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it's not a "hear me out" IT'S A HOLD ME BACK.
OKAY SO I've been obsessed of a Snom Tenna as a little grub, and @ abugsvoice (on twitter) is cooking a whole winter tale like AU with it.
Anyway I'm in my winter arc, and I have tons of doodles, several wips about Frostenna, so EXPECT MORE. I KNOW I WANT.
ââË.â signed in lipstick - spencer reid x bomshell!reader
đŹđČđ§đšđ©đŹđąđŹ a dazzling new face struts into the BAU, mistaken for everything you aren'tâuntil you shatters expectations, cracks patterns no one else can, and leave the team reeling in your wake-- specifically a fellow genuis.
đ°đđ«đ§đąđ§đ đŹ bombshell!reader here we COMEEEEE, spencer's a mess, social anxiety is afraid of reader (a first!), typical cm violence, morgan is lowkey a little sexist.. but its for the plot trust, just a lot of flirting from reader's side
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đđźđđĄđšđ«đŹ đ§đšđđ i have SO MANY ideas for these two. buckle up and enjoy the ride cus its gonna get GOOD
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the BAU bullpen hummed with its usual quiet chaosâphones ringing, coffee steaming in the corners, papers rustling. a silent tension roaming every corner quietly as the conference room buzzed.
the bullpen wasnât quiet often, but it definitely was now.
everyone was following a routineâ their routine. schedules carefully crafted into a safety net for many, and a distraction for others
the first thing they noticed was the soundâ the click of heels across the polished floor, steady and unhurried, like a metronome demanding attention. then came the silhouette: dotted satin shirt nipped at the waist, skirt that barely toed the line of professional, lipgloss glowing like a warning sign.Â
you moved like the space was yours, like youâd been there a thousand times before, even though no one had ever seen your face.
you didnât carry files. you carried some form of coffee in a dotted porcelain cup (of all things), lipgloss that had transferred on the rim.
the kind of impractical luxury that screamed high-maintenance. you set your things on your assigned deskâ definitely not unaware of the rest of the team's curious eyes.Â
âsecretary?â morgan was the first one to break the silence of their gazes, smirk tugging at his mouth. he turned to emily âsheâs gotta be new.â
âobviously she's new,â emily shot him a look but didnât fully disagree. âif sheâs a secretary, sheâs the most overdressed one Iâve ever seen.â
jj hid a laugh behind her coffee.
spencer didnât say anything when you walked in. or after morganâs teasing and the rest of the team's teasing.
he just watched.
quietly, observinglyâ one could maybe even think he was judging although truthfully, he wasn't.Â
at first, he easily assumed you were another visitorâ a new admin, maybe, or someone lost on their way to the conference rooms. but you didnât move the way most new transfers did. therefore, the possibility of you being a new secretary was high.
secretaries (especially in the bau) loved to shine through polish and wax. they performed with looks, seeking reactions just like the ones you were obtaining now.Â
and the way you set your cup down like it was a claim, was a little jarring if he was being completely honest.
maybe you thought you needed the confidence for the first day.Â
he found himself watching longer than he meant to.Â
âwhat are weââ garciaâs bubbly voice died almost immediately. âholy smokesâ who is this stunning specimen of a human being walking through our door like they just stepped out of a magazine cover?â
ânew secretary,â jj mumbled.Â
spencer spoke for the first time since you appeared. his voice felt foreign. âsheâs very... put-together.âÂ
âand that, my darling genius, is a crime all on its own, how is anyone supposed to be that flawless and still act like theyâre not aware of it?â garcia whispered to spencer, eyes twinkling
and put-together wasn't half of it. there wasn't a single hair out of place, your clothes looked almost painted onâ not a single wrinkle in sight, your makeup was soft. you looked clean and polished, prim and proper.
you wore a black skirt that stuck elegantly over your legs, paired with black kitten heels, and a white silk dotted shirt that caught the light with every subtle movement. your hair, shiny and curled to perfection, was held half up, half down, framing your features in a way that was a little daunting.
there wasn't a single thing about you that didn't seem ethereal. Â
morgan was already half out of his chair by the time you placed your purse on the empty chair at your desk, easy grin in place, hands tucked into his pockets like he owned the room.
âyou look a little lost,â he said smoothly, lowering his voice as if he was doing you a favor. âneed me to show you to HR? or your desk?â
you turned and the team watched the interaction from the sidelines. your face was blank while you blinked at him.
for a beat, you were genuinely confusedâ a nervous yet silky laugh bubbled out. Â
âmy desk?â you echoed, tilting your head.
