#actually hpd

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Erm small vent post ig but I feel like nobody talks enough about how scary it is to have a pd bc it genuinely feels like I have no control over my own actions sometimes and it’s the most terrifying thing to have your body just act on its own and then afterwards you fucking snap out of it like a trance and all u can ask urself is “why tf did I do that?”

Genuinely terrifying to find myself unable to stand on my own opinions and after a conversation just sit in silent disappointment bc I watered down everything I stand for and believe in for attention and it makes me feel like a horrible shallow person who lacks any conviction

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"I never want that to happen again and I will take every precaution possible to ensure it doesn't"

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"I need it to happen again and worse so people give me attention and sympathize for me"

Don't touch me because i can feel you touching me and it's gross

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Touch me because i can feel you touching me and its reassuring

Tell people about our trauma so we can get support but only with people who are comfortable with it

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Tell people about our trauma so we can get attention even if it's negative

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How I look when I realize I severely overestimated my importance in their life

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hey! why are you giving attention to that other person? you're supposed to me MY friend, not theirs! what? what do you mean we aren't that close? but you gave me some of your ice cream, you hugged me, you told me I'm cool! those are deep things that people with a deep connection do! I dont care that you just met me! please just stay!

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How having HPD feels

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don’t kill yourself go repost extremely concerning tumblr posts