♦ an unsung melody (is mine for safekeeping) (7/7) ♦
► tags/warnings: pregnancy, past character death, angst, childbirth
► words: 3812
► A/N: The long-awaited conclusion!
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“Oh, you’re finally home!”
Erika smiled, her voice carrying a cheerfulness that didn’t quite match the exhaustion in her eyes. It takes effort for her to stand up from their couch, waddling over to Nevra as he stood by the entrance of their little home.
Nevra rushes to close the short distance between them, leaning down to kiss the top of her head. His arms wrap tightly around her shoulders as he breathes her in, and his eyes flutter closed as he ground himself in her presence.
That was how Erika knew his day had been particularly difficult.
With her due date approaching, and Eldarya’s growing unrest, Nevra more often than not would only creep into their new, shared home at odd hours of the night. If he came in at all.
Those days were usually the worst.
The ones where she’d wake up in the morning and find the other side of the bed to be too cold. On the nights he did return, she could see how beaten down he seemed to be, carrying alone the weight of unspoken burdens. It has been a source of strife, lately. Nevra was too afraid of something going wrong to burden her with any more stress, and she refused to be so helpless, wanting to do anything to help.
“I would’ve gone over to you,” he murmured into her hair. “You didn’t need to get up.”
“I needed to move anyway,” Erika said lightly, squirming out of his embrace just enough to study his face, her eyes flickering over him to check for any signs of injury. “My back was starting to hurt from sitting so long.”
Nevra frowned, brushing her hair back with a tenderness that still made her heart flip. “I thought your back hurt if you stood too long?”
“That too.” She grimaced “Honestly, my back hurts regardless of what I do. My feet too— But having to rest so much is making me antsy.”
“I can tell.” Nevra locks the door behind him, double-checking all the locks to ensure the door is properly secured. Chrome complains about how often he has to herd you back home. Lately, just seeing you outside makes him nervous.
“You’re not that much better.”
She chuckled. Despite it bordering on annoying, Nevra’s increasing protectiveness could be, on occasion, terribly endearing.
Karenn had taken some time to explain it: it was a vampire thing. Being this close to the due date, his instincts asked him to make sure she was somewhere safe and familiar when their child was born. He’d be more over-protective in the weeks following the birth, but at the very least his attention would also be focused on their baby instead of just breathing down her neck and stopping her from walking to their kitchen for a glass of water.
Personally, Erika believes Karenn made it up to justify his, and her , bouts of overprotectiveness.
In truth, everyone around her had been on edge since she hit her third trimester.
The morbid part of Erika’s mind thinks they might be preparing for the possibility of death in childbirth.
Eyes linger on her even more often than before, and friends, old and new, seem a little too willing to stop by to reminisce.
No one tells her, but she knows. She knows all too well.
Nevra’s hands find the small of her back, as he gently guides her to the couch again.
He’s exhausted, but winding down with her at night is the best part of his day.
With her pregnancy, he has avoided missions that require too much travel. As Huang Hua’s right-hand man, it’s not like such things are often expected of him anyway. It’s easier to delegate tasks, but now that Erika is on the home stretch, and the baby can come at any moment now, Nevra has been spending long hours getting his affairs in order, ready to go on leave when their child is born.
He has no hope of being able to properly go on leave, but he wants to make sure the amount of work he has is minimal, instead of the mountains of paperwork he usually has to deal with.
“You know I can’t help it. And the closer we get to the date…” He trailed off, his eyes flicking to her rounded belly with a mixture of awe and anxiety. She doesn’t comment on it but could sense a nervous energy to him, simmering just below the surface, just barely suppressed.
“How are you feeling? Have they…”
He starts, the words winding down into nothingness as the hand previously on her back moves underneath her shirt, caressing the taut skin of her belly. Erika cringes slightly at the coldness of his hands. Nevra is likely doing this both to greet their child and as a ploy to warm his hands. He has always been attracted to her warmth, which is especially annoying when her base temperature has been up, she’s feeling unbearably hot all the time, but her beloved partner insists on being all over her like a sentient weighted blanket.
