— Story summary: You should have died that day. Instead, Joel Miller found you.
After the Millers saved your life, you became something of a miracle. Now you’ve been given a second chance, and the sweetness of your new home is overshadowed by the coldness of one of them: Joel. Unfortunately for him, Tommy assigns you to work by his side, as the assistant he claims he doesn’t need.
This basically translates to: Joel is a leading patrol man and he has to see you every day. <3
(Jackson!Joel x F!reader)
— Warnings: 18+ / MDNI / Big age gap (Joel is 60, reader is mid 30s — pick your age) / No Y/N use / story based on TLOU Part I and II, but with creative liberties taken ofc it's a fic let's have fun.
Part one: "When I close my eyes, it feels like home"
Part two: "In a lifeless memory, there you belong"
Pairing: Joel Miller x Y/n
Warning: SMUT! 18+. DBF!Joel. Semi-rough sex. Age gap (reader is 21 & Joel is 51)
A/N: Oldie but a goodie. Follow my TikTok for sneak peaks of upcoming stories @nora_malfoypotter. My request are still open!
Catch Up: Part One
Part Two:
It had been a month since Joel came. He’d been sleeping in the room next to mine, with me in his bed. I’d never failed to wake up before everyone else, get one good fuck before leaving and going to my own room. We’d been very careful with our little charade. We never made too much eye contact when we were around my mom and dad. We didn’t touch each other unless we were alone. Everything was normal until night hit and the doors closed. The only problem was I hadn't told him he was my first time. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. He’d brought it up a couple of times. He would ask me what I needed to tell him the first time he’d ever fucked me, and I’d just blow it off by blowing him. That always seemed to work.
Joel was sitting by the pool. The stars lit up the night sky. The porch light was dim, and the water in the pool glistened as the moon hit almost too perfectly. He looked peaceful out there. I could tell he was thinking. He’d always stare off and breathe lightly when he had something on his mind. He wasn’t the type of person to share his thoughts, though. He wanted to keep them to himself.
I take a step forward and try my best to open the sliding door as quietly as possible, but I fail. He snaps his head. His eyes meet mine. A tear pressed in the corner of his eyes trying to break free. I want to turn around. Walk right back into the house and give him his space, but I don’t. Instead, I walk closer to him. I ping in my heart, and my stomach turns. Joel has always had a temper. I’d hate for it to be set off by me trying to comfort him.
“What are you doing up?” He asks, his voice soft and a bit strained.
“You sound like my father.” I laugh, “What are you doing out here?”
Joel clears his throat. I watch him as he pushes back his emotions.
“Today would’ve been Sarah’s birthday.” He says, his head hanging low.
Joel moves his feet around in the water. I can see the walls he’s breaking down for me. It’s obvious he doesn’t want to, but it’s happening on its own. They’re crumbling down, and he wants to fight it. Joel just doesn’t have the energy to put up the fight.
“She was beautiful.” He says, “She was my purpose for so long. I never thought she’d go before I did. I would try my life for hers if I could.” Joel says.
A pain strikes in my chest at his words. His daughter, Sarah. My father told me about the day she died. He told me about the start of the outbreak, and how much it affected people. Especially Joel. I could never imagine Joel so broken, so seeing him like this is new. It’s hard to watch. I just want to grab him and remind him how much he’s loved. I want him to know that no matter what, someone is here for him. He always has someone to talk to, even if it’s just me.
“I’m so sorry, Joel.” I say. My voice is barely above a whisper.
“I’ve only ever talked about Sarah to one other person.” He said. “Ellie was the first person to get me to open up. I miss her too.”
“Where is she?” I asked.
“She’s with my brother, Tommy. She finally made some friends, and decided she didn’t want to leave this summer.”
I look down at the pool. I can’t stand to see Joel cry. It hurt.
“You never told me what you were going to say a month ago.” He says, “I may be old, but I can still remember.”
I laugh a little.
“I know, but I don’t think now is the right time.”
Joel moves his hand and brings it to my chin. He moves my head to look at him. His eyes are stained red. He licks his lips as his gaze falls from my eyes to my lips.
“It’s the perfect time. It's just us two. We’re already talking.” He said.
Joel takes his thumb and rubs it across my bottom lip. I close my eyes, enjoying his touch. I know that if I tell him this, it might be the last time I ever feel him touch me like this. He may never look at me the same.
