My(fucked up shithole) life

Ben.24.MA. I suck.

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this is god giving u a second chance

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me: i wanna die

friend: what’s wrong

me: nothing that’s just my default setting

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I wrote you a love letter to explain how I felt about us—folded it neatly into a paper plane and threw it off a cliff.

Michael Faudet  (via discolor3d)

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To an old friend

Everyday seems to be a struggle living without you in my life. We used to talk on a daily and now I have to talk myself out of going to your profile just to see you smile again. I wish things didn't turn out like this but maybe this is also a good thing. It's one less connection to this town and one less worry about when I finally pack up and leave. But I wish I could say that I don't miss you. You were one of my best friends and now we're nothing. Hopefully you don't see this either because I don't want you to see how sad and depressed I really am. Last thing I need is for someone that hates me to care about my well being. But I will always wish you well.

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Send me jokes, funny faces, and butt pics 🍑

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me: I can’t be sad if I’m asleep my dreams: sike!!

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Have you ever been depressed because you know you're about to lose a good friend? I am on the verge of tears right now because I am in this position and there isn't anything I can really do change it. I have to do this to better myself. But it's just so fucking hard and it makes my heart hurt. I go over the conversation in my head everyday and think of all the right things to say. I'm supposed to talk to her on Tuesday but I might flake out again. I don't want to lose my friend but I can't keep myself in this perpetual depression. I need to do this for me. I need more confidence. I need for this to be over and it needs to stay in the past and out of my head. How am I gonna do this face to face if I breakdown just going over the scenario in my head though? This is gonna be a long week.

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Daaaamn depression back at it again at 12:30 am when I gotta work in the morning

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This guy had his headphones on like this for almost the entire flight back from Queensland and it was driving me nuts. It was as if he didn’t even care or notice his ear was folded over, which is insane. How could you possibly not realise? I was trying to read a book but I couldn’t concentrate, every time I looked up it was the same. I wanted to reach over and fix it, ask him what the fuck is wrong with him that he can just be ok with having his ear like that. I was furious. It was the worst flight ever.