“The usual,” Erika replied, resting a hand over his. “They’re still too cosy in there to want to leave, making me miserable. I swear, If they don’t decide to come out soon, I’ll reach in and pull them out myself.”
Nevra’s lips quirked into a small smile, but his lilac eyes betrayed him, still soft with worry. He didn’t speak for a long moment, his thumb tracing slow, rhythmic circles across her skin, following any tiny movement he could feel in her belly.
He used to complain about how sombre she could be. About all the what-ifs that tormented her, the dark jokes she made at her own expense as a consequence of her past, and all the terrible misfortune that coloured their time together.
Things got much better after her pregnancy progressed and she got too focused on their move, obsessing over every little detail of their shared home, to concern herself with these things. It felt like a burst of optimism, being allowed to focus on the future for once rather than being tethered to her painful past.
But as her due date approached, it seemed like things became sombre again.
The light dimmed, a heavy fog settling in between them. She could only walk towards the light, hoping that it would lead to something good, rather than more tragedy.
“I started writing in the baby book again,” Erika said, breaking the silence. Her voice was light, almost casual, but there was a tremor underneath it. Nevra’s hand stills for just a moment before he forces himself to continue tracing shapes in her belly.
The rhythm is broken, however. Too stilted to seem natural.
“Just little things,” she murmured, looking away. “The way you hum when you’re stressed. How you always bring me fruit for breakfast, even though you hate how it smells, the lyrics to lullabies from back home…”
“It sounds like you’re writing a farewell letter,” Nevra said softly, his voice tight.
She swallows, hard, there’s a beat where the conversation dies, too long, too uncomfortable when things around him felt so easy beforehand.
“Maybe I am.”
His grip on her tightened, his fingers curling protectively over her stomach. She distantly recognises the shapes he’s tracing as protective runes.
“You shouldn’t,” Nevra pleas, and she can’t bring herself to look at him. “You’re going to be just fine.”
“I just… want them to know me,” she said, her voice breaking. “In case I don’t—”
“You will,” Nevra interrupted, his voice firm. “You will know them. You’ll be there for everything. And if you can’t finish that stupid book, I will. I’ll fill every single page... They’ll know you, Erika.”
She nodded, her throat too tight to speak, and leaned into his shoulder. He held her, a little too tightly, as the baby stirred between them, both of them lost in their thoughts.
—
It starts gradually.
She never expected labour to be like this. It doesn’t really matter how many baby books she read, or how many times medics walked her through all the steps of labour, the idea of it that always seemed to come to mind came from all the movies and shows she watched back home.
Things always start suddenly. A sharp pain, then your water breaks, then all hell breaks loose. In a neat twenty-one minutes, you’re holding your perfect, healthy, clean baby.
Reality is much, much more painful than fiction.
For starters, there’s a lot more waiting involved.
Waiting and counting.
Waiting until the contractions get strong enough, waiting until they’re timeable. Waiting until they’re close enough apart and last for long enough.
Waiting until the water breaks, until her cervix is dilated. Until they can give her something to manage the pain.
Waiting, waiting, waiting .
It’s worse than the nine months that came beforehand. The wait seems far longer, heavier, and more anxiety-inducing.
Nevra was there the whole time. Labour lasted far longer than either expected, but he refused to leave Erika’s side, or their shared home until his firstborn was safe in his arms. He must’ve snapped at Eweleïn three times, begging her to do anything to do anything to mitigate Erika’s pain, before she threatened to kick him out and only let him back inside once it was finished.
He was much more compliant, then.
The early morning hours blurred together as Erika gripped the edge of the bed, her breathing ragged. Each contraction tore through her with an intensity that made the world tilt, and yet it wasn’t the pain that filled her with dread—it was the knowledge that this might be the end of the road.
The room was silent, save for the occasional rustle of fabric and Eweleïn’s hushed instructions. Erika can only barely process the flurry of movement around her as nurses and healers rush into position, getting vials filled with colourful potions into a table and preparing the station where her child is going to be examined. Why they hadn’t bothered to do so in the hours she was waiting for her cervix to dilate enough for her to be able to push was beyond her.
