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Never let a person be the cause of your happiness. They will take it away just as quickly as they gave it.

Experience

Memories

Memories are an evil beast. They haunt you and remind you of what you did wrong and what could have been. The more you try to forget them the more they haunt you. Day after day I try to forget but the truth is all I want is to go back.

#memories #quotes

I feel like this video has many good points that need to be said

#trans #transgender #mtf #ftm #social issues #lgbt

Funny.

The original intention of this blog was to post happiness and be more positive. I'm a failure.

The worst part is knowing that one day they could leave and you will never know why

Personal Experience

#quotes #depression #depressing thoughts #i miss her #i wish i could see you #please talk to me

I don’t know if anybody will read this

lately my life has been falling apart. everybody i care about has left me and i’ve never felt so alone. i feel like everyone else has found their purpose in life but i will never find mine. i want to be happy but i just don’t see it happening for me. i miss my friends so much. i miss high school. i miss feeling like i had purpose in life. i miss having a reason to live. the person i consider to be my best friend wont talk to me. i miss her so much and i’d do anything to get her back. sometimes i feel like the world would be better off without me. i’m too much of a burden on others. my anxiety and depression have made me a person who i hate. i feel like i’ll never be cured. i feel like i’ll spend the rest of my life alone. i wish my best friend would send me a message. i miss her so much. she is the most beautiful person in the world. why did i mess up? why must everyone i love eventually leave me? i wish i could just go back and see all my friends again and be happy again. i wish i was happy. i’m in tears right now while writing this. i miss her. i hate my fear of abandonment. i hate how this always happens. i feel like i’m losing my mind without her. i’m so afraid of what the next words from her will be if any at all. the silence is killing me. my nightmares are getting worse and worse. whenever i have a good dream it’s always about being with her. i wish she was here with me. i wish we’d do the things we said we’d do years ago. i wish we’d have sleepovers and go shopping and go to movies. the truth is i can’t live without her. i want her back. i wish i knew what to say to her. i wish my fears hadn’t gotten to me. i wish i didn’t have the panic attacks. i wish i was happy. i wish she was here. i wish i’d wake up tomorrow with a message from her asking if i want to come to the mall. i wish i’d wake up to a text asking how i was doing. i’d be so happy just to hear anything from her. i need her. my life is meaningless without her. i don’t know how much longer i can go on. i need her. i love her.

The worst part is, I thought things were getting better.

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I’m a toxic person.

Whenever I see posts about what describes a toxic person I can’t help but see myself. I see myself as the friend who always wants to talk and hang out and ask for advice. I see myself as someone who hurts people. I place blame onto the people I consider to be my best friends and I hate myself for it. I wish I was a better person.

#depression #toxic relationships

Why trust anyone anymore

Everyone I’ve ever considered to be my best friend has fucking left. EVERYBODY. I am fucking suck of this cycle. I am sick of being alone. I guess maybe I was fucking meant to be alone. It’s obvious that NOBODY FUCKING CARES ABOUT ME. NO ONE ever invites me over or even says hi to me. You’re probably thinking, “wow this is such an angry person no wonder no one would want to be their friend.” Well guess what. THEY FUCKING MADE ME THIS WAY. I have nobody left in my life. I sit alone in a room wondering if it’s even worth going on. “you’ll find someone else” they say “they weren’t REALLY your friend” they say. Well guess what. They were my friends. They were my best friends. They left me. They didn’t even have the decency to say goodbye. I don’t know if I can do this anymore. Why would it be any different next time? I see the future and all I see is pain and misery for myself. I see myself alone in a room. If anyone reads this. Please give me a reason to live.

#Depression #Help

If money doesn't make people happy, why does it run the world?

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I need something

Anything.. I need a reason to live.. I need love in my life.. I need happiness.

#depressed #personal

I doubt anyone really cares

Everyone’s just gonna leave so why bother anymore..

#depressed #personal

My life has become a cycle

I cannot handle this much longer.. I can’t handle that tomorrow will be the exact same as today. I can’t do it. I’m sick of everyone abandoning me. I’m sick of being lied to. I’m sick of being alone. I FUCKING HATE THIS. SOMETHING NEEDS TO BREAK.

#personal #depressed #alone #abandoned

Wanna know what makes me upset?

When my friends say they dont have time anymore to talk to me yet I see them posting all over social media.. like.. just.. tell me you don't want to talk.. dont lie to me.

#personal #depressed #betrayed