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19 something up 🩷🪽

[historyfr33k]

please hold me, and be my bad dreams catcher.

for the holes in my heart you're a patcher,

soothing hair scratcher

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wg 125

current estimate 135-138

plan- take it flow focus on eating quality food- fresh produce, fruits, and less bread

read that quality sleep, but not oversleeping helps and stay active- maybe do an ab workout idk

goal is gradual changes anyways posting this for myself

[historyfr33k]

dating a man is scary, what if he decides to grow a beard?

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happy earth day, from me to all of you

[emotionaleating]

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

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[historyfr33k]

happy easter 🐣

just remember it's okay to let go of things

i might be in the wrong, but I don't want to go to my extended family events anymore- since I was little we went to Easter, Thanksgiving, Christmas together and hosted at various aunts and uncles houses. after my parents divorced my brother and I would go together, our mom staying at home alone on the holidays and we don't see our dad. (this is my dad's side of the family's events)

im just starting college and have for years now felt out of place there and would rather not go anymore with my brother. he enjoys going, seeing the family and the cousins he has his age and can talk with, but it feels like I have no one.

he just expects me to talk with some of my aunts and cousins grandma, and compares me to my dad or one of my uncles ex wives (who he never met) when I sat alone for some of Easter. I'm just not close with them and I don't want to go there for the holidays anymore.

in the car ride right now he said all these things and is upset I wanted to leave early and he talks about how next thanksgiving he is going to stay really late (in his mind then he'll have me drive back with our aunt).

I told him to have fun going alone to the holidays

I get that I should just put up with it and see them even if I don't want to. but I guess I'm flawed and would rather not

[kyleblackpaw]

i feel like we as a digital society have forgotten the important rules of the internet

Don't feed the trolls

Never give out personal information

Anonymity is the best defense

Don't click suspicious links

Don't click popups and ads

Just because it's written doesn't mean it's true

You are responsible for your own experience

There is porn of everything, act accordingly

[historyfr33k]

this friendship bracelet was lost in less time than it took to make it.

Isn't that ironic?

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who would ever forget how good fruit tastes?

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Brantwood Camp 2024

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Make it so, it won't hurt so bad... When the hurt comes back...

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"Never trust a candy house! It was only a matter of time before someone made them pay for what they thought they were getting for free." -Jennifer Egan, The Candy House

[metamorphesque]

a you-shaped hole in the universe Celia Paul, Ocean Vuong, Owen Gent, Alejandra Pizarnik (trans. Yvette Siegert), Karman Verdi, Edna St Vincent Millay

[ardent-reflections]

When anxious, uneasy and bad thoughts come, I go to the sea, and the sea drowns them out with its great wide sounds, cleanses me with its noise, and imposes a rhythm upon everything in me that is bewildered and confused.

Rainer Maria Rilke

[historyfr33k]

i really wish i could be a girl who journals consistently but everything i do is inpulsive and all my journals are blank.