Tied together with a smile

Hollie Rose || 21 years old You cry but you don't tell anyone, that you might not be the golden one

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[There shouldn’t have been silence, but at this moment everything seemed too important to say as they walked to her place. He needed to organize his thoughts before any of that could happen, as right now his mind was a mess. How easy things had been when they had first met, and that was bad enough considering the fact it was down to a car crash. Not for the first time he wondered what would have happened if Halloween never had happened. Would they never have met? Would Christmas not have happened? The last few months? Or was it fate or destiny and those things were always going to happen? He wasn’t a believer in either, but he couldn’t believe that there was a chance they were never going to have met. Not when he thought about the impact on his life that she’d had. As they walked in he was reminded of the time they’d come here when she still had amnesia. It had been one of the most painful things he’d gone through, not that he would ever have told her that. It hadn’t been anyone fault, just a horrible situation that had seemed endless at the time. He was hardly going to comment though, his own apartment wasn’t in great shape, he spent so little time there. Or was that just an excuse now? So much had changed since Christmas and in some cases he didn’t quite want to believe that time had carried on, it was just too difficult. Of course good things had happened as well, no one could argue with that. He nodded as she spoke, following her, but also hoping she’d explain just what had happened in the last month.

[hol--rose]

[Hollie sighed as Andrew didn't say anything. She couldn't help but wonder what was going on in his head right now. She knew that things hadn't been easy for him, that much was obvious, and part of her realized that she should have asked about the girls by now, or told him to go and be with them because she was fine. But she also couldn't do that. She couldn't bring herself to ask him anything because she was scared of his answer, but also because she wanted things to be able her for a little bit, which made her feel entirely selfish, but it was what she needed. She had grown tired of trying to look after other people, of putting everyone else before herself, and when she needed attention, people overlooking her because she still had a smile on her face. She needed a moment to break down, for him to comfort her. She needed a minute for just the two of them, so they could be together after so long.] Say something. [Hollie whispered. She needed to hear his voice, for him to tell her whatever it was  that he was thinking. She sat down on the bed once she had got to her room, but didn't take her eyes off of him, hoping that he would tell her something, or make her feel better by a simple word. Honestly, Hollie just wanted to see his smile, but she wasn't sure how possible that was right now. ]

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[Well that was as good an answer as any, but that wouldn’t make him any less worried about her. For a start she didn’t look all that healthy, but then who was he to judge on that? There were bags under his eyes, and he hadn’t shaved for a few days, yet he had still kept up with eating and at least trying to get sleep. Even if it had rarely worked, he had no choice. As she spoke he glanced away for a moment, realising his paranoia was actually right and people had been looking. Well that was lovely, people really did need to learn to mind their own business.] That sounds like a good idea [he replied as he took her hand and stood up. Part of him was aware that she had been out shopping before running into him, but if it was urgent or not he didn’t. At least in this state he could imagine her wanting to go back into the store anytime soon. Worst came to the worst there was enough delivery places in town, and he was back working again so could afford it. He was wondering how much she’d been eating recently, she looked thinner. Maybe he was imagining it and things there were fine, but there was a nagging feeling in his mind that just wasn’t going away.]

[hol--rose]

[Hollie nodded her head, and without another word, she began to walk towards her place. Her tears had stopped now, that was a good hing, but she felt utterly empty. She knew that locking herself away from people wasn't the answer, the past month had only shown her how bad that idea was, but she wished that she could listen to that and she could be the person that everyone knew her to be. She wanted to be happy and, usually, when she was with Andrew , she was at her happiest, or her saddest. There seemed to be no in between because he had a way to break down her walls that she wasn't even sure he knew. She couldn't pretend with him, no matter how hard she tried, she knew that  sooner or later, he would ask something or she would say something and she would break, she was just saving them a little bit of time by breaking down already. They walked all the way to the apartment in silence. She wasn't up for talking and she was pretty sure that he didn't know what to say, but once they got there, and she had opened the door and let him in, she bit her lip. Things hadn't changed much since the last time the two of them were there. The Christmas tree was still up, with the decorations, things were still tipped because of the quake, and there were wrappers everywhere. All of which Hollie couldn't find the motivation to put away.] Sorry. [She mumbled] The bedroom is much tidier. [She stated, tugging at his hand and hoping to lead him away from the mess of the room]