Erika’s laboured breaths filled the air as she clung to Nevra’s hand, her grip tight as she bordered on desperation. The birth had been harder than anyone expected, threaded with extreme caution. Her mind felt too hazy to properly process any words that weren’t “ push” and the vague notion that she had lost a little too much blood.
She was exhausted and hungry by too many hours of labour and in terrible pain. Nevra whispered soft assurances into her skin, which made her feel a little better, even if she couldn’t understand them.
“Almost there, Erika,”
Eweleïn said, her voice firm but gentle, though even she looked strained. As exhausted by the experience as they all were.
Erika nodded, her hair plastered to her forehead with sweat. She couldn’t waste energy on words. All she could think about was the fragile life she was bringing into a world that had never shown her mercy.
“You’re doing amazing,” Nevra said, his voice trembling as he pressed a kiss to her damp forehead. “Just a little longer, sweetheart. I’m right here.”
She nodded, her grip tightening on his hand.
“Nevra,” she whispered, her voice barely audible. “If I don’t—”
“Please,” he cut her off, his voice sharper than he intended. He softened immediately, brushing her hair back, guilt flashing in his eyes. “You’ll be just fine. You’re stronger than anyone I’ve ever known, and you’ve come so far..”
Erika closed her eyes as another contraction hit, her scream muffled against his chest.
Eweleïn’s voice broke through the tension.
“One more push, Erika. You’re almost there.”
Part of her wanted to scream at her old friend. It seemed like she was insisting that it was just one more push for hours.
With a final, desperate cry, Erika bore down with all the strength she had left, and then there was silence.
For one agonizing moment, the world seemed to hold its breath, Erika’s heart pounding in her chest as a familiar dread washed over her, until the piercing, shrill, wail of her newborn shattered the stillness.
It’s like they all breathe a sigh of relief.
Her body slumps back into the pillows, finally allowed to relax after what felt like an interminable effort, but she is still trembling from the aftermath.
Then she cries.
Out of relief they both shared, that the worst was over. That she managed to overcome the biggest hurdle and they both pulled through. All those months of dread, all those nagging thoughts that tainted every happy moment were finally proven wrong.
Nevra let out a choked laugh, his own eyes wet as Eweleïn finally handed the baby to Erika.
Her hold on the newborn is a little awkward, but with her Eweleïn’s assistance, she’s able to hold the baby securely in her weak limbs. Her dear friend wipes away her tears with a proud smile, holding back her own tears through a thin veil of professionalism.
"It's a girl"
The elf announces, her giddiness is as infectious as her smile. Eweleïn lingers around the new parents for a brief moment, the three old friends relishing in the victory of a battle well-fought, before she leaves them, caught up again in the flurry of activity inside of the room. Their time with the newborn right now is limited, before she's weighed, cleaned and thoroughly examined, but Erika is glad to have this little moment of privacy. To be inside of this perfect little bubble with Nevra and the child she finally gets to meet.
The vampire regards them both with awe, his eyes lighting up as he watches their tiny, bloody little baby squirm in her mother’s arms.
“You did it,” he murmured, his voice raw with relief. “You’re both here. You’re both safe.”
Maybe in a few years, when this is all long past them, Erika will manage to feign being offended at his blatant disbelief, but right now, she echoes the sentiment.
They’re both there, and safe .
She had grown too used to things being good, too good , and then being ripped away from her.
In her eyes, the past few months, where she got her life back with Nevra, was an anomaly. She lived in fear, waiting for her time to run out, for the inevitable other shoe to drop, for another world-ending event to wipe away all of those she had loved.
But now she holds her baby close. Her precious little girl, with her father’s pointy ears and her mum’s nose, allowing herself to enjoy the moment with no reservations. No catastrophising. Even if it doesn’t last, and the fear of their future crushes her again, she allows herself this one thing.