“Joel, did you not sleep with me because I was a virgin? Was that the only reason you wouldn’t touch me when I was 18?” I ask. My throat gets dry. I can feel my nerves trying to force my body to shake.
“Yes, and no.” He says.
What the fuck does that mean?
“I’m going to need more than that, Joel.”
Joel takes a deep breath in. He was silent for a second. Anticipation building between us.
“When I first met you, you were this innocent girl. There was so much life you still had to live. You hadn’t experienced much, it was obvious.” He says, “I could tell by the way you looked at me that you wanted to explore more of your life. You wanted something that I couldn’t give you. It wasn’t because you were a virgin in the literal term, it was because you were a virgin in life.”
“You were my first, Joel.” I say.
My face and ears begin to grow hot. My breath shaky as I look at him, trying to read his face. He gives me no indication of what's going on in his head. He doesn’t look mad, or sad. He doesn’t look disgusted. Just a blank face. Emotionless. Joel.
“Did you want that?” He asks. Joel’s eyes begin to soften as he tries to find the correct response for what I just told him. There was none. I wanted my first time to be with Joel. I wanted someone experienced and older.
“Yes.” I whisper. “Every time I thought about having sex, you were the one I pictured inside of me. I never thought it would happen. I almost settled for the neighbor’s boy, but he was an asshole. I wanted it to be you.” I told him.
“You wanted me to be your first. Why?” Joel says, a tear falling down his face. The first tear I’d ever seen leave his eyes.
“I don’t know. I didn’t want to tell you. I thought it would change things between us. I thought you’d never want to touch me again if you knew.”
Joel lets out a deep breath.
“It does change things between us.” He says. I feel my heart begin to crack, “But I don’t think I can quit you now, Y/n. I don’t know what I’m going to do once I leave. No one will compare to you.”
I could go with him. I could leave here and forget the life I had here to be with Joel Miller, but his and my father’s friendship would be at stake. My father would disown me and never talk to Joel again. I couldn’t do that to him, but for Joel.. No.. I couldn’t.. Right?
“Joel.” I say.
“Yes.”
“I’d leave.” I said to him.
Joel cocks his head to the side. His eyes narrow as he looks at me.
“What do you mean?” He asks.
“I’d leave, Joel. I can tell him I’m moving and I can leave with you. They’d never have to know.”
Joel lets out a soft chuckle. He places his hands on my knee and gives it a squeeze.
“I couldn’t let you do that.” He laughs.
“Why not?” I questioned him, “I don’t want to be here. The only reason I’ve stayed this long is because I’ve been a coward my whole life. I never had anywhere to go. I don’t want to be here anymore, Joel.”
“What if they find out? What happens then?”
“I tell them I love you.”
Joel stiffens.
“You don’t love me.” He says.
I do though. I always have.
“Joel.”
“No. Don’t say that. You don’t love me.”
Joel pulls his feet from the pool and stands up. He begins to walk to the door but I stand to my own two feet. Tears fill my eyes as my throat begins to tighten.
“I love you, Joel.” I yell to him, “I always have.”
Joel turns around and stomps toward me.
“Say it again.” He says. Joel’s jaw flexes.
“I love you.” I say quietly.
Joel grabs my face and pulls me into a deep kiss. His tongue dancing with mine. My brain becomes fuzzy. My body relaxes as his lips move with mine. Chills erupt over my body. He closes the space between us. His body pressed against mine as he kisses me. He pulls away, resting his forehead on mine.
“My room. Now.” He says, “I’ll show you just how much I love you.”
I run to the sliding door and open it. I move as fast as I can to get upstairs and to Joel's room. I leave the door open, hoping one of my parents won't walk out their room across the hall. If they did, they’d see me, sitting on Joel’s bed, a bit too eager for him to come up here.
Joel’s footsteps echo in the hall as he rushes up the stairs. He turn the corner, smiling at me when he saw me sitting on his bed.
“You listen very well.” He says, his voice husky.
Joel walks in and shuts the door behind him, locking it. He walks over to me and kneels down. His eyes trial up my leg and to my eyes. Burning with desire.
“The month I’ve spent inside of you has been one of the best months of my life.” He says, “I don’t want any of this to end.”
“It doesn’t have to.” I say to him, letting him know I’m still willing to leave with him.
Joel pushes my body down to the bed. Heat spreads throughout my body. Fuck, I love when he’s rough with me.
“Just lay there.” He says.
