Vent cus #Alone

[howtodealwlife]

js binged and purged like half of a cake but i feel amazing bc ik there's nothing left in my stomach. Sometimes i feel like this is the only way i can acc lose weight bc i have no self control.

[howtodealwlife]

So

I decided that telling ppl irl abt my problems + home life is overrated and will not be participting in.

But there's a blog that no one should see for me to use insteaddddd

I've been thinking about studying psychology one day, but tbh I'd do better as a patient. I think they might send me to rehab because my habits r not exactly healthy. whoops.

So yh. But like, why do I still continue to do all ts? I keep getting caught, but I acc cannot even accept the *idea* of gaining weight. It's terrifying. ANd no one in my personal life needs to know that I'm still messed up, that bitch is being hidden in the deepest crevises of my soul, where only I can dwell in self-pity with the rest of my voices.