honeybunchesofwhit.

i'm whitney. twenty-something. talk to me.

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I couldn’t think of a better person to award the first gold medal. Because this is the person I see everyday. This is the person lets me keep my cereal bowls in the sink when I just don’t feel like washing them. This is Whitney.

Whitney is just as radiant as when I first met her about eight years ago. To me, she was “the nice girl” on my ragtag softball team in my childhood. And I secretly always looked up to her. Later on, I came to know her all through high school and college. Now she’s my roommate. Let me tell you, hands down: It is truly a blessing to be in someone’s life that long. Not to mention being able to watch them grow so admirably like this ribbon-wearing girl has.

Whitney is fiercely protective of the precious hearts around her. Exceedingly thoughtful — as she proceeds to leave little illustrated notes by my bedroom doorstep after a bad day. Whitney has an admirable thirst for life; she has a bucket list and she is seriously crushing it. This girl literally chases her dreams down. And she is always looking to connect. Whitney wastes no time when it comes to engaging and taking care of the people around her. Oh, and she’ll find the best damn deal at Value Village and look like she came right out of a Pinterest app.

That being said, first medal goes to you, Whit.

-H.

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[honeybunchesofwhit]

@hkivi this popped up on my Timehop today 😂 miss you lady!

[honeybunchesofwhit]

december 30th, 2017.

almost a year ago i wrote a blog post about how i am WAY too analytical & worrisome & how i needed to do something about it.

how i needed to let go & become a little more fearless, rather than fearful.

as i read through my old words, i was struck with a harsh realization:

nothing changes if nothing changes.

case & point: the events that occurred last night.

my love & i had finally had a night in la la land to ourselves after the craziness of the holidays & we decided to go shoot some pool at one of our favorite spots.

we were having a beautiful night. playing & drinking. drinking & playing.

after a while we were approached by another couple & of course we had to challenge them to the best two out of three.

beers were shared & stories were swapped. they were some rad, easy going humans.

as we finished our last game, our new pool playing friends were headed out to another bar where their friends were awaiting them & invited us to come along.

my love, of course, was absolutely in.

he then turned to me to ask my opinion.

it was then that i was greeted with a strong wave of anxiety.

oh no. meeting new people. you can’t do that. you wont know what to say. you’re not good with talking to people you don’t know. you’ll probably just end up sitting there frozen while your social butterfly of a boyfriend does all the talking. you should just go home. yeah, go home & be boring.

the moment i uttered the words “i’d rather just go home”, not only could i visibly see the disappointment on his face, but my body was weighted down with guilt.

we made it back to our place & proceeded to have the most painful discussion about what had just happened. fully honest, yet hard to hear words were exchanged & a lot of tears were shed from my eyes.

you know what the worst part about our conversation was? knowing that everything my love said about me was completely true.

i am still holding myself back from trying new things & meeting new people.

i am still allowing myself to be fearful.

i am still over analyzing & over worrying.

& as i sit here, reflecting on all of this, i can’t help but ask myself WHY?

WHY am i still allowing myself to live my life this way?

i realize anxiety isn’t something you can just let go of cold turkey.

overcoming something that has had a hold on your heart & dictated your life will take time to achieve.

but the fact that a year ago i was enduring the same issues, with little to no change is highly disappointing.

nothing changes if nothing changes.

with that being said, as the new year approaches, i want to welcome change & i am making a middle finger promise to myself to be better.

yes, i know i sound like a broken record by saying that, but i stand by it.

cheers to a new year of self-improvement.

xx

[wordsnquotes]

I must learn to love the fool in me - the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.

Theodore Isaac Rubin (via wordsnquotes)

[honeybunchesofwhit]

the carousel never stops turning.

[theanimalmemes]

[lazyangels-network]

[bearzerky]

i can’t wait until october when there’s no sun outside and everything is cute colors and it’s cold and there are terrible horror movies on tv, my power is at its peak then

[dormirblonde]

a roadtrip where we are driving through the mountains. we’re taking turns showing each other our favorite songs, and stopping for coffee every few hours.

[wordsnquotes]

People may not tell you how they feel about you, but they always show you. Pay attention.

Keri Hilson (via wordsnquotes)

[wordsnquotes]

There is no shame in being hungry for another person. There is no shame in wanting very much to share your life with somebody.

Augusten Burroughs, This Is How: Proven Aid in Overcoming Shyness, Molestation, Fatness, Spinsterhood, Grief, Disease, Lushery, Decrepitude & More. For Young and Old Alike. (via wordsnquotes)

[wnq-writers]

Be with someone who is not scared to see all of your imperfections.

vomitingwords  (via wnq-writers)

[kathyt]

[noortherndownpoour]

Concept: I’m laying on your lap while you play with my hair and our puppy snuggles against your leg. Chinese take out boxes are stacked neatly on the coffee table. A rerun of our favorite show is playing in the background. We don’t have anywhere to be tomorrow except in bed with each other. The bad feelings have left and we’ve finally made it.

[sugarinteriora]

[wordsnquotes]

Take a shower, wash off the day. Drink a glass of water. Make the room dark. Lie down and close your eyes. Notice the silence. Notice your heart. Still beating. Still fighting. You made it, after all. You made it, another day. And you can make it one more. You’re doing just fine.

Charlotte Eriksson (via wordsnquotes)

[wnq-writers]

Find someone who pays attention. Who runs their fingers over your every scar; and asks where each one came from. Find someone who knows how you like your coffee; what song makes you want to roll the windows down and slam on the gas pedal. Find someone who takes in your smallest details; who notices the things you thought no one ever would. And then…when you find them… Be their someone, too.

a paragraph about falling in love, deep3snplottwists  (via wnq-writers)

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BEST.JUMPER.EVER