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@hope-luvs-hrtstppr
okay! let’s do this
my name’s ari
i’m 19
black & jewish, any pronouns, lesbian
i have a lot of interests (heartstopper, the osemanverse, tlou, the locked tomb, yellow jackets, monster high, bella ramsey enthusiast)
i love to annotate the books i read!!
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k bye:)
the urge to do a face reveal with the selfies of me ugly crying during heartstopper forever….
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so glad to discover iwbft has a fandom . wow. i love tumblr dot com
part two of notes from one ari to another!! aka: my Aristotle and Dante Dive into the Waters of the World by Benjamin Sáenz annotations
*spoilers ahead*
- “And I knew, I finally knew about this thing called desire.” (5) these lessons can never be unlearned.
- “You’re laughing at me.’ / ‘No I’m not. I’m kissing you.” (9) GAHHHHH
- “Mom, why didn’t anybody tell me that love hurts so much?’ / ‘If I had told you, would it have changed anything?” (14) hi! person who knew how bad love hurts from the beginning here: no it would not!
- “We’ll always come back to this topic because we live in this topic, a fucking no-man’s-land of American identity.” (20) welcome in boys, the water’s awful
- “What is this thing called desire?” (31) idk i’m pretty sure it’s a street car…
- “My father, my father, my father.” (33) sometimes i have to stop and take a second to fully comprehend that by family is mine. my mother? mine. my brothers? mine. my sisters? mine. how crazy is that?
- “I think most people think it will just disappear. It’s amazing the capacity we have to lie to ourselves.” (43) preaching to the choir
- “Oh, Ari, let your sisters love you. Let yourself be loved. For all you know, there’s a long line of people wanting you to let them in.” (67) never have i related to a character’s sibling issues more
- the rain can touch you where dante can not.
- starting to look at your parents as people independent from yourself is so important. i love the way this book deals with that.
- “I believe that we are born for reasons we do not understand—and it is up to us to discover these reasons.” (102) there is no “meaning of life,” we all have to find meaning for ourselves while we’re here
- “What if i ruin it?” (119) AHHHHHHHH
- on the fear of the future creeping in to ari and dante’s relationship: there is no way to love that doesn’t mean risking heartbreak. it is very important to love anyways. to know that something is temporary and love it anyways. we’re human!! we’re all temporary.
- on the other hand: “Not everyone you love is meant to stay in your life forever.” (139) also very true. i’m not great at this.
- “I wonder if people like me ever get to know what peace is like.” (153) me too. i know a lot of us do. i know we’re exhausted, but it is crucial that we continue the fight for queer liberation. and in the mean time, we find peace within each other.
- “…I knee that even though dogs didn’t understand the language of human beings, they did understand the language of love..” (163) i’m not all that sure humans understand the language of love as well as dogs do. it doesn’t come as easily to us.
- “I knew that the house would be full of people and those people were not numbers—and that they were people that had hearts.” (176) i remember realizing this for the first time. i think i was around four. i remember thinking “it’s a big old for a four year old”
- “I’ve figured out that falling in love with someone is a form of insanity.” (186) yup.
- dante vs micheal holden yap off. please.
- kids today (i say as a kid today) are so cautious of one another. we don’t talk to ppl we don’t know but see around, or invite new people to sit with us, or introduce ourselves to the people we admire from a far. and i get it. i’m quite socially anxious and i rarely did any of these things in high school. butt kids today are also lonely. we need community and support. we need to be seen. it starts with us!! moral of gutter story is be like susie and gina.
- “I wondered i I was strong enough or good enough to love a world that hated me.” (261) is having love for this dumpster fire of a planet masochism or self-love? (side note the duality of my commentary is wild)
- “Had my older brother ever loved me like I loved him?” (329) if you have sibling issues or enjoy reading about people who do- this is the book for you!
- “People aren’t memories.” (330) shoot me!
