucking friend in the whole wide world, supposedly, he left as well. The time I really needed my best friend, he wasn't there. And now he still hasn't come back. Neither of them have and I seriously don't know how to feel about that. At first I was upset; hurt; broken. Now, I'm just bitter and angry. I hate them, I hate them and I love them so fucking much. I miss them, yet I never want to see them....I just want to know if they're okay. I mean Ryan, I kinda knew he was going to leave sooner or later, I did. I knew eventually he wouldn't be able to handle everything in Beacon and he would leave, but I thought he would at least tell me. I thought that maybe he'd even want to take me with him, I mean he told me he wanted to spend forever with me. How do you tell someone that and then break their heart by leaving them before forever even starts? And Scott, well he's been acting up for a while, but now he's gone and I don't know where and his mom is freaking out and I'm freaking out because all I need is my best friend right now. Especially now more than ever.

Oh, and the coup d'grace, my Dad's gone as well. He was transferred up north for a bit and they told him he couldn't bring me. That it was some special duty thing and if he did it, then when he comes home he'd be able to get a huge raise,and maybe even a promotion. Though I don't even know where the hell you go past Sheriff. But maybe it's like an Gov. job, I don't know, and I don't care. It's just me in my house, I'm all alone now and I have no control over everything. I feel so weak. My dad got shot the other week and had to be in the hospital for like 5 days. I didn't even know he was shot until after that because he wasn't answering me. I went insane, I have no idea what's happening and I have no control over it. I have no control over everything and I think that's why I'm Fading.I just can't do anything anymore besides sit here, feel weak, and cry about it.

I know I have friends, like Lydia, Allison and Amelia and other people, I know I do. But....they're not....they're not the one who've always been there and I just can't bring myself to even interact them anymore, yet alone anyone else. That's why I've been so M.I.A lately. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I'm fading and sooner or later...like a light, I'll be out.

[thehuntressallisonhm-deactivate]

Chill, I'm pretty sure this requires an arrow to be harmful.

[thehuntressallisonhm-deactivate]

Sorry? You’re lucky he has good reflexes or else you would of shot him in the back of the head.

[hintofstiles]

Yeah, but I didn't so shush! We will never speak of that time again, okay? Not unless you wanna end up like he almost did! -smiles;

[brettgrant]

Marilyn at your service.

[brettgrant]

Thanks Stiles, not too bad yourself.

[hintofstiles]

I try my best, though I would say you have my beat in the sexy department. Just barely though.

[hintofstiles]

Fashionably late to this shindig.

[goodlooksandmagic]

I’ve had too much already. But, let’s go get another one. I don’t want to remember tonight when I’ll wake up this morning.

[hintofstiles]

You never want to remember anything, and as much I'm for that...are you sure you're fine, Ame?

[hintofstiles]

Fashionably late to this shindig.

[runaway-reyes]

You and many others.

Nice costume, Stiles.

[hintofstiles]

Are you one of those people?

Thanks, though I was hoping you'd be my Catwoman. We need to coordinate.

[thehuntressallisonhm-deactivate]

Chill, I'm pretty sure this requires an arrow to be harmful.

[thehuntressallisonhm-deactivate]

It’s not even loaded. And to be honest, I think we figured out you’re more dangerous. Would you like me to bring up the time you almost shot Scott when playing around with a crossbow?

[hintofstiles]

Well I'm just saying, you scare me when you hold any weapon. And hey, I'm not even that dangerous that was just a simple point of inexperience with weapons. Besides, he was fine wasn't he?

[hunting-archibald]

Am I late?

[hunting-archibald]

She’s around here somewhere. 

[hintofstiles]

Or I mean, I could be her, haaayy. Or him if that's what you're into.Don't mind me I'm drunk.

[hintofstiles]

Fashionably late to this shindig.

[elenascats-blog]

Looking good, Stiles.

[hintofstiles]

Not so bad yourself, Elena, you're a what exactly?

[hintofstiles]

Fashionably late to this shindig.

[goodlooksandmagic]

You and one hundred others. 

[hintofstiles]

Really, that many? Then we'll have a grand ol' time!

[hintofstiles]

Fashionably late to this shindig.

[shinhyextlou-deactivated2015022]

Well someone has to do it. Interesting costume, I may add.

[hintofstiles]

And it has to be me! Nice choice yourself, I was wondering who'd be my Catwoman tonight.

[thehuntressallisonhm-deactivate]

Chill, I'm pretty sure this requires an arrow to be harmful.

[hintofstiles]

Allison, be careful! In your hands, all arrows are harmful.

[spencerhastingshm-deactivated20]

I decided to dress up as a sexy nerd and be done with it. Cheers to Halloween. 

[spencerhastingshm-deactivated20]

[hintofstiles]

Spencer, coming as yourself isn't much of a costume.

[hunting-archibald]

Am I late?

I figured Tarzan was an appropriate costume.

[hintofstiles]

Where's your Jane at?

[brettgrant]

Marilyn at your service.

[hintofstiles]

Oh, Wit-ermore, beautiful as always.

[hintofstiles]

Fashionably late to this shindig.

And guess who spiked the punch!

[hintofstiles]

Stiles Halloween Costume - Sexy Batman