iiiiiii knooowwww that it takes time to get used to and vaginismus is probably the main culprit but why does it hurt so baaaad when i try and put anything in the front bro like even before i started T like putting tampons in/out hurt so bad,,
baby bought his first dildo at 24 and has only tried it twice because the first time ended in spotting and the second albeit better still fucking HURT. legit i sat on my bed and cried the first time. this time is barely different im just sad. i used so much lube both times went out of my way to buy good quality lube today for the second time. and yet
im only fifty percent embarrassed abt being nearly 25 and still a virgin and i do want it (?) at some point (?) but it takes so much for me to even get turned on that i feel like its not even worth the effort to try. like i'd rather just be held and like. kiss. and if its gonna hurt so much in that hole what's the point
100% of my pleasure comes from clit stimulation. it kinda feels nice when its both that and the back. but the front??? fuuuuck that
struggling both w my ace identity and considering i might be aro as well recently but I DONT WANT TO BE !! i want to be normallllll its so hard for me but not for everyone else (i know that isnt true) why does i only get horny when im drunk why do i cringe so hard when i feel any type of way about people this sucks hard
i blame that fuck from high school ben if you're reading this i fucking hate you for what you did to my self confidence and overall psyche kill yourself you're ugly now anyway