âyeah,â morgan said, grinning wider. ânew secretary, right? i can help you find your spot. this place is a maze.â
secretary.Â
he thought you were a secretary.Â
a breathy laugh left your lips as your gaze fell to the floor. you could feel something bubbling under your ribs, warm and prickly, and you had to bite the inside of your cheek to keep anything from spilling out.
âoh..!â you said finally, scoffing humorously. âright! my spot. how thoughtful.â
morgan nodded, a charm oozing from himâ far too familiar for someone like yourself. âhey, no problem. we all had a first day once.â
you merely hummed, watching his stance with a sharp eye. âwell itâs much appreciated,âÂ
just as he opened his mouth to speak, you were already turning your back.Â
âi hope to run into you more often,â you turned your attention to the case files, leaving him blinkingâ half-amused, half-unsure.Â
morgan strolled back over to the others with that signature grin. he dropped into his chair, stretched out, and shot emily a look.
âsee? still got it. helped the new secretary find her bearings.â
jj raised an eyebrow over her coffee cup. âsecretary?â
âmm-hm,â morgan confirmed, leaning back like he deserved a medal. âfirst dayâs rough. place is a maze. lucky for her, iâve got a good sense of direction.â
emilyâs lips twitched. âand ego.â
spencer glanced up from the file heâd been pretending to read, brow furrowed. âso sheâs the new secretary?âÂ
he was asking as if the question would give him more to work with.Â
morgan shrugged. âpretty thing in heels with the coffee cup? yeah. secretary.â
jj shook her head behind her mug, and emily outright laughed. spencer didnât say anything else, but his gaze narrowed just slightly, gaze flicking toward where you stood at the table, rummaging through your bag.Â
âtrust me,â morgan said, clearly pleased with himself.Â
â
âweâve got four victims so far,â hotch said, tapping a tablet with precise patience. âno clear connection between themâ professionally or socially.â
âexcept the notes,â jj interjected, her voice cutting through the murmur. âeach one has that number sequence⊠whatever it means.â
morgan leaned back in his chair, folding his broad arms over his chest. âreid? heâs usually the guy who spots the crazy patterns no one else sees.â
spencer opened his mouth to respond, but before he could, hotch stood at the head of the table, hands folded, gaze scanning the room.
âthis case is unlike the typical profiles we see,â he said, calm but firm. âthe victims appear unconnected. at first glance, thereâs no discernible pattern. but the notes left at each scene contain number sequences and symbols that suggest a deliberate psychological signature.â
âweâve reviewed the timelines, the evidence, even preliminary behavioral patterns, but standard methods arenât giving us a clear picture.â he paused, letting the weight of his words settle. âthis is a criminal whoâs intelligent, methodical, and likely testing us. we need a fresh perspective.â
morgan was the first to speak. âso⊠an outside consultant?â
âyes,â hotch said, eyes steady. âsomeone who can decode the patterns in ways we havenât considered yet. we called in an expert in behavioral neuroscience, forensic psychology.â
looks were shared amongst the table. âsheâs got experience interpreting complex psychological signatures. sheâs someone with a proven record in cases like this. her name is agentââ
the door opened, rather abruptly, slicing through the hum of the room. a pair of heels clicked against the floor, soft but deliberate and all too familiar, echoing in the sudden silence. all eyes turned.
you stepped in.
âsorry iâm late,â you said, voice smooth as silk but carrying the weight of authority, forcing the room to still itself. âi had to check a few preliminary patterns before showing upââ
âbesides, this place is a maze,â your eyes cut briefly towards derek. âwouldnât want to waste anyoneâs timeâ
everyone blinked. mainly because two seconds ago they were categorizing you as the new secretary and now theyâre finding out just how off their assumptions were.
that you were in fact the type whose mind could navigate the labyrinthine depths of a criminalâs psyche. and offer assistance to them.Â
derek looked mostly speechless, and entirely embarrassed.Â
you looked around the table, catching the puzzled gazes with a tilt of your head. âdo i have lipstick on my teeth or something..?â
spencer tried to focus on the case and less on your grand entrance. tried to ignore the way the faint scent of vanilla infected the room, wrapping around him, making his thoughts tangle.
he tried to ignore the way his eyes had tried not to take in any and every detail about youâ and failed spectacularly.
bold, upfront, unafraid. your audacity irritated him, like a sudden note in a symphony that doesnât quite belong. and yet, the irritation had a pull, a gravity that made him unable to look away.
hotch cleared his throat, undeterred by your teasing. âshe has a PhD in forensic psychology and experience in behavioral neuroscience. sheâs consulted on cases that involve complex psychological patterns and cryptic behavioral signaturesâcases similar to this one.â
the faint, almost imperceptible looks shared around the room was familiar to you.