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[He wished more than anything that they were somewhere private, anywhere where they could talk properly without the feeling of hundreds of eyes on them. Maybe it was only him who felt like that, but it didn’t seem to be fading anytime soon. He chewed on the inside of his cheek for a moment] Because you want to, or because you believe that’s what everyone else wants you to do? [If there was one thing he knew for certain about Hollie it was that she always put people first. It wasn’t that that was a bad thing, in fact it was amazing really, except it was to the point of almost hurting herself. Just this once he needed to make her realise that she came first, he just didn’t know how to do it. He knew in the past Leo had been able to do it, but he wasn’t him. Honestly that stung a little, all he wanted to do was help her get to where she wanted to be, and right now he didn’t have even the slightest idea on how to go about that. There seemed to be no way to make her realise that just this once, she was the most important person.]

[hol--rose]

[It took Hollie a moment to answer, because she simply wasn't sure which of the two that it was. Of course she wanted to feel better, to make sure that people around her didn't worry, but she also wanted to get better for herself, at least she tried to convince herself she did.] Because I have to. [That was the simple fact of it all. She had to learn how to deal with it or she would only get worse, feel worse. How she had been the past few weeks, wasn't healthy, she knew that, and part of her wondered if people could see that she hadn't been eating properly, not that she would ask, but she couldn't being herself to look after herself, whilst she was in such a deep funk. She wanted to be better, because she wanted to be able to pretend like she was a normal human being again.] C'mon. [Hollie stated, suddenly aware of the glances the two of them were getting. She swiped at her face, catching the stray tears, and tried to pull herself together again as she reached out her hand to him] Let's go to mind? [She was aware of how much of a mess her place was, and how empty the cupboards and the fridge was because she couldn't find the motivation to leave her house, but she needed to get somewhere familiar, out of the way.]

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[There was something missing, something that for a moment he couldn’t quite put his finger on what it is was. But then it hit him like a ton of bricks. Hope, she had lost her hope. He knew better than anyone how important that was, with everything that had happened in his life he should have broken down a long time ago. Yet he had always hoped for a better future, at least for the girls. It was how he got up in the morning. But here and now… there was nothing. Frankly that was more worrying than anything else they’d had to go through.] Do you believe that? Honestly? [Ok so the wording there might have been a little on the weak side, but hopefully she got his meaning. Of course he wanted nothing more than to believe that this was just a set back, that sooner rather than later she would be back to her normal self. But believing that wasn’t fair on her. However difficult it was, he had to look at the facts here, and not just wishful thinking.

[hol--rose]

[Hollie sighed at Andrews question. She didn't know what she believed anymore, she didn't know what to believe in. She had tried to be the one with a smile on her face for so long, she just couldn't do it anymore. She was exhausted. She was so tired of trying to be okay, or pretending like there was nothing wrong. Part of her felt like running away again, to some other place, without saying anything to anyone, would make things so much easier. It might lessen her pain. If she didn't have to see Leos face, look at her like she was a child, or to see the pain in Andrews eyes when she looked at him. She was so done of being something tha she wasn't that she couldn't help but break entirely] I don't know. But i'll - learn how to deal. [She shrugged her shoulders as she spoke. She couldn't bring herself to lie to Andrew. She needed to tell him the truth because that was what you do with someone that you loved, and she loved him more than she had loved anymore else in the world. But part of her truly believed that he was better of without her.]

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[He glanced down for a moment at Lyvia’s name. It seemed that was a scar that wasn’t going to heal anytime soon. But now wasn’t the time to mourn her, she at least was with her husband, that was something. Right now, more than anything else, he wished he knew what was going through Hollie’s head, everything that was going through her head not just what she would admit to. But he couldn’t push her on it, not yet anyway.] You’re not pathetic, the earthquake was traumatic, no one’s just picked themselves up and walked away from it and god knows you had it worse than a lot of people. [First the amnesia and now this, it was like some cruel joke was being played on her and there was nothing he could do to end it. Of course being there would help, at least he hoped it would. She may not have said it, but he couldn’t believe that she wasn’t a little bit pissed at him for just disappearing like that. He knew he would have been vice versa, at least without knowing the details. But the rest of her sentence threw him off-guard. He knew how close they had been, hell there had been that damn article claiming she was in love with the man, but for him now to be acting like this? The whole thing was just incredibly strange. But what was he meant to do, he had never met the guy.] That’s nothing to do with the… whatever the problem he was having before? Things manifest themselves weirdly sometimes [though that didn’t seem like a good enough reason. Even when Andrew was at his worst he had always tried not to take it out from others, most people did so why was Leo doing it to her? Probably something he’d never get an answer to, but god knows she deserved it. Seemed they really had been going through hell the last couple of months.]

