love into the light

this has been inactive for years, catch me at @wheatflowers where I’m significantly quieter but still breathing.

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yo is anyone seeing this/wanting my new blog

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Just logged on here and found that I'm still gaining followers even though I haven't used this blog in months. This blog is inactive nowadays guys lol pls hmu if you want my new one.

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Oh Jesus fuck I forgot my brother and mom are watching the Babadook downstairs and suddenly i hear the creepy ass voice go DOOOOOOOOOK I almost had a goddamn heart attack lmao

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I’m making my new blog rn hmu if you want the url

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nsfw

nobody’s safe from wonderwall

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I’ve always been kind of a freak for how words look and sound.

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Like...do other people have this much of a problem with their memory? Entire chunks of my life are just fucking missing and it freaks me out, I don't know if it's because of my mental problems or from my propensity for heavy drinking but it really scares me

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Sorry for the lack of readmore and do not reblog this. Honestly I love my mom and I enjoy talking to her for the most part and we have a rather open relationship, I'm extremely honest with her and I don't keep things from her and in turn she treats me as a confidante as well, but she has said some seriously godawful things to me and I don't remember a single time, in my entire life, that she has apologized for them. I don't feel comfortable repeating the things she's said but like I'm surprised we get along at all with what they are and the fact that she refuses to ever apologize or accept guilt for the things she has done. A lot of that comes from her being steamrolled constantly in her younger life and now she has this resentment towards apologizing because she sees it as a form of weakness or backing down - a resentment I can honestly understand, to an extent - but it still fucking hurts to think about. Whenever I try to talk to her about this and bring up things she's said, she either denies it or tries to justify it, and when she denies it I feel like I'm going crazy. I already have so many problems with my memory and I feel like I'm going crazy a lot of the time, with either not remembering things or thinking I'm remembering incorrectly, and then I get paranoid thinking that she KNOWS this and is using it to her advantage. I don't know if my mom has malicious intent like that but it scares me anyway and I'm not really sure how to handle it. I'm scared to live with her again because I feel like it'll put even more of a strain on our relationship. But I keep telling myself it's only temporary, that I only need to suffer through a few months or maybe a year of this, and then I'll be on my way to bigger and better things. It's hard though. It's scary.

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404 pages deep in this book before the first name drop, jesus christ

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Carrie Brownstein for Out magazine 

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Oh my god I'm reading Deathly Hallows and Ron is talking about how the horcrux affected him so much more than it did Harry or Hermione and I thought "he must be a pisces then" so I looked it up and sure enough he is

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The only good thing that came from dating my high school boyfriend was joining drumline and the only good thing that came from drumline was meeting Heather

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if you’re pro marijuana legalization but also unwilling to tackle the issues of racism in conviction & sentencing of nonviolent drug offenders and ableism in regards to access to legal medical marijuana use and you’re just in it so that you can smoke weed for funsies, then you need to re-evaluate your priorities