HPD Diary

[hpdiary]

Hi people. We’re a system with HPD, ADHD, mild PTSD, bipolar with psychotic elements and the starter mental disorders (anxiety and depression)

HPD is the only PD we have personally. But we support people with all PDs. (My best friend probably has NPD but I’m still chill about it. I’m not gonna bring it up cause stigma but yeah)

This is a side blog (and boy do I have many) run mainly by Sophia (headmate) but not exclusively

We are most likely traumagenic. DID is so under-researched that we do not give a fuck what people say about their system. Research should study what exists, not discount others experiences

We have a tendency to use substances. It’s not currently at a point where it’s significantly affecting physical health or relationships (until we use it to get attention lol) so it’s a vibe. I blame the HPD and ADHD for that. We go away for school so coming home for the holidays can get us binge drinking sometimes. We mainly use weed and Adderall. I don’t even know if we’re actually getting high or just having treated adhd. It just takes a lot because our tolerance is ridiculous (we started taking it 1-2 months ago and its always been high)

This is just what I think about with HPD. I don’t want to talk about it in detail on my main blog cause I’m worried about irl people finding it (I don’t know how they would or how much this would help tbh but still)

I don’t have a DNI cause if you’re chill enough to interact here you are probably fine. If not you shall be blocked

[nepofledgling]

I just think it’s important to understand that “you’re always going to be mentally ill” isn’t the same thing as “you’re always going to be unhappy”

[hpdiary]

Attention whore but not in the sexualizing myself or exaggerating way but in the self destructing and oversharing way

[hpdiary]

I wish HPD was less stigmatized. I wish I could tell my attention person about it and communicate healthy boundaries. Why can’t I just be the normal kind of broken?

[hpdiary]

Fuck. I think she’s my attention person now…

[feline-avian-thing]

It's very funny to me when people who hate npd folks start out their statements with "The Narcissist"

Like... THE Narcissist??? Is there a special one who rose above the others??? Who got the title, and why wasn't it me??? I wanna know who got the title so I can challenge them for it!

"Uh yeah when I recovered from The Narcissist blah blah blah" Who is it who is it who is it I wanna know really really bad who's got the title

[loverofmirage-deactivated202409]

The Narcissist lives within each of us. We are a collective, a hive-mind with one purpose. To destroy The Empath.

[hpdiary]

I think it’s like a career position. Like we are hired to destroy The Empaths.

Give this Histrionic two payments of $999.99 and l’ll destroy The Empath causing trouble in your life

[hpdiary]

God why can’t I be a good activist? I am incapable at not making things about myself. I need to be the center of attention and that actually makes me a bad person sometimes. I’m doing the best with what I have and I’m getting better but still feel awful that it doesn’t come naturally

[flashy-mf]

Imagine being friends with me because I’m beautiful but then all I ever talk about is me and the longer I ramble the more loud and expressive I act until I no longer feel like I’m in my own body anymore and also you have to go but that’s fine cause I’m actually just gonna forget most of the interaction in less than three minutes anyway because I was in a blacked out mania the entire time ngl

[flashy-mf]

HPD BINGO (by me!)

[hpdiary]

[hpdcultureis]

questioning HPD culture is being happy that i have so much trauma i can get attention for and then remembering that Oh Right, the trauma isnt good and is why my life is so shit

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[hpdcultureis]

hpd culture is not caring about your own boundaries or privacy because they decrease the amount of attention you can potentially get from someone

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[hpdiary]

Me and the gatekeeper (🧡) bond over a love for Adderall and a god complex

[serial-unaliver-deactivated2024]

I need everyone to know it's completely fine to not ask complete strangers what medical condition they have. I really want to know why any customer thinks I want to explain why my body is shaking or why I squeeze my eyes shut and hit my face on occasion. This is the gocey store

[hpdcultureis]

hpd culture is hi there! here's my entire life story. talk to me forever. give me attention.

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[hpdiary]

I love how most of my friends are autistic because that means that I can get away with not making eye contact. I actually have that thing neurotypicals insist on where I am bad at making eye contact when I’m being dishonest

[moonlit-positivity]

Your mental health diagnosis ain't got jack shit to do with your ability to learn and grow as a human being. Can we please stop limiting ourselves based on a goddamn diagnostic manual that is 5000 years outdated ffs.

[hpdiary]

Charlie, Alastor and Angel Dust all have HPD and I will not be taking any questions