Joel grabs my silk sleep shorts, and pulls them down my body. He smiles at me once he sees I’m not wearing any panties. I grab the hem of my shirt, and pull it up my body and throw it to do the side.
“No bra, either?” He asks, as he leans over me. “You’re so good to me.”
I don’t say anything. I just smile. You’re so good to me. I want to be good to him my whole life. I want to give him more reasons to live.
“And you love me? How’d I get so lucky?” He says before pressing his lips against my neck.
Joel pulls his pants down. The belt hitting the hardwood floors and making me jump a little.
“You’re so beautiful.” He says, “You’re everything.”
“Joel.” I whisper.
Joel lines himself up with my entrance. I held my breath as he slowly pushed himself into me. A light moan leaves his lips as he fills me. Joel feels so good inside of me. I’d never felt more loved than I do when I’m under him. He makes me feel beautiful. He makes me whole.
“I love you so much.” He says. “I’ve loved you without you even knowing.”
Joel pulls out and pushes himself back into as deep as he can. A loud moan escaped my lips, causing him to clasp his hand on my mouth.
“You feel so good, wrapped around me.”
Only I get to see this side of Joel. The loving, soft Joel. He was beautiful. He was sweet. He was his true self with me. He let’s go with me.
“Fuck, Y/n.” He moans, as he fucks me slowly.
I move my hips with his. Matching his tempo he’s set. The feeling of his cock sending shocks of pleasure throughout my body. Only Joel can do this.
My moan’s vibrate against his hand. Joel’s movements speed up, making it harder for me to be quiet. He pumps into me, rough yet so gentle. I feel myself growing close. Climbing toward my climax.
“Cum on me.” He says, “I want to feel you cum.”
I close my eyes. My hands trailing down his back until they reach his ass. I nails dig into his flesh as I push him in and out. Joel’s groans fill my ears. The sound edged me closer and closer to my release. I inhale and let out a deep breath, my orgasm filling my body and releasing itself. Tingles spread from my core down to my legs. Heat from Joel collides with my body.
Fuuuuuck.
“That’s it, baby.” He says, talking me down, “Let go.”
Joel thrust into me a couple more times, before letting his own release spill into my body. I clench around him. My nails are digging into his back.
Joel’s movements come to a stop. His hand resting above my head as he stares into my eyes.
“I love you.” He says..
“I love you too.” I say back. A smile growing on both our faces.
“Before I leave, we’ll tell your parents.” He says, “We’ll tell them everything and then you can leave with me. I’m not going to lie to you father. I’m already betraying him, the least I could do is tell him.”
Reality starts to sink in. If we tell them, everything could go wrong. My father can’t make me stay, but he can hate me.
“I can’t do that, Joel.”
“You can’t, but I can. You won’t have to say a word. I’ll tell your parents and then we can leave. You can live with me.” He says, “This doesn't have to end.”
I grab Joel, pulling him closer to me. I hugged him. Scared of what can happen but excited for what’s to come.
“Let’s leave tomorrow.” I say. “I want to start a new life with you.”
When you bought your sex toys, you were told the wand was good for the p-spot too. Well, time to test that theory with your new boyfriend.
Written for @spnkinkbingo, Square filled: Cock Rings.
WC: 2464 Warnings: NSFW Explicit 18+ smut including oral sex, intercourse, anal play, anal fingering, sex toys, dirty talk, orgasm denial. (I am not even sorry about the gif choice. Context be damned.) On AO3 Thanks to my wonderful beta @letsby, sorry I’ve smut murdered you again.
This is the sequel to When I Think About You. Thank you so much for the feedback on the first part!
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The laugh track droned from the TV, interrupting the comfortable quiet in your bedroom. Dean snorted at the screen, his eyes a bright candy apple green versus the reflecting fluorescent. You glanced up from your iPad and smiled at your boyfriend. He was on his stomach, his shower-damp head towards the end of the bed. His feet were up in the air, donning his favorite “noods” socks but leaving the rest of him bare up to his black boxers. Your eyes flitted across the freckles on his shoulders and back, his pale, soft skin perfectly imperfect with healed scars among the tiny brown spots.
Mando fics @etchedbox Dust and @no-droids Rough Day have been living in my head rent free since i’ve read them and i was just itching to draw sweet girl and Din. Protective Din is my favourite ✨✨
I’m sure this won’t be the last time I draw them either heheh I have many ideas for other things I would like to draw
I’ve also been working on a spotify playlist that I listen to while I draw and keep adding to it for anyone interested