a room of stunned profilers was far more stimulating than one of silence and empty assumptions.
let them see the firecracker version of youâ itâs easier that way, safer. better to serve them the image you choose than allow them to fill the gaps themselves.
turning back to the board, you continued, voice measured but keen. âthese sequences escalate in complexity. whoever devised them isnât merely committing crimes; theyâre testing us. every step we take is anticipated. every inference we make is observed. itâs a psychological signature in its own right.â
spencer listened, mind scribbling down frantically and racing through probabilities and patterns. âtesting us⊠deliberately leaving patterns for investigators?â
âyes,â you said, flipping through a file with a practiced grace. âand the more predictable you are, the easier it becomes for him to manipulate outcomes. a criminal of this caliber thrives on logic exploited without foresight. thatâs why i think we must anticipate, think two steps ahead, and never let ourselves be cornered.â
âhuh,â morgan muttered. your gaze landed on him, and you cocked your head to the side.Â
âyou look a little lost,â you said, quoting him for the second time since you walked in. âdo you need me to rephrase anything?âÂ
secretary.
of all things.Â
derek opened his mouth to speak, before deciding that it would be best not to respond. guilt clawed at his insides.
when he shook his head you smiled sweetly, the kind that promised both competence and intrigue. you turned to hotch, who could already tell just how insane you were going to drive him.Â
âshall we see where this trail leads?â
hotch nodded, clearly not surprised in the slightest as to why you were recommended to him. âletâs get to work, then.âÂ
and with that, the room shifted into motion, the hum of anticipation replacing discussion.
âÂ
after hours and hours of visiting crime scenes and looking through evidenceâ you found yourself perched on a small stool beside the interrogation room at the local sheriffâs office, legs crossed comfortably over one another.
you had your small pocket-sized mirror on you and were reapplying your lip gloss with grace and fluidity.
you felt a pair of curious eyes glued to the side of your face from across the already limited room. without directing your own gaze toward him, you closed the mirror and smiled.
âi might have to start thinking youâre staring at me for reasons that arenât intellectual, doctor.â
you turned, watching him fumble and freeze at your comment. âi-i wasnâtââ
you were smiling. you caught the pink tint on his cheeks and, for the first time since you arrived, you allowed yourself to actually indulge in the fellow so-proclaimed genius.
lanky frame, hair a little too messy for someone who seemed so precise, eyes that darted as though forever chasing thoughts faster than words could catch.
you noticed the intelligence instantly; it clung to him like static, sharp and unrelenting. but there was something softer too, something almost fragile in the way he held himself, like he was both entirely certain and utterly uncertain all at once.
intriguing to say the least.
âfor a genius, youâre awfully easy to fluster.â a pedicured hand raked through your hair as you stashed away your small mirror and lip gloss.
âiâm not flustered, i justââ his words ran thin, and you tilted your head, batting your eyelashes almost methodically. âdo you talk like that to everyone?â
âyou mean do i flirt with everyone?âÂ
spencer was taken completely off balance by your boldness and for some reason he found his brain turning into mush.
there was no way of comprehending how his brain just scrambled the second you spoke. he had the theory it's because he never worked well aroundâ statistically and objectively speakingâ beautiful women.Â
when he gave no answer, you raised a teasing yet questioning brow.
âwould you want the answer to be no?â
âwhat?! i didnât sayââ spencer found himself growing frustratingly anxious. he clamped his mouth shut and didnât answer, sucking in a deep breath through his nose, looking as if he were praying to some god to put him out of his misery. he only grew pinker, if even possible.
âdonât tell me you blush this easily.â poor guy couldnât catch a break. you were almost starting to feel bad.
almost.
you looked him over once more. he didnât occupy the space most men did. or at least the one most men tried to. those who attempted to keep up with you and tried to win you over by boasting, acting larger-than-life, and playing saviors to all your problems.
spencer didnât really seem like that type of person.
he just stood there, and sure he looked like he was about to have a heart attack, but he allowed not only himself but you to exist within that reality of his.
and then you started to feel bad. so you huffed a laugh and jutted your chin toward him.