The weight of her survival was heavy, but for this moment, it was worth it.
For her.
—
The stars were scattered across the night sky as Erika sat on the edge of the cliff overlooking the forest, weeks later. The baby, swaddled and asleep, was cradled safely in her arms. The aengel had insisted on being left alone, though Nevra had hovered like a shadow at the edge of her vision, reluctant to leave her or their daughter’s side for even a moment.
She allows him to walk the familiar path with them, a few steps behind. It’s a little game— He can join, just as long as he stays out of her view. If she spots him directly before they reach their destination, he needs to go home.
There isn’t much one can do with a child this new, but Erika manages. As soon as she could, she started taking her baby on little walks around the HQ, strapped to her chest, covered in soft clothes she hated to wear. Her walks usually happened at night, when the baby couldn’t stop crying and she needed to do something to keep herself sane when everyone else was asleep, and they were both away from prying eyes and well-meaning advice she frankly did not want.
She started by walking to the centenary tree, sitting by her own statue, talking to an old friend who was long gone, hoping the dim lights and her soft voice would soothe her child to rest. Later, when she was strong enough, her feet took her to the same cliffside that had shaped so much of her recent life.
Erika was no longer fragile from the delivery, but she wasn’t whole either.
The same powers that had once healed her so quickly now seemed sluggish, and she couldn’t shake the feeling that something about them had changed , evolved, much like everything else in her life.
Her bond with Leiftan still existed, and on the worst nights she could still sense him, sending her comfort in the only way he knew how, but he had mostly blocked her off. Her senses had grown mostly attuned to her child, helping her understand her daughter’s needs without fumbling as much as she feared she would.
It’s strange to think that she’s a mother, now.
It only feels real now that her baby is in her arms, but it’s still an adjustment to be given this new title, to the way that people now perceive her.
Nevra joined her without a word, sitting close enough that their shoulders touched. He said nothing at first, allowing her a moment of quiet if she wishes, or to tell her what has been bothering her.
He just wanted to be nearby.
“Funny, right?” Erika’s voice cuts through the night, barely above a whisper, not wanting to wake their child. “We were sitting here, seven months ago. In this exact spot. And I told you I was pregnant.”
He smiles, almost despite himself, filled with a sudden nostalgia. She knows he’s just as exhausted as she is.
“The best, most terrifying night of my life.”
Nevra announces, which makes Erika laugh, almost despite herself.
“You didn’t seem scared .”
“I was.” He admits “I still am.”
Why wouldn’t he be, after all?
Parenthood was scary. The moments leading up to it were, and the reality hit her much worse.
She loved her daughter more than words could say, but sometimes she felt like she had a hard time truly bonding with her. Feeling like herself again.
It’s a strange thought, that defined so much of her time after she woke up from her sacrifice. Others perceived her as a saviour, as a living legend.
The last Aengel.
Her friends regarded her as a long-lost friend, someone they loved but couldn’t quite remember. An echo of a different time.
She was always so lost in the different expectations. In all the titles she was given, and how much they clashed with the reality of who she is. Or at least she perceived herself as being.
The truth, she found, is that she, herself, doesn’t know the definitive answer.
Perhaps it was presumptuous to once think she did.
She’s a mixture of everything and nothing at all. Beyond all the suffocating titles, the weight of expectations, her fears and her story, she’s Erika .
The only way to feel like herself is to be herself. To stop pretending like she’s okay and like she isn’t afraid for the sake of others, to stop acting like the perfect sacrifice. The heroine they all craved.
It’s who she wants her daughter to know her as. It’s something she’d known for a long time, what was harder was to be that person, not just simply write down those words in a journal.
“She deserves more than this,”
Erika said finally, voice barely above a whisper.
“More than what?”
Nevra tilted his head.
“More than a mother who will probably leave her before she learns how to walk,” Erika replied, bitterness lacing her words. “More than a father who has to juggle the world’s problems with raising her.”
Nevra didn’t flinch. He had always been steady like that, even when everything else felt like it was crumbling. He was just as scared as she was, she often reminded herself, and only recently had grown comfortable in expressing those fears to her.