- “But the pain is mine, Dante. And you can’t bae it. If you took it away, I would miss it.” (403) very important!!! (i’m bad at this too)
- “Nobody’s listening. We don’t have anything to lose. We’re dying. You want us to be nice? You think we want people to like us?…” (433) very this!!! change does not come by adhering to systems of oppression. it comes from dismantling them.
- “Life, Ari, can be an ugly thing. But life can be so incredibly beautiful. It’s both. And we have to learn to hold the contradictions inside us without despairing, without losing hope.” (458) #DBT #DialecticBehavioralTherapy
- “Yes, we were stronger than the storm. / We wanted so much to live.” (515)
thank you to everyone who has read this far<33 feel free to yap with me about your thoughts on the series at any time!
i love scrolling through my own blog. like, wow this guy has some good takes
nothing a cigarette and a blunt and some vodka and calling my senate and researching moral ocd and destroying all of my interpersonal relationships and acting on the urges and jacking off and killing myself cant fix
i’m glad that hearstopper forever seems to be drawing from vol 6 plot wise rather than the novella, i think that the character development in the comic ending is much stronger and better aligned with the tv series.
however i would be willing to sacrifice all of that to see harry in a cheerleader skirt. i want harry looking like a cheerio on my desk by july 17th.
why Is There Something in the Movies? by Samia is a lister bird song
walk with me-
we open on the plane back to london, when the jowan photo gets leaked. the ark is in a tense yet (mostly) functional place, both as individuals and as a collective. however, lister’s self destructive tendencies are toeing the line and testing limits.
like how drunk he can get before cecily intervenes. like mass texting the jowan picture.
he’s poking the bear, stirring the pot. not consciously, but effectively nonetheless.
jimmy’s emotional support knife mentioned ‼️
so we know knife = home / safety / family for jimmy. lister never interacts with the knife before stealing it at the end of the book, not even to make snide comments about it like rowan. this is because he doesn’t feel close enough to jimmy to associate himself with his home and family, not in the same way rowan does.
always the performer. becoming larger than life and beloved by millions. he’s the boy that everyone wants, the band everyone loves and yet-
the kent incident™️. the facade finally drops and every ugly feeling the boys have been ignoring to function is laid out on the table. lister’s alcoholism, his feelings for jimmy, his isolation within the band meets jimmy’s debilitating anxiety, the need to step out of the public eye, and his suicidal ideation.
(not to mention rowan’s need for control, his crumbling relationship with bliss, and dealing with the violent repercussions of fame *cough cough* briccident)
and what does lister do in response to seeing the people he cares for most suffering? he removes the danger (the knife, and himself) and disappears in the rain to be drowned with the wicked.
FLASHBACK to cursed bicci kiss in the O2 bathroom.
everyone wants lister bird. he’s grown up being told that all anyone likes him for is his body. meanwhile lister bird has been pining for his best friend since he was 14 to no avail. lister’s feelings for jimmy stem from trust (unlike his other relationships which stemmed from manipulation and sexual exploitation)
when jimmy shuts lister down he is faced with not only the rejection of the only thing he knows how to offer (physicality) but the shame of violating this trust
as he leaves he says “One more show! Then we can rest in peace.”
FLASHFORWARD to post cannon ark-hiatus
longing. pining. trying to accept that jimmy doesn’t want him romantically and that he blew his chances. he swears jimmy has been avoiding him and that it’s definitely because of the kiss. i imagine this is when he first turns to songwriting. cant get out of bed, going through withdrawals, angsty wallowing in his room, and it all just comes pouring out of him.
meanwhile jimmy is avoiding lister, because he’s grappling with the idea that he has feelings for lister and finds being around him too awkward and anxiety producing, and seeing him so injured still brings up a lot of guilt.
this phase will last a few weeks, until lister’s ribs heal and he’s less bedridden and all three of them are able to spend more time together in common areas (living room, theater, kitchen). all this sudden proximity makes jimmy realize 1) yup. definitely want to hook up with lister. and 2) i gotta make a move soon cus i am so horny i can’t see straight. que messy friends with benefits bicci
and when that is inevitably a train wreck, and the hiatus is over, he finds that everything he’s ever wanted (band back together!! no new contract!! jimmy is his bae!! rowan is his bro!!) is bleeding him dry.
thank you for coming to my ted talk! give Is There Something in the Movies? a listen and think about lister bird for me.
k bye!
my girlfriend just tried to make a tlt reference and asked “what’s her name? haroo harkness?”
