Void

this is my own fucked up piece/peace of mind. don’t ask for my name don’t ask for a gender don’t ask where i’m from. don’t ask for more than i can give

[hurtingtobecome]

today my mom told me that i bend over backwards for my friends

and they do not do the same for me.

her words keep resonating in my head

[hurtingtobecome]

you're a papercut on my heart. every time i think about you, it's salt in the wound. you sting and burn and i hope you leave a scar

[hurtingtobecome]

If you keep running away, i might have to chase you

[hurtingtobecome]

when you asked me what's wrong and wouldn't let up, i literally fought back my tears and words. i could feel them swelling in my throat. a literal physical sensation that made it painful to swallow.

[hurtingtobecome]

you wouldn't want me at this point anyway

[hurtingtobecome]

looking at your pain somehow validates my own.

[hiddenwerewolfthoughts]

Who wants to be knotted an then have me fall asleep an my knot is stuck in them an all they can do is lay stuffed full until I’ve got the energy to get back up

[hurtingtobecome]

i miss you but i can’t stand to hear your voice or see you.

i miss you and want you to be happy but i can’t stand to hear about your happiness and the life you’re building

i miss you but i don’t know how to say anything to you.

it feels like there’s a block in my throat every time i open our texts and i can’t move past it.

i miss you but it doesn’t seem like you miss me at all.

did you even mean what you said when you left? did you really mean that you wanted to remain friends, remain in connection? why aren’t you trying at all?

why don’t i know what i want from you?

why is it that what i want from you is impossible?

i want you to miss me.

i want you to be hurt too, so full of grief you can’t take a deep breath.

a loss so deep you cry when you’re alone and don’t tell anyone.

i want you to want me.

in any way. in every way.

i won’t ever get what i want from you.

[hurtingtobecome]

i missed your voice. i was avoiding your voice memo because i knew i’d have a reaction to it but damn. i think i’m going to miss you for the rest of my life.

[hurtingtobecome]

I'm having a bad day today and it makes me think of you

[hurtingtobecome]

Self harm in the firm of stalking exes

[hurtingtobecome]

I shouldn't be broken by love. That's not what love is. That's not love. It never was.

[hurtingtobecome]

I'm glad you're so deeply unhappy with your life

[baby-piglet]

i love it when doms get jealous. i’d flirt with someone just to get punished. make me remember that i’m owned by only you.

[soft-kink-things]

Boys who normally have deep voices that change to high-pitched adorable moans and whimpers when they’re turned on give me l i f e.

[hurtingtobecome]

I feel angry and bitter and resentful

[compulsive]