“You’ve survived everything thrown at you so far,” he said, his voice firm but kind. “I know you don’t want to be the saviour again, but you’ll do it. Because you’re you.”
“That’s what I’m afraid of.”
She looked at her daughter’s face. As how her plump cheeks are squished against her mother’s chest, deeply asleep, so serene, so full of life, and felt her heart ache. How could she bring herself to love this fiercely again, knowing it could be taken from her in a second?
Nevra rested his hand over hers, where it lay against the baby’s form.
“She has all she needs, Erika. She has parents who love her, and people from the HQ and beyond who’d lay down their lives for her in a second if asked.” That makes her chuckle. “And most of all, I know that if something were to happen to you, you’d fight like hell to come back to us. You have before, back when you had much less to fight for.”
He said simply, the weight of his sincerity breaking through her walls. He’s right, she knows he is. She just needed to accept it.
She closed her eyes, letting the tears come.
When the sun rose, Erika stood at the edge of the forest, her daughter in Nevra’s arms as he waited nearby, shielding the baby’s eyes from the bright light. The horizon blazed with gold, and for just a moment, it felt like clarity.
It was her lighthouse, her way out of the fog that obscured her vision, out of the darkness and weariness that had once consumed her.
Erika spent so long fearing her death that it was hard to accept that, for once, she was allowed to live.
Things wouldn’t always be easy, and the calm she now knew wouldn’t last forever, but there was no use in suffering for what might be and losing all the joy of the life that she painstakingly built for herself. She had her happy ending all along, but in her fear, she didn’t even realise it.
She was tired of losses and of every single milestone being tarnished by her fear of the future. So, for now, she looked to the present.
Erika turned back to them, her family , and smiled through her weariness.
“Just a little longer,”
She whispered, more to herself than anyone else. When she smiles, she finds it to be sincere.
The road behind them was filled with darkness, perhaps, but she looked to the light that guided them.
I'm probably late to announce, but I'm planning to be doing a 30-day long challenge. I was inspired by a topic on the Hungarian forum, but I might be late to submit my work there. However, I still would like to do it. (If you have an account, you can see the post for yourself here.) Feel free to participate. Prompts are below the cut:
Day 1: Welcome to Eldarya: Show us your Guardian's everyday appearance!
Day 2: Looking back: Show us the appearance of your Guardian before coming to Eldarya / the City of Eel / the Guard of Eel.
Day 3: Your Crush invites you to a romantic dinner: dress for the occasion!
Day 4: Head to the gym to exercise, couch potato! Dress up appropriately accordingly to your fighting style!
Day 5: Blend into one of the other two Guards! Try to use the colours of the chosen Guard for complete success! (If your Guardian isn't a member of any of the Guards, dress as a member of any of them.)
Day 6: Dress up as your favourite Companion!
Day 7: It's time to get ready for bed: Put your Guardian in pyjamas or nightwear!
Day 8: Girls' party: bring some champagne and party dresses!
Day 9: The snowy mountains await you to explore them, so dress warmly!
Day 10: Introduce your Guardian's mother!
Day 11: Introduce your Guardian's father!
Day 12: Head to Karuto's Kitchen and take him through the Gates of Heaven with your cooking. Choose an appropriate attire!
Day 13: Since friendship is very good: Try to cosplay one of your fellow friends!
Day 14: Valentine's Day: Surprise your sweetheart with a seductive outfit!
Day 15: Explore the warmer regions, and put on light clothes!
Day 16: Picnic in the Fountain Park: Dress for the occasion!
Day 17: You're visiting the Fenghuangs: dress in Asia-inspired clothing!
Day 18: To the battlefield, Guardians! Prepare your armour and weapons: Dress up accordingly for your Guard's fighting class!
Day 19: Introduce your Guardian's future child/ren!
Day 20: Head to the Land of the Fairies: Drink the magic potion and grow fairy wings!