UPDATE: MY GF HAS STARTED READING TLT!!! and she’s already been spoiled on this damn site
seeing sheep detectives for bella ramsey today, stay tuned
yeah it was gas
seeing sheep detectives for bella ramsey today, stay tuned
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I THINK THIS EVERY TIME!!!!!!!!!! PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE
the new river styxx skullector’s fit is giving me harrowhark nonagesimus vibes. like this is probably how harrow looks in ianthe’s wet dreams
my annotations of Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Sáenz
aka notes from one ari (me) to another (aristotle mendoza)! *spoilers ahead*
- “The problem with my life was that it was someone else’s idea.” (3) i think about this every day. that bitch should have chosen a different egg. that bitch being my mother. (respectfully, and with love)
- ari complaining that “This was a rock station, damn it!” (6) immediately told me everything i needed to know abt him as a character
- ARI THE PSEUDO ONLY CHILD WITH THREE SIBLINGS. HE IS ME. I AM HIM. WE ARE WE.
- “‘Poetry,’ he said. ‘It won’t kill you.’ / ‘What if it does?…’” (29) that’s lowk the plot of Dead Poet’s Society
- dante feeling like a fake mexican is real fucking shit. me and dante, man. always somehow managing to do race wrong.
- ari doesn’t think of himself as a real person. dante does.
- “I wanted to tell him not to cry anymore, tell him that what those boys did to that bird didn’t matter. But I knew it did matter. It mattered to Dante.” (54) WHEN YOU SAW THE DEAD LITTLE BIRD YOU STARTED CRYINGGGGGG BUT YOU KNOW THE KILLER DOESNT UNDERSTANDDDD (i’ll probably make a ‘songs that remind me of…” post about moon song and this book at some point)
- “I wonder if he’d been as beautiful as Dante. And I wondered why I thought that.” (63)
- “The world isn’t ending, Ari.” (73) the amount of times it felt like this book was looking directly into my pupils with some of these lines. (plus, writing my own name in these annotations always makes it hurt a little extra)
- THE CHAIR DRAWING. TO BE LOVED IS TO BE SEEN.
- ari who was born a little too late. fml bro HE IS MEEEEE
- “‘I mean, when do we start feeling like the world belongs to us?’ / I wanted to tell him that the world would never belong to us. ‘I don’t know,’ I said. ‘Tomorrow.’” (88)
- ARI WHO WANTS TO BE A POET, BUT THINKS THAT POETRY IS TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR HIM. MY TWIN.
- “You must let everything fall that wants to fall. -Karen Fiser” (109) mhm mhm mhm
- dante saying “‘And all because I’m an idiot, standing in the middle of the road trying to save a stupid bird.’” (117) versus ari thinking “But now he knew. That I was hard. And maybe that was okay. Maybe he could like the fact that I was hard just as I liked the fact that he wasn’t hard.” (55)
- “My father decided he would read everything that I read. Maybe that was our way of talking.” (141) me and my mom with movies and shows
- “‘I won’t hurt you.’ / You’ve already hurt me.” (141) this line hurts so good. i blame you for my love for you. especially when a few pages ago dante asked for forgiveness, and ari thought “Forgive you? For what, Dante? What is there to forgive?” (117) delectable.
- “Dante’s leaving in a week. I’m glad. I need a break from him… I don’t know if we will ever be friends again.” (149) Benjamin Sáenz is in my walls. i legit have these words written in journals from middle school.
- “I felt like the saddest boy in the universe. Summer had come and gone… And the world was ending.” (154) THE WORLD ISN’T ENDING, ARI!!!
- dante hanging out with the goth kids. i live.