[hol--rose]

[Hollie listened to what Andrew was saying, but she couldn't bring herself to believe him. She was well aware of how pathetic she looked, and felt. It wasn't just the earthquake, and that aftermath, that made her like this, it was things that she thought she had gotten over, like her mother and her brother not talking to her, and her father trying his best but she knew that he didn't really wan t to be reminded of her anymore. She simply just couldn't take it anymore and nothing that anyone told her, that it would get better, that this was normal, was helping her. All she wanted to do was hide away somewhere. But now, after seeing him, she wanted him to come with her, even though she knew that was kind of impossible.] Can we not talk anymore? I don't want to talk anymore. I'll be fin- I'll be okay. Sooner or later. I'll be fine. [she shook her head, not sure if she, herself, really believed that. She wanted to, she wanted to believe that she was going to be okay that somehow, her head was going to fix and her hand was going to get better and she wasn't going to feel like this anymore, but she knew that it was more than wishful thinking and the hope in Hollie had simply died. That was the thing. Hollie had always been able to cling onto her hope. Her hope that her mother was in a good place ,that Andrew was happier without her, that Leo would get over whatever it was he had to get over, that Lyvia was happy. But she couldn't bring herself to believe that any more, because every time she started to believe it, something knocked her back down again]

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[He smiled weakly, knowing all too well that if they didn’t stop now then the conversation would just go round and round in circles] that’s probably for the best. [For a moment he watched her, the fact that she was still crying and it had been the sound of something breaking was worrying him more then he wanted to admit to. He’d thought that after this long things would have improved, or at least started to, but from what he was seeing here and now he was becoming more and more convinced that wasn’t the case. What he’d give to have a magic wand right now and be able to undo everything that earthquake had done. Actually undo everything that caused the people he loved pain, it was the earthquake alone. But this was reality, there was no magic that could undo this. All there was now were the survivors having to do whatever it took to go from one day to the next. As it turned out, reality was horribly depressing. In truth he wanted nothing more than to put his arms around her and tell her that everything would be alright, but how could he? How could he do anything after he had pulled away almost completely? He gently took her hand, hoping that she’d look at him] Hollie… what happened in there? [he tried to keep his voice gentle, but the truth was he was worried. Was she crying this much over a broken bottle or… well he didn’t want to think down the lines of an or, but there seemed no other choice].

[hol--rose]

[She was glad that he agreed with her. That was probably the first step to getting back to some kind of normalcy between the two of them. As he took her hand, she took it as a sign that things were going to be okay with them, and she moved closer to him, willing herself to look up at him, even if it was against her better judgement. She didn't want him to see her like that because she only ever wanted him to have good memories off her, even if she did feel like she was now wasting away to nothing, she still wanted him to remember the good in her. The things that made him fall in love with he, because maybe if he remembered them, she would find it easier to become that again. It took her so long to build herself up again last time though, she was afraid that it would be even longer this time and that he wouldn't have the patience to wait for her to get better.] I'm not coping. Not at all. I'm pathetic. This is pathetic but  I just - I think everything, with my mom, with my dad, with Lyvia - With Leo, you  know he's hardly looked at me the same since he had to look after me? Like our whole relationship has changed, even though I'm me again. And I guess this was just the final piece of the puzzle [Truth be told, she wasn't totally sure why she was this upset herself. She wanted to be able to do things for herself, but that didn't warrant a reaction like she had given. Hollie had always found controlling her emotions easy, something which was the norm, but since she had hidden herself away from the rest of the world, it seemed like she had lost everything that made her, her, and she had to find herself again, if she even wanted to. ]

