Huglex

I'm tired of hiding. So here I am! I will be using this as a sort of public diary. My normal diary worked for a bit, but I feel like I need to share this with other people. Feel free to interact though!

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A bit of a funny story (sort of)

For some context for this upcoming story, I am very much still in the closet about being Trans with my parents. I am lucky enough to have very loving brothers who I am out to, but I haven't had the right opportunity with my parents.

So, I had a nightmare last night about my parents finding out about me being trans, and not being to pleased to say the least (There was a threat on my life in the dream, even though my parents would NEVER do that). Worse of all, it was one of those dreams where it feels incredibly real, and the feelings stick with you once you wake up.

Needless to say, I was shaken up when I awoke. Luckily, I am out to my brothers so I was able to talk about it to someone.

Now to the funny bit. I am scrolling Youtube this afternoon, and I suddenly realize that today is the start of Pride month!!!

So yeah, this is an interesting start to my first pride month out of the closet (at least slightly)

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I am Christian

I am a Christian, but I believe in the big bang. I am Christian, and, obviously, I am trans. I do not believe that the Bible should be taken word for word, and I do not believe in a hateful god. God forgives all sins, not just the sins of his believers, or those who he deems to be, 'correct.' If god is going to condemn me to hell for being myself, I would rather vibe in hell with all the members of the lgbtq+ community than be in heaven with him.

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We should normalize not changing in front of people.

I don't care if we are the same gender or anything like that, I don't want anyone seeing me without a shirt on, let alone with nothing else on! Maybe this is just a me thing, but its freaking weird to change while someone else is in the room.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

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I wish finding your identity was easier.

I have been questioning my identity for over a year at this point, and I'm STILL not fully convinced I know who I am. I mean, I should be, considering that I literally thought to myself today that I would like to take estrogen even if I 'change my mind' or discover that I am not actually trans somehow.

Idk, I'm definitely at peak egg currently.