- dante’s letters hurt me so fucking bad. i have written so many of those letters. practically bleeding onto paper in an effort to be seen.
- “She liked touching my face. She told me I was beautiful. No one has ever told me I was beautiful.” (176) ari thought he was beautiful before that girl ever did. reminds me of ellie’s “You belonged to me first.” in s1 ep8 of tlou.
- “I don’t need dante.” (185) maybe not. but it’s okay to want him.
- “I miss you. Can I say that? Or is there a rule?” (185) SHOOT ME!!! “I am not going to tell you I miss you anymore.” (186) SHOOT ME WITH A GUN!!!!!!
- be a poet ari!!! do it for us!!!!
- “You’re gay, vato, you know that?” (205) no. no he does not. that’s kinda the point.
- “I think I really loved him when I was a little boy. I think I really did. Maybe that’s why I felt sad and empty—because I’d missed him all my life.” (206) and “Throughout all of youth I was looking for you without knowing what I was looking for. - W. S. Merwin” (295) CRACK BABY YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU WANTTTTT BUT YOU KNOW THAT YOU HAD IT ONCE AND YOU KNOW THAT YOU WANT IT BACKKKKKK (this could def be another “songs that remind me of…” post)
- “But love was always something heavy for me. Something I had to carry.” (244) ARISTOTLE MENDOZA WE ARE ONE I STG
- “You do realize you’re talking, don’t you? I mean you’re really talking.” (247)
- “We were too old now. We’d lost something and we both knew it.” (249) it’s so much easier to express love before you realize that it’s love you are expressing. the plausible deniability of youth.
- “‘I have to tell them, Ari.’ / ‘Why?’” (252) because of the quintana “no secrets” rule
- their first kiss. oh god their first kiss.
- “I missed him more now that he was back than when he had been gone.” (259)
- “I don’t know what I would have done if he had touched me. But he didn’t.” (273) RAHHHHH
- “‘Do real Mexicans like to kiss boys?’ / ‘I don’t think liking boys is an American invention.’” (273) !!!!!!!! the association of queerness with whiteness as a way to invalidate lgbtqia+ people within their own community is bullshit. queer people are everywhere. we are EVERYWHERE
- “And sometimes, even now, I look at her and I want to ask, ‘Is it over? Is it?’” (283)
- “I decided that maybe we left each other alone too much. Leaving each other alone was killing us.” (283) waiting. waiting drives you craaaaazy. waiting driiives you craaazyyyy. (let down, radiohead)
- “I think we hurt you.” (286) SOMEBODY SEDATE MEEEEE
- “The summer was not meant for boys like me. Boys like me belonged to the rain.” (294) rain motif going ballistic
- the parallels between ari visiting dante in the hospital and dante visiting ari in the hospital “The day he came home from the hospital, he cried. I held him. I thought he would never stop. I knew that a part of him would never be the same.” (325)
- “‘Ari, Ari, Ari. You’re fighting this war in the worse possible way.’ / ‘I don’t know how else to fight it, Dad.’ / ‘You should ask for help,’ he said. / ‘I don’t know how to do that, either.’” (319) AHHHHHHHHHH
- “‘Not really,’ I said. ‘It’s against the rules.’ / ‘New rules,’ my mom said.” (345) NEW RULES NEW RULES NEW RULES
- the entire “you can’t run from dante” scene. the first time i read this book i was a junior in high school reconning with the fact that i had been in love with my best friend for years and refused to acknowledge or accept what was so blatantly obvious to everyone else in my life. and more than that, i was reconning with the fact that she loved me back. and she knew that she loved me, and i was so busy avoiding it that i never let myself have it. is this sounding familiar? do i have to say it again? (aristotle mendoza is my FREAKING TWIN)
- ALL THIS TIME!!!!!!!!!! all this time.
that’s a wrap! thank you for coming to my ted talk, as always:) part two, Aristotle and Dante Dive into the Waters of the World is coming soon so stay tuned for that!
edit: part two is up now! check it out if you feel so inclined :)