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[He almost wished she would stop apologising, this hadn’t been her fault. All she had tried to do was cope, and he shouldn’t have just left her, he shouldn’t have just let her push him away so easily. But… it was that damn ‘but’ that was the problem here.] Hollie, don’t. This isn’t your fault ok? I knew you needed space, but I never meant to just disappear… well not for that long. There was just… [he closed his eyes for a moment, not really wanting to talk about it. If she asked then sure he’d explain, but just for a moment he could ignore it. That was all he wanted. There was a small plus to the passing of time; he’d improved his speech pattern. Of course it wasn’t perfect and he still tripped over long words, but now at least he could basically have a normal conversation without stammer or stuttering throughout. Well in theory, he was not doing so well here, but he just didn’t know what he could say to make this better] I’m sorry, I should have done… something and I didn’t [it was hardly a good enough excuse, and he was all too aware of that. But it was all he had right now. He couldn’t explain his demons right now, not after seeing her break down in a store. She was what mattered right now. But then again, she always was.

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[It was easy for her to tell that something was going on with him, something that he hadn't told her but sh refused to push it. She had llost that right when she had pushed him out of her life for a month and she needed to work hard to get that right bacj. If he chose to believe that she had done something or not, Hollie felt awful for not letting him in, in the few  weeks that had passed since her opperation. Hollie shook her head a little as he said that he was sorry. SHe wasn't going to let him say anything of the sort when she was certain that he hadn't done anything wrong. Part of her wondered if him leaving so willingly was because of the girls, and he couldn't take another thing on his plate and that was totally fine, he just had to be honest with her about that and tell her up front. If he told her  then she would leave him alone, for good. Or at least until he told her that he was okay again. That he wanted her in his life. Because, honestly, Hollie would've done anything for Andrew, and that was something she was certain would never change.] Let's just...stop apologizing. [She whispered, willing herself to stop the tears which still flowed freely. She knew that it was just part of dealing with what had happened, but she didn't want him to see her so vulnerable, not when she knew it would only make him feel bad for leaving.]

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[At least she agreed to outside, because anything was better than being in here with this audience. Of course one of their apartments would have been better, but his wasn’t really much of an option right now, and he wasn’t about to suggest hers. If only time could be reversed, go back before all of this happened, before Christmas when things were happier and there was a lot less to worry about. Not for the first time he cursed the earthquake from happening. Things might not have been easier, but they weren’t this complicated. As they sat down he heard her speak and for a moment glanced down at the ground] I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have just… [just what? Vanished? Not even tried? Battled his own demons? None of those he could actually say, even if all of them were true. But he owed her an explanation, or just something] I missed you too [ok so that wasn’t quite what he had wanted to say, but it was at least the truth. Because he had missed her, to the point it caused physical pain. But what was he meant to have done? He knew she had wanted space and all he had tried to do was give it to her].

[hol--rose]

[Hollie was at a loss of what to sa y to him, something that hadn't been the case for a while now. She knew that she should say something, that she should be able to talk to him without having to over think because she loved him. Even though the two hadn't spoken in a while, she did love him and she wondered if it was still the case for him, if he still loved her.] It was me - I shouldn't have blocked you out. I'm sorry. [He was the first person who she had seen that she could say, one hundred percent, that she wished she had kept closer to. Blocking him out didn't help her, in fact, she was pretty certain that it only made things worse for her. She was stuck inside her own head, twenty four seven, and it wasn't a pretty place to be, especially without someone who was able to break her out of it, like he was able to do.] I'm just a bit of a mess and you shouldn't have to deal with that. []She had done what she had always done, ran away when she thought like things would bee too much for people. She didn't want to have to be a burden so she took herself away from situations, even if it might have been harder for her to deal with.] 

