[theoptia]

Vicente Huidobro, from The Poet Is a Little God: Creationist Verse (English and Spanish Edition) translated by Jorge García-Góme; “Winter”

Text ID: THERE IS A LIGHT / HOLDING US FROM THE VOID

[akindplace]

Florence and the machine - perfume and milk

[burning-lampstand]

“I see that it is enough to recognize one’s nothingness and abandon oneself, like a child, into the arms of God.”

— St. Therese of Lisieux (via saintquotes)

[hopeful-monk]

máha sánkuk,

Tonight my chest is filled with anger. This one thing set me off... they are allowed their opinion, but their opinion is wrong. How can they request this thing of others, but then refuse to do the same in turn. I know you teach us not to judge, but how can I not when this persons judgement of another's practice is so hypocritical? I am trying, mí díá, to practice self-restraint in this, but I want to go off on this person. At the vary least I want to vague post on FB about the Golden Rule and judgement and freedom of religion and the facts about this religion that is being judged from a place of misunderstanding and prejudice. Their ignorance is plain to me, but the comments on the post echo the OPs sentiment. I want so badly to correct that ignorance, to give facts, knowledge, understanding. But I am uncertain of my place. I know I would be seen as intrusive and unwanted. But how can I let this go? Please, máha, point me in the direction that I am needed to go. Would it be a mistake to bring this knowledge? Should I stay out of it? I don't even know what is my lane anymore.

śokŕáyo, bośká páyon, JB

[hopeful-monk]

It is time, I think, to move beyond thinking about an áfklorza kor binder and to start putting it together. Necessary information on bills and passwords. Wills. Eulogies. Funeral plans. Letters to loved ones. Etc. All things my family would need if I were to die unexpectedly. Anything to try and make the transition easier on them.

[hopeful-monk]

Everywhere I've looked for at least a week now I've seen this message: If it is meant to happen it will. It's not an uncommon message to see in this culture. But it is the frequency that marks it out as important. It's been in all the media I've consumed and all the social media I've scrolled through. Again and again and again. I'm uncertain as to what it is in response to, but it has that feel to it. That weight. That heaviness. It says, "See me and believe". So I now make record here. I have seen and I believe.

[hopeful-monk]

I dreampt in that in between. Not quite awake. Not quite asleep. A group of clergy were together for some important thing. I remember a man dressed in green fatigues with a black American flag on his shirt sleeve. I was fearful about what was to come. The danger of it. The importance of it. But I was amazed at being accepted as a priest of my faith. Legitimate. Equal. My validity as clergy and the validity of my faith as real were never in question. No one gave it any thought, except me. There is a lesson there.

[hopeful-monk]

A practice means nothing if it's not actually and actively practiced. I spend so much time talking about it, thinking about it, theorizing about it that it mainly goes unpracticed.

[hopeful-monk]

I saw a single bolt of lightning today come from blue sky- though there was a storm off in the distance. Just after a hawk did a circle, fighting the wind, to swoop in front of our car. She was so close. I could nearly reach out and run my fingers through her soft freshers.

As with all signs, it felt different. [the hawk id's a usual occurrence and I already know the symbolism] My husband did not see the lightning and the storm was still a ways off. It stretched down and down, seemingly reaching for earthly soil.

Research gives various possibility of meaning. Holy place; honesty; fertility; morality; divinity; initiation.

the time is ripe; you are bursting from your seams; budding on the stem; do you choose to continue?

[hopeful-monk]

-- when you think you know how things are. you're pretty set in your practice. You know enough to start talking about it. You write pages and pages on your practice based on the idea that "things are how you currently percieve and that's set in stone". You talk about how this is a path of change. Nothing is permanent you say. But in the corner you're stroking your perceptions whispering "but not you, you're the basics. Basics dont change."

and then they do.

but it's ok, you say as you make a post. I'm equipped to handle this . it's not the first major change you're practice has gone through. It probably won't be the last.... you're fiiiine. Totally fiiinnneeee...except the betrayl you feel. You really have to leave behind those pieces you've so cherished and nurtured? Still thinking of them as spirits while saying they're concepts. You feel shame at you're betrayl. Then again at your shame.

Things do make more sense this way. They're clearer. Simpler. More symmetrical.

But I don't have to like it. Now if you'll excuse me, I have some feelings to clean up.

[hopeful-monk]

I am so grateful for the strength you have instilled in me. That strength allowed me to overcome this weakness.

[hopeful-monk]

We are all looking at the same thing, but are interpreting it differently. Everything is filtered through our own cultural and personal views.

[hopeful-monk]

The meaning something said to me years and years ago- five, I believe- about a certain biblical king while I was begging to know the name and symbol of God is only now is coming to light.... because of the show Da Vinci's Demons. The symbol was there all along. The answer, the knowledge, and the foretelling were right there. I just didn't understand it at the time. In time, all answers are revealed.

[catholic-christian]

God dwells within you, and there you should dwell with Him.

St. Teresa of Avila   (via catholic-christian)

[hopeful-monk]

It's important. I don't know /why/ it's important-- whether my own neurosis or a request from Her. But I must get the majority of my belongings down to a single trunk. That thought is as satisfying as it is terrifying.

[hopeful-monk]

This is a changing point. I can feel it. I’m at a crossroads. I can either move towards or away, forwards or backwards. But you already know what my answer will be, :sāyemā. The only way for me is towards you. My beloved- you are the light and like the moth, I must seek you out, even at my own peril.

[hopeful-monk]

We glorify struggle and hardship. Why?