Mind of Todd

My councilor said I should try writing in a journal thing to release feelings I have trouble expressing or something stupid like that. ♂ / 20 / ♊ Important links can be found in + More

[houndfox]

My hero~ 

He had to carry me through the forest on our way to Ty's secret swimming hole because I couldn't keep up and kept getting hit with branches and tripping and stuff.

I was born to be a country boy, but I was raised too close to the city.

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FTHRSN - What Do I Want To Be When I Grow Up

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The drive there was quiet.

I had my music playing. I don't think Audrin was used to the music choice, but he didn't complain. 

I couldn't stop looking over at Cooper. As we drove through the dirt back roads in such a warm forest setting I watched as the summer sun beamed through the trees and reflected against Cooper highlighting his best features. The wind brushed over us leaving us warmed but cool. This was a moment of bliss for the four of us I think...and I was in a state of awe.

Cooper looked really content with the drive too.

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When we got to the park I felt like we were all kids again. Tossing the baseball to each other and laughing...even though I usually can't catch it...and I got hit in the face AND head with it a few times...it was still nice.

It was nice to have the three of us together again. Teasing one another and just simply feeling alive, it was nice having Audrin there too. He didn't play catch with us, but he sat with Watson and just seemed to enjoy the moment with us. 

Cooper was smiling and he just seems so happy again. I miss seeing him like this. He's so busy with his studies I think he forgets there's more to life from to time.

We're going swimming at some secret place that Tyler and Audrin found now though.

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We're going to the park now.

We're taking Watson with us too.

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Audrin told me he loves Tyler.

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I asked Audrin what he wanted from Tyler, because Ty just has a bad choice in who to date. 

However, when I asked him what he wanted from our little water guppy instead of the typical answers...he said he only wants Tyler.

Maybe he's not so bad.

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It's too much fun harassing Tyler's boyfriend. He gets flustered SO easily.

Ty wasn't joking!

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Ty got here and brought his boy-toy boyfriend with him.

Coop and I are skeptical of him at first...okay maybe I'm a little more skeptical but whatever.

Ty and Cooper ended up ditching us to have their own private conversation outside.

I THINK THEY JUST LEFT US IN HERE TO TALK AND BOND BECAUSE OF OUR HAIR COLOR! THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS.

RUDE.

Whatever.

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We got to Ty's and no one's home. 

So, I used more of my tactical skills and climbed onto the roof and broke into the house through the window. Go figure it was Tyler's window. I could tell by the set up of his room.

Finding his house wasn't too hard either. Biggest house on the street, just like in Cali.

When I broke in I even saw Watson! Man, it was nice to see him, who would've thought I missed that dog so much!

Coops and I are waiting in the kitchen for Ty to get here now.

Watson is a Greater Swiss Mountain Dog.

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Just got Tyler's address by smooth talking and manipulating some older lady at the town's high school.

I didn't think it'd be that easy, but we got it. On our way to Ty's home now!

I think I scored bonus points with Cooper by using my charm to get this address.

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We made it to Thneedville, this place is really weird.

The trees remind me of cotton candy.

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We just put ourselves in the vehicle. On our way to some weird place called Thneedville, has these strange trees, to pay Tyler a surprised visit.

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I'm rolling a few joints for tonight...maybe I can smoke out this shitty feeling.

If Coop can get to the phone before I light up...I might bail out on the smokes and cause chaos with him. If he's not busy studying...again.

      I wonder how Tyler is...

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I guess I haven't been taking this journal thing very seriously...and I wasn't really intending too...but...today I was left with this pain in my chest and maybe writing about it will make it go away...so...here it goes.

Cooper and I are freshmen in college, and lately I've been slacking...horribly. I can't focus on my studies...as much as I try it's just not that easy. Meanwhile, Cooper is excelling. He's like a fuckin' god in school. Good greats, athletic, every girl adores him...and then I'm just his short troublesome friend.

I'm not allowed at his house, his family doesn't like me. For good reason I guess...I'm bad news.

However, he works himself too hard. Studying like crazy to be what his FAMILY wants him to be. Believing what his FAMILY wants him to believe.

He's my best fucking friend...and no matter what I'm out doing...smoking, fights, skipping out of class....WHATEVER it might be...he's always been there supporting me...picking me up when I needed a friend. 

I just...don't feel I'm able to stand up to that kind of standard for him...but...I want to see him climb to the top. I don't care if I have to stay at the bottom, as long as he can be at the top of HIS ambitions. I'll be okay where I am....I'll always be here for him...as best as I can. 

Ignore all of that...too much emotion for this thing...fuck.

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Cooper and I when we were kids.

He's been my best friend ever since we met. I'd do absolutely anything for him.