Day 21: You've received an invitation to Eel's masquerade ball. Dresscode: elegant look. Take out your ball gowns and masks!
Day 22: Head to the Land of the Humans: Dress your Guardian up in a 21st-century outfit as they would dress in the human world.
Day 23: Till death do us part: Dress up as a bride or bridesmaid!
Day 24: You've been promoted to the Light Guard. You will lead the Guard of Eel for a day: Show us how your dignified Guardian commands authority!
Day 25: Potion of Genderbending: Dress like a man! (If your Guardian is a man, turn him into a woman.)
Day 26: A Day at the Astrologer: Dress up your Guardian accordingly as their or your zodiac sign!
Day 27: Introduce your Guardian's sibling/s! (If they don't have any, show us what the sibling/s would have looked like if the Guardian had had any.)
Day 28: Potion of Race changing: Dress up as a different race.
Day 29: The Chiefs of the Guard are forming a band: What position would your character occupy in this band? Show us!
Day 30: The Eldaryan Moon Festival is nigh: Dress for the occasion!
I'm a little uncomfortable that I did this edit anyway.
No more asking me to do something like another author if you are not the author yourself. I often turn down requests like this, but this one caught my eye.
Thank you @mooniet for allowing me to do this. After reading, immediately run to her and leave comments on her work. She tried, but got nothing in return. She deserves any good comment guys.
Пайпер — довольно высокая женщина, около 252 см. Во всем ее облике сильно выделяются только голубые полупрозрачные хрустальные конечности. Даже при слабом освещении видно, как ее кожа переливается и блестит, напоминая северный снег.
Из одежды женщина предпочитает темные тона синего; ее редко можно увидеть в светлых тканях. Часто одежда сопровождается узорами или драгоценными камнями, которые украшают все ее наряды. Металл в ее одежде почти всегда состоит из светлого и темного серебра, крайне редко можно увидеть золотые украшения. На поясе и волосах она носит не просто украшения, а традиционные украшения и амулеты. На поясе висят два длинных амулета, а в волосах традиционные подарки от мужа в честь определенных событий в их жизни. Также в ее волосах можно увидеть пучок из двух нитей бус - их подарили Лэнс и Валькион. Почти всегда за ее спиной или на плечах сидят два саркана, два младенца пришли с ней из родного мира и сопровождают ее по сей день. Детские сарканы называются Угга и Урри.
For those who can't see the text: Piper
A refugee from another world. Her tenacious and hardened character gives her a huge advantage over many rulers of Eldarya, and her strength and influence allow her to help those who need her help. Piper is not a member of the El Guard, but it is not uncommon to find her talking to the villagers or the Heads of the Guard. She is the adoptive mother of Lance and Valkyon, and it is said that everyone should be wary of her wrath.
Piper is a minefield for many players. It is easy to build a dialogue with her, but in the same way it can be strongly omitted. To prevent this from happening, you should follow a couple of rules.
As I wrote above, Piper is a minefield. Your relationship with her depends not only on the choice in the dialogues with her, but also with a couple of other characters!
Appearance
In Origins, Piper is absent and is on a completely different side of Eldarya. But a couple of times she is referred to by the guards as the "Crystal Lady".
Also, Valkyon can mention her a couple of times if you unlock a special dialogue, provided that your relationship is above 50%.
During the theft by Lance, on the island, Fafnir will ask Lance about his mother, if he consulted with her when he sailed here. Only in the evening it will be possible to learn a little more about a woman if your relationship has reached 30%. Lance will tell you that after the blue sacrifice, he and Valkyon were raised by a foster family of dragons from another world who took care of them and raised them as their children.
In the New Era, your meeting will take place in the second episode. When you walk with new acquaintances and go outside the walls of El, you will stumble upon a woman near a tree. She sat in the grass and stroked the sarkans that fell asleep on her knees. In the first dialogue, scrap can be increased to 20% or reduced to -10%, depending on the answers. Further, Piper will appear in other episodes, but more in the role of an adviser or listener. Whether she will be your friend depends only on your relationship with her.
