This is for my friends and mutuals. You know who you are. I won't tag you, it seems too cruel. Trigger warning for upcoming suicide note, I guess. You have been warned.
I don't know how to say this without it sounding cringe but uhm. If you're reading this I'm dead. I guess. Unless I fucked up massively in which case you'll hear from me whenever I get access to a phone again. But I'm hoping this is the last you hear from me.
I'm sorry for possibly traumatising and/or triggering you. I'm sorry for being a shitty friend and dumping this on you out of the blue. But I guess there is no considerate way to let your friends know that you're killing yourself, huh?
I don't really know what to say to all of you. Sorry I didn't sit down to write individual notes? Sorry just because? I do wanna say that I love each and every one of you. You've been my rocks and my support system for years and I don't know what I would have done without you. But just like I told my brother in his note, it's not enough.
Guilt and hope and fear have been keeping me going for years, especially after I lost George to the same damn thing I'm about to do. I swore I wouldn't put someone else through that pain. Guess I lied. I won't bore you with the details and the hows and the whys. I just want you to know that i love you and I am so very grateful that you've been my friends. I hope your lives go so much better than mine did. I really do.
Hopefully I get to see my best friend again if there's anything after. If not, then I guess this is it. Sayonara you weeaboo shits? No? Too far?
Love you. So much. Thank you.


