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[Hugging her back was just instinct, it always would be and he knew it. But he hadn’t expected things to be this bad. He knew that he had been shit when it came to contact, but he’d assumed others wouldn’t have been. Had she been alone this entire time? He shouldn’t have stayed away; he had known that the entire time but… well. He could hear her crying, but how could he tell her things would all be ok? If she needed to cry then she needed to cry, and it was something he couldn’t imagine her voluntarily doing if someone else was there. But he all too aware of the other people standing there, it looked like they weren’t going to do the decent thing and walk away, well why would they? It was something to look at, and people did generally enjoy a show. However cruel it was] Hey, let’s go outside for a bit, yeah? [He made sure only she would be able to hear him, not wanting to give the circling vultures anything. By now he’d have assumed that they’d be used to people still struggling after the earthquake, but evidently not]

[hol--rose]

[Hollie wasn't sure if she and Andrew stopped talking because she needed the space, or because he was the one who needed it. She knew that she had started to push him away, but she didn't expect him to go so far away. She would still get a call from Leo every now and again, asking her if she was okay but it was radio silence from Andrew, and maybe that didn't help her. She had come to rely on him, the few months that they had been together, and without him was a big shock to her system. As he said that they should go outside, she nodded her head. She was suddenly aware of all of the eyes on the two of them and she wished that it was a more private place for her to break down completely. She knew that she should have figured out how dto deal with this by now, it was just a lot harder than she had ever expected. She removed her arms from around him and fought every urge to reach out for his hand as they walked out of the store] I missed you. [she mumbled, against her better judgement as she sat down on one of the benches outside of the store.]

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[Andrew sighed to himself, to say it had been one hell of a month would be an understatement. But there was no changing it, he knew that but it didn’t make it any easier to accept. It wasn’t that everything that had happened since Christmas had been bad, in fact the good things had been amazingly good, it was just the bad things had been horrendously bad. Messy was probably the best word for it. He was also aware how bad his social skills had been recently. He’d hardly spoken to anyone, Natalie aside, and wasn’t quite what he meant to do. Eliza, Cathleen, Avery communication just hadn’t happened. The worst situation had been with Hollie though; he knew she wanted space, but he hadn’t meant to just vanish like he had. She hadn’t deserved that but… well that’s what had happened. He knew he needed to fix it; he just wasn’t entirely sure how to right now. Of course fate always did have a funny way of stepping in when you least expected it to and as he heard the crash he turned to see her. For a moment he thought his mind was playing tricks on him, that it was another brunette girl and he was seeing what he wanted, but after a moment he realised that it was her. Seeing that people were starting to stare he quickly moved over, blocking their view as he knew how much she’d hate that] Hollie…

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[She wasn't even sure how long she had been stood there, staring down at the broken glass at her feet, she just culdn't will herself to move. She had tried to be strong, she had tried to make sure that everyone sow a smile on her face and not the broken little girl which she still felt like, but it was just one thing too much. She was sick of feeling to fragile all of the time, of having people stair at her like she was some invalid who shouldn't be allowed on on her own. he wanted to be the person that she was before Christmas, before everything went to shit. As she heard Andrews voice, she was pretty certain that she was imagining it. She had dreamt about him over the last month, hearing his voice pretty much everywhrre she went, but never being able to see him once she looked up. She was afraid to look up and not see him, but to see the people glaring at her, but curiosity won out in the end and ass her eyes fell on him, in front of her, she couldn't help but reach out for him and she wrapped her arms around him quickly ] Andrew..[She sobbed into his shoulder, clinging to him tightly, fearing that if she let him go, he would be anothing thing of her imagination]

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[Hollie looked down at her arm with a sigh. Now that the surgary hadn't worked, there really was no hope that she would ever get any feeling in it again and she was finding it harder and harder to adjust. She thought it would get easier, she had prepaired herself for that. But she just was never able to deal with the fact that she was able to only use one arm, to it's full caparcity. Just a moment ago, she had dropped her glass because she had tried to use her left arm to grasp it, having forgotten all about the fact that it had been useless for over a month now. It had been a busy month or so, and she had managed to cut herself off from pretty much everyone whilst she tried to deal with what had happened, even the people who she didn't want to push away, she somehow managed it. WShe wanted to deal with this on her own, not with everyone surroundeing her. So Andrew and Halley and Skylar and, even , Leo, had been pushed away and she had spend practically the entire month, locked away in her room, hoping not to see anyone. She had only ran out of food, that was the only reason she had gone out and her emotions seemed to be bubbling over the top because of it.]

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He nodded a little. Five minutes… well shit that wasn’t long at all. He’d read her texts, she’d been panicking but somehow she still had to go into that building. But there was no easy or logical way to do this… unless… well she was a worrier, and if his intuition was right, then maybe this might just help her to at least get inside. “How far ahead have you pictured” maybe a slightly random question, but of he was right with what the answer would be… well it was a start.