I don't know how to edit my tumblr posts at all. Therefore, I strongly apologize for the fact that all the information goes in one gulp, without a beautiful design, as was the case with Mooniet.
I just finished her and I like it very much. There are probably lots of mistakes. I did 8 expressions for now.
For those who don't know, a while ago I thought about making a sprite for a potential daughter of Chrome and Karenn. She is present in my canon along with some other LI's children. This is a child version of her. I'm no fashion expert so I apologize if the outfit seems odd.
it’s January 1st, 2024! i’m looking forward to this new year. there’s so many things i want to accomplish and so many ways i’m going to better myself. i’m my own dreamgirl and i’m going to continue to bring her to life & start romanticizing every little thing, every single day. this year = no doubts, no procrastinating and no negative self talk. i will only speak about myself honestly, in the best way.. i’m smart, i’m pretty, i am an ItGirl, i’m THAT Girl, i’m bold, i have a fun and sweet personality, i’m sassy and i have just the right amount of attitude! lol ఇ … this year i will turn my dreams into my reality · i will visualize my highest self and show up as her · my vision board WILL come to fruition! everything i want is already mine. 2024 is going to bring me so many blessings, opportunities, happiness, peace of mind, love, healing, good news, wealth and happiness. only positive vibes from here on out and when it comes to things like negativity, drama, bad vibes or rude people… me? put up with that? Ugh As If!
is this a dream? it feels unreal…he feels unreal…i know it’s very soon to be catching feelings but i enjoy his company…i enjoy his voice a lot, i will to hear more of it! i am going to hear him say my name so dearly again. his voice is so sweet and satisfying to hear! he is so handsome, and he’s kind to me! he’s kind to everyone but it felt different when he was talking to me. he was very attentive towards me even when i wasn’t paying attention, i want to be his friend! i will be his friend! justin? justin! his name fits him well! i like the way it sounds when it comes off my lips, when it rolls off my tongue. he’s obsessed with me, he can’t help but think about me all the time. right now he’s thinking of me, thinking of how to approach me when we see each other again, thinking of how to greet me. it makes sense to do so, how wouldn’t do the same whenever they meet me. he wants me fr, and i want him fr too. we’re made for each other, it’s only common sense. life with justin is literally a dream, a dream that i don’t wanna wake up from.i am constantly on his mind, that it makes him sick that i am not even there in front of him. justin is constantly texting me and checking up on my everyday. i am that important to him. i always get what i want, i have everything that i desire. i am the most beautiful and baddies bitch on the planet earth. i can not escape his mind. he thinks about me every second of the day. justin has a crush on me, it’s so obviously. he thinks i’m the prettiest. i know i’m the prettiest and how couldn’t stop and stare at me, IM FINE ASF! I am enough and he knows this! I can’t blame justin for having a crush on me! i’m pretty, i’m intelligent, and i’m funny! we’re are always together, we get along so well! he craves my attention so much like omg! justin becomes clumsy when he’s around me, i think it’s because i make him nervous! he always enjoy leaning towards or getting closer to me in which i don’t blame him! I SMELL GOOD ASF AND IM PRETTY ASF!
Como parar de consumir conteúdo de lds e começar a praticar?😭😭
oii, anjo!
você provavelmente já sabe como a lds funciona.
então, apenas pare de rolar a tela do tumblr por horas em busca de alguma fórmula mágica.
você também já deve saber como aplicar a lei, então apenas saia do tumblr, comece a aplicar e volte para nos contar suas success stories!
o que você estaria fazendo se já tivesse seus desejos realizados agora? consumindo mais e mais ou apenas estaria em paz e fazendo algo que gosta?
saia um pouco do tumblr e se divirta, se distraia, assista alguma série ou filme
você apenas precisa aceitar/reconhecer seu desejo como verdade, então apenas viva sua vida sabendo que sua imaginação/3d é a única realidade, as circunstâncias não importam, você já tem o seu desejo, já está feito!
espero que não esteja confuso e que possa te ajudar em algo ♡
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