Just Another Ghost

depression dump

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

and if i dont wake up, dont miss me

[headspace-hotel]

bumbled be thy bees

[kosmogrl]

The City by C. P. Cavafy

[kosmogrl]

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[toiich]

Taste of Cherry (1997), dir. Abbas Kiarostami

[kosmogrl]

what doesn’t kill me leaves a pit in my stomach that never goes away

[ariaiscursed]

[ceruleanheaven]

im sure if i move far away from home to somewhere no one knows me my whole personality will suddenly change and everyone will love me and everything will be better im sure im sure im sure

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

maybe, if the water is hot enough, my sins will be forgiven here.

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

attempt no. 7 is calling my name tonight ngl

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

would anyone even miss me?

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

hmmm yes i know its been. awhile. since i last sh buttttttttttt the urges

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

will i ever be enough on my own

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

melodramatic.

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

please let me die in my sleep

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

not that i wanna be threatening suicide but sometimes i miss being talked down from the ledge yk

last few times ive tried a crisis line its been busy and they never answered me so ive kinda just. given up on it

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

and when i spend so much time alone in my own head with no one else to talk to. it makes so much sense how i ended up so dissociative.

no one to talk to but myself. never has been any different.

[howcanisaveafallenangel]

the silence is deafening