âi was told youâve been obsessing over the numbers.â
âi⊠i try to analyze timelines and behavioral patternsânot obsessively.â he clarified, caught off guard by his shaky voice and hands.
he was fidgeting with his fingers. why was he fidgeting?
you pursed your lips. âhmm⊠interesting. four victims, unrelated professionally, yet each note carries a numeric code. most would dismiss it as random, or perhaps the signature of a sadistic mind.â
you tapped your arm, referring to the sequence. âbut the numbers correspond to psychological triggersâspecific fears, stress responses, deeply ingrained vulnerabilities. whoever orchestrated this knows human behavior intimately.â
spencerâs eyebrows shot up. âwaitâso youâre saying the sequence itselfâitâs a behavioral profile? embedded within the numbers?â
you straightened, nodding in his direction. âexactly. most agents focus solely on physical evidence or timelines. but a criminal this meticulous? heâs leaving breadcrumbs of his own psychology, a trail of thought for anyone perceptive enough to follow.â
he nodded to himself, mumbling a small huh in its way.Â
âyou donât agree?â your voice was light, though there was a sharpened edge beneath it, an invitation for him to step into the ring.
spencer shifted, eyes darting to the floor before returning to yours. âi just thinkââ he hesitated, fingers twitching again, âitâs unusual for someone outside the bureau to catch that. most people⊠they donât see patterns the way we do.â
you tilted your head, smile curving just enough to unsettle him. âgood thing i'm not like most people.â
his lips parted like he wanted to respond, but no words came. instead, he blinked at you, as though you were another puzzle he wasnât sure he wanted to solve too quickly.
youâre name was called by hotch, pulling you out of the little bubble you created. you cleared your throat, looking up at him. âwe need your assistance,âÂ
you turned back to Spencer, masking your discomfort with a smile that could kill many. âsee you later doctor,âÂ
â
the day had been long but, thanks to your help, the case had been solved.
papers were filed, evidence bagged, and the echo of late-night exhaustion lingered in every corner of the baus office. agents packed up with the mechanical efficiency of people too used to closing horrors neatly into folders.
you slipped your phone back into your bag, the last trace of yourself gathered before you left.
the job that brought you here was finished; technically, so was your place in it.
a large part of you was pleased. you didnât like spending more time than necessary in one place, leaves too much space for people to actually see youâ make assumptions and figure you out. so leaving was probably for the best, although emily and rossi are great at holding conversations.Â
âheyââ you didnât make it three steps down the hall before morgan intercepted you. his grin was sheepish, his tone softer than youâd heard it. âlookâ i owe you an apology.â
your brows arched, amused. âfor what exactly? assuming i was here to file paperwork and fetch coffee?â
âyeah,â he admitted, rubbing the back of his neck with uncharacteristic awkwardness. âi misjudgedâ you proved me wrong. hell, you helped close this thing faster than we couldâve without you. i shouldâve given you that credit from the start.â
you let the silence hang for a beat, watching him squirm, before offering a small smile. âapology accepted, agent morgan. just donât make it a habit.â
you felt a certain fondness towards morgan. he looked like he hid a lot inside beneath all the charm and flirtatious attempts.Â
a part of you understood all too well.Â
he chuckled, relief flickering across his face, and tipped his chin in a gesture that almost looked like respect. âfair enough.â with that, he left you to the hallway.
spencer was there when you turned, lingering in the glow of the fluorescent lights. he looked tired, shadows carved under his eyes, but still sharp in that restless way of hisâ like his mind refused to settle, even when the work was done.
âso,â he said lightly, almost too lightly, âi suppose this is goodbyeâŠ?âÂ
you tilted your head, a teasing smile ghosting at the corner of your mouth. âtry not to miss me too much.â
the flush hit his cheeks faster than you expected, and you nearly laughed at how easy it was. but instead, you let the silence breathe, softer this time, not so sharp-edged as it had been before.
âyou were⊠helpful,â he finally managed, and for all his brilliance, it sounded like heâd stitched the words together clumsily, afraid of what they implied.
âcareful, doctor,â you murmured, stepping past him with a brush of your shoulder. âkeep giving me compliments and i might start thinking you want me around.â
he went still, completely undone by the suggestion. you didnât look backâ though you didnât need to. you could feel his stare trailing after you, the weight of it lingering like static long after you pushed the door open and stepped into the night.
and though the case was closed, though youâd technically said goodbye, something in your chest told you it wasnât the last. you knew, as surely as you knew your own reflection, that youâd see him again.
CLOSER - S.R
pairing = cuddly!spencer + cuddly!bau!reader
summary = Hotel booked before flying back home and Spencer couldn't wait to get his hands on you after the long case. He canât get close enough, not with his arms around you, not with your legs tangled, not even with his hands under your shirt and his face tucked against your chest.
a/n = not the first cuddly Spencer fic </3 I can't get enough sleepy fluff with him. please interact and comment! requests open and check out my account if you enjoyed !!!
Jill.
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