chodo’s sideblog

Doodles + misc. personal posts

[homunculid]

OCD so fun 🤑 finding gray hairs (I’m only 25) and I go thru these awesome fun periods where everything is literally terrifying no matter how mundane

[homunculid]

I have GOT to stop doomscrolling I have so much anime to watch and books to read and pictures to draw and hobbies to do reddit and insta reals do not deserve my precious time on this earth.

[homunculid]

I probably won’t be getting any last minute wedding day confessions from past flings on account of the fact that almost everyone I dated b4 my current partner has the impression that I’m insane

[homunculid]

Need to voice this in a post bc it is giving me OCD for no readon:

- I am almost halfway thru cassiel’s servant and it’s making me want to re read Kushiel’s dart BADDDD

- I’m concerned about being trapped in an endless loop of re reading all 10 books if I do so though

- I will need to show self control and re read ONLY Kushiel’s dart and save my first reread of the whole series for later this year or the beginning of next year so I have time to read some other stuff and make the re read feel fresh

- I can read another book in tandem with my kushdart only reread

- I am allowed to read the same book twice in one year this fear was spawned by goodreads and if I can’t kick it goodreads has gotta go (I would rather not delete it bc I like the record of what I have read so I’m going to be strong)

[homunculid]

You obsessively google hair dryer attachments for multiple hours ONE TIME and your algorithm gets fucked forever apparently

[homunculid]

Trying to have rational argument on reddit with a pop girl stan who just wants to start shit it feels like diffusing a bomb

[homunculid]

Why does arguing with really annoying people online trigger my OCD so bad about them hating me let me break this down

1. Arguing online is some people’s only hobby

2. They are not going to come to my house and murder me over boys spoilers

3. I can block

4. Who gaf if this person hates me their opinion is dirt!

[homunculid]

Okay #blocked even though it may be read as cowardly I just DO NOTTTT wanna deal with this chick any more :/

[homunculid]

Trying to have rational argument on reddit with a pop girl stan who just wants to start shit it feels like diffusing a bomb

[homunculid]

Why does arguing with really annoying people online trigger my OCD so bad about them hating me let me break this down

1. Arguing online is some people’s only hobby

2. They are not going to come to my house and murder me over boys spoilers

3. I can block

4. Who gaf if this person hates me their opinion is dirt!

[homunculid]

Trying to have rational argument on reddit with a pop girl stan who just wants to start shit it feels like diffusing a bomb

[homunculid]

I do think I may have irreversibly changed the course of several dudes lives in college…

[homunculid]

Trying really hard to not have a complex abt the way that I was treated in college

[homunculid]

If I make a sort of targeted observation will you guys be mad at me?

[homunculid]

I think I have fully given up on being a Popular Instagram Artist (I refuse to do reels and I don’t want to do commissions) because the modern concept of fame even on a small scale is genuinely very disgusting to me it feels like selling your soul to become a little dancing monkey for parasocial freaks forever

[homunculid]

Literally need to go crazy and start killing ppl so bad ❤️🤪

[homunculid]

Literally need to go crazy and start killing ppl so bad ❤️🤪

[homunculid]

Imagine:

Your situationship who wants you to marry him dies before you can break up with him

Pull up to new city after being raised in a cave with just your mom for 16 years

Immediately hit by a car

Taken to the house of the guy that hit you and nursed back to health

Go to learn the arts of sexual pleasure to impress this guy and the person who’s gonna teach you is SURPRISE! Mistress of guy who hit you with his car (and also the literal queen of the country)

Guy who hit you with car that you want to sleep with does sleep with you, but also grooms you and makes you summon demons

[homunculid]

The longer I follow this girl the more I feel a seething hatred for her but unfollowing would be like admitting defeat

[homunculid]

My bf was out with his friends pretty much all day yesterday and I was asleep when he got home, but woke up when he came in the bedroom, he got me sour candy and missed me all day 😭❣️