[hol--rose]

"What do you mean?" She asked, with a tilt of her head. She was worried about the surgary, she was worried about never having the use of her arm again. It wasn't something which was an easy thing for her to wrap her head around. SHe knew that others were in a worse position than her, Harrison had literally lost one of his legs, but when you were in the thick of it, it seemed like the end of the world. 

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He couldn’t help but bite back on sigh of relief when she dropped it. In the grand scheme of everything going on around them right now, that was the least important thing. It would pass and he knew it, but the last thing he wanted to do was go into non-important problems. Not today at least. If it carried on for a lot longer than… well it would probably be obvious enough.

He closed his eyes for a moment “it sounds… bad, but at least she got to say goodbye. Not for what she was… planning but it’s something” and the only thread he could hold onto right now. She had said goodbye, she was thinking two weeks though and that was the difference.

[hol--rose]

Hollie wished that she was the type of person to push him on something that he clearly didn't want to talk about, but she wasn't going to do that. "Promise me, that if it gets too difficult, you'll tell me, right?" She knew he wasn't the type of person to do that, but she had to hope for it at the very least.

She nodded her head as he spoke, "No I get it. She got to say her goodbyes, even if se didn't mean it in the way that it's become. ANd she got her happily ever after too." 

[harrisonjakobs]

[text] i miss you, where are you? you still owe me coffee <3

[TEXT] I do. I’ll make it up to you- I’ll even grow the coffee beans myself, deal?

[harrisonjakobs]

[TEXT] Shit. Must’ve been scary. Eh, that’s what they say but it’s fucking frustrating. Falling and shit. I gotta learn how to work with the crutches before I get my fake leg and shit. Makes no sense.

[hol--rose]

[TEXT] It was certainly weird.. yeah. I guess they need to know that you won't become dependant on the leg or something idk

[cursethefadingofthelight]

To say the morning had been a good one would be a horrendous mistake. With both the twins in the hospital things were bad, but with Erin slowly getting worse, things were not exactly looking positive. But then Hollie’s text came through, he couldn’t quite decide if it was comforting to focus on something else for a while, all not but for now all he could do was get her to her operation. As he walked outside he spotted her, and went to sit down next to her. “What time do you need to go in?” he asked gently. 

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Hollie felt like she couldn't breath as she slowly walked towards the hospital. She was terrified about going in there, for her operation. She knew that it was silly, that it was either she do that or let go of the little hope she had left of things going back to normal, but that didn't change anything. She had believed in the fact that the feeling would come back and she was too scared to face the facts that she might be stuck like this, she didn't even hear Andrew sit down beside her, until he spoke. "About five minutes.." She whispered. 

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He closed his eyes for a moment, as far as he was concerned it was nothing but that didn’t mean he wanted people knowing about it. “It’s just dreams, so like I said, it’s nothing”. Because it was nothing, everyone dreamt and just because his were horrific right now didn’t make them anything of any importance.

He laughed lightly, he could practically see Lyvia standing there telling them to get on with their lives. It was just easier said than done. “That you do, though would she agree with that?” he asked gently. He just wish he could come to terms with the fact that the other woman was gone.

[hol--rose]

"Fine." Hollie sighed. She wasn't going to push it, she had asked and he hadn't answered, not really, there wasn't much else that she could do. She could try but she was certain that it wasn't going to lead to anywhere and he wasn't in a good state of mind to be talking about anything really. She just wanted him to be okay but she had no idea how to make that happen.

Hollie shook her head at that. Of course she wouldn't see it like that, but she was also certain that Lyvia would know how difficult it was for the two of them to move on and to let things lie, without trying to wrap their heads around the fact that she was gone. 

[harrisonjakobs]

[text] i miss you, where are you? you still owe me coffee <3

[TEXT] I do. I’ll make it up to you- I’ll even grow the coffee beans myself, deal?

[harrisonjakobs]

[TEXT] What? What happened? I’ve got crutches and I’m in physical training almost every day for what seems like forever. 

[hol--rose]

[TEXT] Nothing, not really. Went to my apartment.  I found my necklace. It must've triggered stuff. Not everythign, but everything important. I think. But it's all to make things easier for you, right?