a goodbye.
i mean, it was a long time coming i guess. i have lost motivation to write, to do the stuff i like, to .. exist i guess ? i just don’t feel alive anymore , and it’s pretty sad.
i just want to say i’m sorry to everyone i’ve met. i really tried to get up on my own feet after my parents’ death but i guess it didn’t work out. my siblings can’t even deal with me anymore, i’m truly all alone in this world. but i guess it’s what i wanted when i pushed everyone away from me. i thought that i could at least feel a bit more welcome, closer, like myself again if i continued rping, but i still pushed everyone out and closed myself in and bottled up my emotions.
i’m really sorry if i’ve ever done or said anything that has ever made you feel uncomfortable, that was never my intention. i’m really sorry for the way i am, but i guess this is me till the day i die.
i also want to thank you all for being there during my darkest days and thank you so much for making me smile even when i didn’t want to. you all will have a special place in my heart and i will never, ever forget any of you, since it’s impossible.
if i ever return here, to this fandom, to this community, i will let you all know.
take care! ♡
love, ela.
